Disclaimer: Although we all wish we owned this wonderful game, I for one do not own it. Too bad.
Comments: This chapter is full of anger, crying, and perverted joking around, hey Axel's in it, what do you expect. Ah, now I feel a little bad for Roxas- people were not too happy he slipped and told Sora about the game. In his defense, he had to. The game is a big part of the story and Sora had to find out. Hanakitsunechan7 that works, I don't know yet if he will be back. SableRayn I don't think it would have been better because Riku wasn't admitting his real feelings and even if they did manage to end up together after Riku found out what he wanted to know, well it's like their relationship would have started because of a lie. This makes Riku have to deal with everything if he wants Sora. Xcloudx that's funny, I had Cloud looking for him because of his feelings of guilt, I didn't even think about how he goes through the game trying to find him until I read your review. I guess it fits better than I thought. Shinny thank you so much. I really love to hear people say they like my story and you really brightened my day with your review. And thanks to everyone else. Also, there is only one more chapter after this one.
Chapter 20 Watching You Walk Away
Sora gathered up his things as the bell rang for the end of first period. The class had went smoothly without any problems. Tidus had greeted him just like he always did. He said nothing about Friday night and the party. Sora was starting to believe that Tidus had not heard about his past. Maybe it was only Leon and Cloud that knew about it, other than Riku and Roxas.
Sora had just made his way out into the hallway when an arm was thrown around his neck. He was pulled slightly to the side closer to the person who was next to him.
"I am really starting to wonder if it is possible for these classes to get any more boring." Tidus asked from his place beside Sora. Sora laughed softly.
"I have already wondered about that and come to the conclusion that it is not possible." Sora said. As he answered his mind went back to the day Riku and him had been joking around about this at lunch. Tidus looked over and noticed the sad, far away look on Sora's face.
"Sora? You okay? What's wrong?" Tidus asked, now concerned. Sora snapped back to the present time and looked over to Tidus and smiled. It wasn't a big smile, it wasn't even a real smile, but Tidus didn't know that.
"I'm fine, just thinking about what you said." Sora lied. In fact he wasn't fine, not really. The memory was painful for him, stirring up feelings in his heart. It would be better for him if he could just forget everything about Riku, but when was anything ever that easy?
"You don't have to think about it that much. I was thinking, the other night, your friend, the red head, him and Roxas looked pretty close." Tidus said and pulled his arm back so that they were just walking beside each other.
"Did they?"
"Yeah, I don't know about your friend, but Roxas really looked like he likes him. Made me happy to see that."
"Why?"
Tidus shrugged, "Roxas has always liked Riku, everyone knows that, but nothing is going to happen there. Sure their best friends, but Riku doesn't see it as anything more than that. He's not likely too either. So it is good to see that Roxas is finally giving up and finding someone else. He looked happy."
"But weren't they together, Riku and Roxas, like in a relationship?" Sora asked. Maybe Tidus could shed a little light on things for him.
"They've slept together, but that doesn't really mean anything. Friends sometimes do that, they're not the only ones in our group that have. But as far as an actual relationship, no."
"Because of Riku?"
"Maybe. Who really knows. Maybe they just aren't meant to be. Riku has claimed for a while that he doesn't believe in love, but maybe that was just because he hadn't found the right person. Do you believe in love?"
"I don't know anymore. I use to, but now I'm not so sure. Maybe it is just something that exist to cause people pain. If that is all it is, what's so good about it? What is so good about having your heart ache like this?" Sora said. His eyes went wide as he realized what he said. He hoped that Tidus didn't pick up on it, but that was in vain.
"So you really are in love with him." Tidus said.
"No, I'm not. Why would I love him?" Sora said. Tears filled his eyes and he turned away, trying to wipe them away before they were able to fall, but it was not working. "He is just a jerk that was playing with me. He doesn't care about me at all. So why would I love him?"
The more he said, the more the tears fell. He was crying now and couldn't seem to stop. Classes would be starting soon, so only a few people remained in the hallway to see him cry. Tidus pulled Sora into a comforting hug and let him cry on him. He could hear the chant of 'I don't love him, I don't love him' coming from Sora, as if Sora was trying to convince himself of this. Tidus wasn't stupid, he knew Sora did love Riku.
"Sora, Why don't you go to the bathroom and wash your face, try to calm down. I'll be there in a few minutes. I'm going to go by your class and tell your teacher you aren't feeling well right now." Tidus said and led Sora to the nearby bathroom door. Sora nodded and quietly thanked Tidus before going into the bathroom.
Tidus had lied, not really lied, just hadn't told the whole truth. He would go talk to Sora's teacher, but he had somewhere else to go first. He just hoped this was a good idea. It could turn out really bad and with Sora mad at him. But he had to do it. Tidus made his way to Riku's class. He waved his arms around in the window of the door until he got someones attention. That person got Riku's attention, seeing Tidus in the hallway, Riku asked for permission to go to the washroom.
"What is it?" Riku asked after he had closed the door to the classroom.
"Go to the bathroom in D hall. I left something there for you, you have to go now though." Tidus said as he started walking away. Riku eyed him with curiosity. Then shrugged and headed where Tidus had told him to go. It didn't take him long to get there since D hall was right by where he was.
Riku heard sobbing as he opened the door and made his way into the bathroom. He walked towards the source of the crying and what he saw pained him. Sora was there, leaning against the wall as if he was trying to get comfort from the wall. Knowing it was a risk, Riku walked over and pulled the crying Sora into his arms. Sora quickly buried his face in Riku's chest and continued crying. Riku kept one hand on Sora's back and the other went to his head, running his fingers through his hair trying to soothe him.
"Sora" Riku whispered by his ear and felt the body in his arms tense up. Sora hadn't realized it was Riku that was comforting him. He had thought it was Tidus. Sora pulled away and looked up at Riku in slight horror.
"What are you doing here? I thought you were Tidus, he said he would come back." Sora said quietly.
"Tidus told me to come here, but he didn't tell me why. Why are you crying?" Riku asked. He reached towards Sora to wipe away a fresh tear, but Sora jerk away from him. Riku slowly pulled his hand back.
"Why do you care? Haven't gotten enough of playing with my feelings? Thought you would try some more?" Sora asked, anger thick in his voice. Riku didn't say anything, he just looked at Sora with a hurt look on his face. Sora noticed the pain that covered the other's face, but decided it was probably just an act. Riku was just trying to trick him again. He had learned his lesson the first time and wasn't going to let that happen again.
"Don't... Don't look at me like that. Don't look at me like I'm hurting you, when it was all just a lie. You don't like me, you never have. It was just a game. Everything was just a lie." Sora said as he broke down again. "So don't look at me like I'm the one causing your pain, when you're the one... when you're the one causing mine."
Riku's eyes went wide as his heard the words Sora said. The pain inside him intensified. Sora was crying like this because of him. He had caused Sora to feel this pain. And he hated knowing that. He had been stupid to think he ever wanted this. Riku grabbed Sora and pulled him close once again, while Sora struggled to free himself from Riku's hold. Riku refused to let go though. He pushed Sora gently up against the wall behind him and moved his hold to Sora's arms. Sora stopped fighting him and just stood there sobbing softly. Riku rested his head on Sora's fore head and closed his eyes. Sora felt Riku's breath on his face as he waited for whatever was coming next. When Riku spoke again his voice was soft.
"Sora, I know you won't believe what I have to say, and I don't blame you, but I have to say it anyway. I won't lie, this did all start out as a game, but somewhere along the way, things changed. I fell in love with you. Even still, I said it was nothing but a game to me, because I couldn't admit to myself what I was feeling. My feelings weren't something I planned or something I wanted. So I denied them. Roxas knew, he knew I was really in love with you, but I wouldn't listen to him." Riku sighed softly before continuing.
"I have come to realize that the one I was actually playing was myself and not you. Everything that happened when we were together was real. I just didn't realize it. But I know now, now that I have taken the time to really think about everything. Now that you've said you hate me and I feel the pain inside. I wasn't looking at you like that because you caused me pain, I was the one who did that."
Riku had stayed in the same position the whole time he was talking and Sora stood there silently. Listening to every word that Riku said, wishing it was true. He wanted so badly for it to all be true, but he just didn't know if he could believe that it was. Riku opened his eyes and pulled his head back a little, not breaking his hold on Sora.
"I am so sorry that I hurt you. I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am for that. And I know you
have no reason to believe me when I say I love you, but I do love you. You are the only person I have ever said those words to and I mean them." Riku stopped talking to pull Sora into a tight embrace, burying his face in Sora's hair. "The game was on me, Sora, on me. Not you, but on me."
"No, no, I don't believe you. You're a liar and you play with people feelings. I know I don't always show everyone the real me, but I don't do it to hurt people. I don't get a kick out of seeing how much I can play with people. Or play some stupid game with their hearts. That's wrong, it's cruel, and heartless." Sora gave it everything he had and pushed Riku away from him.
"I deserve all that. I knew this wasn't going to be easy." Riku said. Immediately regretting the last part when he saw the look on Sora's face. He had managed to make him even angrier.
"Not going to be easy? Hell, no it's not going to be easy. I can't trust you. I can't believe you. All I can do is hate you. It would be easier if you would just give up."
"No. I won't give up."
"Why not? You said your feelings weren't something you wanted. You hate love, you don't believe in it. You want nothing to do with it. So this is your chance, just give up. Then you can just go on hating love and sleeping around with people you don't give a shit about."
"You would like that wouldn't you. Then you could go on feeling like there is no one out there that really understands you or wants to be with the real you. Not this fake shit that you show everyone, always pretending to be a nice guy and all innocent when that's nothing but a bunch of bullshit. No, the real you. The you that is hurt and scared. The you that isn't so innocent, that understands more than people think. That just wants to scream and shout out your anger. The you that looks at people with looks of pure hatred in your eyes. The you that I am talking to now."
"Shut up. You don't know anything." Sora yelled as he went to punch Riku. Riku was too quick and grabbed the arm that was going for his face. Sora struggled to free himself from Riku's tight hold. But Riku was stronger and he roughly push Sora back up against the wall behind him, pushing himself up against him to keep the smaller one in place.
"Are you sure I don't know anything? I told you before I pay real attention to you. I can see you cowering behind your mask- broken, afraid, lost, weak, angry, and full of hate. And you hate that. You hate that you are that way and you hate knowing that I can see it. You're so afraid of being alone and it upsets you that everyone likes the fake you, but you don't give people a chance to like the real you. Besides Axel."
"That's not true. I... Axel... it's not true."
"It is true Sora. Axel is the only one you let see you like that. But I wonder if he has even seen the real you completely. I think he hasn't, that there are things you don't even show him. Because you think he is the only one who will accept you and if he leaves you you'll have no one. Maybe you like feeling that way. Maybe you have just gotten so use to all of this that you don't want anything to change. I think you have been looking for a good reason to push me away, since you know I can see the real you, and now you have one. You refuse to acknowledge that you know I am telling you the truth when I say I love you. I know you know it's the truth, I can see it in your eyes. But if you acknowledge it, then things might change. And you don't want that."
"Why wouldn't I want things to change? Why would I want to continue living a lie? That doesn't make any sense."
"Why? I don't really understand that myself. Maybe because your scared, maybe because you are comfortable with how things are. You want change and yet you don't, because you're afraid that it will not change for the better and things will become worse."
"Are you even listening to the words you're saying? I want change and yet I don't. Your contradicting yourself." Sora said, glaring up at Riku.
"Yes, but so are you." Riku sighed and leaned his head down closer to Sora. "Everybody goes through changes. It is part of life, a part of growing up. What you said earlier about me hating love and wanting nothing to do with it, that was true. Was, but it's not true anymore. I have changed, you changed me. Before all I did was sleep around with people that meant nothing to me, for the most part. I thought I didn't need love, all I needed was sex. But that isn't what I think anymore. Did you know I haven't had sex since you moved over here? Not that I haven't made attempts, but they were all with you. If all I wanted or needed was sex I could get it else where. But I want you."
"So you just want to sleep with me."
"I do want to sleep with you, but I want more than that too. I want to be your boyfriend. I want to be the one you turn to when you're hurting. The one who holds you when you're crying. I want to be the one who gets those beautiful loving smiles. I want to be your everything, because you're my everything."
Sora had to be careful. He was not ready to forgive Riku yet, he was still hell bent on being angry at him. So he had to be careful because if not, he would turn to mush in Riku's arms. What Riku had just said was the sweetest thing anyone had ever said to him and he wasn't willing to admit just yet that hearing that made his heart soar. Sometimes luck was on Sora's side which was quickly proven.
"What exactly is going on here? You two should be in class." someone said, interrupting them. Riku broke his hold on Sora to look over to the angry teacher who had asked the question. He was about to say something when Sora spoke.
"I'm sorry, this is my fault. I wasn't feeling well and he was just trying to make sure I was okay." Sora said. The teacher eyed him suspiciously as if he was wondering how the position he had caught them in was seeing how he was okay.
"Get to class and don't let this happen again."
"Okay, we won't." Sora said. Sora and Riku both headed for the door. Once Riku saw the teacher wasn't following them out he spoke to Sora one last time before heading to class.
"Sora, Roxas didn't do anything wrong. He tried to bring me to my senses several times, so please don't be mad at him. He really does care about you. If you can't forgive me, then at least forgive him, he doesn't deserve this."
Sora didn't say anything and walked away towards his class. He had a lot to think about. Maybe it wasn't such a bad thing his class would be boring, then he would have plenty of time to think.
Sora walked to the lunch room almost in a daze. He had spent all his class time thinking through everything and still wasn't completely sure what to do. He almost missed the red head standing next to the entrance, but said red head wasn't going to let him miss him. Axel grabbed a hold of Sora and pulled him away from the door into a nearby hallway.
"Axel! So your here now. I wasn't sure when you would be here."
"I was able to get everything done and started classes during the middle of third period. What is going on with you? You seem distracted." Axel asked. Sora could see the concern on his face.
"I was just thinking." Sora said. He looked around before turning his attention back to Axel. "Can I ask you a question?"
Axel's eyebrow went up, "Yeah."
"Do you like Roxas? I mean, you know, really like him, in a more than a friend way."
Axel hesitated, not knowing if he should answer the question. He didn't want to hurt Sora. Deciding right now Sora needed someone in his life he could trust to tell him the truth Axel sighed.
"Yeah, I guess I do or did."
"Did? You don't anymore?" Sora asked.
Axel shrugged, "He was in on something that caused you a lot of pain. I can't ignore that. So I don't
think I can just forgive and forget that easy."
"I don't think he was in on it. I talked to Riku earlier, he told me that Roxas tried to stop him several times and he wouldn't listen to him. I was mad at Roxas after I heard what he said, but I don't think I am anymore. And I don't like thinking that you like him and aren't going to try to get together with him just because of me."
"I warned him not to do anything to hurt you." Axel said.
"But he didn't Axel. Riku was the one who did, not Roxas. Besides, sources tell me he seems to like you. You aren't really just going to let that go now are you?"
"Sources? What sources?"
"Come on Axel, you know how this works. My sources are confidential."
"What? You a reporter now?" Axel asked.
"If you can play shrink, I can play reporter." Sora said, grinning at Axel. "You didn't answer the question. You're not just going to let him go are you?"
Axel smirked, "No comment."
"Axel!" Sora pouted and play hit Axel. Axel returned the play hit with one of his own and the two started messing around like that. They continued like that for a while and didn't notice other people heading their way.
"Why don't you two take your make out session somewhere else. The middle of the hallway isn't really the best place for that." a voice said.
Axel and Sora stopped what they were doing to see that Seifer had been the one to speak. Seifer wasn't alone, everybody else in the group was with him. Sora spotted Riku and Roxas over to the side. Riku looked angry and Roxas looked upset. Axel grabbed a hold of Sora pulling him closer and moving like he was going to kiss him.
"You heard him Sora. Let's take our make out session somewhere else. You really shouldn't be trying to jump me here in the hallway." Axel said, a smirk on his face.
"Jump you? I was not trying to jump you."
"Come on, admit it. Anyone could see that's what you were trying to do. I know how much you like sex, but you really should wait until we get home."
"You're an asshole, Axel."
"Calling me an asshole just because I won't give you any, Sora. That's not very nice." Axel said. Sora smirked. He moved his leg slightly so that it was pressing against Axel's crotch. He moved his head so that his lips were close to touching Axel's. When he spoke again his voice came out low, barely above a whisper. The others had to strain to hear him.
"You know if I really wanted it, you'd give it to me no matter where we were."
Axel was caught off guard. He didn't think Sora would say or do something like that in front of other people. Sora had left him speechless and excited. Not good. Not good at all, especially with Roxas watching the whole thing. Axel could hear chuckling from a little ways away. They both turned to see Cloud laughing. Leon and Seifer were trying to hold in their laughter. Tidus and Wakka were looking away, Zexion didn't seem fazed, Roxas was looking at the ground, and Riku looked like he was ready to kill someone.
"Sora, I didn't know you had it in you." Cloud said while laughing. "Guess my sister was wrong about you after all."
Sora had to think for a moment to figure out what Cloud was talking about. Then he remember Cloud's sister referring to him as virgin boy and saying he wouldn't know what to do with a dick.
"Maybe we should have went with her suggestion that night.(1) It could have been interesting." Leon said. No one else knew what Cloud and Leon were talking about except Sora. "Maybe she had a good idea for once."
"Ah, no, that's not really my thing. I think I'll pass. Yeah, I'll definitely pass. It just sounds really painful or... weird." Sora said. Cloud and Leon both laughed. Everyone else was trying to figure out what the three were talking about. Leon walked over to Sora and pulled him into his arms, away from Axel. He cupped Sora's chinned and pulled his head up so that Sora was looking right at him, their lips less than an inch apart.
"Pain leads to pleasure, Sora. I'm sure you know that by now. If you think it would be painful, then think about how pleasurable it could be."
There was a loud bang from behind Leon and the two turned to see what the noise was. There was an empty spot where Riku had been standing, but the locker there had a dent in it. Sora looked down the hall and saw Riku walking away, his hand dripping with blood. Sora broke free from Leon and ran after Riku.
"Riku, wait." Sora called after him. Riku continued walking away from him. Sora called again, but Riku didn't stop. Sora ran until he caught up with him, grabbing a hold of his arm. Riku jerked his arm away.
"Leave me alone, Sora." Riku said. Sora could hear the anger dripping in his voice.
"No, Riku, you're bleeding." Sora answered, concerned.
"I don't care. Just leave me alone."
"No, damnit stop." Sora said, loudly. Riku quickly turned and pushed Sora flat against the lockers. Sora had never seen Riku so angry.
"You don't play with people's hearts, huh? Then what the hell was that? You knew I was there, you knew I was watching. And you know how I feel about you. You didn't care that it would hurt me to see that."
"Riku... I..." Sora started. He really didn't know what to say. He had not been trying to hurt Riku, he just hadn't been thinking about it. He was trying to get back at Axel for saying that Sora had been trying to jump him. He hadn't expected Cloud and Leon to get involved in it.
"I wasn't trying to hurt you. And why should I care about your feelings, you didn't care about mine when you were playing your game." Sora said, now angry. Riku closed his eyes and took a deep breath. As he let the breath out he reopened his eyes.
"You just have to keep bringing that up, don't you? We have already talked about this. Is that your new defense mechanism? To keep throwing that in my face to keep me away. And you called me cruel." Riku let go of Sora and continued walking down the hall. Sora stood there watching him walk away, wanting to cry. Not because Riku had called him cruel, but because he knew if this kept up he was going to lose him.
Sora turned and walked back the way he had come from. Axel was waiting for him where he had left him. Everyone else had left already. Sora looked up and smiled sadly at Axel.
"Did you get a chance to talk to Roxas?" Sora asked.
"No, he left with his friends."
"Why didn't you ask him to stay and talk to you?" Sora said. Axel sighed.
"Sora... just stop. Don't do this right now."
"Am I making you angry? I seem to be really good at that today. I'm just going to make everyone angry and push everyone away." Sora wiped the tears from his eyes. He had already spent enough time today crying. Axel wrapped his arms around Sora, pulling him into a hug. Sora quickly broke free from the hug.
"Don't Axel. Don't comfort me anymore. Go after Roxas. Talk to him. Be with him." Sora said and walked away. Axel stood there confused. Was Sora really trying to push him away now? Sora was, in a way. He didn't want to lose Axel's friendship, but he knew he had to stop relying on him all the time or he was never going to be able to move on. It was the only way he would ever be able to be with Riku.
After school Axel walked outside alone and saw Roxas waiting by the front gate. It brought back memories of when he would come to see him at his old school. But he wasn't so sure Roxas was waiting for him this time. He was about to walk over to him when Sora walked up behind him.
"Are you going home?" Sora asked.
"I don't know yet." Axel said. He turned his attention back to Roxas. Sora turned to see where Axel was looking and smiled. He headed in Roxas' direction and Axel followed behind him. Roxas looked up and saw the two of them coming towards him. His face was pained. Axel walked up next to Roxas and wrapped his arm around him.
"Hey, babe. Miss me?"
Roxas turned to look at him, confusion showing on his face. "Huh?"
Axel smirked, "I asked if you missed me. And don't look so sad, like you looked when we walked over. That's not a good look for you."
Roxas wasn't sure what was going on. He had thought Axel hated him now and didn't know why he was even standing next to him and talking to him. But he would take a chance and see where this was going.
"So what is a good look for me?" Roxas asked.
"I'm sure he is going to say something like, your eyes full of lust and desire as you're thinking about all of the things you would like him to do to you." Sora said from where he stood across from them. Roxas saw the smirk appear back on Axel's face.
"Of course. That would be a great look for him, one I look forward to seeing."
"Pervert." Sora said.
"You're the one who said it, I'm just agreeing." Axel said.
"Cause I know how your mind works." Sora said, shrugging. Roxas stood there listening to the conversation that played out before him. Taking it all in, for future reference.
"And I know how yours works." Axel said. "He's really just as horny as everyone else. Make sure you tell Riku that."
"Axel!" Sora yelled, his face turning a little red. "Roxas doesn't care about how horny I can be."
"No, but Riku would want to know that." Roxas said, playing along.
"You don't need to tell him. Jeez, let the guy find out things for himself." Sora said, smirking. Roxas was surprised by Sora's comment. That seemed like a good sign.
"I guess we wouldn't want to take all of the fun out of it for him, now would we Roxas? Riku can find out on his own that Sora likes it just about everyday."
"What?!" Sora exclaimed. They hadn't done it that often.
"I guess that means Sora is perfect for him, Riku likes it just about everyday too." Roxas said.
"Just what Sora needs, someone who's sexual appetite matches his own." Axel added.
"Would you two quit talking about my sex life." Sora said.
"You should be happy you have a sex life to talk about." Axel said.
"I don't. Not anymore."
"Perfect, neither does Riku." Roxas said.
"Neither does Riku what?" Riku asked. He had just walked up and caught the last comment.
"You don't want to know what they're talking about." Sora said.
"We were talking about you and Sora's lack of a sex life." Axel said. Riku's eyebrows twitched. He looked around them before speaking.
"Well, since I'm pretty sure that the two of us were sleeping with the two of you, that would mean neither one of you have a sex life either." Riku said. Sora nodded in agreement. Axel thought about it for a minute.
"I guess that's right. I'll have to figure out something to do about that." Axel said, eying Roxas. Roxas stood there quietly looking Axel right in the eyes. He was scared that he was misunderstanding. Did this mean that Axel doesn't hate him?
"You should take him on a date Axel. Like out to eat or something. Get to know each other better. That kind of thing. That way, when you ask him to be your boyfriend, maybe he'll say yes." Sora said, he would get Axel back for his sex comments. Axel eyed Sora again while Roxas just looked surprised.
"That's a great idea, Sora." Axel said sarcastically, then turned back to Roxas, "How about it? Will you go on a date with me now?"
Roxas didn't answer right away. Then he nodded his head in response making Axel smile. Sora smiled too, he just hid it from everyone. He thought he did anyway, but Riku had seen the smile and wondered about it. Riku couldn't help but wonder if this was all just a trick to get back at them.
"Then let's go. Goodbye you two." Axel said as he grabbed a hold of Roxas' hand. Sora watched as they walked away, not noticing that Riku was watching him. After they were out of sight Sora turned back to Riku.
"I saw you smile after Roxas agreed to go out with Axel. Is this some trick to get back at us?" He really hated to ask, but did so for Roxas' sake.
Sora looked angered by the question, "No. Axel likes Roxas. I smiled because Roxas said yes. Axel has always been there for me, he deserves to be happy."
"I thought so, I just had to know for sure. I didn't want Roxas to get hurt because of what I did." Riku said. Sora looked thoughtful for a moment thinking about what Riku had said.
"Riku?" Sora asked, quietly.
"Hmmm?"
"Are you sure you don't love Roxas?" Riku was surprised by the question.
"I don't love Roxas. He is my best friend so I care about him and what happens to him, just like Axel cares about you." Riku said. Riku turned to go, not even saying good bye. For the third time that day Sora watched as Riku walked away from him and it hurt. (2)
Riku had to get out of there. Today had just been too much and he needed to get away from it all. Away from school, his friends, and Sora. This was the reason he had never wanted anything to do with love. Love just ended up causing people pain. He had had enough pain for one day. But he wasn't willing to give up. He wasn't just going to let Sora go that easily. And it wasn't for any stupid reason like his ego, or he hadn't slept with him yet. It was because he truly wanted Sora. He believed if they could get through this then they could have a great relationship. He had meant the things he had said to Sora earlier that day in the bathroom.
That was why the playing around at lunch had hurt him so much. He knew that they were all just messing around. But he didn't like seeing Sora playing around with someone else like that, looking like they were about to kiss. He had been jealous. Jealous of Axel and Leon. What could he do though? He had tried talking to Sora and it didn't help. He really couldn't think of what else to do. Maybe Sora just needed time. Then he would have to give him time and hope that someday he would be able to forgive him and believe him.
He had to believe that everything would work out in the end. Because any other thoughts were just too painful.
TBC
I tried to put a couple of lighter parts in this chapter, but they did still serve some purpose. I have been waiting for so long to get Axel closer to them and now he is at their school. The first time I wrote this chapter I managed to pretty much end the story, but it would have needed an epilogue to tie up some loose ends. Then I decided that although the ending itself wasn't bad, the chapter would probably be disappointing to many readers. The best thing to do was go ahead a change it up some and extend it to another chapter. This works for this chapter at least, it extended the conversation in the bathroom and gave us another perverted Axel scene, the one Leon and Cloud are in. I think the longer bathroom talk is better because it gives more insight into things. It originally ended right after Riku said the game was on him and not Sora. So a lot was added. Anyway, hope everyone enjoyed. I enjoyed laughing at the perverted parts in this chapter. Please review.
(1)- This is talking about when Sora was at Cloud's and Larxene said something about them having a threesome. It wasn't really a suggestion at the time, and it didn't happen. Before people start saying Leon was an ass for doing that in front of Riku or something like that, Cloud and Leon didn't know that Riku's feelings were real.
(2)- The first time he watched him walk away was last chapter when Sora was at his locker and Riku walked passed.