Disclaimer: I don't own anything, except the plot of this story.
Comments: hanakitsunechan7 Sora hasn't said anything about not liking Riku to anyone because the innocent Sora he is pretending to be doesn't really have a reason not to like Riku. It is the Sora he is trying to hide that does. No, none of those characters will show up, although I may change my mind about Xemnas. Nobody yes Axel and Roxas will meet next chapter. ChaosHarbor I really liked that scene too. You will probably like the Riku/ Sora scenes in this chapter as well, at least I hope so. Thank you to everyone that reviewed and those that just read.
Chapter 15 Kisses and Confusion
"Hey Sora. You turned me down yesterday, so go with me today? Please." Riku asked nicely. Sora looked at him not knowing how to answer. He didn't really want to, so he would just say no.
"Okay. For a little while." Sora said, then wondered where the hell that answer came from. He was suppose to say no, so why did he agree.
"Great. I'll meet you by the exit after school." Riku said smiling at him. Sora smiled back and turned his attention to their teacher who was giving the class instructions for the period. They would be splitting into two teams and playing a game of soccer. Like usual Riku and Sora were on opposing teams.
The game was won by Riku's team and the students made their way to the locker room. Normally he hurried and got dressed without taking a shower since school was over and he would be going home, but since he would not be going right home today he decided to shower. After getting cleaned and putting his clothes back on he made his way to his locker then to the exit to meet Riku.
"Sorry, were you waiting long?" Sora asked as he approached Riku who was already there. Riku shook his head no.
"Just got here myself. How about a hamburger?"
"That's fine."
Riku led them to a small cafe that Sora had not been to yet. Sora looked over them menu and was happy to see that the cafe served shakes.
"I want a strawberry shake." Sora said.
"Get whatever you want. But strawberry?" Riku questioned. Sora gave a big smile.
"Of course, strawberry is the best."
Riku noticed that Sora was his usual cheerful self. A cheerfulness that Riku could not help but believe was a lie. But maybe, just maybe he was wrong and this was indeed the real Sora. Then what was the Sora he saw yesterday? Was that one the lie?
"That guy you met yesterday, who is he?" Riku asked.
"Huh? You mean Axel?" Sora asked, confused at what Riku was asking.
"Is Axel that red headed guy?"
"Yes, that's Axel."
"I was getting a little tired of just calling him the red haired guy, so it is good to have a name finally." Riku said. The waitress came over and took their order. Sora didn't miss how she flirted with Riku and winked at him before she left. He rolled his eyes wondering what was so great about the guy he was with. Riku did not see this action.
"How long have you been seeing him?" Riku asked.
"Huh? Seeing who?" Sora asked, an innocence in his voice. Riku couldn't tell if Sora was just playing dumb or if he didn't realize he was still talking about Axel.
"Axel."
Sora didn't want to answer. It wasn't any of Riku's business. Answering would be telling him more than he wanted to. So he decided on the clueless approach.
"I've seen him for a while, we went to the same school for years."
"You know what I mean Sora. How long have you been sleeping with him?" Riku didn't buy the act.
Sora sighed. It looked like he would have to tell the other something, he already knew they were sleeping together since he had followed him.
"Not very long." Sora lied. Riku didn't need to know how long or why or anything else for that matter.
"And it just sort of happened?" Riku asked trying to find out more from the reluctant brunet. Sora looked and him and nodded.
"Yeah, it just happened. How about you and Roxas? The two of you are together aren't you?" Sora asked, changing the subject.
"No, what makes you think that?" Riku asked, not liking where the conversation was now going. If Sora thought he was with Roxas that would make things harder for him.
"I don't know. I've seen you two together a lot and he seems to hate me. I just figured it was because you pay attention to me." Sora answered. Riku thought about what to say. He couldn't tell Sora that that was why Roxas hates him, that would just further his suspicion that they were together.
"He just takes a while to get to know new people. Don't worry about him. And you and I have been spending a lot of time together, does that make us a couple?" Riku asked, smirking.
Sora's eyes widened, "No, ah, no we aren't a couple."
Riku leaned over closer to Sora, his voice going lower, "We should be."
"What? Why?" Sora asked.
"We should be a couple. I like you and I think we would make a good couple. So, how 'bout it? Go out with me."
"Uh, I... I don't know what to say." Sora said. It was true, he didn't know what to say. He didn't want to say yes but he couldn't say the things he did want to say. So, what could he say?
"Say yes. You seem to have fun when we are together, like when we went to the club or at lunch. So why shouldn't you say yes?" All Riku had to do was get him to say yes and he would win the game. Although the game was to get Sora to fall for the person, he thought it would be easy to make that happen once they were a couple. But it wasn't going to be that easy for him.
"I can't." Sora said. He was looking down at his hands that were in his lap and when he spoke the words they weren't much louder than a whisper.
"Why can't you? You like guys. So why not?"
There were so may reasons why not that Sora could think of. But none that Riku would accept. None that he would even understand. Explaining those reasons was out of the question.
"I just... can't." Sora said and got up to leave. He didn't wait for the shake he had wanted, that would just have to wait for some other day. He had to get away from there, away from Riku and his constant questions. He had to get away from the pain those questions were causing inside of him. He had already had enough pain in his life and he didn't need more.
Sora ran home. He didn't know if Riku had stayed at the cafe or if he had followed him out. He didn't care as long as he didn't show up at his place. If he did he just wouldn't open the door. That should work. Riku would leave when Sora didn't answer the door. Slamming his door shut, Sora fell down onto his bed. He would sleep.
Sora had not been in his room five minutes when he heard someone banging on his front door. He groaned thinking he had been unlucky and Riku had followed him home. He headed towards the door, but not all the way. There was always a chance he was wrong and it wasn't Riku. Maybe Cloud had seen him come home and had come over to visit.
"Come on Sora, I know you are in there. Open the door." Nope he had been right the first time, that was Riku's voice. Sora ignored him and stayed where he was.
"Sora, I won't ask you any more questions. Just please open the door. I have your strawberry shake and it is freezing my hand, not to mention it is melting."
Sora had never been very good at resisting sweets and strawberry shakes were his favorites. The next thing he knew he was at the front door and letting Riku in. By the time he figured out what he was doing it was too late, Riku was already inside the house and heading towards the other room. Sora followed him and took the shake that was offered to him.
Riku watched as Sora started drinking the shake that had melted enough by this point that it wasn't hard to get out. It didn't take Sora long to get to the bottom of the shake.
"You really like strawberry shakes, don't you?" Riku asked, smiling at the brunet in front of him that had shake on his lip because he had removed the lid to get what was left in the cup out. Sora smiled brightly and nodded.
"Have you ever tried one?" Sora asked Riku. Riku shook his head no. Sora looked down into his cup then offered the cup to Riku so that he could taste it. Riku smiled, or maybe it was a smirk, Sora wasn't quite sure, then leaned over and quickly licked at the shake that remained on Sora's lips. Sora could not stop the blush that covered his face so he turned away hoping Riku had not noticed. When Riku laughed softly, Sora knew that Riku had indeed noticed the blush.
"You're so cute, Sora."
"I am not." Sora said, a pout on his face. The redness wasn't going to be leaving his face, especially when he felt Riku lean close to him again and whisper into his ear.
"You are. And you taste good too. Strawberry."
"Th- that was the shake, not me. Why did you do that?"
"You wanted me to taste it didn't you? So I did what you wanted."
"Out of the cup. I wanted you to taste it out of the cup, not off of me."
"But it is funner to taste it off of you. I bet it taste better that way too."
Sora put the cup down on the table in front of him and turned towards Riku, intent on griping at him for what he had done and said. But he didn't get the chance. As soon as he turned around a pair of warm, soft lips were on his. Sora's mind went blank and he didn't even realize that he had opened his mouth and allowed Riku to deepen the kiss when Riku had licked his lip again, this time asking for entrance into the others mouth.
Sora could feel Riku's hand on his neck then in his hair, his hand running up and down his scalp. The touch was gentle. Riku's other hand ran up Sora's arm until it reached his neck, then around to his back. The kiss broke briefly, then after taking a quick breath, Riku kissed him again. He felt himself being gently pushed backwards until he was lying down on the couch with Riku over him.
Once again the kiss broke, but this time instead of going back to his lips Riku moved to his neck, trailing kisses down it until he reached his collar bone. As if the fog had suddenly lifted from his mind, Sora jerked away, pushing Riku off of him into the floor in the process.
"Damn Sora. That hurt." Riku said, rubbing his shoulder that had landed first. When Sora didn't say anything Riku looked over to him and saw confusion on the younger ones face. Sora looked like he did not know or understand what had just happened. Riku smiled a quick smile since Sora had allowed there little session to last longer than he had thought he would. Riku had thought he would be pushed away during the first kiss.
Sora slowly turned to face Riku, "Please leave" he softly said. Thinking he had pushed his luck enough for the day, Riku nodded and stood up. He looked at Sora for a moment before heading out the door.
Riku didn't live all that far from Sora so the walk home didn't take very long. He had made it to his yard when he was approached by Roxas who had just left his own house. Walking quickly towards Riku, Roxas did not look happy at all.
"Were you with him again?" Roxas asked, anger in his voice.
"So what if I was?" Riku said as he continued walking to his door. Roxas was not going to let the conversation end like that and followed Riku into the house. Riku threw his book bag to the corner and sat down on the couch, flipping on the tv as he did. Roxas grabbed the remote from him and turned it back off.
"What?" Riku asked.
"Why are you spending so much time with him?"
"Why do you think? For the game."
"That's all?"
Riku sighed, "Yes, that's all."
Roxas continued to look at his friend the anger not leaving his face. He wasn't sure he believed Riku.
"You aren't the only one playing the game, but no one else is spending that much time with him."
Riku shrugged, "I want to win. You should already know I don't half-assed play a game."
"I know that, but still, you don't have to spend that much time with him."
"I was at a disadvantage from the start, something to do with my hair color. So I have to put more into then Leon and Cloud if I want to win."
"Fine, but that doesn't mean you have to completely quit spending time with me."
"I'm spending time with you right now, aren't I?" Riku said.
Roxas thought for a moment. He needed to use this time to his advantage. He needed to make it count. Make Riku remember who was really important to him and it wasn't Sora. Roxas was the one he slept with all the time, not Sora. Roxas was the one that would be there when this stupid game was over, not Sora.
Roxas crawled on top of Riku, to where he was sitting on his lap facing him. He leaned down and started kissing Riku. Riku returned the kiss at first, but things changed when Roxas started tugging on his shirt.
"Stop it Roxas. I'm not in the mood." Riku said, pushing Roxas off of him back onto the couch where he had been.
"You're not in the mood? You are always in the mood Riku."
"I'm not now." Riku grabbed the remote from where Roxas had put it and flipped the tv back on. He wasn't looking at Roxas so he didn't see the glare the other sent him. Roxas got up and left the house, slamming the door as he did so and Riku didn't even flinch.
Sora pov
Sora tossed and turned in bed, unable to sleep. Thoughts of what had happened earlier that day with Riku invaded his mind even though he tried hard not to think about it. He did not understand what had happened. Riku had kissed him and he hadn't stopped him, not at first anyway. He had even allowed Riku to kiss him a second time. Not only that, but when he was being kissed he was enjoying it. That was the main problem. He should have hated the kiss, but he hadn't.
The kiss had been soft and gentle, yet passionate and demanding at the same time. It didn't come as a surprise to Sora that Riku definitely knew what he was doing when it came to kissing. Probably other things as well, but he didn't even want to think about that.
But even if a kiss is good you should still hate it if it was from someone you hate. At least that was what Sora thought. Who would want or enjoy being kiss by someone they wanted nothing to do with. There was no way he liked Riku in anyway. He didn't need or want Riku, he had Axel.
"Yes, that's right. I have Axel. I like Axel." Sora said to himself since no one else was there. Axel was the one he wanted to be with. He was afraid of Axel leaving him. He was afraid Axel would grow tired of him and taking care of him. Or that he would just find someone else. Someone that he didn't have to pretend he wasn't seeing or sleeping with. Sora didn't want that. He didn't want to lose Axel.
"If I like Axel so much, then why did I seem to enjoy Riku's kiss even more than Axel's."
A sigh escaped as he draped his arm across his eyes. If things continued like this he would not be getting any sleep tonight. If he didn't he would be tired in class tomorrow. He couldn't skip and he still had his session to go to after school. Why did he have to go three times a week? It's not like he is suicidal or anything. He may not have a very high opinion of himself, but he had never tired to kill himself. Maybe he should ask the doctor about that.
After deciding to ask the doctor his mind automatically went back to what he had originally been thinking about. He had to think of some reason as to why he had enjoyed the kisses other than because he like Riku. That just wasn't possible. Yes Riku could be nice and yes he had help him with Seifer, but he was still a jerk at times, not to mention arrogant and just plain mean. And even if Riku had denied it, Sora still felt there was probably something going on between Riku and Roxas. He wasn't as naive as everyone thought he was, he could see things like that. Maybe to Riku there wasn't anything between them, but that didn't seem to be how Roxas felt. Maybe he should try to get Riku to see it too, then he would leave him alone. There had to be a way to do that. He just didn't know what it was.
Riku's pov
Riku was sitting on his bed in the dark staring out the window. He was thinking about what Roxas had said. It was true he was always in the mood. He never turned down what promised to end up with him getting sex unless it was with someone he couldn't stand. But he had never turned down Roxas.
When Roxas started pulling on his shirt he had started thinking about Sora and what had happened with him earlier. When he had been kissing Sora he wasn't thinking about winning the game or anything about it. He was only thinking about how much he wanted him at that moment. Kissing Sora had felt better than he had thought it would and desire rose up inside of him. He had wanted to kiss him more and more. To relish in his taste. A taste that was uniquely Sora, of that Riku felt sure. He wanted to touch every part of him and to feel Sora's hands on him. But Sora had stopped him.
Lust. That was all it was. Sora was someone he had never had and he wasn't sure if he would ever be able to have. Sora was thought to be innocent. A rare purity that you just don't see anymore. He was unreachable or that was how it seemed. Sora was like the present you could look at but not open. Once you see it and have it in your hands you want it, but you can't have it.
'Lies. It is all a lie. I know it is. He isn't that innocent. He isn't as naive as he seems to be. He has everyone fooled. But... why? I don't think his intentions are bad. I don't think he is laughing behind everyones back, thinking we are all to stupid to see the real him. It is something different than that. I know it is. He may not be innocent, but I don't think he is bad either. He is just hiding something. I will find out what that is. One way or another.'
TBC
There was a little bit of Riku/ Sora action in this chapter. And one pissed off Roxas. Then there is denial. Lots of denial. Next chapter we'll see a Roxas pov.