Disclaimer: The author of this story does not now nor will ever own KH or KHII, or KH COM. She owns copies of all three games but that is it. Any questions? No, good. Then on with the story.

Comments: ChaosHarbor funny you should ask that. Roxas will have some pov's, a good part of chapter 16, which is longer than this chapter by about 4 pages, is him. (His name is even in the title.) So, just hold out a couple of more chapters and then you will get a better look at what is going through his mind. I would like to thank neccocrusher for pointing out a mistake I made, I said Axel when I meant Seifer. I went back and fixed it, sorry for any confusion this might have caused. Kita Ito yes, that is true. And even though they are playing the game, their concern is real, but like you said they aren't going to admit it just yet. Hanakitsunechan7 sorry that it was confusing. The two important things to pick up from last chapter are 1. Riku says one thing- it's just a game, but his actions and attitude at times so something completely different, if it was only just a game why did he get so mad? 2. Sora and Riku spending time together and Sora actually had fun.

Chapter 14 Unanswered Questions

The next week and a half went by with no problems for Sora. Although it seemed every time he turned around there was someone there. Like they were watching him. They would just smile and wave like it was perfectly natural for them to be there. Sora had a feeling it had something to do with Seifer. Seifer had asked him out once but Sora was, of course, busy that day. He seemed to be busy everyday, thanks to his friends and sessions.

Axel hadn't called him since that day that he had explained about his parents. He had also not gotten anymore surprise kisses from anyone. He had joined Riku a couple of times for lunch, even though he really didn't want to. He still maintained that he hated him. Most of the times he spent lunch with his usual group of Wakka, Tidus, Leon and Cloud.

There were, however a couple of more run ins with Cloud that left him feeling slightly uncomfortable for a little while. On happened after last period while he was in the shower in the locker room. Cloud had walked in to find him completely naked, which in Sora's opinion wasn't fair since Cloud had been wearing a towel when he had seen him. That was beside the point and not a complaint that Sora could openly make. When Cloud had seen him later on he had made the comment to Sora that he had like what he saw. A comment like this is evidently one that has to be made by whispering it in the ear, an act that sends shivers flying down the spine straight to the nether regions where it causes problems. Again not something Sora could make an open complaint about.

Sora would just leave the area thinking about his three friends that didn't turn him on and cursing Cloud under his breath once he had himself back under control. One day Riku heard him cursing Cloud after one such occasion and Sora had a lot of trouble trying to explain that. Luckily Riku seemed to either buy his story or decided he just didn't really care. Either way he had let it drop.

Riku's pov

"So, it has been three weeks. What can you tell us, Tidus?" Riku said. The group had met up at his house for the day to make the cuts on the game.

"Well, I think Seifer, Zexion, and Roxas are out. Sora says that Roxas is really cold to him and he doesn't seem to be that comfortable around Zexion and Seifer for some reason. Maybe he remembers them from before." Tidus said. Tidus didn't want Seifer to know that they had all heard about what had happened before.

"Maybe, he was with that red head when Seifer fought with him." Zexion added.

"He seems to like Cloud and Leon just fine though." Wakka said.

"What about Riku?" Roxas asked.

"Riku is hard to say. I've seen Sora talking to him and smiling. He also eats with him sometimes, so it doesn't appear that Riku is doing too badly. Sora hasn't really said anything since the first day about Riku. " Tidus said, shrugging.

"The first day I talked to him he said something, but he hasn't said anything since then to me either." Cloud told them.

"Then let Riku be in it." Leon said. Everyones attention turned towards him. Leon sighed before continuing, "If he hasn't said he dislikes him and he hangs out with him, then we should let him continue. It sounds like it is the same as with Cloud and me."

"So it is down to me, Leon and Riku." Cloud said.

"Sounds good to me. We've cut out half. Things should get interesting from here." Riku said. The others nodded in agreement.

Sora's pov

The next day, Monday, Sora was on his way out of the building after school. He had his session with Dr. Mitchell to go to. On his way out he was stopped by Riku grabbing his arm.

"Hey, not so fast. I wanted to talk to you." Riku said. Sora could feel himself cringing inside. He wanted Riku to let go of his arm. Sora gently tried pulling his arm back, but Riku wasn't letting go.

"What did you want to talk to me about?" Sora asked.

"I thought we could go do something. You know, get something to eat then maybe hang out at my house."

"I can't, sorry, I have to go somewhere." Sora said. He managed to pull his arm back and started walking again. Riku followed him continuing the conversation.

"Where do you have to go?"

"Just somewhere. I don't really want to talk about it." Sora turned to look at Riku and smiled, "See you tomorrow, okay."

"Yeah, sure." Riku said. He let Sora get ahead of him, then followed a distance behind. Riku was determined to find out where Sora was going that he didn't want to talk about.

Sora made his way to the bus stop listening to his music like he always did. He watched out the bus window as the scenery flew by. He wished he could stop going to these sessions. It had been okay when he could see Axel afterwards, but since Axel had been busy and not able to see him, he didn't want to go. If only his parents wouldn't find out if he didn't go.

Riku's pov

Riku watched as Sora walked into the building that looked like a doctors office. He had followed Sora all the way over to this side of town, afraid that he would be caught on the bus, but Sora had been to engrossed in other things to notice. He had waited for Sora to exit the bus before he did. Riku entered the building trying to be careful not to give himself up. He saw Sora heading up the stairs in the middle of the building. Quietly making his way over to them, he climbed them to the second floor where he saw Sora enter a office. Riku made his way over to the door. He didn't have to enter the room, which was a good thing because if he did Sora was sure to see him. The door told him what he needed to know: Dr. Mitchell -Psychologist.

"A shrink? Sora is seeing a shrink? Why?" Riku said to himself. Riku decided he would find a place to wait for him outside, knowing that visits to shrinks normally lasted about an hour, or so he had heard. Riku found a nearby cafe that had a good view of the street. If Sora passed by on his way back to the bus stop before the hour was up Riku would see him. He ordered a pop and hamburger to eat while he waited.

Sora's pov

Sora sat in Dr. Mitchell's office. The session had been going on for about half an hour already. So far it was the same old stuff. How was school? His relationship with his parents? Had he had any nightmares lately? Sora had to wonder if anything would ever change. So far the chances of that happening weren't very high.

"How do you feel your life is going now, Sora?" Dr. Mitchell asked.

"How is my life going right now? Oh, just great. Wonderful, it couldn't be better. There is no one else I would rather be right now, expect for maybe anyone else." Sora said unable to believe he had been asked such a question. How does he think his life is going? He wouldn't be asking something like that if he had gone through the type of thing Sora had.

"Why do you say that Sora? I asked you a simple, honest question."

"It was a stupid question with an answer that is so obvious you shouldn't need to ask it."

"It was a valid question. One that I want you to answer."

"You want an answer, huh?" Sora sat staring at the other who just sat quietly waiting for his answer.

"I live a lie. I changed after what I went through, and only one person knows that. Only one person has seen the person I have become. Everyone else just sees the act I maintain."

"And why do you maintain this act?"

"Because if I don't then I will lose everything I have left. My friends will hate the person I have become, they will hate me. Then I will be all alone. And I fear that more than anything. I don't want to be all alone."

"Do you have any reason to believe that would actually happen?"

"Of course it would happen. I have seen my friends around the kind of person I am now and they don't like them. They are so use to the me of the past, seeing the real me would disgust them. They would never be able to accept me like this. And I can't blame them. I have too many issues, too many problems."

"Everyone has problems. No one is perfect. I'm sure your friends would understand and even help you if you would just explain everything to them."

"Help me? How are they suppose to help me? Keep a constant close eye on me? Tell me when I am doing something that I shouldn't be? Tell me when I am acting in a way that is not like the old me? I can do that kind of stuff myself I don't need that kind of help. And I don't need their pity."

"Sora... "

"That's enough for day, I'm leaving." Sora said as he got up and walked out of the office ten minutes before his session was over. He didn't need this. This wasn't helping him at all.

Riku's pov

As Riku sat in the cafe eating he thought about all the possible reasons someone like Sora would have for seeing a shrink. Sora always seemed so happy and carefree. Riku knew his parents were divorced, just like his were. Perhaps that was the reason for his visit to the doctor. Riku glanced down at his watch. He would head over to the building he had left Sora in and maybe he would be able to talk to him.

Riku waited outside. He was not in plain view of the front door of the building, although he had a clear view of it. Riku watched as Sora came out and was about to revel himself to him when he saw the red head from before walk over to him. The red hear wrapped his arm around Sora's shoulders and pulled him closer. Riku saw Sora look up and smile happily at the other. And he thought that that may have been the only real smile he has seen from the brunet.

"Don't like him at all, Sora? Isn't that what you told me? That doesn't seem to be the truth." Riku whispered to himself. He would follow the two.

It wasn't easy, but Riku managed to follow them to a house without being seen by either of them. He waited until they were inside and the door was closed before going closer to the house. Riku peeked into the front window, but didn't see anyone. He worked his way around the house looking in various windows until he found one that he did see something in.

Sora and the red head, whose name he still didn't know, were all over each other. And Riku understood, they were sleeping together. But Sora didn't seem to want anyone to know that. After confirming his suspicions of their relationship, Riku backed away from the window. He wasn't a sick pervert that enjoyed watching other people having sex after all.

Riku made his way to the closest bus stop. He didn't have anything else to do so he would wait. Sora was bound to come here to ride the bus home. He would talk to him then. He just hoped the other guy didn't come with him.

It was about an hour later when Sora showed up. The bus was due to arrive in about ten minutes. Sora looked surprised to see Riku there.

"Riku? What are you doing here?" Sora asked. Riku could hear the shake in his voice. Riku looked at him and smirked slightly.

"Well, I'm not here visiting shrinks and having sex with people I don't like." Riku said. Sora looked horrified at this statement. He knew he had been caught. Sora looked away.

"You followed me?"

"Yeah I did. Why are you seeing a shrink, Sora? Your parents divorce too much for you to handle? And what happened to 'I don't like him at all.' If you don't like the guy why are you sleeping with him?"

Sora looked at Riku with anger on his face and his eyes filling with tears. "It is none of your business."

"My parents are divorced to, but I don't see a shrink for it."

"I don't see him for that. I see him because..."

"Because why?"

Sora took a deep breath to calm himself down before answering. He was not going to tell Riku his reason.

"As I said, that is none of your business."

Riku shrugged, realizing that Sora wasn't going to tell him.

"So what about that guy? Why are you with him and why did you deny it before?"

"I don't have to tell you anything."

Riku got up from the bench he had been sitting on. He walked over to Sora and pulled him into his arms. Sora struggled against him, but Riku held tight.

"I only ask these things because I like you and seeing this stuff worries me." Riku said quietly. He could feel Sora tense in his arms as his quiet words reached his ears. Riku leaned down slightly to brush his lips across Sora's head.

Sora didn't understand. Riku's words were kind, but just minutes before they had been mean. He wasn't sure which ones to believe, but it didn't matter. This was Riku and he hated Riku. It didn't matter to Sora if Riku claimed to like him. He didn't care if Riku claimed to be worried about him. He wanted away from him. Sora pulled away from Riku.

"Why do you always bother with me?"

"Didn't you just hear me, I like you. In a 'want to be more than friends' kind of way. I do believe I have told you that before, so this shouldn't be a surprise to you." Riku said. He reached up to place a hand on Sora's cheek, but Sora pulled his face away before he could.

"I don't like you in that kind of way." Sora said, pulling completely away from him.

"Not yet, but maybe someday. Just give me a chance. You can't say it's because you don't like guys, I know that is not true."

Sora looked at him, fighting with himself. He wanted to yell at Riku that he didn't need to give him a chance. That he would never like him in such a way. He wanted to scream that he hated him, that there was only one other person that he hated more than him. But in the end, Sora didn't say anything. He couldn't. His mouth would not move to get any words out. And soon Sora found said mouth covered by another mouth as Riku reached over and kissed him. The kiss didn't last long, Sora pulled away as soon as he realized what was going on. But it hadn't been soon enough. And for some reason he could not seem to slap Riku for the kiss like he wanted to. All he could do was turn away. Turn away so Riku could not see the tears that left his eyes.

Riku had expected to get slapped for the kiss. When he didn't, he took that as a good sign that Sora was indeed warming up to him, even if he was trying to hide it. He would lay off the questions for now, but he was still determined to find out what Sora was hiding. Especially after the things he had seen today.

Sora's pov

Sora laid on his bed deep in thought. Why had he not slapped Riku for kissing him? He had wanted to, but he couldn't. Like his brain couldn't get the message down to his arm to move and his hand to hit the face of the silver haired man in front of him that had dared to kiss him. Why hadn't he yelled at him? Maybe that was because to yell at him would have been out of character for him. But maybe not, everyone was allowed to get mad and yell at other people. Just because he was suppose to be a nice and friendly person didn't mean he could not yell at someone else. There must have been another reason, but he didn't know what that could be.

Sora slipped off to sleep. It was early still, but the day had tired him out. Dreams, not nightmares, drifted into his mind as he slept. Dreams about silly little things that were normal to have. As the morning drew nearer, Sora dreams turned into something else. Something that would haunt him. He dreamed he was kissing Riku and his dream self seemed to be enjoying it.

Sora awoke with a start. The dream fresh on his mind. He shook it away. There was no way that would happen, even if Riku did kiss him again, he would never enjoy it. That just wasn't possible, because he hated him and he always would. Riku was just someone who bothered him. Sora decided he must have had that dream because of what had happened the day before on his way home.

He had never expected that Riku would follow him. He didn't expect the questions that Riku had asked and he certainly did not think he would hear another confession from him at that time. But he had. And he was not happy about it. It was true that for the most part Riku had been nice to him. There were only a few times that he had done something that Sora thought was mean. But that didn't mean he trusted him. It wasn't enough to change his opinion of him. Riku was still someone that Sora wished would stay away from him. He still reminded him of the one who had raped him two years ago. Although Sora still did not remember that guys name, he did know that it wasn't Riku. The one that had done that to him had been a few years older than Sora was and Riku wasn't.

Riku pov

"Where did you go yesterday after school? I came over but you wasn't home." Roxas asked Riku as the two walked to school together.

"I just had something I wanted to do."

"Something to do with Sora?" Roxas asked. Riku glanced at him without fully looking at him.

"So what if it was? Are you jealous?" Riku asked, smirking. Roxas didn't answer him. Riku laughed.

"There is no reason for you to be jealous, it is just for the game. That's all."

"Are you sure about that? You seem awfully interested in him."

"Like I said, it is for the game. I have no other interest in him besides that." Riku said. Roxas didn't look convinced though. He wasn't so sure that Riku didn't have some real interest in Sora. Ever since they had seen him at the club Roxas had worried about it., but he had thought it would be okay since Sora didn't live over here. Then Sora moved and now Riku got to see him again. Roxas had seen the two together on several occasions. He hoped that what Riku was saying was the truth and it was just for the game and nothing else. If that was true once the game was over Riku wouldn't have anything else to do with Sora. And Roxas would have his friend to himself again. Since this had started their time together has lessened and they hadn't even slept together in the past few weeks. It was really no wonder Roxas was worried. He felt he had everything to lose, but it was hard to lose something you never really had in the first place.

TBC

I don't really have anything to say here. This chapter had a lot in it. Some of Sora's secrets, okay you, the reader knew these secrets, but Riku just found out. It also had Sora's reason for maintaining his act, he is afraid of being all alone. It seems to me and probably some of you as well that Sora is trying way to hard to convince himself that he hates Riku.