Lily
I'm in trouble. I am in so much trouble. I have a boyfriend, who is funny, talented, arguably brilliant, and incredibly handsome. And I'm in love with his best friend. Damn. What do I do? I really think I could love James, once he grows up a little and stops hexing Severus every single time he blinks. But I can't sit with him without wanting to just…look at Remus. There's something about him that just makes me want to…have you ever seen a book from across the library, and it just grabs your attention? So before you realize what you're doing, you get up, walk over and grab it. I want to read Remus, know what makes him tick, what keeps him with his nose glued to the book of the day. And there's something about him, something he's not telling anyone. James says it's nothing and I shouldn't worry about it. But sometimes, when Remus looks up and our eyes meet from across the common room, I see something there, something that I've never seen in anyone else's eyes. I wonder what it is?
I'm terrified that James will find out what has been going on in my mind. I'm trying to suppress these thoughts, but they just sneak up on me when I least expect it. When we're on prefect duty, patrolling the corridors, I have to try so hard not to just reach out and grab his hand. Surely he must have some idea of how I feel about him? I hope not.