Sora's Song

by BrandyChanelle

Previously called Regrets and Romance! After being left by her long- term boyfriend, Sora is left broken. In atempt to put her life back together, she returns to her hometown- where her life began.

2. Chapter 2

Title: Regrets and Romance

Chapter: 2

Author: Sacrifices-4-Luv

I stared in the mirror, looking at my reflection. I wasn't the least bit dressed or ready to start the day yet. My hair was a total mess and I was still in pajamas. I didn't really feel like getting dressed. After all, it was only six- thirty in the morning. And it wasn't like I had to prepare for anything big, such as a birthday or a party. Nope, I was shedding the party girl look. The only thing that I was doing to start my new life out was hang out with my best friends that wer arriving soon, who I hadn't seen in about five years. But, that wouldn't happen until around maybe one in the afternoon, right? For now, I just wanted to lounge around in my plaid parachute pants and a black half- cut spaghetti strap tank top. Well, those were the pajamas that Mimi lent to me since she knew that I liked to roam around in my pajamas. Honestly, the only pajamas that I did have were not exactly ones that you wanted to be seen in.

I was happy that she let me borrow something that was comfortable. The other pajamas I had were mainly the ones that I bought because Hiro liked them, and I was young and stupid. I just wanted to please him. The only excuse that I had was that I was totally head over heels in love! Sighing, I ran a brush throughout my hair once. Before I exited to go downstairs, I cleared my throat.

As I headed out of my new bathroom, I heard something that sounded like a little innocent cat cry. I looked around in the wash room, but didn't see anything. As I looked back in front of me, I saw a small kitten that had various colors of a reddish- orange, black, and white. It was like spots, and right around the eye was an orange spot. It was adorable, and oh- so- small.

Seeing as I knelt down, the kitten simply backed up. Yet, I stood still, holding my hand out, and whispered, "Hey, Ki- ki! Hi, baby. . ." I kept my voice low and sweet. Eventually, the kitty came near me and before I knew it, the spotted kitten was licking my hand. I smiled at it and pet it, as I watched its ears go down. Soon, I began to hear a soft purr. So, I took this as a sign of being able to hold it.

I gently stroked it with one hand, and when it was pretty adjusted to me, I cupped the tiny kitten in my hands and held it gently. Instead of trying to fight me, the kitty just calmly settled in my hand. When I finally climbed down the stairs, I called out to Mimi, "Hey, Mimi, Sweetie, why was this kitty traveling in my room?" As I looked up, I didn't see her anywhere near me. "Mimi?"

When I stepped into the room, I heard nothing. Instead of snooping around in her house, I just sat on the couch and pet the kitten. As I sat there, and released my grip, the small kitten just stayed in my lap. It let out a soft meow, so I stroked it gently.

I couldn't help but worry about where Mimi was at the time. I set the kitten down, letting it roam around a little. Instead of walking away from me, the kitten just rubbed against my legs, causing me to pick it up again. I looked away from the kitten as I heard someone messing around with the door knob as it turned. I expected that it was Mimi. She was probably trying to unlock the door or something. I waited for about a minute, staring at the door. When the door finally opened, I peeked over toward the door and saw a familiar blonde girl with a smile from ear- to- ear. "Well, I can see that you're up!" She greeted me. "I got us some cappuccinos from Starbucks and some Cocoa Puffs!"

I smiled at her, and said, "Cocoa Puffs!" Since we were just kids, Cocoa Puffs always was my favorite cereal. The cereal always put me in the best mood to start my day with. Picking the kitten up in my hands gently, I stood up and followed Mimi in the kitchen. "Hey, this little kitten was wondering in my room when I was trying to fix myself up!"

Mimi smiled and said, "So, you've met Nikki? The neighbors were giving the kittens away for free. So, they offered me one. I just couldn't refuse. And I knew that you loved kittens!" She walked into the kitchen, setting down the two cappuccinos and the box of cereal. I sat down at the breakfast table, setting 'Nikki' on the table. I stroked her fur gently.

"She is such an adorable little baby! But, did you but food for her?" I wondered why she wouldn't have. I mean, why would she buy a cat without something to feed it? I couldn't help but stare down at the kittens big, beady eyes that stared up at me.

"I already thought of that!" Mimi said. Then, she dug into the pantry. "I bought food earlier, and I figured that since Yama used to have kittens, I would have him bring his little kitten bowel to us. He told me that he wanted to get rid of the bowl sometime because it took up space. So, I called him up, and he said that he would bring it to us." Her voice level seemed to decrease.

I didn't know why. However, I was curious. Maybe it was that she was thinking? But what would she be thinking about? What was there to think about? "Are you okay?" I asked her. She popped her head out from the pantry and smiled, nodding at me. I figured that if she wanted to tell me then she would. So, I shrugged it off, and changed the subject. "When is Yama going to be here?"

She pulled out two bowls with a couple of spoons and placed them on the table. Then, she reached out of her tall stainless steel fridge and pulled out a milk carton. Finally, she settled down and sat across from me in a chair. "He said that he was on his way here when I called him. So, it usually takes him, like an hour to get here from his house- an hour and a half to two hours if he is at a friend's house drunk. He'll probably need to find a ride if he is drunk."

I smiled at her. She seemed to know him well. I didn't know that she and Yama were such good friends. Of course, there were a lot of things that I didn't know now. So, I suppose that this was not really a surprise. "Okay. . ." I said slouching down in my chair.

"Don't worry. He didn't get drunk," When Mimi said that, I was slightly confused. I wasn't exactly worried about that. Besides, Yama didn't have to stay sober for me. I was fine with him having a good time with his friends! I mean, of course I didn't want him to be a drunk, but he could have parties. He would probably need time to rest if he did get drunk. After all that partying, beer, and girls. Yet, somehow, in my mind I didn't believe that. Like a million times before, I didn't believe what I was telling myself. Somehow, what I was telling myself didn't exactly sound all that right. However, I shrugged the thought off.

As soon as she was done fixing the cereal for the two of us, she pushed a bowl over to me. Before taking a bite out of her bowel though, she stood up, walking over to the fridge, and opening it, carefully placing the milk on the top shelf. Finally, she walked back over to the table, and sat down, ready to munch on her Cocoa Puffs.

When I took the second bite out of my cereal, I noticed Nikki was staring down at the ground. Knowing that it might try to jump, I took the rascal in my hands, placing it on the ground. I knew that if it did try to jump, the result would be absolutely tragic. Seeing this, Mimi smiled at me and chuckled.

I knew what she was thinking. However, instead of responding to this gesture, I just took another bite of my cereal. I tried to ignore the fact that her eyes were placed exactly on me for a few minutes. I didn't really like to be stared at. That was something that sort of bothered me. I don't know why. It was like I have to try to avoid their stare because I felt like I wasn't good enough for that person. No, I couldn't say exactly why I was uncomfortable. I just was! I had been like that for a long time- years. And it is not something that someone has told me- just something that I start thinking.

She stopped staring at me and looked back down at her cereal, causing me to finally look up. My eyes scanned around the kitchen. It was the first time that I really looked at it. The first time that I took the time to scan around. There was an obvious sunflower theme to the kitchen. The walls were painted yellow with sunflower wallpaper. A sunflower rag hung from the handle of the stove, along with a little vase that was next to the stove top that had wooden cooking objects. Along the side of the bar, there were little clear vases with sunflowers inside them.

As I kept looking around I saw a radio. I don't know what I was thinking, but the next thing I knew, I was taking one last bite of cereal. Then, I got up and began walking toward the radio. Even though I could hear Mimi asking me what I was doing, I couldn't quite get myself to answer her. For, I was somehow entranced by the radio, which is odd since I was not usually distracted the other times when I saw a radio. Soon, I found myself turning the switch on for the radio, playing with the tuner.

When I woke up from my trance, I found myself listening to some odd sounding song. It was a song that I've definitely never heard before. It sounded like a song with an angry tune- like a song about the anger of someone who had just lost his or her loved one. On the other hand, it started to get a sad tune, like the sweet and tragic melody of two lovers, completely lost without eachother and destressed by a death. I bit my lip, listening to the song, as it just started with a guitar solo. But it wasn't long before the vocals began.

"Walked past my grave in the dark tonight
Saw the stone and the note you left for me
To answer your question
I just had to leave, I just had to leave

But that's not why I'm here
I came out here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I'm miserable up here without you
Miserable up here with out you"

Found my way back in the dark tonight.
Couldn't wake up not right next to you
I'd trade in forever to just hear you say
The sound of my name

But that's not why I'm here
I came out here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I'm miserable up here without you
Miserable up here without you

Don't believe that it's better
When you leave everything behind
Don't believe that the weather
Is perfect the day that you die
Don't believe that the weather
Is perfect the day that you die

I came out here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long
all day long
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I'm miserable up here without you
Miserable up here without you

I came out here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long
All day long
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I'm miserable up here without you
Miserable up here without you

Don't believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die"

That was a song that I knew all too well. Hiro used to sing it to me all the time. It was like a little signature that he used to tell me that he loved me. Well, that's what I thought. I mean, he didn't really tell me that he loved me, just sang it to me. But my theory is that singing isn't all that different from saying something. The only difference is that singing is for the more poetic people, or the people that have difficulty expressing how they feel. Yet, saying something is for the more realistic. As the song ended, I glanced in Mimi's direction, with a certain mist that began to fall from my eyes. However, I ignored it, turning the radio off, and walking over to the table. When I sat down, I stared down to the ground. Suddenly, I wasn't all that hungry. In fact, I wasn't feeling the least bit hungry- quite full though. The mist soon decreased, and as soon as it did, I looked over at the kitten that was now trying to get out to go to the back yard. So, I looked back up at Mimi. "I think that I will go outside with Nikki. . ."

She looked at me, knowing that that was a reason to get out of here. I guess that I wasn't good at hiding how I felt, and that was something that I couldn't really stop. It sort of stuck with me- ever since I was one of the DigiDestined. If I could make myself less of a drama queen, then I would definitely try. Yet, I have tried, and it didn't work exactly like I wanted to.

I shrugged off Mimi's stare, getting up from the table and taking my bowel over to the sink. Before letting Nikki outside, I had to wash my bowel out; it was only polite. Once the bowel was completely empty, I walked over into the room next to the kitchen- the one with the front door. Nikki was still trying to scratch the curtain with her paws. As she saw a slit in the middle, she wondered in the curtains, trying to find a way outside.

Pulling back the red velvet and white lace curtains, I couldn't help but laugh at her innocence. Picking up Nikki, she looked up at me with big, beady eyes. Holding her in one hand, I unlocked the door with the other one. As I opened the door, I stepped outside, feeling a rush of wind blowing against me. The wind felt good as it brushed my skin. I took in a breath, and then exhaled it. Kneeling down, I placed Nikki on the ground, allowing her to run around. Looking around, I saw a white table with matching white chairs. So, I got up from the ground and sat on the chair.

The entire time that I was sitting there, my eyes were completely focused on the kitten. She was so adorable, so small, and so curious. I could melt just watching her. However, soon something came over my eyes, blinding me. It felt warm, yet small- like hands. Then, I heard, "Guess who. . ."

For a minute, I was startled by the sudden darkness, and the mysterious feminine voice. Then, I settled down, realizing that it was one of my friends. I thought hard, considering the fact that I was too scared to honestly be able to hear the voice before, I didn't hear who ever it was all that well. I didn't really have a clue who it was. Therefore, I knew that I had to try to make the person speak. I mean, that was really the only way for me to tell who the mysterious person was. "Umm. . . I don't know. . ." I said.

I knew that if it was Taichi then he would giggle, whine, or do something to make me guess. However, if it was Takeru, then he would just say 'nope' in a playful voice, and giggle. Then again, if it was Yama, he would stay quiet. But I knew that most likely Yama would be late to arrive. I was betting that if he said that he was coming, then he would get somehow distracted, whether it is with girls, his band, or something else. Just something.

Yet, I heard a girlish giggle, and I knew that it didn't sound like Mimi's. It was higher, more of a child. Then, I thought of the small, blond haired Kari. A smile came to my face as I thought of the little girl back in the digital world. "Kari!" I exclaimed, sure that my answer was right. I couldn't help but laugh along with whoever it was. However, as her hands were removed from my eyes, I saw a tall, blonde haired, blue eyed girl with a haircut that was trimmed so that the hair got shorter as it got closer to the back wearing blue jean shorts, and a white halter top. She smiled at me- expecting something else possibly. But I could barely speak. When I tried, I only stammered in surprise.

So, she was the first one to speak. "Hey, look at you! You look good, Sora!" Her smile was still so kind and I knew that this was definitely still the innocent, little Kari. I had no doubt. There was a certain aura that she gave off- like a signature that told me all about her. It told me her entire story, and that was exactly what she gave to everyone that crossed her path: a warm smile, and an assuring feeling. "I'm so glad that you're here! Tell me what you've been doing since I last saw you!" Her soft blue eyes sparkled with a sweet sincerity. That was always such a wonderful quality that she had: she actually cared about what people had to say. For, that was why Takeru was so in love with her in the digital world, and that was why Davis was so jealous of Takeru.

I could barely speak, barely move. I felt like there was a stranger right in front of me. It was so odd, sitting here with my best friend, not knowing how much they really changed! Finally, I gathered up the courage to say, "Wow, Kari! You look good! What happened to you?" She laughed, and I knew that my words were not what I really meant to say. "Sorry. . . so, what about Takeru? Davis?"

She laughed. "Oh, those two? Well, how should we put this? Takeru and I are staying friends for now, along with me and Davis. So, I really don't have a boyfriend. I was actually hoping to stay friends with the two of them. But, well, you know those two!" I couldn't help but laugh as she said that. Both of those guys were such babies sometimes. I mean, Kari has been their friend for so long, and of course when she decides that she isn't ready for a relationship- careful to not hurt either of the guys- they both start whining, saying that it's not fair. . .

"Wow, so you really are going to be single for a bit?" I couldn't believe that it was coming from the girl that was so anxious and completely wrapped up in Takeru when they first started dating. It seemed completely different. "I never would have expected that. I thought that you were still google- eyed over Takeru. I mean, as kids the only thing that mattered to you was him!"

She smiled at me, and I could tell that she still cared for him dearly. It was in the way that she looked at me. The way that she seemed to talk about him. For, the way she spoke when she was talking about him is sort of like the way that I talk about Hiro.

"Yea, well, I don't' know. I was thinking one night when I was alone in Takeru's apartment. He had gone to get something from the store, and I was thinking about my life, everything that I was doing. Then, I figured that there was so much more to life. I had a lot left to see, and a lot left to do. So, anyways, the story goes on and on, and well, now I'm single!" She took a pause, staring down at the ground with a smile that didn't fade.

I saw Mimi pop out of the house. She just gave a frown in my direction, but then smiled when Kari looked up at her. I couldn't help but laugh as I said, "Hey, Meems!" She walked out of the doorway, her eyes focused on the two of us. I knew that she knew what was going on. By the look that she gave me when I first saw her, I also knew that she didn't like what was going on. It was more like torture for her when her friends were in trouble, or pained by whatever might be going on. That was a moment that she didn't like!

"Hey, you two!" She said, coming up behind me. A smile from ear- to- ear was glued right across her face. "Are you hungry or thirsty? I could cook us up something to eat. Or, I could get you two a couple glasses of tea. We could just watch a movie and wait around for the guys if you'd like? Or we could give each other manicures and pedicures! " Mimi turned around to walk in the house, and I saw that Kari was getting up. So, I followed along as well.

It was odd. The things that love can make you do. She was confused now- and boy I was going through the same thing. I felt some sort of warm feeling run all through my body, but also an icy chill running down my spine. I don't know why- maybe the fact that I was happy to have someone that was going through the same thing as me. Feeling the same way I do. A chuckle came out as we walked back inside, and into the kitchen.

I realized that by now, I was sitting at the kitchen table silently, staring at the white marble floor. Kari and Mimi were simply staring at me quietly, smiling to each other, sometimes at me though. Clearing my throat, I glanced up at the two, and said, "What's the matter?" Kari was about to open her mouth to respond to my question. But, she closed her mouth as soon as she heard the doorbell ring. When, Kari stood up, Mimi pushed her back down into the chair, and excused herself from the kitchen.

As we waited for Mimi to come back, there was a deep silence between Kari and me. We both had the same things on our minds, questioning our actions. She was thinking if it was a mistake to have left Takeru, while I couldn't help but think about what I was going to do now. I mean, I was here now, and it was time to finally get on with my life. It had already been about two days since I left Hiro, and I still wasn't getting on with my life. In fact, the thought had only crossed my mind without any action.

I felt someone tickle the back of my neck. Then, I heard a masculine voice say, "Hey, Sexy! You want to come over to my place later? We could have a lot of fun!" Immediately, I knew who it was. That voice was familiar. And that line was a dead give away! I mean, what other DigiDestined guy was that desperate to use a line like that.

I felt warm lips against my cheek as I looked to see a tall guy with bushy brown hair, and brown eyes. A smile came to my face as I jumped up and hugged him, wrapping my arms around his neck. He laughed and wrapped his arms around my waist. Pulling away, I held onto his hands and said, "God, you look so good!" My body found a way to control itself and I managed to hug him once again. However, once I realized what I was doing, I let go. I blushed a deep, and dark red color, and bit my lip. "

"Well, I wish that I could say the same for you! But nothing can describe how great you look!" He smirked at me, and I could feel myself laugh. Sitting down, I stared up at him, only to have him return the stare. Taichi looked like he was living the high life, but I didn't exactly feel like I was with a celebrity. I felt like I was with a good friend. My thoughts were interrupted when I saw Mimi come in. She walked over to Taichi and hugged him. There had to be something going on between them because you wouldn't just randomly go up to your friend and hug them.

"Sora, don't make a move on my boyfriend!" Mimi said playfully as Taichi pulled her into a hug and kissed her. And boy, if that wasn't a good and deep kiss, I didn't know what was. It seemed like one of those kisses that you would see in a movie, filled with so many emotions- love mainly. It was then that I realized that it didn't take me too long to drive my mind back to love.

I mean, people talk about love in the most peculiar way. They always say how wonderful it is. But what about when you love someone that doesn't exactly love you? What if you give someone so much and that person throws away everything? When she pulled away, Mimi just stood in front of Taichi as he wrapped his arms around her, kissing her neck.

"Did I not tell you about Taichi and me?" I saw that Mimi was currently standing in front of Taichi as he wrapped his arms around her, kissing her neck softly. I shook my head 'no' to answer her question. She responded with, "Well, we have been going out since last week!" She said, letting out a laugh, as he kept kissing her neck.

Mimi pulled away, and Taichi gave her a helpless expression, like he wasan innocent puppy dog. Mimi smiled at him and waved for him to come next to her. Taichi only smirked as he followed her. Kari and I laughed as we watched this scene. "So, it looks like you two have been busy all week!" I said, jokingly. Then again, I could have been serious.

Kari grinned back at me and responded with, "You have no idea!" I laughed, getting an idea of what they had been doing. I did actually have an idea of how that was. I've witnessed it so many times- even experienced it. There was a brief pause, then Kari directed to Taichi, "When are the others going to get arrive?"

He looked up from kissing Mimi lightly on the lips and said, "I don't know. Probably about in ten minutes or so. I just know that Joe was supposed to be coming with Davis and Takeru. Then again, you know cautious Joe will take longer than that. I mean, he usually takes thirty minutes to get just around a corner." We all laughed, knowing that he was exagerrating. Taichi was always the most impatient in the group. Just then, my thoughts were interrupted by Taichi, "Oh, and Yama said that he would probably arrive later tonight." After that, he went back to obsessing over Mimi. I smiled, thinking about how Hiro and I used to be. We were exactly like that for two years. Two years of my life, I was completely obsessed with a guy- given my all to a guy- only to find that he did not want to give his all to me.

I heard small noises at the door, and then I remembered that we had brought the kitten outside. "Nikki!" I yelled running out of the kitchen and making my way to the door. I pulled away the curtains and saw the innocent kitten staring at the door with big, beady eyes. Seeing this, I immediately slid open the door and picked Nikki up off the ground. I freed a hand and shut the screen, leaving the door open so cool air could get through. When the door was closed, I walked over to the couch sitting down.

As I sat there for a couple of minutes, I heard a sound. I looked up, seeing a familiar red haired girl. She smiled at me as she walked over to the couch. "Hi, Sora," Kari whispered. Her voice sounded sort of weak, and I didn't know why. I was not sure whether asking would help or not. So, I just sat there, stroking the Nikki's fur. "She's so cute!" Kari said.

"Isn't she though?" I asked, as I listened to the kitten's meows. There was a silent moment. I knew that I had to say something because she was obviously bored, and after years of not seeing one of your best friends, you think that you would have more to talk about. Knowing that Kari would follow, I got up and said, "Do you want to come with me? I have to pick out an outfit."

She gave me the biggest grin that I had ever seen and nodded her head. Then, without hesitation, she let out a one word sentence, "Yes!" Kari jumped up, walking- practically running- up the stairs. I couldn't help but laugh. Being around Mimi rubbed off on her a bit. That was definitely obvious, especially with Kari. Usually, you could see an effect if there was one. After all, she was the most influenced in the group.

I preferred to walk slowly. It seemed like there was no rush. At least, that was what it seemed like to me. And I noticed that by the time I was a fourth of the way upstairs, Kari was at the top. I couldn't help but laugh.

It was a while before I reached the top. Even though I tried to rush myself, my legs refused to work. Like there was some sort of force working against them. As I cut around the corner, I walked faster into my room, yet I was careful to watch Nikki.

When I walked in the bedroom, Kari had all of my clothes laid out on the bed. I sighed, feeling a little bit scared as she turned over to me and said, "Okay! So, you wash up and I will pick out your outfit. Bye- bye!"

She shoved me into my washroom and I sighed. I could hear her shuffling madly through my clothes. I knew that I wasn't exactly ready for what she was planning. And with Yama coming? Wow. . . I would be in trouble.