Hello agian... Yeah, today, I shall put some footnotes on this chapy... So read those once you're done with this...
Oh, and this time, I'm doing things a bit diffrent. I'm dedicating this chapter. Dunno why though...
I dedicate it to really weird things... I dedicate it to my brother's dog, Loco, the rain that seems to be reflecting my mood, and my best friends, Sammie and Mara. I love you guys, now more then ever. nn
Disclamer: Me... Own Naruto...? I wish. (No. No planing tonight. No comment other then that.)
Kisame sighed at his partner. He wanted to leave, but knew that that was probably not the best idea at the moment. Itachi sighed, trying to forget his current frustration and depression. "Why am I feeling depressed because Deidara might know how I feel?" he asked quietly. The shark man shrugged.
"Probably because you've tried so long to keep it a secret, one that only would I would know. And I betrayed your trust and told him anyway." He answered, instantly regretting saying that.
Itachi looked over at him, Sharingan and all it's glory. "Right. That's why I'm depressed, and why I'm furious with you!"
"I assume now would be a bad time to say that I still think you're insane?" He asked quietly. Itachi pointed to the door.
"You want out of here, get out. I'm not stopping you. I want to be alone." He said firmly. Kisame walked over to the door with out question. Itachi sighed and closed his eyes once again. He opened the door just as a certain blonde was about to knock.
Kisame looked at Deidara. He didn't want to stick around for this. He briskly walked out of the room, heading towards his own; leaving Itachi alone with the last person he wanted to see at that moment.
Deidara blinked before walking in and closing the door behind him. "What's with him, un?" He asked quietly. Itachi didn't move he didn't even bother to open his eyes. Deidara waited for several moments before giving up on getting an answer.
"Listen Itachi-san, I know how you feel about me," his words filled Itachi with dread, "but that's not what I want to talk about at the moment. Convince me Sasori no danna is dead, un." He demanded. He had much more patience when it came to getting an answer this time. He waited for five minutes before the Uchiha even acknowledged the blonde's presence.
He sat up and looked into Deidara's visible eye. "Why would I do that? I've tried before and I know you don't want to accept it." He said with a small sigh.
Deidara's brow furrowed in frustration. "And maybe I'm coming to terms with it and need just a little bit more convincing, un." He insisted.
"Nice try." Itachi said almost instantly. "I know you're coming to terms with that, there is no doubt about it." He brushed a strand of hair as dark as midnight out of his eye. "And you don't want to. It's painstakingly obvious that you have ulterior motives out of this conversation."
The blonde stared at him blankly. He wondered how he knew, but didn't show it through his expression or any body movement. He knew better then to do that. After all, Deidara might have been insane, but he wasn't an idiot. "Do not, un. I just want to get it over with. I want to accept his death, un." Deidara said desperately.
This only caused that Uchiha to roll his eyes, now faded back to black. "If you can say a sentence such as that, it only shows you know he's dead. You want more assurance that it's true though, that's no lie." He said, his face completely blank.
"Then why won't you just give it to me, un?" The blonde asked calmly as he pulled a bit of hair away from his mouth and back so it was covering his left eye.
Itachi didn't do anything before or after he answered. He simply looked directly into the other man's right eye and spoke. "Because I'm not having you blow yourself up."
There was a moment of shock that ran through Deidara. He couldn't have let his motives be that obvious, right? He was puzzled. Itachi must have sensed this, for he explained.
"I'm not stupid. You would never let any of us tell you he was dead, if you would have, you would have broken in tears the moment Leader-sama told you. Or shortly after. And you didn't. I don't think you have even shed a single tear about it. So you know he's dead. You just want someone to further convince you of it. You want to be with him, Deidara. And I'm not going to let that happen any time soon."
The blonde grimaced. "You have no right to think I would ever kill myself, un! And I don't think he's dead! He wouldn't leave me alone! He wouldn't! For the thousandth time, puppets don't die, un!" He exclaimed, a single tear escaping from his eye.
Itachi sighed and walked over to him, holding the blonde gently in his arms. "Shh… It's all right Deidara… Just cry… It's all right to accept his death…" he said quietly. "Just cry so you can move on in time…" he whispered in his ear.
Deidara began to sob uncontrollably, clinging onto Itachi's cloak. "Sasori no danna…." He whispered as tears fell willingly. The hair that hung over his left eye matted to his face from the sudden wetness. It made Itachi want to brush it back and reveal the mysterious eye, but he didn't. He simply held Deidara in his arms, wanting more then anything to comfort him.
"It's alright Deidara… He's in a better place…" He said comfortingly. One arm held the bomb artist close to himself, while the other stroked that long hair.
"He was perfectly fine with S-ranked criminals!" The other protested. Itachi made no comment, he simply tried to calm the one he loved. Although, he couldn't help but think how odd it sounded, even to his own ears, that someone would think that their loved one was 'perfectly fine' when they were always surrounded by S-ranked criminals. He sighed at the thought.
"I know Deidara… I know…" he said quietly. The blonde looked at him, his face a mixture of sorrow and anger.
"Make up your mind, un!" He demanded. "He's in a better place, blah, blah, blah… Then you say you agree that he's better off here! Damn it Itachi, un!" he yelled, causing the Uchiha to wince slightly, before nuzzling his head in the other's neck.
Itachi sighed and rubbed his back. "I'm just trying to make you feel better, Deidara… After all, I love you…"
The blonde seemed oblivious to his words. Itachi hadn't even meant to sat that, admit that he felt that way, but he didn't worry about it. What was said was said, and he couldn't change that. That was why he never regretted killing the clan.
"I love him Itachi… I love him… How could he do this to me, UN?" He sobbed. "He promised he would never leave me… And he lied! Sasori-danna only lied to me once…and it was about such a big thing!"
"He didn't mean to… I doubt he just let himself die… I'm sure he fought to live…" Itachi replied, his tone soft. He didn't seem to mind that the blonde was being so loud about his sobbing, or the fact the he had given the raven-haired ninja a headache.
Deidara took his face away from Itachi's neck. He wiped away tears from his right eye. He tucked back the hair that had always hidden his left and brushed away those tears as well. He didn't try to hide his eye as he looked at Itachi sadly. The man couldn't help but admire Deidara's beautiful face, both of his eyes perfect, a beautiful shade of sea blue.
"I just want to know what he was thinking as he died…" Deidara said quietly, breaking Itachi's trance he seemed to be in.
Itachi lifted his chin with tow fingers, making him look at the darker haired ninja's face. "I'm positive he was thinking of you until the end…" He said quietly, withdrawing his hand. As much as he wanted to pull Deidara into a kiss right then, he knew that he shouldn't. And he knew the blonde was upset, so he wouldn't dare do a thing such as that.
The blonde's face as almost instantly being buried in the Uchiha's neck once again. He was once again sobbing desperately.
"I'm here for you Deidara… And I'll comfort you as long as you need it…"
Likey? I'm not sure I do. But it's the third time I've written this one.
Are you curious to why? Or why it's taking me so long to update? Simple. I've been in a bad mood. I have appeared to have gotten into an argument with one of my dear friends, and now I refuse to speak to three of them. I tried earlier, but I became depressed... So I'm having a hard time doing much of anything right now. Other then waking up, grabbing an energy drink, staring at a blank word document, then going back to bed.
Why three times, you ask? That's simple too. I've gotten angry while I was writing, and ended up killing someone, or making Deidara go on a ranting rampage. So I think it's best like this, ne?
Anyway, I'll try to update soon... But reveiws make me update faster! ...there I go with my bribing again... I may be wraping this story up in the next few chapters, just an fyi. I may make a sequal though... nn Not really sure...