I'd like to point out one thing. In the summary I wrote that this is a SessxInu if you don't it I don't understand why someone would click on it. I really don't like getting pointless flames. If there is something about this story such as grammar or spelling ok tell me don't review about how the pairing made you want to puke. I really don't care nor do I need to know. Sorry you all had to read me rant but too bad.
Yes I know Sashiko's emotions keep switching. Sometimes it's a mask and sometimes it not. You wont find out later which Sashiko is real, the cold one or the more well nice one. I truly don't believe Sesshomaru is cold on purpose its not his personality I believe something happened to make him that way. That's why he's nicer in my story. Everybody grew up that's why they're a little OOC. Well here's the next chapter to Magia.
Chapter 6 Redone 8/6/09
-Chapter 6 return of Kagura
They all stared at Sashiko. She looked almost mad but if you looked into her eyes you would see only pain, a deep cursing pain.
"We didn't know…" Kagome began, her eyes held sadness.
"I said don't pity me. I hate pity, especially pity by humans." Her eyes were over come with pain, "Do you know why I don't want your pity. When those men…did what they did to me, I killed them. I killed them all, not one was spared." She stared at her hands, they were shaking slightly, "Their blood is still stained on my hands. I can see it, and it will never disappear. I do not feel bad for what I did, I'm glad they died, that I hurt them like they hurt me. Don't pity me, because I made sure they suffered. "
Sashiko turned and began to walk away. They watched her leave.
"It's like we missed out on so much." Kagome said, shuddering. Sashiko's voice belied her words, she sounded so tormented.
"We have." Sesshomaru commented, "Especially me. They are my kids and yet I know nothing about them. I missed when they were born and some of the most important parts of their lives. Now Inuyasha is mad at me."
"What?"
"He's mad. I don't blame him, I'd be mad too. He raised those kids all alone for years and now here we are trying to intrude on his life. We expected to be welcomed with open arms."
"Many people make mistakes, but it takes strong people to correct them," A voice quietly stated. They turned to see the elderly Miko, Kura, walking towards them. A small smile played on her face, "Inuyasha told me you are allowed to stay at his house until you plan to leave."
"Thank you Lady Kura for letting us stay in your village." Sesshomaru replied.
Kura smiled and nodded, "You are feeling guilty." She stated. Sesshomaru was surprised.
"How did you know? You are correct, though. I feel guilty for not being there for my children and for my mate. I've missed so much."
"For everything you have missed, you have gained something else; and for everything you gain, you lose something." Kura recited, quietly.
"What do you mean?"
The smile stayed on her face as she shook her head, "I can not answer questions you must figure out yourself."
Kagome looked at Kura. She had a feeling the elderly lady was way more than she seemed. Kagome suddenly thought of something, "Lady Kura may I ask you a question? When Inuyasha first came here and when the pups were first born, how did he react? Did he believe they were a mistake or anything?" Kagome didn't know what possessed her to ask but she did. She knew a lot of women in her time have trouble being a single parent. Sesshomaru looked at Kura almost anxiously, he had wondered the same thing.
Kura frowned slightly, "As many first, well. mothers are I suppose he was almost depressed. He did feel the pups were accidental and it took him 3 days before he could even look at them especially Sashiko. She reminded him the most of what he lost…Lord Sesshomaru. It took about six months for him to snap out of it. I still remember what I told him, 'Nothing under the sun is accidental, these children were given to you for a reason. Do not misunderstand this reason.' Kori helped him a lot too. When things became almost too hard, she took care of the kids for a few days. We all helped."
"Thank you for answering my questions Lady Kura. The sun is now setting we must be leaving." They started to leave but were stopped by Kura's words.
"Sesshomaru, please get to know your children, Inuyasha misses you though he is too proud to say it. You must not have fear, you have to have courage that your children will accept you. Especially Sashiko she will admire your courage even if she spites you please remember: True courage is not the absence of fear—but the willingness to proceed in spite of it."
Sesshomaru turned around to find Kura gone. She was a very interesting woman, strange but interesting none-the-less.
They walked back into the house to find it dark. They all walked into the guest room, everybody but Sesshomaru that is. He walked further down the hall and stopped to see Inuyasha standing there. He looked up at Sesshomaru.
"What are you doing over here?" Inuyasha asked almost coldly.
"I don't know," The truth was sometimes the best route. Inuyasha nodded. He made a come here signal with his hand. Sesshomaru approached and looked into a doorway Inuyasha was pointing at. Inside laid Sashiko and Koichi. A candle burned next to Sashiko's bed. They looked so peaceful even Sashiko looked innocent.
"Shouldn't you put out that candle?" Sesshomaru whispered. Inuyasha shook his head.
"Iie, If I do Sashiko will wake up screaming. Even though she acts very brave she is deadly afraid. Nightmares of those men still plague her dreams."
Sesshomaru nodded in understanding. He took a deep breathe, "It's going to rain." He commented. Inuyasha smelt the air as well before nodding.
"Come," Inuyasha said leading Sesshomaru into his room, "We did not finish our discussion."
Sesshomaru smirked, "If I remember correctly you said it was over."
"I apologize, I was angry. Please don't leave, the kids need you, I need you."
"I had no thoughts of leaving, especially now that I know I have much to catch up on." Sesshomaru announced. Inuyasha smiled. Sesshomaru leaned forward and kissed Inuyasha gently on the lips. He pulled back smirking at Inuyasha.
"Get some sleep Inuyasha you look tired." Sesshomaru moved to get up. Inuyasha grabbed his arm.
"Stay with me?" He questioned.
"Always," Sesshomaru promised laying down next to Inuyasha. They fell into an easy sleep.
About two hours later Sesshomaru woke up to screaming, it was quiet screams that wouldn't wake up humans but it would bother his sensitive ears. Looking over at Inuyasha Sesshomaru got up and walked into the kids room. Laying there with her eyes closed, face clenched in fear, was Sashiko. Screaming to something to leaving her alone. The candle next to her bed had burnt out.
Sesshomaru sat down next to the futon and woke her up quietly. Sashiko shot up, her eyes wide. Awkwardly Sesshomaru put his arms around Sashiko, hugging her. Sashiko sat there limp for a few seconds before wrapping her arms around Sesshomaru and cried.
"Why won't they leave me alone? Why do they haunt me?" She asked in an almost childish voice, basically pleaded Sesshomaru to answer. Sesshomaru had to remember she was a child, only 10.
"Because you haven't let go." Sesshomaru answered. Sashiko looked up at him. "You have not let go that you actually killed someone. Its hurts your soul, your existence and it haunts you. Even though you killed them, they continue to hurt you. This will haunt you for the rest of your life, until you learn to forget and move on. It is you who refuses to let go."
Sashiko bowed her head and moved out of Sesshomaru embrace. Sesshomaru, thinking he said something wrong, frowned sadly.
"Do you want me to relight the candle?"
"No, I'll be fine.." Sashiko's cold voice had returned.
Sighing, Sesshomaru got up and began to walk way.
"Thank you…Tosan." She whispered, drifting off to sleep. Sesshomaru walked out in amazement.
"You got her respect or at least a little bit of it." Sesshomaru turned to see Inuyasha standing there.
Sesshomaru smirked and they returned to the room. The next day, Sesshomaru woke up alone. Glancing around he thinks, 'now I know how Inuyasha felt.'
Getting up, Sesshomaru walks downstairs to see the other eating. Sashiko, Inuyasha, and Koichi were not there again. After eating they walked outside and ended up near the woods. Sashiko and Koichi walked out and spotted them.
"Hey everyone," Koichi smiled.
"Lord Sesshomaru, Shippo…Humans." She looked at Kilala, "Cat."
'Back to her old self,' Sesshomaru thought.
"Father will be back later." Sashiko stated, blandly "I was told to relay that message to you."
Sesshomaru nodded. Koichi looked at Sesshomaru.
"What is it?"
Koichi smiled, "Are you staying long?"
"As long as I can."
His smile widened, "Can I call you Tosan?"
Sesshomaru smirked, "Yes, you may."
"Yay now I have a dad and a Tosan!" Sashiko looked at Koichi annoyed.
"My My Sesshomaru, you have children." A cold familiar voice came from the woods. The kids were instantly on guard.
"Who's there?" Kagome asked.
"I'm hurt, little miko, its only been 10 years." The voice replied. Kagura stepped out into the light. As she pulled out her fan a smile graced her face.
"My my what beautiful children they are." Kagura stated.
Sashiko growled and drew out Trucizna, as Koichi drew out Tetsusaiga. Both got into a fighting position. The others were about to as well but Sesshomaru held them back. He wanted to see if the children could hold their own. He would step in only when needed. He knew that's what they wanted as well. He caught a smirk from Sashiko when she noticed he was allowing them to fight on their own.
"Are you going to fight me?" Kagura laughed, as if the idea was preposterous.
"No," Sashiko answered, "I'm going to kill you." Kagura looked stunned by the words. Sashiko took that opportunity to jump at Kagura as Koichi stepped back and seemed to disappear.
Fighting together Kagura had no chance, no chance at all.