Chapter 5

Meredith sat alone thinking. She's been thinking for hours and now was totally bored out of her mind. So far only Izzie and Alex had came to see her. She knew that Izzie made Alex come, but that didn't matter. What bugged her the most is that Cristina hasn't came. Sure she understood that she might need a little time to digest this, but seven hours? That was too much! She needed her person. Now more than ever. So what if Cristina said she's taking time off. She couldn't last a day without being at the hospital. She had to be here some where. She was avoiding her! That's what she was doing!

"Okay, Grey present this case," Bailey told her intern.

"Um... Meredith Grey age twenty-nine. Has alcohol posioning. Vomited last night, and has been on heated IV's to keep a normal temp. Her glucose levels need to be watched carefully because they changed slightly and she had a siezure," Lexie read surprised. She wondered why no one paged to tell her that her sister had alcohol posioining. Maybe she acciedently left it on silent or something and couldn't hear it. She wished she would've came with her or drove there but she wanted to wait untill she was paged...

"Good Grey," Bailey started. Calling another intern Grey didn't feel right like having to put the last puzzle piece in to find out no matter how many angles are tried it didn't fit,"You'll be the one watching her glucose levels. I trust you can do that without messing up," as she said that Dr.Tress's head went down in shame.

"I'm sorry Dr.Bailey, but is this even surgical?" asked an intern.

Bailey turned around sharply and glared at her intern,"Would you like it to be surgical? Would you like one of your boss's to need surgery? Would like to perform surgery on your boss?"

"N-n-no," he replied weakly,"I just thought-"

"Don't think! React! When you have a patient on the table bleeding out you can't stop for a second to think! You need to react! You need to know what to do next. Not just wait and think what you're going to do next otherwise your patient will die," Bailey shook her head in disappointment. She knew her interns are naive and they don't understand the risks. Her old interns did. She wished so much to keep her interns forever and be Chief Resident. She would tell anyone this but her interns are her children. And last year she felt like she needed to be there to protect them and help them after all they've been through.

"So..." Lexie said after everyone left.

Meredith stared blankly at her.

"Umm... Well, I'm sorry about what happened. I should've visited earlier. I just wanted them to page so I knew that you were okay," she mumbled softly.

"Well, I'm fine. Okay?" she turned over to her side so she wouldn't see the overly perky brunette.

Lexie walked over to where Meredith was now facing,"I knew you were mad and all. So you probably didn't mean anything that you said. So I'm willing to start over," she smiled thrusting her hand in Meredith's face,"Hi, I'm Lexie!"

Meredith rolled her eyes at her pathetic attempt,"Lexie, we may be sisters biologically but I will never. I mean NEVER be close to you," she sighed,"I do not have a family! How many times do I have to get that through your head?!"

Lexie's lip started to tremble,"You know my Dad talks about you right? He wants us to be a family again."

Meredith could hardly take it anymore. She was either going to burst out laughing or slap her silly. And since she can't do either she'll just have to yell at her,"Seriously?! Is that what he told you! HA! Yeah right. I seriously doubt that he meant it."

Lexie started to get angery with her sister,"What do you mean?"

"Let me think... How about the time he left me and my mom when I was little? Or when he slapped me infront of everyone in the hospital?" she yelled.

"He wouldn't do that!" Lexie defended her dad.

"Really? Is that what you think?" Meredith smirked.

"What right do you get to judge my Dad?!" Lexie stood up angery at her accussion.

"I do! After everything he's done to me! I do get to judge! Do you know how many times he called after he left?! One! Just one!" Meredith started crying hysterically.

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"Meredith?" Derek whispered to himself when he saw her sobbing in her hospital bed. He walked over and held her in his arms. And for once she didn't fight him. She put her head on his chest and sobbed,"Its okay Mer," he kissed her on her head tenderly.

"W-W-wh-why-yy-y-i-i-i-iss-it so-o-o-o u-u-unfa-air?" she cried into his t-shirt.

"I know, I know," he said softly hugging her tighter.

She looked up with her red swollen eyes,"I miss what w-w-e used to be."

"Me too," he wispered in her ear.

"I wish we c-c-could just g-g-go b-b-back and b-b-be happy," she nestled herself tighter against him.

"I don't."

"What?" she looked up confused that he didn't want to be together.

He smiled his McDreamy smile,"Because, I love you. And starting over wouldn't change that. I always loved you. I loved you when you kicked me out of your house. I loved you when I was the good guy and chose Addison. I loved you when you couldn't choose me or Finn. I loved you when you drowned. I loved you when you drowned. And I love you right now."

She smiled at him,"I loved you too. Or, umm love you? Is that right?" she tilted her head slightly confused.

He looked at his Meredith and smiled. She was adorable when she was thinking. He kissed her softly on the lips to keep her from rambling. She smiled and turned over to her side so he could hold herl like he used to. Even though Derek was supposed to be saving lives they fell asleep in each others arms.