Authors note: Hey guys so I know that it has been sometime since I last updated this book and for that I am truly sorry now as I explained in some of my other stories I have been super busy with medical school but I promise to finish this story for you guys so let me know what you all think as it does help me out so much anyways xxxx.

The wait for Amelia was agonising it was only the first hour of her daughters 6-hour surgery and she was not sure how she was going to get through the next 5 hours. They were operating on Val in the O.R with the gallery but everyone thought it would be best if Amelia was not in the gallery but instead have someone sit there for an hour at a time and give her an update and despite her complete dislike for the idea she knew it was for the best, considering they did not want Tom making a mistake because Amelia's panic if something was to go south during the surgery. So there Amelia was pacing around the waiting room with Ryan whilst they waited for Addison to come back with an update before Derek would take over and watch in the gallery for the next hour.

"Amelia maybe you should sit down I know you are scared but pacing around the waiting room won't make the time pass any quicker."

"I know Ryan but right now pacing around the room is the only thing preventing me from walking into that gallery and watching the surgery I mean I hate it because for the first time ever I have, no control of the situation I can't control my daughter's surgery and that scares me I mean she is my light and for a long time was the only reason I wanted to get up and do something with my life and I can't lose her I just can't."

Ryan could see Amelia beginning to break down he knew it was not often when Amelia was this raw or exposed she hated showing her vulnerability to people and would only expose this side of her to those that she cared about. So, he did the only thing he could do and that was to embrace her and let her cry it out because he knew she desperately needed to do that and the minute she was in his arms she began to sob and so for some time he held her while she cried it all out. It, was only when he heard the sound of high heels did he notice Addison walking towards them so he nudged Amelia to let her know of Addison's presence.

"Addie tell me how it is going, is she okay what's happening."

"It is going well Amelia she is stable and Tom has almost finished the craniotomy and she is doing well but you know the real test is going to be once he reaches the tumour and removes it."

"I know Addie but I'm just relieved that so far she is doing well and I just hope that the rest of the surgery goes just as well because I need my daughter to be okay I just need Valentina to get through this."

"She will Amelia trust me you know Val as well as I do she is a fighter and god knows how much she has gone through over the years and yet she still fought she is strong something she got from you and she is also resilient she will get through this and make it to the other side."

Just then Derek walked to the waiting room he could see from Amy's face that Addison must have had good news about the surgery so far and he hoped he would have the same type of news to share once his hour was over.

"Hey Amy how is it going so far?"

"Uh good so far Addie said she was stable for the first hour so now we'll wait for you in another or so."

"That's good well Meredith and I are going to watch the surgery now we'll be out in hour and we'll let you know how she is progressing."

Amelia hugged Derek tightly before letting him go, Derek was hoping to have the same news for Amelia and while on the outside he appeared as though he was calm and composed on the inside he was just as scared. He had a better understanding for patient's family now and how they feel not being in control and having to sit around and wait it was painfully agonising. However right now he had to leave all feelings and emotions aside for his sister and niece and do what he promised keep calm and give Amelia an update.

He walked in and took next to Mere in the front row of the gallery from down below things appeared to be going well it seemed as though Tom had started clipping all of the surrounding vessels and now he was probing the area to ensure that everything was intact. After that was done he noticed Tom bringing the portable CT scan in and got a couple of pictures which Derek assumed was him checking the margins and making sure that tumour had not grown from the original CT scan and so far, it was going the way everyone had hoped it would.

"Everything seems to be going well down there Mere?"

"Yeah it is so far he's got clean margins how's Amelia holding up?"

"She's alright so far anxious but Ryan and Addison are with her at the moment we'll join them when mum and Lizzie take over for us."

"Well that's good at least she's holding it together, I know it's hard for her to be out there and not here."

"I know but right now it's the best thing for her the surgery is hard enough without having her getting panicked about everything especially if he hits any minor bleeding."

Meredith simply nodded and the two continued watching the surgery periodically some of the staff from Grey Sloan would come in and watch the surgery. Before leaving to check on their patients, it seemed that everything was going to plan until about 40 minutes of Meredith and Derek sitting there. Tom had just reached the Tumour and was beginning to remove it in pieces but as he was starting to remove the first piece it began to bleed and suddenly the monitors began going off.

"No, come on Val don't do this to us come on Val."

Meredith could hear Derek panic as he said that and while she herself was not a woman of god. She did find herself silently praying to a god she did not believe in to make sure that she would be fine and after 10 intense minutes Tom had the bleeder firmly under control allowing everyone to breathe a sigh of relief.

"God that scary was Meredith I'm glad she held on there."

"yeah I know are we going to tell Amelia about it?"

"yeah, we will we can't keep it from her I'm just hoping she'll get through the rest of the surgery without any more issues also Meredith is it just me or does it look like that Amelia might be pregnant, I meant to ask you about it sooner but I've noticed recently that her stomach seems to be getting bigger and when I hugged her. I'm certain I felt her stomach kick so I'm seriously wondering if she is pregnant."

"You're not the only one who has noticed Derek I had my suspicions but I didn't want to say anything though but I'm just concerned about the child. I know that both Ryan and Amelia have sobered up and are now completely drug free and, in all honesty, Ryan has changed a lot from when we first heard about him. However, I'm worried they will go back to using again or something else will happen and with everything going on with Val it's got me even more worried about the safety of her baby."

"I know what you mean Mere but if she is indeed pregnant we just have to support them and keep an eye on both of them and make sure neither is using although Ryan did mention to me that if he was to have kids with Amelia. That he would not go back to using ever again as he said he didn't want any of his growing up with drugs. Also, he's now in medical school and so I don't think he wants to screw it all up now I think he's knows there is way too much at stake, and as much as I don't like admitting it he is good for Amelia he keeps her in check and he's really been committed to making sure Amelia stays clean."

"yeah, I get what you are saying Derek I just hope that you are right but I guess we will have to what and see what happens."

Derek nodded and the two continued watching the surgery and until Carolyn and Lizzie took over and Meredith and Derek left to update Amelia and so it went on. They would rotate who was in the gallery and someone would stay with Amelia until finally after 6 and half hours later Tom had finished the final suture and was ready to go tell Amelia how it all went.

For Amelia seeing Tom was probably the most anxious part of the whole thing even though everyone was providing updates it didn't do much to ease her panic but seeing Tom Amelia knew that if he had good news that would be the relief she needed.

"How is she Tom did you remove it all?"

"I got it all, I did encounter some bleeding and she did give a small fright but aside from that I got it all the incision looks clean and the margins are clear as well so it went as well as we could have hoped for now we just have to wait for mini Shepherd to wake up and check that her motor function all is good and she should be good to go."

After this Amelia went and hugged Tom and while he was not one for displays of affection like this he did understand why she was doing this and being reminded of the painful death of his own son, he knew what saving Valentina meant to Amelia and understood completely why she was feeling this way.

"Thank you, Tom thank you I'm so glad you got it all when will we have the final biopsy results of the tumour?"

"Radiology said they will expedite the results so I suspect in two to three days we should have a final result of what the tumour was however it did look malignant when I removed it so I won't be surprised if it comes back as being a secondary deposit, of lymphoma."

"Is Val in the PICU yet?"

"She should be however I want to restrict it to two visitors at a time with the exception of you Amelia she'll need the rest although I don't expect that she will be awake till tomorrow also it will 5 minutes per visitors we want to reduce the noise and all that until she is awake and alert."

"I understand."

With that Tom left for the PICU to do the post op checks Amelia and everyone followed him and Amelia and Tom walked in while everyone waited outside. When shined the light into Valentina's eyes she reacted and was able to respond to the various stimulus however it would be when she woke up that they would know that all went well.

For Amelia seeing her daughter lie there with tubes connected to her and bandages wrapped around her head was hard sure she was used to seeing this. With all of her patients and it never bothered her but seeing her own daughter in the same position as most of her other patients was hard and definitely caused Amelia to have a lot more empathy towards her own patients. However, she did take comfort in the fact that her daughter had made it through and after she recovered the real battle would begin and Amelia knew. That, particular challenge was going to be a rough one but she was determined to be there for her daughter and make sure that they got through it together she wanted her unborn baby to have its older sister and she was going to make sure it happened no matter what it took to achieve that goal.

Authors note: so I hope you guys like that chapter let me know what you all thought of it also for my next story would you guys be interested in me writing a prequal for this story after I have completed this one it would centre around their time in L.A and go through all of the challenges during that period let me know alright anyways I hope you like it and after the 25th I will update again xxx.