Chpt 5
Ryan pov
Ryan hadn't seen Marissa all weekend. It looked liked she was still avoiding him. How could he make her see they were supposed to be together if she was nowhere to be found?
Ryan had never been so caught up about a girl before, sure there had been other girls but no one came close to Marissa. She had made him feel worth something when the world had seemed to have been against him.
He hadn't been lucky growing up, coming from a rough family and an even rougher neighbourhood but his luck had changed the day he had met Sandy Cohen. He had welcomed him into his life and indirectly to Marissa. So to lose Marissa like this was just something Ryan wasn't going to let happen, he wasn't going to lose her to Johnny.
At school on Monday, Ryan waited for Marissa by her locker, positive she would have to drop off some books and then at least she couldn't avoid him. To his surprise she didn't show at her locker or all day.
By the end of school, Ryan had convinced himself the worst had happened. So he drove straight over to Marissa's. At Marissa's Ryan noticed a truck outside, staring at it for a few seconds he realised with dread that his worst fears had become true because the truck was Johnny's. Marissa had chosen Johnny over him.
He turned to open the door of his car not wanting to see Marissa and Johnny together but at the same moment the front door of the trailer opened and out walked Johnny with Marissa in tow. She had been crying. Ryan didn't usually voice his emotions out loud, in fact he never did but at that second seeing them together, he let out a small sob. Ryan quickly composed himself and proceeded to get in the car ignoring Marissa's shouts telling him to stay.
He backed out of the drive with indifference creeping into his heart. After all they had been through; she hadn't chosen him and didn't even have the guts to tell him to his face before she went back to Johnny.
So to Ryan, Marissa no longer existed.