The four of them sat there in stunned silence
The four of them sat there in stunned silence. Danny had tears running down his face and all he could think about was how he had screwed up. He wanted nothing more to be able to tell her how much he loved her, to hold her and never let go.
A couple hours passed and finally the doctor came back into the room.
"Detective Monroe is out of surgery again and is stable. I will have a nurse come find you when we move her to the ICU, but in the mean time, Detective Messer could I speak with you in private?" Dr. Simpson asked and immediately Danny went white in the face.
"Why…why can't you tell me here?" Danny asked with fresh tears threatening to fall. He was certain that what ever this doctor was about to tell him was not good news.
"I think this is a matter you would like to discuss in private." Dr. Simpson continued to urge Danny. Finally Danny nodded and followed the doctor out of the room. "What do you suppose that was all about?" Flack asked as they sat back down.
"I don't know but I hope it is not more bad news, I don't know how much more Danny can take." Mac added.
A few minutes later, Danny returned to the room looking like he had seen a ghost. He was pale and looked like he had aged 10 years in a matter of minutes.
"Danny, what's wrong?" Stella asked suddenly very concerned. Danny did not say anything and simply sat down between her and Mac. "Danny, you're scaring me. What's wrong?"
"Montana was pregnant." Danny heard Stella gasp. "She lost the baby. That was why they had to rush her into surgery again."
Flashback…
"Have a seat Detective Messer." Dr. Simpson said as he led Danny into one of the private family waiting rooms.
"I think I'd rather stand if that's okay." The doctor nodded. "Please, is Lindsay going to be okay?"
"The reason we had to rush Detective Monroe back into surgery was that she had an incomplete miscarriage. We had to perform a DNC to stop the bleeding." Danny was shocked. He felt his knees start to give out and decided that he better sit down after all.
"Lindsay was… Lindsay was pregnant?" Danny asked.
"It appears so. We did not notice it during the first surgery and I doubt she even knew. From the size of the fetus I would say she was only five weeks at the most. Detective Taylor said that you were her boyfriend. Is it safe to assume that you were the father?" Danny wanted to say no, because it was just too painful to think they had lost their child but he knew that Lindsay would never have cheated on him.
"We've not had sex in almost a month and then we sort of broke up. Although I sure it was mine. Lindsay was not like that." Danny said quietly. Only you would do something like that, he thought to himself.
"Well if she wakes up…" Danny cut him off.
"When, not if, when she wakes up." Danny corrected him.
"Sorry, when Detective Monroe wakes up we can tell her or you can, we will leave it up to you. Sometimes it is better coming from someone you know."
"I would like to tell her." Dr. Simpson nodded and turned to leave the room. "The nurse should be back soon to show you to her room." Danny shook his hand and got up to go join Stella, Mac and Flack in the waiting room.
"Oh Danny, I'm so sorry." Stella said through the tears.
"I can't believe this. I was going to be a father." Stella wrapped her arms around him. "How could I love something that a few minutes ago I didn't even know existed?" Danny asked to no one in particular. No body answered, because no body knew what to say.
"Detective Messer?" A nurse asked as she walked into the room breaking the silence and Danny jumped up. "I can show you to her room if you would like." He nodded and turned back to Mac.
"Go ahead Danny. Take your time." Danny nodded again and followed the nurse out of the room.
"Now, before you go in, you need to prepare yourself. There will be a lot of wires and tubes, all of which are necessary to help Detective Monroe heal. It can be a lot to take in. If you need anything just press the call button and a nurse will come. Talk to her; let her know you're there. Right now that is all you can do, it's up to her now." Danny nodded and the nurse pushed the door open. Instantly the tears began pouring down his face. The nurse closed the door and Danny was alone with Lindsay.
"Hey Montana." Danny said through the tears as he took her hand. He ran his thumb across her knuckles. "You can't leave me. I need you to fight. I love you so much. Did you hear me baby, I love you." Danny turned his attention to the heart monitor. He watched the steady rhythm and continued to hold her hand. "I'm not going anywhere sweetie. Night and day, I'm not going anywhere. I'm going to fix this. I'm going to fix us. You'll see, I promise."
Danny sat there for over an hour, just holding her hand.
"Danny?" Danny looked up to see Mac standing there holding a bag. "Hawkes brought you some clothes." Danny looked at the bag and then at Lindsay. "I will sit with her while you change." Reluctantly Danny let go of her hand. He leaned over and pressed a gentle kiss on her forehead. Mac handed him the bag and he left the room. Mac pulled up a chair and took Lindsay's hand, which was still warm from Danny's constant grip.
"That boy is crazy about you Lindsay. I know you two have a lot to work out but he loves you and I am pretty sure you still love him." Mac said as he gave her hand a squeeze. "Why do you think I kept assigning you and him to the same cases?" Mac teased. "You have to get better Lindsay because I don't think Danny's heart could handle it if you don't." Mac paused and took a deep breath. "Or mine either for that matter. You are like a daughter to me, Lindsay and I can't bare the thought of losing you." Mac felt a single tear roll down his cheek. "So you need to fight. You need to fight with everything you have. The team cannot lose you. We have been through so much in the last couple years, we cannot lose you too. Danny cannot lose you. I cannot lose you." Mac kissed her hand as the tears began to run down his face.
A/N- Please review.