the next day:
clark awoke to the sound of birds chirping, he raised his head, blinking in the morning sunlight that shone through his window
memories of last night came flooding back, making him feel queasy
quickly realising he was going to vomit, clark super-sped out of the barn and into the feild where he bent down and threw up
clark dry-retched untill his throat finally eased
his arms were shaking, trying to support his weight seemed too much a of a task
he got up, wiping his mouth, and walked over to his house
clark picked up the phone and dialled his mother's mobile
"hello?"
"hi mom, its clark"
"hi sweetie, are you okay? you just kinda ran out last night"
clark sighed before answering.
"yeah, ill just take a shower and come up there, then ill explain"
"o.k, ill see you soon"
"bye mom"
"bye"
clark put down the phone, walking up the stairs slowly towards the shower
lex's mansion:
lana opened her eyes
turning over in the vast bed, she felt more comfortable than she had in a long time
except the night before last at clarks...
lana sat up
clark.
memories and emotions from last night spilled over her
remembering clark lift that truck, as if it weighed, no more than a bag of feathers
than throw it and somehow catch it at the other end of the feild
lana swallowed as she remembered the look in clarks eyes
the hope which lay there
then she remembered when she drove away
how clark yelled out
guilt swept over her
what had she done?
she loved clark, how could she cause him that much pain?
he was probably thinking that she thought he was a freak or something
but, what did she think of him?
her feelings were so confusing
part of her was freaking out, clark was an alien, not human
another part was angry; how could he keep such a big of thing from her?
the last part was full of sorrow and guilt
guilt because of how she had made clark feel, and sorrow because of how her actions made her fee
lana sighed and got out of bed, walking towards the bathroom
nothing like a good, long shower to help me think she thought
at the hospital:
clark walked into his dads room, closing the door behind him
"clark" said martha
she walked over and gave him a hug, feeling the tense in him
"what happened?" johnathan asked
clark sighed and sat down
"i told lana" said clark
martha and johnathan swapped glances
"you told her..?"
"my secret" he answered
johnathan sighed
martha sat down next to him
"oh clark" she said as she rested her hand on his arm
"im guessing she didn't take it well" johnathan spoke up with a grim look on his face
clark looked up and swallowed, tears forming in his eyes
"she didn't say anything, she just drove off" said clark
"but im pretty sure i know how she feels about me" he addded with a pained look
martha turned to him
"clark, you dont know that, she could've just needed some time to think"
"put yourself in her shoes and imagine how you would feel, being told something like that"
clark shook his head
"mom, you should've seen the way she looked at me, like i was, some kind of, monster"
clark stood up
turning to johnathan
"i just came to check up on dad" he said
"im gonna head back home, ya know, do a few chores while i think some things over"
martha smiled grimly
"are you sure you don't want to talk?" she asked
clark shook his head
"but thanks mom" he added
she nodded
johnathan grabbed clarks arm as he turned to leave
"clark, i know this seems stupid of me to say, not being in your situation myself, but im sure everything will turn out for the best"
clark nodded
martha got up and hugged clark
clark held her tightly, holding back tears
"oh clark, im sure she'll turn around" she said
they hugged for a few more moments, before clark opened the door and left
martha sat on johnathans bed, holding his hand
"im worried" said martha
johnathan squeezed her hand
"this is our son, clark, he'll know what to do. he's strong" he said
martha didnt look convinced
"i know, but i dont know about this, he seems so, hurt."
she sighed and leaned back on johnathan, both consumed with thoughts