There's three in the wall from those pictures in the closet
Two in the bedroom from that night I lost it
One deep inside me determined to stay
They don't get any bigger but they don't go away
Holes in and around me I keep falling back into
Holes digging its around me
God knows what I'm gonna do
To fill in these holes left by you
Left by you
I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I… I… I don't know if I'm strong enough. I mean, I love her, I want her, I want to be with her… But… I don't know. She didn't swim. She didn't swim.
I pour drink after drink but nothing hit bottom
I've been on my knees admitted my problem
The love that we made still barely an echo
I'll try anything in these vacant hollow
Just thinking of a world without her… It feels so empty. So…lifeless. But if there's a chance. Where she might not want to fight. Might not want to live. Might want to stop swimming again. I don't know if I can handle that.
Holes in and around me I keep falling back into
Holes digging its around me
God knows what I'm gonna do
To fill in these holes left by you
Left by you
And then there's the whole chief thing. I didn't come out here to fall in love. Very much the opposite. I came because I was running. From Addison. From Mark. From the sight of the two of them actually in the throws of passion. I came here to be chief. And if it comes down to Meredith or being chief…
There's two through my hands and one through my feet
From this cross that I bare to the day that I see
Its guilt and its blame its shame and its love
I don't know what I'll pick. Seeing Thatcher hit her. Slap her across the face… and she wouldn't even let me help. After saying that she was trying to let me in. That she really wanted to let me in. She ran. Crying. Away from me. Not towards me. I don't know what to do. When I stopped by her place she was doing shots of tequila with Izzy and Alex. I didn't know what to do. So. I walked away.