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when she woke up the next morning she could barely move from all the pain she was feeling. It was 6:00, her classes started at 8:00. She wanted to go to Dumbledor, but she was to embarrassed and scared. If she told him what had happened, what would her father do to her, what if he did something worse then he did last night? She shook the thought from her mind, she had to tell him if she wanted to stay sane. She got out of bed and looked into her mirror, she had bruises all over her body, on her face, on her arms, everywhere. She got changed into her uniform put on some makeup to tried to hide the bruises, and headed downstairs. She looked around cautiously to see if Draco was around, he wasn't so she left the common room and went into the halls. She ran all the way to his office, eyes searching around constantly to make sure she wasn't being fallowed. When she reached the statue she said the password and raced up the stairs. When she reached the top of the steps she caught her breath and then knocked on the door softly. She heard the calming old voice of dumbledor call her inside, her heart soared. She walked in silently and sat down in front of him. "Ah miss Hawks, I assume you are here to talk about what we talked about yesterday". She had been staring at the ground quietly, but looked up at his words, tears threatened to escape her eyes but she blinked them away. She heard him gasp "what happened when you left my office yesterday child". She opened her mouth to tell him exactly what happened but instead she said "it's my fault all my fault, I deserve this I deserve anything I get". He shook his head "why don't you tell me everything that happened, I will decide if you truly deserve anything". She lowered her head "where is harry" she asked quietly "I think he need to know what happened" dumbledor nodded and grabbed an owl off a perch and wrote a quick letter and the owl took off. They sat in silence for a few moments before someone knocked on the door Dumbledor quickly called them in. Harry stood in the doorway looking confused for a moment and then he sat down opposite Dumbledor by her. "Would you like to tell us what happened now" he asked her. She nodded solemnly and told them everything from what happened at Christmas to what happened last night. She didn't tell them what had happened last night in much detail but she told them enough. When she was done she had tears in her eyes and she let them flow freely "its all my fault, if I wasn't weak none of this would have happened to me" she whimpered "I wouldn't be a slave to my own father". She looked over at Harry who had no expression on his face "I'm sorry Harry, I'm really sorry". He nodded "it's fine, I would never blame you for something that wasn't your fault". She looked over at Dumbledor who hadn't spoken yet. "I'm sorry sir, I didn't want to do any of this you've got to believe me" she pleaded softly. She felt scared with him not speaking, did he think it was all her fault? "Miss Hawks it is not your fault, it took bravery to come here today" he said softly. She sighed in relief, he didn't blame her everything was going to be ok. "Vivian why didn't you tell me this when I met you at the burrow?" harry asked. She looked into his soft green eyes they looked so innocent after all of the pain he had been through "well Harry I did tell you about my father, but I didn't have time to tell you everything, it was hard even coming here I had to make sure Draco didn't see me, but he probably already knows I'm here". She looked over out the window and saw the sun was already rising "its almost time for classes" she whispered. She didn't really want to leave her first class was potions, "yes you both should get back to your common rooms to get ready for class" dumbledor said looking at her "and Vivian I hope you will tell me if anything else happens that would help me help you". She looked up and nodded at him, she got out her seat and followed Harry out of the office. They walked side by side through the halls they were at the stair cases when Harry turned to face her. "Vivian you need to know that no one should order you what to do, you should do what you feel like doing". She smiled sadly "that's very nice in thought, but I don't have a choice as everyone says slytherin's true calling is being a death eater. It's my fault about what happened to me" she held up her hand as he tried to interrupt "it is my fault Harry I made friends with the wrong people, I went out with Draco even after you said he was a death eater, and look where my stupidity got me" she said lowering her head. "Your not stupid Vivian, and no matter what you say its not your fault". She smiled weakly "thank you Harry, hey I'm going to go straight to the great hall instead, wanna come?". "why of course, but where shall we sit" he asked smiling. She made the gesture of hard thinking "your table". "why Miss Hawks what will people think" he said laughing. They walked into the great hall together, as she had predicted heads from everywhere turned to face them. When she sat down next to Harry the Griffindor table exploded with protests. "Calm down every one it's ok I invited her" this calmed almost every one. "But Harry I don't understand" Hermione said. Harry looked over at Vivian with asking eyes "I will tell them Harry but not here" she said quietly. He nodded "Hermione, Ron come on we will go to the library". They both nodded and got up, Vivian walked behind them they were almost to the doors when Vivian heard him. "Hey Vivian come here" Draco shouted from the Slytherin table. She looked over to Harry who shook his head, she continued walking until they got to the hallways. "Don't you dare walk away from me" Draco said grabbing her arm. She gasped and turned around "let me go now" she said through clenched teeth. She felt Harry and his friends move behind her and she smiled. "Get away from her Malfoy" Harry said. "Oh so you went and ran your mouth off Vivian, I thought we had an agreement" he said menacingly. His grip on her arm tightened "come on Vivian we need to have a chat in our common room". He tried to pull her away from them but they grabbed onto her. "No its ok you guys, I'll go". They tried to protest but she just shrugged "its ok you guys, Harry go ahead and talk to them in the library I'll meet up with you guys to tell you everything" she said glaring at Draco. He lead her all the way to the common room and then threw her onto one of the couches. The room was almost completely empty except for Crabb and Goyle "Vivian" Draco said smirking "you have disobeyed me, that was not very smart". She looked up at the three of them and got up "leave me alone, god I don't need this". She walked to the window and looked out "Draco if you feel the need to feel like a big man and order me around in front of your friends then go ahead, but if you think I will actually do anything you say then I feel sorry for you" she said darkly. She looked over at them and smiled when she saw them with shocked expressions on their faces. "I think I'll be going now , unless you need me for anything else master" she said sarcastically with a fake bow. Before he could say another word she left the common room and headed to the library. When she got there she had to search for Harry and his friends, they had taken to a back table for privacy. "Vivian" Harry said "your alright, I haven't told them anything". Vivian nodded and sat down next to Harry. She took a deep breath then explained everything just as she had that morning to Harry and Dumbledor, she ignored their gasps. "Oh Vivian I'm so sorry" Hermione said after she was done talking. Vivian just smiled and nodded not wanting to talk about it anymore it was getting late, they had missed dinner and she was getting tired. "Well Vivian we have potions tomorrow together, and its getting late, so I think we should go to bed and meet up tomorrow before class". They all went their separate ways in the hall, though she dreaded returning to the common room to sleep she did anyway. The common room was almost empty except for Draco, Crabb, Goyle, and Sofia. Avoiding Draco she walked over to Sofia "hey what's up" she asked sitting down. "Nothing much where did you disappear to last night I couldn't find you or Draco anywhere" she asked smiling " did you hook up". Vivian grimaced "well not exactly" she said, "what are you talking about" Sofia asked. "Nothing we just hung out in the library" she wasn't ready to tell her sure they were friends but she didn't know there was just something about her she didn't trust. "Shit" she screamed as she felt a fiery pain in her arm where the dark mark was. "What's wrong Vivian" Sofia asked worriedly. She shook her head "nothing I'm fine my arm is just cramping up I'll see you later". She rushed out of the common room and into the halls before Sofia could say a word. Her first thought was to go to Dumbledor to ask him what she should do, but she didn't want to bother him this late a night. She decided to try to see if Harry was in the library but when she arrived it wasn't him she found. "Oh fuck" she muttered as Draco saw her through the library window. "Hey I've been looking all over for you" he drawled. "Leave me alone Draco I'm looking for someone". He smirked "Well Vivian I doubt you didn't notice but your father wants us for a meeting and we must not disappoint him". She started to walk away "well I hate to disappoint you but I have other matters to attend to". She heard him sigh "the dark lord said you might act this, stoprasfa". She recognized this spell it was the spell he had used before, it was the spell that made it so she could not use magic by hand. He grabbed her wand from her robes "aw your just like a muggle now, Crabb, Goyle come on its time". She followed them to the forbidden forest Crabb in front of her Goyle behind her which made her nervous and Draco beside her arm around her waist. When the got far enough Draco apperated bringing Vivian along with him. Her arm felt like it would fall off soon she kept her eyes to the ground, why was she here she didn't want to be here why did she always get herself in these situations. Her feet hit the ground lightly she didn't stumble she had gotten used to being forced places by magic. Draco and his friends quickly joined the circle of death eaters but she stayed rooted to the ground waiting for her father. She learned over the break that if she joined the death eaters circle her father freaked out saying she was higher up then them. "Hello my faithful followers I am glad to see that everyone is here, Malfoy where is my daughter". Before Draco could answer her Voldemort had already seen her. She felt his eyes searching her body and she shivered she was still in her uniform and her skirt was shorter than her old one had been. "Where is your wand" he snapped suddenly she almost jumped back but knew better. "Draco has it father" a chill went down her spine when she saw him spin around suddenly to face Draco. Draco gave one look and the story was plastered all over his face. He handed the wand to Voldemort quickly not looking into his eyes. Vivian watched as her father inspected the wand carefully "where did you get this wand Vivian" he hissed loudly "and do not lie to me". She dared to look him straight in the eye "it was my mothers and your wife's". She heard a few death eaters gasp as Voldemort walked swiftly across the small space between them. Instead of the pain she thought she would feel, her father got an inch away from her face. "Your just like your mother Vivian it uncanny how much you look like her". Before she could back away he pulled her into a quick kiss and put his arm around the waist. He led her to the circle "my followers what is the process on your missions" voldemort said loudly. They went around the circle saying how they were over throwing the ministry from working inside and getting all the information. One death eater was working on getting the dementors on his side and was close to succeeding. Which meant the death eaters from azkaban would be released soon, including lucius Draco's father. When Draco's turn came he left out no details about Vivian and her doings. When everyone had spoken Voldemort dismissed every one but Vivian, Draco, Crabb, and Goyle. When all the other death eaters had left Voldemort turned to Vivian and took off the spell Draco had cast on her. "My lord what do you wish of us" Draco asked Voldemort . "nothing I just wanted to spend more time with Vivian and I can't have her going back alone now can I". Draco nodded and stood to the side to talk with his friends quietly. He turned his attention back to Vivian "Vivian from Draco's description of his plans it seems you have been going soft on your mission". She knew this was coming "I'm not going soft father I am still on my mission" she said softly. He pulled her closer to him she shivered at his touch, he sat her down on his lap as he sat down. She tried her hardest not to show any sign of disgust as it would probably only encourage him. "You know Vivian the other night when Draco was with you I felt jealous that he was with you instead of me" he said softly. She felt disgusted at these words he was doing this because she reminded him of her mother the woman he had killed. "Your so beautiful Vivian, if I could I would keep you here forever to be by my side . You can be my prize by my side when we win". "I don't wanna do this father and I don't want to be a prize" she said quietly. She felt his arms tense around her "well you don't have a choice Vivian it is my choice on what you do" he said through clenched teeth. She tried to stand up but Voldemort just pulled her right back down so she turned around to face her father. He had changed bodies again ,which was unusual seeing as he had said he loved his new form, he now had the body he had as a young adult. The only difference was that his teenager form now had red menacing eyes. "It's not your choice father as it is not your mind to control. I am my own person I'm not one of those drones you keep around." she felt his arms tighten around her but then he laughed "you fight a lot with me Vivian, you need to learn that there is no use fighting your future." Is he right she thought this could be my future not even Dumbledor could help me if he decided to take me out of school like so many parents already have with their kids. "Father if we don't leave now people will get suspicious" she felt his arms let go of her and she stood up gracefully and walked over to Draco. "Lets go" she said quietly, she got her wand from her father "Vivian I'll make sure we keep in touch". She nodded and apperated to the forbidden forest ignoring the fact that Draco and his friends were there she walked ahead of them to the castle. Once inside Draco turned her around "where were you heading before I found you?". When she looked into his face she didn't see the man she had fallen for she saw a stranger never seen by her. "I was heading to the library obviously for something to read" she turned away from the stranger and walked to the common room. She sat down in the shadows and watched as Draco walked in, oblivious that she was there, and go to Sofia and pull her away from her friends closer to the spot where she was. "Draco where have you been?" Sofia asked him quietly but not quietly enough. Vivian saw him smirk at her "the dark lord called a meeting about an hour ago". She heard Sofia make a noise of hurt "and why wasn't I called has he forgotten all the work I have done for him, my efforts, my information from spying?". Vivian turned her face away from the scene she had heard enough, her so called friend had been telling everything she said to her father. The powerful feeling of anger overtook her and she wasn't able to stop herself. Sofia and Draco were still talking to each other when she stepped out of her dark area Sofia was still in mid sentence when she saw her. "Do you think she suspects any... oh Vivian you scared me where have you been?". Her anger was getting the better of her "shut the fuck up Sofia I heard everything your not a very good spy obviously if you can't keep you mission quiet". Draco tried to stand in between them but it was no use Vivian forced him powerfully out of the way using a silent spell that knocked him against the wall. "Vivian I'm sorry it's a mission you understand don't you?" Sofia's voice sounded desperate and full of fear. Vivian laughed, her laugh was cold and dark making Sofia jump quietly. "Vivian stop this now you can't hassle one of your fathers best spies" Draco said standing up off the floor. Her attention went quickly to Draco then back to Sofia "can't I Draco she is one of my father's servants, I'm sure my father wouldn't mind me punishing her I'm sure he would be quite pleased actually". Vivian smiled darkly and advanced towards Sofia.
DRACO'S POV
He flinched at her smile and wondered if Vivian would every smile happily again. He had loved her she is beautiful, smart, and powerful. But the dark lord made his choices for him, though he loved her Voldemort wanted her and nothing would stand in his way. He hurt her that night he raped her just because he was told to, he had killed because he was ordered to. Now he had to keep a watch on her but he wasn't able to touch her again. He longed to kiss her softly again be with her without others watching, that night made him cry out at random times, it was always in his mind. She would never forgive him, he knew by the look in her eyes every time she looked at him. He would never have what he had wanted to begin with, to love her and have her love him to. Her eyes used to be filled with passion, happiness, want, feeling, and the sense of power. But they were now filled with sadness, pain, disgust, and misery. He couldn't help though even if he wanted to she was to be Voldemort's bride or slave same thing. If anyone touched her without his permission they would meet immediate death. While still thinking to himself he stood up and tried to stop the fight.