Authors note: Hey guys so first up I hope you guys liked the last chapter now with this one I am going to place a TRIGGER WARNING: this chapter mentions rape and violence it also mentions drug abuse and alcohol abuse. So, if you are triggered by any of those things I advise you not to read the next two chapters and instead read the authors note on part two when I briefly touch on what happen without going into detail. With that being said though these two chapters are my favourite of what I have written so far and I had to split it in half. As it was originally 8,000 words long which I thought was too long for one chapter anyways let me know what you think and I will have part two up in a few days xxxx
It had been two weeks since Valentina had begun her mandatory therapy sessions with the therapist, Valentina by no means wanted to speak with this woman she kept asking about her time in L.A and every time she had attempted to dodge those questions. Often trying to steer the conversations to other topics yet her therapist still brought the conversation back to L.A so Valentina thought it might be a good idea to tell her a little bit about L.A in an attempt to have stop asking questions. Unfortunately for Val it only caused her to ask more questions about her time there something that only annoyed her to no end.
"So, Val I want to talk about your time in L.A I've noticed that during our last two sessions you haven't been willing to talk about it or you haven't been completely truthful. So why don't we start with this what were you really like in L.A, what did you do over there and what were your friends like there?"
"I don't know I guess I got a reputation in L.A as being a bit of a whore, I was the most popular girl in school and I was always at parties or I would hold them myself and I got good grades always straight A's."
"Ok so you mentioned that you got a reputation as being a bit of a whore what did you mean by that because that's a very specific word to use to describe yourself."
"I mean it the way it's supposed to mean I was a whore I would often sleep around with a lot of guys and everyone at school knew, it that's how I got that reputation everyone at school knew my mum and I liked to sleep around and that we weren't ashamed of it."
"I see and how old were you when you first had sex?"
"I was fourteen the first time I had sex I lost my virginity about two weeks after my fourteenth birthday."
Valentina could see from her therapist's expression that she was a little taken aback about how young she was and that was something that never surprised Valentina in fact she was used to most adults having a similar reaction.
"Ok so you were pretty young when you lost it what made you want to lose it so early?"
"Well I guess I always grew up with sex being a normal thing I mean my mum never really made it a secret that she liked to sleep around and by the time, I was old enough to understand I knew what happened every time a random guy would walk downstairs. Also, my mum and her friends at the private practice loved talking about their sex stories and so my cousin Sam and I wanted to find out what it was all about, so we made an agreement that we would lose it shortly after our fourteenth birthday and so we did and after that it just became a normal thing for me."
"Ok so do you regret losing it so young and how did you feel after the first time you had sex?"
"I don't regret losing that young I only regret that it wasn't with someone who mattered to me that's all and I felt a little sore after my first time but I honestly didn't feel any different I guess it didn't matter as much to me."
"I understand and so after that did you tell your mum or how long was it before you told her?"
"I told her the day I lost it she got me on birth control and we had a never-ending supply of condoms in the house."
"Alright and what was your mum's reaction when you told her?"
"She was sort of happy about it I guess she was more interested about who I slept with and where we did it I mean she high-fived me for it."
"So, it seems as if she didn't care that you lost it would I be right?"
"I guess you could say that I mean she always told me to lose it when I was ready and comfortable to do so."
"Alright so did you and your mum have any more open discussions about sex or was that the only time you both discussed your sexual activities?"
"Yeah we talked about it a lot I mean I used to sit in the kitchen in the practice or in my aunt Addison's living room with all of my mum's friends and we would talk about the guys we slept with and whether we thought they were good in bed or not it was pretty interesting."
"Well that's good that you were having continual open discussions about that and so how did the kids in your school give you the reputation?"
"Well I slept with most of the guys in my year level at the time and when I got high-school I had slept with most of the guys in the year levels above me and so I got that reputation."
"Alright and how did you feel when people gave you that reputation?"
"I was sort of proud of it my mum and I have always been open about our sexuality so I was kind of happy when I found out about it I mean my mum had the same reputation."
"Well alright then so how about we talk about your friends what were they like you mentioned that you were the most popular girl in school?"
"My friends were good but they were also the sort of people that people like your uptight law-abiding Christians would not allow their kids to hang out with."
"What do you mean by that?"
"Well my group of friends were the sort of people that would party every weekend, the people who liked to smoke and all of us girls were always interested in what boy we would hook-up with next I mean we would sometimes cut class, they were loyal friends but they weren't always the best influence."
"I get it and so I assume that this was the group that the majority of school wanted to be like?"
"Yeah pretty much everyone was trying to be like us and do what we do and they would always get excited whenever we invited them to one of our parties because it meant that they were becoming popular or whatever."
"I understand that and the parties you threw or attended what were they like what did you all do?"
"Well the parties were often the wild and crazy parties with a lot of people it often involved a lot of drinking and people doing all sorts of crazy things like streaking or them vandalising things I mean most of the time the police were called to shut it down."
"Alright and what about your parties did they ever get shut down by the police?"
"Yeah my house was notorious for throwing parties that got shut down by the police my house was backing the beach and so that meant it was a good place to throw large parties. I know a lot of my neighbours hated me for it because there would always be teens making a lot of noise and causing a major disturbance."
"So where was your mum when these parties were being thrown and did she know about these parties that you threw?"
"Picking up guys and sleeping at their house and she always knew about the parties because I would tell her and she always left money for everything, my mum and I were crazy in L.A we were wild and that's how most people knew us to be."
"I get it so from what I understand you were a party girl who got good grades but liked to get crazy and have a good time would that be accurate."
"Pretty much that's the only way to describe my L.A life."
"Alright well what I want to touch on now is your mum's drug and alcohol addiction would you be willing to talk a bit about that period?"
"Not really it's not something I like talk about it was a dark time in my life and not something I really like to discuss at all in fact I try to forget that period of my life even existed."
"I understand why you may not like to talk about it but I do think it can help you a lot if you open up about that time in your life what we talk about won't be discussed with anyone else if you choose for it not to be."
Valentina sat in her bed and thought about it for a while she knew that at some point she would have to talk about it and let it out to someone and she knew. her therapist couldn't discuss anything that was said between them if Valentina didn't want her to, and so for the first time she decided to do something she never thought she would do in a million years she decided to talk about it.
"Maybe I would be willing to talk about it a little bit."
"That's fine it's a very good start so why don't you tell me about how she got back onto the drugs and alcohol and we'll go from there."
"Well at first it started with my mum going into bars and getting blind drunk she would stand on bars and dance around and I guess get a bit crazy one night she fell and cut her hand open. She fixed it herself but after that night her drinking got worse she'd come to work drunk and treat patients or operate on them when she was drunk, so my aunt Charlotte started watching her more closing she'd try to get my mum to meetings and my mum would make excuses. As to why she couldn't go and my mum started buying more alcohol and would drink at home, at first, I figured one of my aunts would help her out and get her off of the alcohol and get her to meetings but I had no idea she was making excuses and refusing help. Then her friend Michelle came back into town and she wanted my mum to assist her with her suicide and at first she agreed but eventually they made an agreement that my mum would stop drinking if Michelle didn't commit suicide and so they tried to stick with it but Michelle ended up killing herself and my mum found her dead from then on that's when the problems really began setting in."
"Ok so it seemed as if your mum had been struggling for a while but the death of her friend really set her over the edge would that be correct?"
"Yeah pretty much."
"Alright and what happened after Michelle's death you said that your mum's addiction really set in from then on?"
"Yeah after that my mum began drinking more heavily and one night she was at a bar and that's where she met Ryan, however that night she was mixing pills with her drinks so she had no clue as to what Ryan was doing in her bed the next morning she got up. So, she kicked him out because she had work and that morning I hadn't left for school yet when Ryan came downstairs so I saw him walking downstairs and I guess he was surprised to see me as I was to see him. So, I quickly got everything ready for school and left and at first, I assumed he would leave just like everyone else I mean every other guy would leave and I would never see them again. However, when I got home from school I found my mum's top on the floor and I found a man's jacket and shoes left close by and then I walked up to my room and I heard a lot of moaning in my mum's room and I knew what was happening so I left for a while and I figured I would come home when they were done.
So, I went shopping for a few hours and came home later in the evening then when I got home Ryan's clothes were still left where I found them and my house phone. Started ringing and when I answered it my aunt Charlotte was calling to find out where my mum was and why she wasn't answering her pages apparently, she had a patient who needed emergency surgery but she wasn't responding to any of her pages. What none of us knew at the time was that she wasn't answering as she was high on Oxycodone, so I stayed in the living room and watched tv for a while and I saw Ryan come downstairs and he had a piece of paper. In his hand which turned out to be a prescription for Oxy and he left to go and get some more drugs and in the meantime my aunt Charlotte, came over and her and my mum got into an argument and my mum quit her job. After that Ryan came back as soon as my aunt Charlotte was leaving and then my mum introduced me to him and at first, I wasn't sure what to make of him I mean he honestly didn't seem like he was the type of person who did much.
Then, the next day I woke up and I saw Ryan standing on the deck and then the door opened and my aunt Addison walked in and she saw Ryan so she introduced herself to him, and then my mum walked downstairs half naked and she lied to my aunt. Saying that she was taking the day off to go and have sex with Ryan all day and my aunt didn't question it and neither did I although I feel bad now when I think about it for not realising how much trouble she was in. So, I went to school but as I was leaving I could see the empty alcohol bottles around the house and I knew they had been drinking, then when I got home I found my mum and Ryan on the deck with a bottle of whiskey and he was doing what appeared to be body shots. Then my aunt Addison came by shortly after I got home and her and my mum had it out and then my mum and Ryan left and they didn't come home that night. My aunt offered for me to stay with her but I was fine I knew how to take care of myself so I stayed at home by myself that night. I then found out from aunt Charlotte later that night that my mum had broken into the practice to get her prescription pad, and my aunt tried taking it off of her but only managed to get one my mum got the other one and then my mum went to the hotel she was staying at with Ryan. Then we found this out later but that night Ryan invited his friends to the hotel and they were all drinking and doing drugs and my mum didn't want them in there so Ryan kicked them out and my mum was coming down from her high. So, Ryan gave her weed to take the edge off and then I guess after that my mum started to get to know these guys a little more to a point where she started allowing them to crash at home, I came home from school one day and that day I happened to come home later since I was at friend's house and all of Ryan's friends. Were in our living room along with my mum and Ryan they were all drinking and doing drugs and this was the first time I had seen them and I didn't like his friends at all they scared me, but I needed to get clothes and stuff for school so I walked in and his friends said hi but one in particular looked at me weirdly. However, I thought nothing of it a first so I got what I needed and I took a cab to my aunt Charlotte's and I stayed there that night but I could only stay one night because the next night she was having Mason and his friends over for the night, so I stayed there then the next morning they had all left my house so I grabbed somethings I had left and went to school.
Then after school I went to a friend's house and I hung out there for some time and then I went home but when I got home they had all returned and so I had to look for somewhere to sleep but none of my friends could have me that night and none of my family could either. I had thought of getting a hotel but I was only fifteen so there was no way I could rent a room for the night so I had to sleep in the park and that was scary."
"I could only imagine how frightening that must have been for you to sleep in a park, do you want to keep going?"
"Sure, so I slept in a park and fortunately that night a kind stranger was handing blankets and pillows out for the homeless and he gave me one. I was worried I would get mugged because I wearing designer clothes and that isn't exactly clothes you want to wear when you are roughing it for a night nevertheless I was lucky everyone left me alone for the night. However, the next night would be the most frightening night of my life I followed the routine I had been following for a few days however when I got home that night no one was there. So, I thought that they were staying in a hotel room for the night and so I went to my room and put my headphones in and I never heard them all coming in and then at about ten o'clock I was thirsty and I wanted to get something to drink, and I saw all of Ryan's friend's downstairs but my mum and Ryan were not down there. They all saw me come down and I couldn't leave as they would see me leave and I didn't want them following me so I went to my room and locked my door, however I forgot that his friends were likely to be criminals and the one that had stared at me funny the first time I saw him. Unlocked my door and I didn't see the knife in his hand but he walked in and he shut my door after that he climbed on top of me I tried screaming for help but he pulled the knife and he threatened to slit my throat if I tried screaming for help and he pulled the knife out and he raped me repeatedly that night."
Authors note: I hope you guys liked this chapter and next chapter we are really going to explore her emotions with regards to these events I hope you guys like it let me know what you all thought xxxx.