Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's Anatomy. Cause if I did, there would be more shower scenes of McDreamy and McSteamy.

So, this was only supposed to be a one shot. But I just keep getting these ideas…

It wasn't supposed to turn out this way. I didn't mean to break up Callie and George. I never liked her, but come on. The naked peeing thing would freak ANYBODY out. I really don't care that she didn't know Meredith and I were home. It is not her house. I'm proud of my body. I walk around in my underwear. But at least it's bras and panties. She likes to walk around completely naked. I think I've seen more of her body than I've ever seen of my own. But I'm getting off track.

The first time George and I…. Well, we were drunk and he was complaining about Callie and her insecurities. I swear I was the supportive best friend. Telling him to apologize. That everything would be fine. It was killing me, but I told him what he wanted to hear. And we just kept drinking. And drinking. And drinking.

I've given up on giving up slowly, I'm blending in so

You won't even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate

This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption

because I know to live you must give your life away

And I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity and

I've been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key

And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me

And even though, there's no way in knowing where to go, promise I'm going because

I gotta get outta here

I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake

I gotta get outta here

And I'm begging You, I'm begging You, I'm begging You to be my escape.

I just needed to forget everything. With Denny. The possibility of Meredith dying. Everything. And well… I can't speak for George but things were rocky in his relationship with Callie.

I'm giving up on doing this alone now

Cause I've failed and I'm ready to be shown how

He's told me the way and I'm trying to get there

And this life sentence that I'm serving

I admit that I'm every bit deserving

But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

I was the first to wake up to find George…And myself… very naked. I had to check to make sure, though. Because sleeping with your best friend is fine. Sleepovers and whatnot. I'd slept with George and Meredith before. But sleeping with your best friend is COMPLETELY different. George and I talked and decided that it was a mistake. A one time mistake that would never-- could never—happen again.

Cause I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity and

I've been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key

And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me

And even though, there's no way in knowing where to go, promise I'm going because

I gotta get outta here

Cause I'm afraid that this complacency is something I can't shake

I gotta get outta here

And I'm begging You, I'm begging You, I'm begging You to be my escape.

And then it just kept happening again and again. George could make me forget Denny and everything. I mean, we have this intense friendship connection and each time… It feels like we're intensifying that friendship. Making it stronger, more real.

I am a hostage to my own humanity

Self detained and forced to live in this mess I've made

And all I'm asking is for You to do what You can with me

But I can't ask You to give what You already gave

And then we just couldn't stop because we were finding solace in each other that we could never find anywhere else, with no one else. I may not like Callie, but this was never about her or my feelings about her. This was about escaping from everything in the one place that feels like home.

Cause I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity and

I've been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key

And I've been dying to get out and that might be the death of me

And even though, there's no way in knowing where to go, promise I'm going because

I've gotta get outta here

I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake

I've gotta get outta here

And I'm begging You, I'm begging You, I'm begging

You to be my escape.

And we did try and fight this. Actually, I tried to fight it. I didn't want to let go of Denny. But I had finally come to understand that I could move on and still hold on to Denny's memory. Maybe if I'd come to that conclusion sooner… Maybe then… Maybe he wouldn't have gone after Callie and answered me when I asked what I was to him.

I fought You for so long

I should have let You in

Oh how we regret those things we do

And all I was trying to do was save my own skin

But so were You

So were You