Stuck in his Thoughts.

Drake played disinterestedly plucking out a few tunes. Angrily he wiped the moisture from his eyes. It was bad enough he'd broken down in front of Josh, he couldn't make a habit of this. He slumped back, leaning his back against his mattress. He played the beginning of a song he had begun to write before laying his guitar down in disgust. That didn't sound right at all.

Drake slid down the ladder and flopped down on the couch. All he really wanted to do was lay down and stay asleep until everything blew over, people stopped talking about him and Josh, and he felt like he could look at Josh without feeling like dirt.

Seeing as that didn't seem like it was going to happen anytime soon, he just wanted to stay as far away from the situation as possible. Maybe that made him a coward, maybe that made him weak, he didn't care. Drake regretted telling Josh a lot of what he said. He glanced down at the silver bracelet that now adorned his wrist. Josh had looked horrified when he realized he hadn't know Drake was allergic to bees. Drake certainly shouldn't have mentioned the Advil story, that not only made Josh worry, but made Drake look even worse considering the situation.

Drake glanced down at his hands, which for the most part had healed. There was still a little redness and one f the blisters had left a light scar. The chemical burn had been one of the most physically painful experiences of his life. Drake shifted to he was facing the back of the couch. He could remember when this was his room, and he didn't have to share it. He had his drum set where Josh's bed is, and he didn't have to worry about his actions effecting Megan until she came to his school.

He would never admit that he liked it more now that he had Josh as his roommates and constant companion even if Josh hated it. Josh told him he wanted to be his brother again, but Drake even now, thought he was only saying it for his benefit and now Josh's own. Josh was doing so much better without him, why would he want him back?

Drake shivered and pulled the blanket on the back of the couch over himself. Josh was making an effort to be nice to him, and try and be his brother again, but Drake knew, it would only hurt him in the long run. He wasn't sure how to explain that to Josh any way other than how he already had. He heard the bedroom door open and poked his head up to see Josh pocket his cell phone and walk over to him.

"Hey." Josh greeted with a warm smile.

"Hey." Drake responded somewhat blankly.

"Let's go to the premiere!" Josh said excitedly. "Mom and dad are out and Megan is going to her friends house."

"You want to go to the movies?" Drake said carefully, not wanting to over extend the meaning of the words.

"Yeah. We can hang out catch a movie later. It'll be fun! Helen has been asking about you." Josh told him, which was true. Everyone always loved Drake, and Josh's boss had been no exception.

"I guess it has been a little while. The last time I was there was when you had be kicked out." Drake said with a stretched smile.

"Good so get your coat and let's go then." Josh said, pulling the blanket off his brother.

"Ok, ok, I'm going." Drake said with a more genuine smile. Grabbing his coat from the bottom rung of the ladder, he joined Josh at the door.

"So," Josh began. "What do you want to see, Space Mom's from Motha or June of Junsberg?" He asked herding his brother out the door.