A/N: OMG I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so soooooo sorry!! I was going to update the day before I went on vacation but then I ran out of time. Then my stupid computer was acting stupid and then I got lazy. I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while. To make it up I'll post the next chapter up in a couple days instead of a week. Sorry. Please enjoy.

Summary: Naruto's life has never been perfect but when he gets raped by someone he's supposed to know it pushes him over the edge. He leaves Konoha in search of a new life in which he can raise his new family. However something goes wrong and he's forced to come back to Konoha and face the one who raped him along with all those who don't believed the man he accuses to be the real rapist. Including Sasuke the one he loves.

Pairings: SasuNaru (For now)

Disclaimer: Trust me I own nothing if I did there would be many yaoi couples in the show and manga.

WARNING: This story contains: Rape, mpreg (male pregnancy), yaoi (boyxboy), slight Sakura bashing, etc. Sorry if some characters seem OC.

"abc" talking

'abc' thinking or talking with Kyuubi.

'abc' Kyuubi speaking.

Watashi No Kodomo

Chapter 3: Sayonara (Goodbye)



Normal POV:

'Nani!! You're kidding right? It's not even possible!'

'No kit, I'm more joking. I am truly sorry.'

'No…way…'

'It's because we merged together all those years ago. You gained my strength but also everything else along with the ability to carry children.'

'I can't believe this is happening to me. If I'm really pregnant…then who's the fath…'

"Oh god…" Naruto said before everything went black.

XxX

'Wow I didn't realize that Naruto had stopped until I turned around and saw him at least 200 ft behind me. He must have needed to rest.' Sasuke turned around and headed back to where Naruto was standing on a very thick branch.

'Naruto looks kind of nervous,' Sasuke thought. 'That's strange; it's almost as if he's talking to someone. Oh that's right he's probably speaking with Kyuubi' Suddenly Naruto staggered and leaned against the tree. 'Oh no! He looks like he's about to faint.' Sasuke began to hop branch to branch faster. Naruto's eyes darted back and forth out of fear. Sasuke barely caught up to Naruto before he passed out. Sasuke grabbed him and jumped down to the ground. They, with Lord Nobunaga, had been walking on the path but to save time they went through the forest so now Sasuke landed on the soft mossy forest floor.



"Naruto…Naruto are you ok?" Sasuke asked gently shaking Naruto. He made no response. Suddenly Naruto began to twitch and shake.

"Naruto…Naruto…" Sasuke called again. Sasuke lifted Naruto's eyes open slightly to find them dilated.

'I know this isn't good. I'm no medical ninja but this can't be good.' Sasuke thought. He picked Naruto up quickly and placed him on his back. He ran as fast as he possibly could back to Konoha.

XxX

Sasuke arrived at the gates of Konoha ten minutes later. Naruto had all ready stopped shaking but now he had a high fever and was sweating like crazy. Sasuke swiftly ran to the Hokage tower because he knew Tsunade would be there. The guards of the tower easily let them pass.

Sasuke ran all the way up the stairs and into Tsunade who was sleeping.

"Wake up!" Sasuke yelled.

Tsunade was startled awake by Sasuke's loud yell. She sat up quickly yelling back, "I wasn't sleeping only resting my eyes from all this paperwork!!"

Sasuke was about to say a retort but decided against it. There was not time for such things.

"Tsunade-sama," Sasuke said formally. Tsunade quickly became serious. Sasuke never spoke formally to her unless it was serious. Noticing Tsunade's now serious expression Sasuke entered the office and revealed Naruto to her.



"Something's wrong with him. I don't know what," Sasuke said but then said, "Kakashi told me to bring him to you," to cover up the fact that he was worried. Tsunade stood up and went over to where Sasuke was holding Naruto. She quickly picked up Naruto and placed him on her couch and did a quick exam.

"This isn't good," Tsunade said.

"What's wrong?" Sasuke asked with a worried expression. "I mean….. is he going to bring down our team?"

"Cut the crap Sasuke, I already know that you like Naruto, in fact, most people do." Sasuke blushed.

"What are you…talking about?" Sasuke stuttered. Tsunade rolled her eyes.

"I know you like him because of the way you look at him. People noticed…. well everyone except Sakura and Naruto those two are so dense." Sasuke remained silent softly blushing.

"Now that we have that settled, we need to go. Naruto is very ill."

"I'll carry him," Sasuke whispered picking up Naruto bridal style.

"We're going to the hospital."

XxX

At the hospital Sasuke reluctantly laid Naruto down, he enjoyed the warmth in his arms. Tsunade called in Ophelia. Even though she's a dimwit about everything else, she is a very good nurse. (A/N: Ophelia is the vice president of the Sasuke fan club)



"Wow what happened to him?" Ophelia asked when she walked into the hospital room. Tsunade started saying a whole bunch of medical terms to explain what was wrong with Naruto. Sasuke didn't understand any of it.

"What?" Sasuke asked confused.

"All in all, he was stressed, had a nervous breakdown and got sick. He'll be fine," Ophelia told Sasuke. "After this maybe you'd like to go with me to…" Sasuke didn't let her finish.

"No," he said.

'I don't understand really much of what is going on here. I'm so confused but I can't show it.' Sasuke thought

"Ophelia please bring me the water IV bag he's dehydrated also we need to get this fever down. Bring some ice fast his fever appears to be really high," Tsunade requested.

When Ophelia left Tsunade turned her attention back to Naruto. She pulled out a thermometer and took his temperature.

"His temperature is 105.4 that is definitely way too high." Tsunade said. Just then Ophelia returned with a giant box of ice and the water IV.
"Sasuke help me get these clothes off of him. We've got to lower his body temperature. The ice will help." Tsunade told Sasuke. He swiftly went to Naruto's side and began to lift Naruto's shirt but stopped when he saw the bandages.

"What the…?" Sasuke began but was abruptly stopped when a tan hand gripped his wrist preventing him from removing the clothes.



"Don't. Do. That." The blonde said. Sasuke's face expression went from surprise to anger.

"Kyuubi? What have you done to Naruto? Why is he injured? Why is he ill?" Sasuke said bombarding him with questions.

"Kyuubi?" Tsunade asked. She had noticed the way Naruto's voice seemed different but she didn't think it was the Kyuubi.

"Yes," Kyuubi said sitting up. "I apologize for the trouble kit is causing but I can take care of it. Kit is just going through….. a little bit of a stressful time."

"Why? What's wrong? Why is he wearing bandages?" Sasuke asked once more bombarding questions.
"I can't say," Kyuubi said, "Naruto wishes I don't so I won't. Please do not further question me I can assure Naruto will be fine. I was just a little preoccupied so I couldn't heal him right away but if you now notice he is almost healed completely."
'He's right Naruto does seem to be doing a lot better,' Tsunade thought. As if everything clicked into place Ophelia yelled out, "Ahhh! It's the Kyuubi. Someone help he's going to kill us all. We're going to die!!"

"Shut up Ophelia," Sasuke yelled not bothering to look at her.

"But Sasuke," Ophelia started while tearing up, "Naruto's the demon Kyuubi."

"No, he's not," Sasuke said now looking up at Ophelia with the sharingan wildly spinning. "Say that again and you die."



"Sasuke…You're so mean," Ophelia said running out of the room, in a big heap of tears.

"I request Naruto be released from this hospital immediately," Kyuubi said.

"What?" Tsunade spluttered, "No we haven't even been given an explanation."

"As I have said before I can and will not tell you. It is not my secret to share." Kyuubi said.

"I refuse. Naruto will not leave my sight until he or you explain what's going on." Tsunade said. Sasuke who had been quiet the entire time finally spoke.
"We're getting nowhere with this," Sasuke said, "You should just discharge Naruto."

"No way. He has never had a problem this big before, nothing's ever been this wrong. And so help me god I will not let him go without knowing what is wrong," Tsunade ranted.

"That's the exact reason why you should let him go. He will tell us when he is ready. Just give him a chance." Sasuke said his voice softening understanding why Tsunade was worried.

"But…" Tsunade said but she knew Sasuke was right. It wouldn't be right to force Naruto to tell something he wasn't ready to tell. "Fine but I want you to take him home."

"Hn."

Kyuubi suddenly interrupted.



"I appreciate you releasing Naruto." Kyuubi began to stand up but staggered a little.

"I'll carry you," Sasuke offered blushing a little.

"I'm fine I can walk by myself," Kyuubi said. Sasuke kneeled down offering Kyuubi his back.

"I'll carry you; just make sure to heal Naruto." Sasuke said. Kyuubi grunted looking displeased but he was grateful for Sasuke's help. He really didn't have the strength to walk all the way home. He allowed the black haired teen to carry him.

XxX

'Kyuubi released control over Naruto's body once he was safe on my back. Naruto finally looks peaceful. Even when I was at his house the other day he slept but it wasn't peaceful at all. It seemed to me that he was having a nightmare.' Sasuke thought.
Once he got to Naruto's apartment building he sprinted up the steps to his door number. Limited few knew where Naruto's spare key was but everyone knew he had one. Naruto used to be so stupid he'd forget his keys and lock himself out. Luckily Sasuke was one of the few who knew.

Sasuke gently sat Naruto down on the floor so that he could get the spare key. He did some quick hand signs which were followed by a box appearing on to the floor. He used him chakra to open the box where lay two keys. He grabbed the blue rimmed key and waved it next to the door knob which deactivated Naruto's chakra barrier. Then he grabbed the red rimmed key and unlocked the door. He replaced both keys back into the little black box and did some hand signs to make the box instantly disappear. He picked up Naruto and took him inside.



After years of villagers breaking in to his house destroying his apartment he came up with this method of entry. Even if someone learned the hand seals to find the black box, only select few peoples chakra would be able to open it .Although the villagers recently finally acknowledged him as Naruto not the Kyuubi he kept the Extra Security.

Sasuke laid Naruto on the couch. He knew it would be cooler, temperature wise, in the living room than his bedroom. He wasn't sure if that was better but he did it anyway. Sasuke seated himself down on the floor next to Naruto. As he leaned against the small black couch his thoughts began to wander.

'The last time I was here, Naruto kicked me out. I still don't really understand why but that's ok. He was just stressed out and wanted to be alone. It's my own fault anyway for coming without being invited. It doesn't matter what he does because no matter what I'll always lo…'Sasuke's thoughts discontinued since he fell asleep. With all that had happened with Naruto he found himself really tired.

Sasuke's sleep was abruptly ended by being kicked in the head. The blow to the head had startled Sasuke out of a peaceful sleep. Now as Sasuke turned around he saw Naruto was the one who kicked him and was now wildly thrashing about.

'What the heck?!,' Sasuke thought, 'He must be having a nightmare.'

"No," Naruto whispered.

"Huh?" Sasuke said. He got up from the floor and quickly grabbed Naruto in an attempt to wake him. The second Sasuke grabbed him, Naruto yelled out and began thrashing even more wildly.



"Noooo!! Stop!!" he yelled. Naruto's arm launched out punching Sasuke directly in the face. Sasuke grunted but didn't turn away. Instead he grabbed Naruto and wrapped his arm around the smaller boy of the two.

"Naruto wake up. It's me Sasuke." Sasuke pleaded trying to wake Naruto.

"N…Nooo!" Naruto yelled struggling against Sasuke chest hitting him over and over again.

"NARUTO!!" Sasuke yelled trying to wake the blond.

Naruto's blue eyes shot open when Sasuke yelled his name. Those cerulean blue eyes grew wide when they saw Sasuke.

"Sas…" Naruto whispered eyes welling up with tears. Sasuke saw this and pulled Naruto into a tight embrace.

"Sasuke…I…I was so scared," Naruto said, muffled by Sasuke's shirt. Naruto's body shook as he let out a sob. Naruto dug his head into Sasuke's chest grabbing his shirt.

"Shhhh its ok now," Sasuke whispered in Naruto's ear while using one of his hands to slowly caress the smaller boy's back.

Naruto's entire body shook with each sob he released and all Sasuke could do was try to comfort the broken blond.

'I've never seen Naruto cry like this. I've seen happy tears but never heart wrenching sobs like these. He seems so broken I never want to let him go. Ever.' Sasuke thought.

XxX



'Is this ok?' Naruto asked Kyuubi.

'Yes kit it is. You haven't cried like this since "it" happened.' Kyuubi replied.

It was true though in all the time after Naruto was raped he did cry but it was always silent tears or soft sobs alone with no one there to comfort him. He would let the tears flow but keep in all the emotion but now he was finally crying. Really crying. Naruto cried for what happened to him. He cried for his future. And he cried for his child's future.

XxX

Naruto finally stopped sobbing a few minutes later. Even though he stopped neither Naruto nor Sasuke broke their embrace.

The couch being so small their position made both of them blush though they still didn't release each other. Sasuke was sitting in an upright position legs sprawled on the couch. Naruto had his head just below Sasuke's chin and was sitting curled in his lap.

"Why…?"Naruto asked whispering.

"Why…what?" Sasuke asked.

"Why are you doing this for me?" Naruto asked quickly pushing his face closer to Sasuke's chest out of embarrassment.

"Why?...because…because I…Because I love you." Sasuke whispered face flushing red as he stared up at the ceiling too scared to look at Naruto.

"What?" Naruto gasped out of surprise unsure if he had heard right.



"I said…I said I love you," Sasuke said with more confidence. He still didn't have the courage to look at Naruto.

"W…What?" Naruto said again still not able to completely grasp what Sasuke was saying.

"I've loved you for years. Did you ever wonder why I didn't escape after you brought me back?" Sasuke didn't wait for an answer, "If I really didn't want to stay I would have left. I stayed because of you. I stayed because you mean a lot to me. You're my only precious person. I love you." Sasuke finally had enough courage to look at Naruto. Naruto was still in shock.

"Wh….Liar I don't…" Naruto started but Sasuke didn't let him finish instead he smashed his lips against Naruto. Naruto tensed at the contact. Sasuke broke the kiss and pulled the blond into a tight embrace.

"You may not believe it but I do love you. I don't care that you're a boy I don't care that the Uchiha line won't continue on. I don't care, because I love you." Sasuke once again grabbed Naruto and kissed him.

"Nnn…" Naruto grunted and pushed Sasuke away.

"No," he restated more clearly.

'Kit, what are you doing?' Kyuubi asked.

'…'

"I see. I'm sorry for bothering you with this. I won't bring it up again. I promise." Sasuke said.



'Kit stop him he's going to leave. I know you love him. Look how devastated he looks, tell him how you feel! Hurry up he's leaving!' Kyuubi persisted. Naruto ignored what Kyuubi was saying and watched Sasuke leave. This time when Sasuke left Naruto shed no tears.

'Kit what are you doing?!'

'It's better this way. This way he'll forget about me when I leave. He'll find someone else to love and not worry about me anymore.'

'Kit what on earth are you talking about. Leaving when to where?'

'I have to leave. Although the council has finally stopped trying to kill me there's no way they'd allow my child, a demon spawn as they would say, live. It's safer for the three of us if I just leave. Plus isn't it weird if I'm a pregnant boy?' Naruto laughed at that but soon became serious again.

'Anyway if I stayed questions would arise. I can't go through that.'

'Kit…I understand. You must do what you can to survive. Just be careful. I'm using most of my chakra to help you carry the child. I can't protect you so be careful.'

'Ok.'

'I'm glad you finally acknowledge this child as yours.'

'I'm glad too. I have to be strong and not cry anymore. What happened all ready happened and is in the past. I can't change that. Now I have to focus raising my child in a safe environment I swear to never let my child ever see me cry.'

'…'



Naruto arose from his position and went to his bedroom. He found some scrolls and began to go through his stuff. He only wanted to take the things he needed. Money wasn't an issue he saved all the money he made from missions. Naruto only lived in a crappy apartment to avoid attention. If he lived in a nice house it would only be destroyed by the hateful villagers.

Naruto put sentimental items in the scroll. He brought no clothes because he was going to buy new ones. Naruto is often said to be stupid but he's not stupid enough to not make a disguise so people won't recognize him.

He changed into a black haired blue eyed girl. Who was wearing villager clothing He left his apartment for the last time.

'Where are you planning on going?' Kyuubi asked.

'I dunno. Somewhere safe and far away.' Naruto replied. The blue eyed boy, now girl, walked out of the building and into the streets.

'Do you really not mind leaving?'

'I do mind but it's ok its what's best for me anyway.'

'What about becoming hokage, that was your dream?'

'I let go of that dream long ago. I already fulfilled my dream long ago when I got Sasuke to come back.'

'Kit…'

Naruto stopped just before the gates of Konoha and turned around facing the hokage mountain. He took one last good look at the village and then disappeared 

using his advanced ninja jutsu. No one even saw him leave. All that could be heard was his voice being carried in the wind like a whisper of the trees, "Sayonara."

TBC……

A/N: Yay another chapter sone. Took long enough. Wow it may not seem like it but written out my story is already 43 pages long. Crazy huh? For the next few chapters it's going to be mainly flashbacks of Naruto's life to explain some issues that need to be known later. BTW Watashi no kodomo means my children. Please read and review. Till later, Ja ne!