Disclaimer: Serenity(Serena) doesn't own kingdom hearts. She doesn't even own the bra she's wearing. It's her friends.

Riku whispers to Sora.

"So how do you like school so far?" he asked his aquamarine eyes full of worry.

"It's great I love my new friends Demyx and Zexion! They are awesome!" he says his own eyes shining brightly. Riku looks slightly offended.

"Im not your friend?" he said feeling a rather sharp jab to his heart. Sora nods.

"If I hated you, would I had made two people who completely hate you help me carry you to the nurse? I think not." Sora smiles brightly showing perfectly white and straight teeth. Riku smiles back, whishing he could kiss Sora. He resisted simply because, Saix was watching their every move. Riku sighed and scribbled a note to Saix and throws it at him.

Hey don't worry, Sora is SO a virgin. You can be his first.

Riku

Saix reads the note and nods in Riku's direction. Riku felt a pang of regret writing that.

'I want to be his first….' He said softly just to himself. Then Sora looked up at him.

"Who do you want to be first?" He asked pure curiosity in his eyes. Riku felt himself flush lightly.

"Um you. " he said then he slapped himself mentally. Sora flushed slightly.

"For what?" Sora asks again, smiling clearly enjoying Riku's flustered ness. Then sora looked up and reaches for his notebook.

"Whatever can I borrow a pencil?" he asks, Riku enjoying the fact that the topic changed. Riku smiles and nods, handing Sora his pencil. For a brief moment, their fingers touched and Riku's heart started beating. 'Dammit sora, why can't I just fuck you? I don't want to hurt you.' Riku thinks while sora blushed, jerking his hand away.

RIKU'S POV!

Why can't you leave your hand their sora? I sigh internally and Saix glares at me. Shit, I think he's really pissed. The bell rings and I look up as sora grabs my hand and pulls me out of the classroom his eyes laced with fear. A jolt goes through my body then I notice his down face. This isn't like him… he's normally so fucking happy.

"Riku… why do you talk to Saix?" he asks tears about to fall, neither of us noticing its time to go home. I sigh and rub my temples, dreading this conversation greatly.

"We are.. Going out…." I say slowly, regretting every word. I see Sora flinch, and look up at me with broken eyes.

"He raped me.." He says and I feel as if my heart has torn in two. I feel tears coming to my eyes but I bit my cheek causing blood to fill my mouth. My voice becomes shaky.

"He did? Why?" I ask trying not to sob

"Because I wouldn't have sex with him." He replies back and before I even register what he did he hugged me tightly. I hugged back relishing the feeling of his small body that pressed so wonderfully against my own. He smiled then pulled away.

Sora's POV

WHY DID I HUG HIM? Oh my god im sooo stupid. Great now im acting like a fan girl… oh wow his smile… god he's hot. Dammit fan girl mode! I know im girly!

Riku's POV

Oh god. That smile, it makes me melt. I need to get Saix away from sora. I don't know his game, but I don't think im going to like it. I have to tell sora. I can't the words wont seem to come. Why was become of me? Am I in love? Nonsense! Riku Nomura doesn't fall in love, not now not after what happened with him.

FLASH BACK

I smile brightly at Reno, his eyes filled with lust and he kissed me. I blush lightly and kiss back. I was thirteen. He bit my lip harshly and I jumped back, my lower lip bleeding. He sighs and pulls me between his legs.
"Riku, I don't know how to tell you this but." He says trailing off. I perk up and look at him, my eyes consumed by worry and fear.
"I have fallen in love with someone else." He states as my jaw drops. He doesn't say anything else as he picks up his stuff and walks out of my life forever. I couldn't help but scream aloud in the now empty house.
"I'll never fall in love again!" it echo's across the house and I can't help but cry. I Sacrum to my knees and sob like a three year old. For the first time in my life, I felt empty, ugly, and unloved. I sob for a long time and finally get up and stare at myself in the mirror, holding a shiny new razor blade in my hand. I wonder what this is like.. I pull up my shirt revealing a shoulder blade and I run the blade lightly across my shoulder. My eyes water as I wince, the blood welling up. This was stupid. I hate anyone who does this. I quickly put a band-aid on the cut and go into my room and fall asleep.

FLASHBACK OVER

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