Chapter 15

Meredith brushed past through the crowds in the hospital. There was sick people here. Sick people on their death bed and she's here. She's a doctor. A selfish doctor that only thinks of herself, not the sick people who she should be taking care of. Meredith mused to herself. But she needed to think. She needed to get out of the devil hospital and think.

She needed to think about her freakin' husband. Her freakin' husband who wouldn't sign the freakin' divorce papers! That guy has a lot of nerve to say he wants her back after what he did to her. No, it wasn't anything illegal. But it hurt her. But she didn't want to think of the things he did and said. The web of lies he caught her in.

But Derek... He was so confusing! He was fighting for her and then he wouldn't even look at her! What's a girl supposed to think?! Errr! The men she falls in love with! She needs him. She knows deep down she needs him. But how's she supposed to tell him that she needs him? How she supposed to know if he's going to stay if they keep on doing this push pull sort of thing? Sure she was a mess but she needed someone to stick by her when she's a mess. Someone would stay with her. But most of all someone would love her.

She thought she found that person last year. Then it turned out that person had a wife. Ironic isn't it? You think the guy's a McBastard because he has a wife he's hiding but then you have a husband. Well, its not like she wanted to still be married. She sent divorce papers plenty of times. Then he said that he signed them! So... She didn't know she was still married. Its not completely her fault... Is it?

"Meredith," Derek ran up next to her side.

"Go away Derek," she immediately regretted those words. She walked quicker. She didn't want to lose him but she didn't know what else to say.

Derek just followed her pace. He then pulled her so they were face to face,"No."

"What?"

"I'm not just going to go away," he looked into her eyes and immediately knew she wanted the same. She needed the same.

"Why?" she whispered.

"Because I need you," he came in closer so for a soft quick kiss.

Meredith let him in. She felt safe in Derek's arms. That's all she needed. To be in his arms and to

know he'll be there. That's all she ever really wanted. She rested her head on his chest letting out a sigh of content. He was hers. He was her Derek again.

"What's with you?" Cristina asked sitting next to Meredith at Joe's.

"Oh nothing," she said smiling. She took a sip of her beer.

Cristina knitted her eyebrows in confusion,"Okay, you're starting to creep me out. First your all oh no my ex is here. Then when I tried to talk to you in the hall way you ignored me and now. And now you're all glowy and crap."

Meredith smiled wider at Cristina's comment. The door ringed. Meredith turned around and beamed at the person who walked through. Derek smiled back and walked over to Meredith's seat.

"Is this seat taken?" he indicated to the seat on Meredith's left.

"It might," she smirked.

Cristina rolled her eyes,"Oh, great. She's glowing because of McDreamy crap."

"Really?" he raised his eyebrows.

She nodded,"By my boyfriend. He's supposed to be here any minute now."

"Really, he must be some lucky guy," he teased sitting next to her. He kissed her softly.

She giggled,"My boyfriend's not going to like that. He's the jealous type."

Derek smirked. He loved their game. They used to play it all the time. When was the last time they played their game? Not for a long time, that's for sure.

"He's going to go crazy then if he sees this," Derek snaked his arm around Meredith lower back and kissed her. He pushed his tongue through his lips and grazed it against her teeth. She opened her mouth hungrily. His tongue was rubbing at the roof of her mouth. She used her own to sort of pet Derek's tongue who pressed himself against Meredith even more hardening the kiss.

Cristina gagged,"You know you guys are at a public place right? People are starting to stare and I'm going to lose my lunch."

Meredith stopped to take a look around the room. Everyone was staring at them, even Joe was staring. Meredith blushed and buried her head in Derek's chest.

"Let them stare," Der smirked. He scooped Meredith up.

"Derek?! What are you doing?" she giggled. She tried to protest but she loved it. The twinkle in her eye gave it away. He carried her into the car. The whole ride to her house Meredith stared at Derek. From his hair to his hands. She realized he had his own unique smell. It was a mixture of deodorant, faint whiff of Cologne, and something else. Something that was just, Derek.

In front of the house Derek picked Meredith up again. He carried her up the stairs and in her room. They both plopped down on the bed. Meredith snuggled closely next to him.

"I need you," she whispered in his ear.

Derek turned around to face Meredith. He studied her eyes. They were glistening with tears,"I need you too."

"I-I-I just," she bit her lip unknowing what to say.

"Shhh... Its okay. I know," he wrapped his arms around her and trailed kisses down her neck. She smiled knowing that he was there. Grateful he would be there. She pressed her lips against his. She climbed on top of him to get better axis to his body. She ran her fingers through Der's hair. She kissed him even harder making him groan.

Then the door bell rang.