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Chapter 5

I'm standing outside the hospital with a bouquet of flowers in my hand wondering what the hell am I thinking. After the shift I decided to take a walk to clear

my head and before I knew it I was standing in front of the hospital with a bouquet of flowers in my hand. Bosco had woken up about a week ago and I hadn't

seen him since that night when I kissed him and said goodbye because he was starting to recover. As weird as it sounds I really missed my late night visits with

him. After all that I had been through, after all we had been through it was nice to sit with him and care for somebody else for a change. Sitting there with him I

could forget about all our history, everything that had happened and just let myself be with him and care for him. Something I wasn't really used to doing. I'd

never really cared for anyone else besides my sister Lettie. Bosco was the first guy I had actually loved. I'd had other boyfriends or whatever you want to call

them before but none of them were ever like Bosco. Bosco really seemed like he really cared for me and look how I replayed the only other person who had

cared for me besides my sister.

It was during one of my late night visits when I realized that I loved him. I was sitting there and the nurse came in and told me he was lucky to have such a

devoted girlfriend. I quickly told her that I was wasn't his girlfriend and she said that I must love him a lot if I wasn't related to him or his girlfriend but I still c

ame to visit him every night. Before I could stop myself I said, "Yeah, I do." After that moment everything changed. I knew that I was setting myself up for

something I could never have!

I finally gather all my courage and go into the hospital I see the nurses and they let my go into his room. He's sleeping and as I walk into his room I feel so

relieved that he's ok. At that moment he'd never looked for beautiful than he did in that hospital bed. I see all the flowers and cards on the table beside him. I

gently place the roses that I bought on the table as well. I don't take my usual seat beside him because I don't want him to wake up with me hear. I know he

wouldn't want that and I'd rather just leave before he sees me because I don't think I could face him right now. I linger in the doorway for just a minute before

leaving the hospital and I know this is defiantly my last visit and that thing will never be the way they were before he got shot or even before his brother's death,

the shooting with faith and everything but that doesn't matter because Bosco will get well and for the first time I'm completely thinking of someone else without

considering my own desirers at all. It's betters this way. It's better if Bosco never knows I was at the hospital every night and it's better for him if I don't ever

tell him I love him!