Summary: Naruto's life has never been perfect but when he gets raped by someone he's supposed to know it pushes him over the edge. He leaves Konoha in search of a new life in which he can raise his new family. However something goes wrong and he's forced to come back to Konoha and face the one who raped him along with all those who don't believed the man he accuses to be the real rapist. Including Sasuke the one he loves.

Pairings: SasuNaru

A/N: Hey everyone. Here's another chapter for you guys to read. Wow I was shocked how many people have read the story. I wish all those people would have reviewed but that's ok. I'm still super happy. As for Naruto's rape sorry but I won't be telling you who did it for a very long time. Sorry I hope you're not mad but Naruto not knowing for so long is going to make the story even better. Enjoy this chapter.

Disclaimer: Trust me I own nothing if I did there would be many yaoi couples in the show and manga.

WARNING: This story contains: Rape, mpreg (male pregnancy), yaoi (boyxboy), slight Sakura bashing, etc.

"abc" talking

'abc' thinking or talking with Kyuubi.

'abc' Kyuubi speaking.

Watashi No Kodomo

Chapter 2: Odoroki (surprise)

Naruto woke up with a start and shook his head.

'Man that was the weirdest dream' Naruto thought as he brought his hands to his face, 'Wait, why are tears streaming down my face?'

'Kit…I'm sorry'

'Ha…Ha…what for theres nothing to be sorry for it was all just a dream,' Naruto said, 'right?'

'Kit…'

'No, No, NO!! It didn't happen, it was all a dream. Simply just a figment of my imagination. Nothing more.' Naruto yelled frustrated as to why he was still crying. But even though he denied the event he began to sob into his hands.

'I know you do not want to remember it but it did happen.' Kyubbi whispered. Kyuubi let Naruto sob waiting patiently for the young blond to stop. Naruto sobbed for a long time until he could cry no more. He just layed there like a lifeless body.

'I suggest you tell someone' Kyubbi said breaking the silence.

'W…why?' Naruto rasped out. His voice barely a whisper, 'What for…'

'Because…the wounds you received last night I couldn't heal them all the way. Not enough chakra'

'I…no! I can't tell anyone…they wouldn't care even if……..no…. they'd just laugh at me…'

'Kit…'

'NO! I will not tell anyone…please…Kyu…I don't want anyone to know…just…please' Naruto resumed to cry again like he was before. He sobbed silently for a while curled into a fetal position on his bed. He was disrupted by a knock on the front door. He wiped his face clean and went to open it with a fake smile in place knowing he had to mask his sadness in order to keep the sorrowful events a secret.

"Who is it?" he asked cheerfully handle on the door.

"It's me Iruka, open up" Naruto swung the door open with a wide fake smile.

"Hey Iruka," he shouted, "come on in." Iruka walked into Naruto's house finding Narutos house neatly in order. Iruka was happy that Naruto kept his home clean. Naruto used to be the messiest person in Konoha. He still was messy but at least now he cleaned up after himself. Naruto led Iruka to his small sofa.

"Would you like anything to eat or drink?" Naruto asked trying to act as normal as possible.

"No thanks," Iruka responded. Naruto also sat down on the sofa turning so that he was facing Iruka.

"You haven't visited in a while…what's up?" Naruto asked.

"Sorry about that," Iruka sheepishly said while rubbing the back of his head, "I've been really busy lately."

"Ya it must be tough being a teacher and Tsunades second assistant too," Naruto said fake grinning.

"Well yeah…um….thats what I came over for. I haven't really been able to talk to you in quite a while since I'm so busy. How are you doing? Have you been eating well?"

"I'm doing great. There's nothing to worry about. How about you? Are you doing well?"

"Oh yes I'm perfectly fine. You know Naruto you can trust me with anything you want to say."

Naruto for a moment was shocked then he recovered.

"What makes you say that Iruka-sensei?"

"You seem troubled about something, as if something is really bothering you"

"No. I'm fine. There's nothing wrong like I have said before. Nothing is going on that is troubling me. What I don't get is why you think something's wrong."

"Well you see that's another reason why I came over. Last night was my first actual break in quite a while so I went for a stroll. I'm usually working at all 

sorts of hours through the day and was tired so I felt like going for a midnight stroll…in the forest. I found you on the floor bloody and unconscious," Iruka paused waiting for some sort of explanation. He looked down to the floor waiting for the response. The second Iruka had said he had found Naruto unconscious and bloody, Naruto assumed the worst.

'He knows…this is bad' Naruto thought, tears began to well up in his eyes at the rememberance of what happened and the thought of Iruka knowing. Naruto pushed back the tears as best he could.

'Would it be so wrong if Iruka knew?' Kyubbi asked.

'Yes' Naruto thought with a whimper. Naruto's conversation was cut short when Iruka asked,

"Naruto…What happened?" Naruto thought quickly at what he would say. He sheepishly rubbed the back of his head with a big fake smile on his face and said,

"Hehe, sorry Iruka if I scared you. I was training and I sorta kinda pushed myself past my limit. Was exhausted and fell asleep." Iruka seemed to analyze what was said. By Iruka's expression Naruto knew Iruka was suspicious but didn't see any reason as to not believe him. But Iruka still had another question.

"That explains just about everything. But I'm still confused as to why even after I picked you up and brought you home you didn't move an inch."

"I was exhausted…yeah…I overtrained hehe," Naruto quickly said. Iruka looked up at the time and immediately turned pale.

"Oh no! I'm late!! Tsunade-sama is going to be so mad!" Iruka yelled, "Sorry I have to leave so soon Naruto but I'm running late."

"That's ok," Naruto said. He was inwardly happy that the older man was leaving. He felt so uncomfortable being in such close contact with him. He loved Iruka like a father, he really did. But at the moment he needed to be alone.

Iruka was at the door in seconds, but then returned to Naruto and gave him a hug while saying,

"I'm glad you're ok," Iruka said while pulling Naruto into an even tighter hug. Naruto stiffened but because of his panicked state, Iruka didn't notice.

"Bye!" Iruka yelled as he ran out the door.

"Yeah, see you" Naruto said while closing the door. As soon as the door was closed and locked, Naruto burst into tears sliding to the floor. It was a lot harder than he thought it would be to act as if nothing happened.

The next day was even harder for Naruto. He had received a letter yesterday saying that he and his old team (Kakashi, Sasuke, and Sakura), had a mission debriefing today. He didn't want to go in his condition, but if he didn't go people would get suspicious or worse worried.

Naruto went and did his daily routine as if nothing had changed. But in a way it was different. Every time he saw his reflection he would get a disgusted feeling in the pit of his stomach. He couldn't bear looking at himself without thinking he was a filthy whore who had had sex with a person he couldn't even remember. He roamed around his apartment doing the stuff automatically but there was no life in his body. He left the apartment after showering dressing and eating. He slowly headed towards the Hokage's office hands in his pockets wearing black pants and an orange shirt. On his way there many people said hi but he didn't answer, in fact, he didn't even hear them.

Naruto arrived barely on time. He walked into Tsunade's office and looked up waiting for Tsunade to begin informing them about the upcoming mission.

"Glad you finally made it," Tsunade said, "Now we can finally begin."

"This really isn't a high ranked mission but all the other chunin and genin are either hurt, sick, or on a mission right now. Your mission is to escort a wealthy man, that was staying here on vacation, home. He lives in Mizu country. The mission should take no more than a week."

"WHAT!! Why is it going to take so long?!" Sakura asked/yelled.

"Lord Nobunaga will be carried by his servants. It's going to take slightly longer because of that. You will leave tomorrow at seven be ready. You're dismissed." Kakashi, Sasuke, Sakura, and Naruto bowed and turned to leave. 

Naruto was the first one out the door. He was already almost outside by the time the others exited the office. Sasuke ran after Naruto trying to catch up.

"Hey wait up…Naruto!" Sasuke yelled. Naruto was already out the door. Naruto had heard sasuke but he was scared so he ignored him. Once outside Naruto ran. Sasuke came out of the building and saw Naruto running.

'Why is he running away?' Sasuke thought. He quickly jumped up onto a roof top seeing Naruto get closer. He jumped down right behind Naruto and yanked his arm spinning him around so that Naruto was facing Sasuke.

"Let me go!" Naruto growled Sasuke dropped his hand. The instant his arm was released Naruto jumped roof top to roof top running away. Sasuke quickly followed. Naruto was almost home when suddenly everything started to spin and then everything went black. Sasuke had been following Naruto to his apartment and had almost caught up to him when suddenly Naruto stopped and began to fall. He quickly closed the distance between them catching Naruto while at the same time keeping his balance on the roof top.

"Naruto?" Sasuke asked. No response came. Sasuke began to worry.

'Calm down,' Sasuke thought to himself, 'He just fainted, why worry? Uchihas don't worry. He's fine.' Sasuke securely held Naruto in a bridal style way and sped off to Naruto's apartment.

Once at his apartment, Sasuke grabbed the house key from Naruto's pocket and opened the door. He laid Naruto on his bed and pulled a light blanket over him.

'He looks kind of pale. It's almost as if he hasn't eaten for a while.' Sasuke thought. Sasuke headed over to the kitchen planning on making something for Naruto to eat. He looked into the refrigerater and was happy happy to see that there was food in there, actual food, not just ramen. He pulled out many different types of vegetables and began to chop them up. His goal was to make some vegetable soup. While the vegetables began to cook, Sasuke heard Naruto groan. He turned the fire low and started to walk to Naruto's room. He picked up his pace when he heard retching sounds coming from the room. When he arrived he saw Naruto puking into a trash can.

"Naruto," he said going over to the bed. "Whats wrong? Are you ok?"

Naruto stopped puking but he put his head between his legs just in case. (A/N: I hear when you feel nauseated you should put your head in between your legs. They say it helps)

Sasuke rubbed circles on his back in a comforting gesture. That's when Naruto seemed to notice that Sasuke was there. His head snapped up and his eyes widened as he noticed just how close Sasuke was to him. Naruto pushed Sasuke's arm off him.

"W…wh…what are you doing here?" he asked Sasuke, inching awayto the furthest corner of his bed. His eyes wide not even conceling the fear that was in them. Sasuke noticed how Naruto seemed to be scared and inched towards him, his arm stretched out intending to lay it on Naruto's shoulder to comfort him.

"I was worried about you. You passed out," Sasuke said.

"Get out," Naruto whispered. Sasuke's hand touched Naruto's shoulder and he visibly flinched.

"Get out," he said a little louder, "Get out!" Naruto was shouting now. Sasuke, genuinely worried, reached over to touch Naruto but stopped when Naruto again told him to get out.

"Get out. Get out. Get out! Get out!! Get out!! GET OUT!!" Naruto ranted arms hitting the bed like a small child giving a tantrum would. Sasuke backed up slowly eyes wide with shock. Naruto had never acted this way before. He always had welcomed the Uchiha into his home. But now the blond haired boy was kicking him out. He continued to slowly step backward until he tripped over something and fell onto his back.

"GET OUT!!" Naruto yelled/sobbed as during his rant he had begun to cry. Sasuke scrambled up and ran out the room. Evident hurt and shock in his eyes. Naruto ran over to the door and bolted it shut. He slowly returned to his room tears streaming down his face but not a sound emitting from him.

'Naruto!' kyubbi started while Naruto walked back to his room.

'…'



'Naruto, we need to talk about why you were sick'

'I….It doesn't matter'

'Yes it does'

'No it doesn't I don't care!'

'But…'

'Can't talk anymore. Gotta pack for tomorrow's mission'

Naruto walked into his room grabbed his small backpack and began to put stuff into it while what happened between him and Sasuke not but a little while ago played over and over in his head and in his thoughts it always froze on Sasuke's hurt expression before he ran out. Naruto barely got any sleep that night and whenever he did manage to fall asleep he had nightmares about his rape. In his dream Sasuke and everyone else was disgusted with him, telling him he was a filthy whore that should just die. He woke up for the fifth time in a sweat trembling with fear. He curled into a fetal position and silently cried. He pulled the sheets tighter around his body as if the blanket would protect him from the outside world.

Naruto eventually stopped crying but he couldn't stop shaking. He slowly stood up stretching his body out but never once letting go of the blanket. His knuckles were white from his strong grip on the blanket but he didn't notice or care for that matter. He looked up towards his alarm clock with blue eyes that no longer shone with innocence and found it was barely 4 am. He didn't have to meet Kakashi until 6 am.

'Kit maybe you should take a bath you're all dirty and you smell' Kyubbi said giving a half hearted laugh, trying to cheer up the blonde. Naruto didn't answer all he did was walk straight to the bathroom filled up the tub, shed his clothes and got in. He sat there a while doing nothing head hanging low. Suddenly he broke the silence.

'You're right' he whispered to Kyuubi.

'What?' the fox asked.

'You're right. I am dirty. I'm filthy. No one will ever want to touch me again. I've lost everything.'

'What are you talking about Kit? I was just joking.'

'That may be, but you were right. That man…what he did to me…he made me dirty. No one should touch me. NO ONE!!' Naruto yelled. He grabbed the sea sponge and severely began scrubbing his body. He scrubbed himself as hard as he could.

"I've got to get clean. I'm dirty!" he yelled. Naruto scrubbed his body all over to the point of bleeding.

'Kit stop.'

No answer. Naruto just kept scrubbing everywhere. The water began to turn a light shade of red.

'Kit! Stop your hurting yourself.'

Naruto still didn't stop scrubbing the water was red around his body and his arms, torso, and legs were bloody but he didn't stop.

'Kit you've got to stop' Kyuubi pleaded, 'I haven't regained my chakra. At least not enough to heal you.'

Naruto ignored him and just kept on scrubbing his chest and back even harder.

'Kit, you're going to die if you don't stop. You're losing too much blood.'

Naruto stopped when he said that.

'Maybe it would be better if I die.'

'Kit…'

Kyuubi was cut short when Naruto's alarm went off for the original time he was supposed to wake up, 5 am. The beeping got louder and louder with each beep. Naruto emerged from the water not bothering to dry himself off or cover himself with a towel and went to his room to turn off the alarm. Once the alarm 

clock was off he just stood there doing nothing. It went on like that for ten minutes until Kyuubi finally spoke out.

'Kit stop this.'

'…'

'Kit you need to stop. You're going to drown yourself in darkness.'

'So what?' the lifeless body of Naruto said 'this way…at least I don't get hurt…I don't feel pain'

'That's unhealthy' Kyubbi pleaded but his words weren't heard. Kyubbi using a stern voice said, 'If you don't want to show emotion fine but at least clean yourself and put some clothes on, also clean up this puddle of blood you made. People are going to ask questions if you don't.'

Naruto without saying anything went back to the bathroom and emptied out the tub and he turned the shower on and let the water run over his body washing the blood away with it. Naruto then patted himself dry, applied ointment to all the wounds and rapped himself in bandages. He put on his black new hipster pants with a black long sleeve shirt. The hipster pants had several pockets all over them, plenty of room to hold all the kunai's and shuriken he needed. He tied his Konoha headband around his waist letting his hair fall into his eyes. He made sure that none of the bandages were visible and left his apartment.

Naruto arrived at the main gate at six am exactly where he was to meet his team and Lord Nobunaga. He was the last one to arrive.

"Naruto! You were almost late! Even Kakashi got here before you!" Sakura yelled hitting Naruto over the head. Hands still in his pockets, Naruto tensed but didn't respond to Sakura's abuse. Before Sakura could say anything more Lord Nobunaga spoke.

"Did you say Naruto?" He asked surprised, "as in the nine tailed demon fox Kyuubi?" Sasuke, who had been silent like he usually was, spoke up when he heard Lord Nobunaga call Naruto the demon fox.

"Naruto is not the demon Kyuubi."



"Yes he is," Lord Nobunaga said, "Being the host of that demon is enough to call him the demon itself."

"He is not the demon!" Sasuke yelled eyes going sharingan.

Lord Nobunaga crossed his arms and said,

"I refuse to let that demon excort me. Who knows, he might lose control and kill us all."

Sasuke was beyond mad at that. He opened his mouth to say something but Naruto beat him to it.

"If that is what you wish," Naruto whispered head still down, hands still in his pockets, "then I will leave." Naruto turned to walk away but Sasuke grabbed his arm yanking him back. Naruto startled by Sasuke's abrupt move stood silent.

"If he leaves so do I!" Sasuke yelled at Lord Nobunaga.

"Now Sasuke, Lord Nobu…" Kakashi started but was cut off.

"No! If Naruto cannot come than I won't either."

"Now lets not be rash. You are of the best I absolutely must have you excort me," Lord Nobunaga said matter-of-factly. Sasuke's eyes narrowed tremendously.

"I refuse," he said. With that Sasuke turned around and began to walk away dragging a surprised Naruto behind him.

"Fine! Fine!!" Lord Nobunaga yelled after them, "You both shall come." Before Sasuke could say anything Kakashi took over.

"Now that it's settled we are leaving NOW!" he yelled giving Sasuke a glare.

"Hn" Sasuke grunted releasing Naruto's arm.

Lord Nobunaga entered into a tent on a platform and his servants picked the tent up. From the tent he said, "Let's go."



With that Team Kakashi, Lord Nobunaga, and the servants set off on their four day journey to Mizu country.

Sasuke walked to one side of Lord Nobunaga, Kakashi on the other side, Naruto to the front, and Sakura at the back.

One hour into the journey still nobody had spoken yet. Sasuke couldn't take his eyes off of Naruto.

'What's wrong with him,' Sasuke thought. He glanced up at Naruto. 'He's acting so strange. I mean normally he'd be happy and talking but now he's extremely silent he hasn't said anything at all. But that's not all whats with his outfit? It's practically all black but I have to admit those clothes make him look even better.' Sasuke looked up at Naruto and saw him stagger. 'Uh oh, is he going to pass out again?'

'This is so stupid' Sakura thought. 'Naruto's being stupid and it's affecting Sasuke. I brushed my pink hair even longer today just so that he would notice me but he keeps looking at Naruto. Stupid Naruto he should just go away or just fuckin' die so me and Sasuke can be happy together.' Sakura looked at Naruto and saw him stagger a bit 'Ha, he's so stupid he can't even walk straight. He's such a stupid klutz.'

'That was a rough beginning, good thing everything is going all right now. I always thought Sasuke liked Naruto but today confirmed it,' Kakashi thought, 'Hehe, maybe Jiraya will get some idea's from them for the next Icha Icha Paradise. He needs to write a new one. I've read them all and am currently re-reading one.' Kakashi looked up and glanced at each of his students well now more like comrades. 'Sakura as usual is staring at Sasuke. Sasuke keeps glancing up at Naruto. Whats wrong with Naruto though? He just staggered. Something must be wrong. I'll have to keep an eye on him.'

'What's wrong with me?' Naruto thought, 'I keep almost tripping. I feel extremely weak and I'm afraid I'll collapse soon. Not only that I feel really nauseas.'

'Kit, I can explain why you are feeling this way,' Kyuubi told Naruto.

'Uggggh Kyu-chan I don't feel so well,' Naruto said.



'Kit just breath in and out slowly the nauseas feeling will soon fade.'

'Kyu, I really don't feel so good.'

Suddenly Naruto stopped walking, doubled over and threw up.

'Naruto seriously doesn't look well. He seems to be turning pale. That Baka should have said something if he was sick. If he's sick then that's probably why he hasn't said anything in the last eight hours.' Sasuke thought. Suddenly Naruto fell to the floor and threw up.

'Oh no, he's sicker than I thought.' Sasuke ran over to where Naruto was breathing deeply trying to not throw up again. The servants stopped walking when they saw Naruto throw up. Looking down on the blond in disgust.

"Whats going on here?" Lord Nobunaga said peeking his head out of the tent.

"Naruto seems to be sick," Kakashi stated.

"That stupid Baka coming on this mission sick. What an idiot," Sakura said crossing her arms.

"The demon is sick?" Lord Nobunaga asked appalled, stepping out of his tent and onto the ground.

"Yes it seems NARUTO is ill we're sorry for the inconvenience," Kakashi said glancing at Sasuke to see if he had heard what Nobunaga said, he didn't.

"This is unacceptable! I don't want to be around a demon, lest a sick demon! I refuse to travel with him here. I don't want to catch some demonic germ he has."

This time Sasuke did hear Nobunaga. He slowly stood up head down and turned facing Nobunaga. His eyes were shadowed by his hair so you couldn't see them.

"He is not Kyuubi," Sasuke slowly said annunciating each syllable.



"Yes he is. The host the demon it's the same thing." Suddenly Sasuke launched at Lord Nobunaga. Before he could blink Sasuke was behind him with a kunai at his throat.

"He is not the demon Kyubbi," Sasuke hissed. Kakashi pulled Sasuke away from Lord Nobunaga in less than a second. He stood in between them holding Sasuke back. He pushed Sasuke into a bow and bowed.

"I apologize for Sasuke's behavior," Kakashi said. He nudged Sasuke.

"I will not apologize," Sasuke stated breaking out of Kakashi's grip and walked back over to Naruto. Naruto was in a crouching position with his head in between his legs breathing heavily.

"I refuse to travel with the sick demon Kyuubi," Lord Nobunaga stated.

"That is understood I will have Sakura escort him back," Kakashi said.

"NANI!! Why do I have to go? It's not my fault that Baka is sick. I don't want to go," Sakura whined. Before anything could be said Sasuke volunteered.

"I'll go," Sasuke stated.

"Yes yes I believe that is best. After attempting to kill me I believe what people have said about you is all wrong. I no longer want you to accompany me on this journey." Lord Nobunaga told Sasuke.

"Understood," Kakashi said, "Sasuke please take Naruto home and make sure he visits Tsunade-sama as soon as possible.

"Hai," Sasuke said.

"Shall we continue?" Kakashi asked.

"Yes, let's go," Lord Nobunaga said. He stepped back into his tent, and the servants picked him up. Kakashi, Sakura, Lord Nobunaga, and the servants left Sasuke to care for Naruto. Once they were out of sight Sasuke turned back to Naruto who was still crouching.

"Naruto…" Sasuke started to say.

"I know. I heard," Naruto slowly stood up. "Thank you."

"Your welcome, but are you sure you're all right? I can carry you if you need me to…" Sasuke asked concerned.

"No its ok. I'll be fine. I'm sorry you had to leave the mission on my account," Naruto whispered ashamed.

"No it's all right; remember we promised five years ago to always be there for each other. Missing one mission won't do me harm. Anyway we should go."

"Ok. Thank you Sasuke."

"We should walk since you're sick," Sasuke stated.

"No I'll be fine if we go by tree," Naruto said, "Plus, the faster we get there the better."

"But…"

"It's ok I'll be fine."

"Ok but tell me if you begin to feel sick again," Sasuke told Naruto.

"Ok," Naruto replied. And with that they hopped up into the trees to make their way home.

'It's very strange. Sasuke is being really nice to me. I thought he would hate me when I flinched at his touch or when I kicked him out of my house." Naruto thought. 'It's also quite strange that I could easily talk to him when others are around but now that we're alone I almost want to tell him what happened. But I can't. He'd surely hate me for that.'

'Kit we need to talk,' Kyuubi said.

'Must we?' Naruto asked.

'Yes. You've ignored me told me to shut up or tell you later but this can't wait any longer. You need to know.'

'Fine but why is it so urgent. Is it life threatening?'

'It has to do with why you were feeling tired and nauseated.'

Naruto slowed to a stop and landed on a tree branch.

'Ok what is it?'

'Kit, I'm sorry it's mainly my fault.'

'What is? Why are you apologizing?'

'I'm sorry'

'Why! Tell me! You're really starting to scare me Kyu-chan!'

'Kit the reason why you're so ill is because…'

'Because what Kyuubi. Spit it out!!'

'Kit you're pregnant.'

T.B.C…………………………………….

A/N: Wow that was 19 pages written and I write pretty small. This is one of the longest chapters I have ever written in my life. I hoped you liked it. There are some parts I didn't like but overall I thought it was good. What did you think? Please tell me by reviewing. The more reviews the faster I update!