a/n: With some advice, I decided to redo chapter 2 in which no lemon will be available making the story a bit more suitable for younger audiences
Maybe I shouldn't have done it. Not 'it' of course. But ever since that night I have been looking at Shinji in a more longingly manner. Not such that I lust for him. Ok, I'll say the truth, maybe I do lust for him. A bit. But that's not what you should be worried about.
I kissed him that night for some pastime. And then ever since that happened, I ended up looking at Shinji in a different manner. I'm such an idiot. To think I can get influenced over a bit of fun. Or so I keep saying to myself. Who am I to kid?
Every time I look at Shinji, think of Shinji, hear the name Shinji, I just cant help but think back at the apartment where we kissed for the first time then found we just couldn't stop.
When I look at him talking to Rei or any other female, I find myself becoming more envious then I really should be and sometimes have the nerve to tell the other girl off regardless of who it was. It should've flared up suspicions that I was so overprotective of Shinji. It did.
Before I knew it there were rumours flying around the school, gossip involving me and Shinji and talk of what really happens at Nerve headquarters. I try my best to shrug it off but its really hard for me not to take it so personally when they start saying that I'm going to marry him one day and bear him heaps of children.
Ok, my I DO want to do that but not now. I mean the gossip went so far that I stretched out of the girls boundaries and spread towards the boys and even the teachers. I just hoped that nobody would leak the information to anyone at Nerv.
Rei seemed like she couldn't careless though. I wondered how she really felt. She was so cut off from the rest of us. It was like she was in her own world, the way she had that air around her to shrug off anything that happens to her. Emotionless, cold, naïve.
It made me so angry to see a person like that. Why couldn't they have friends? Why couldn't they be less stupid? Why couldn't they understand and appreciate what life has to offer? I also had trouble shrug off this feeling as this was something that I shouldn't be taking personally. Something that I shouldn't worry about.
Anyway, back to me me me! Never mind Rei.
I went back to my endless daydreaming about Shinji. I thought of his lips the most. I dreamed of him kissing me again, of the wars that we waged at home all the time. The competitiveness that ran throughout the apartment like electricity.
But now I associate competition with what goes on inside out mouths, not something trivial but something that has taken a new level of importance in my life. Maybe Shinji's as well…I wouldn't know. All I did know was that I desired another fight, a more satisfying one, longer lasting where I would emerge victorious. This time I wasn't going to lose.
Shinji and I walked home together but in silence. As I thought through my plan of attack, I began to feel that he was staring at me. I tried to ignore it but eventually gave in to curiosity. He immediately looked away but it was so blatantly obvious that he was staring at me. You know when people look away, slightly blushing pretending to be really interested in something that's not important at all? It was like that.
I wondered what Shinji thought the night he tried to kiss me another night on the lips. It was excruciatingly embarrassing when our argument was viewed by everyone. I thought about how he looked down my shirt or tried to anyway. I'm not sure how much he saw but I'm positive he wanted to see more.
And the way he reacted when I asked him if my breasts would get any bigger in heat, he just stuttered in his typical manner saying how he wouldn't know. I first thought he was a very boring person indeed but my views on him have changed a lot. All because of that blasted kiss!
When we got back, Misato wasn't around. Since Shinji and I didn't have anything better to do we kissed again.
The way it started off was exactly the same. I was bored and was Shinji. Nobody at home, nothing better to do, nothing we WANTED to do other then kiss again. To fight in an all new manner. To try and dominate. To have discovered new ways to compete.
"Bet I can hold my breath longer while I kiss ya!" I said playfully to Shinji who this time accepted my challenge without a seconds thought. We fought on the couch again, the same old arena we used as our previous encounter. Only instead of him lying on top of me, I was lying on top of him.
"Ready?" I said. Shinji nodded and pulled me down. I hardly had the chance to take in some air so this was not going good for me. I broke away impatiently and said "No fair! I wasn't ready!"
He just laughed and said "How about now?" Seizing the opportunity, I started the fight without giving him a chance. Or so I thought. He seemed to have grabbed some air somehow before I managed to get a grip and block the air flow completely. I was very reluctant to lose and so was he so by the time we stopped, we were both blue, had headaches and panting hard trying to regain our breath.
"Best out of 3," I panted and Shinji nodded.
"But let's have a break first. I feel so dizzy…" he said trying to get up and get a glass of water but collapsed.
I laughed and fell on top of him. I used my elbows to support myself on top of his chest and looked down onto his face, examining when a good time to strike would be.
Finally I took the lunge as he exhaled and this time I know he didn't get any air as he was like trying to mumble something in my mouth, something like "Get off!" but I was puling him closer to myself that no amount of puling or pushing was going to get me off.
As my tongue went as deep as it could inside his mouth, savouring his taste, he let his go limp implying a sign of defeat.
I let go and he panted for some more air.
"1 nil," I said smiling at him triumphantly. I was winning now. I wasn't going to lose this time.
"Ok, bring it on!" he said after getting some air and pulled me down again for some more. This time he tickled me on my sides, a place where I am very sensitive. I squirmed at first then pulled myself off him laughing.
"Hey, that's cheating!' I said pouting.
"No rules Asuka!" he said grinning. I pushed him back down as I renounced the scores. "Loser has to run around the flat naked while the winner gets to invite anybody he wants." Shinji said. I knew Shinji implied he for the reason thinking that he could beat me.
I also knew he would want me to do this. I was all the more determined to win now. I wasn't going to lose. Not with the reputation I have to uphold. What would Hikaru and the others think of me then? But maybe Shinji wouldn't. Maybe.
"I'll tell them about why I'm doing it should I lose then." I stated. This clearly had some weight as Shinji pondered on it.
"Done." Shinji said in the end. What? No way would he accept it. I sat on him with shock written all over my face. "Because I can tell them who issued the challenge the other night."
He had me over the barrel then. "Fine," I grumbled. "Don't chicken out when you lose though Shinji."
"I won't lose." He said in a more cockier tone now. He was intimidating me. I was sure of it.
Again our lips met that day with near death experiences, it lasted until Misato broke in on our third kiss.
She sat there watching us, laughing and taunting us as we both lay there blushing furiously but not wanting to lose. The score was 2-2 and there was not going to be a rematch.
We lay there no longer moving our tongues because we were both too tired. In fact I couldn't really tell if Shinji was admitting defeat or if he fell unconscious or if he was still in the game.
I didn't know what to do. We were at a stalemate now. To let go and check to find Shinji was still awake would be defeat. Falling unconscious would be another way of being defeated.
In which it was my sad tale of how my reputation went out the roof with Shinji inviting half the class, including Toji, Kensuke, Rei and Hikaru. Laughter exploded throughout the night.