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Chapter 2

"Cristina, get up!" Meredith moaned.

"I have two more weeks off Mer leave me alone," Cristina began to fall asleep.

Meredith sighed,"Great."

She got up groggy. She looked at the clock and rubbed her head. She must've over slept. It was 11:00! She was late! So late and this was her first day as an attending! Oh, this is just great. She grabbed her purse and got out her keys and drove home. She changed into her usual clothes and quickly drove to the hospital to change into her scrubs.

Bailey was in there still talking to her new interns and paused to look at her flustered old intern late. Grey was never late. Bailey quickly dropped that thought and showed her interns the rest of the building, mainly to leave Grey a moment to herself.

Meredith ran up stairs looking for the Chief Resident, Callie O'Mally. She finally found her in her office looking at some patient's charts.

"You're late," Callie remarked without even looking up.

"I- um... Cristina- the wedding-" Meredith stuttered.

"Grey, why do you smell like alcohol?" Callie finally looked up and cocked her left eyebrow.

"I-uhhh... Cristina?" Meredith looked down and shuffled her feet.

Callie rolled her eyes uninterested,"Just go do your job. Since you're going into Nero you'll be with Shepard."

"That's just great," Grey sulked out of the room while Callie wondered what she missed.

Meredith walked briskly down the halls to find and avoid Derek. It wasn't fair, then again when was life ever fair to her? Not when her so call 'Dad' left. Not when her Mom constantly ignored her and left her with nanny's or Richard Webber and Addelle. Not even the time when she found out that Derek had a wife. Why couldn't she just have drowned? Why couldn't she just stay dead? What else was there? All her hope has been dried up into dust.

"Sorry," she whispered as she bumped into a girl. This girl looked familiar, like she's seen her before. She quickly looked at her name tag and almost gasped, almost.

"Oh my gosh! I'm soo sorry! I mean this is my first day and all. I don't want to mess up you know? I mean if I do then everyone's going to hate me and-" she looked confused as Meredith walked away quickly leaving her to pick up all of the charts she (Lexie) dropped.

Meredith quickly walked into a closet any closet to get away. To hide from her. Why was she here? Wasn't it enough to steal her father? Now her career? What else? She doesn't belong here! She should be with Thatcher! Say away from her life, her home. The only thing she had left and she took it away.

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"Hi I'm your intern for the day," Lexie said to the Head of Nero.

Derek turned around to find Lexie there. It dawned on him that this girl may be a stalker.

"Well, if it isn't Mr.I Play Hard To Get?" she smiled flirtatiously.

"Umm, yes?" he looked puzzled. He wasn't playing at all. All he wanted was Meredith, not this wannabe substitute,"Okay... Let's go check on Mr.Henderson shall we?"

"You know, I'm free tonight. Wanna go out to that little bar that you like so much... Then afterwords..." she leaned in close as if to seduce him.

"I-"

"Its a date! I'll see after work," she smiled looking up at him.

Meredith cleared her throat. Derek went up to her to hold her but she quickly shuffled to the side. Confused he stood there wishing Lexie could just disappear.

"Mer..." he looked in her eyes and noticed that they were red around the edges and puffy.

"Dr. Shepard," he looked at her with his blue eyes and she looked away. If she looked any longer she'd start crying all over again,"So...? Are you going to get me patients or will I just look for some in the pit?"

"Oh, yeah. Dr.Grey, I'd like you to be in my surgery at 2:30," he looked at Meredith.

"Really?! I mean this is only my first day and all and I can't believe I'm going in on a surgery!" Lexie bounced up and down in excitement.

Meredith rolled her eyes in disgust,"Um, hello? You're an intern! I think he was talking to me," Meredith point at her name sewed on her coat.

"Oh... Wait a minute! You're Meredith Grey? As in my father's other daughter! Oh my gosh that is sooo cool! We'll could like-"

Meredith rolled her eyes again to see if the little jumping bean will get a clue,"No, I will not be your little girlfriend and giggle with you about cute boys and do each others hair. I will not let you in on 'cool' surgeries. And I'm NOT your sister! I DO NOT HAVE A FAMILY! And for the record," she looked at Derek,"I don't care if you go out with my so called sister and date her. Just leave me out of it!"

"Meredith!" Derek ran after her. He followed her into an empty elevator,"Mer."

"Leave me alone Derek! Haven't you done enough damage? Or do you have something else to say? Go ahead! Say it! I can't be broken anymore Derek! I'm broken enough! Can't you see that?" she fell to the floor crying.

Derek pressed the emergency stop button on the elevator. He sat next to her stroking her hair. Meredith shuffled away and curled up in a tight ball.

"Oh, Mer." Derek got closer and stroke her hair,"Why are you doing this to yourself?"

"Just leave me alone!" Meredith pleaded. There was no anger in her voice just sadness.

"But Mer," Derek caressed her.

"But Mer' nothing!" Meredith looked up at Derek,"Isn't anything I ever do for you good enough?!"

Meredith pulled on the emergency button and the elevator continued to move. Meredith walked to the other side of the elevator to get away from Derek. She whipped her tears and walked out of the elevator with her head high acting like nothing happened.

Derek just stood there confused. Wasn't this the part were they realize they were wrong and got back together? The happily ever after part. The part were he could go back to sleeping at the house instead of the trailer that was beginning to smell funky. He missed her, he didn't care about Lexie he wanted his Grey. His Meredith.

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At home Meredith sat alone. What else could she do? Sitting on her bed watching reruns of Friends with her only friend. A giant tub of chocolate chip cookie dough and a bottle of tequila. Its amazing what the combination of the two would do. Its a relief really to escape with the combo of numbness and the sweetness of the cookie dough. The tub and the bottle was about half empty. She sat alone, watching TV just waiting for everything to pass her.

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"Hi!" Lexie bounced next to Derek clinging to him,"You waited."

Derek looked at the girl who would not let go of his arm. He completely forgot that she asked him out. He grumbled,"Actually I have an early surgery tomorrow and I've gotta rest up."

With that he walked out leaving her there. She shrugged and thought, 'I'll get him next time.' Lexie decided that her half sister was probably having a bad day and that she could cheer her up. She always cheered her Dad up when he was down, so why no Meredith? She walked to the car and grabbed her keys after asking the front desk where her sister lived. And she drove off not knowing what a huge mistake that was.