To Mend A Broken Heart

Chapter 9: When You Look Me In The Eyes

I could have never believed that I would be here. Here, in a large room or office, it's hard to describe, but here none the less, planning my wedding. I was determined to make it perfect, but that wouldn't be too hard, when I opened those church doors all I would need was Todd at the end of the aisle and my perfect wedding would have come true. Finally, the dream of ever girls' life was falling into place, but my dreams could never take the place of loving him. I was engaged to the guy that was always in my dream, the guy that could finally make my dream a reality.

After walking out our front door, Todd and I walked to his black pick-up and climbed in. We drove about 30 minutes to a little city right outside of town to see our wedding planner, Nicole Benson. When we arrived, we both got out and Todd grabbed my hand before walking into a shop that looked more like a small warehouse.

"Hello, you must be Todd and Miley." Nicole welcomed, shaking both of our hands.

"Yes, mam." Todd replied.

"Oh, please call me Nicole." she answered. Nicole looked to be about 26.

"Ok." He said, sheepishly.

"Let's go to my office so we can discuss what each of you would like and then we'll discuss details. Does that sound alright?

"That sounds great." I commented.

"Then let's get started." Nicole began walking, but I slightly pulled Todd back.

"Todd, I'm nervous." I whispered in his ears

"Hey, it will be ok. We will make it through."

"It's all because you're by my side." I said. Todd bent down to kiss my forehead and then we kept walking.

Nicole led us through doors on the back wall which opened into a hallway with many offices on each side. We walked about 30 feet before turning right which led into Nicole's office.

"Please sit." she more demanded then told us.

"Thank you." Todd and I both replied.

"Ok, so, my main purpose is to get exactly what you both would like and the best way to get started is to hear about how you two first met."

"You want to take that one babe?" Todd asked me.

"Sure. We were set up my best friend when I was 15 and he was 16."

"How old are you both now?"

"I'm almost 19 and Miley's 18." he added, holding lightly onto my hand.

"So, marrying young?"

"That's correct." Todd said, sounding like he was defending our relationship, causing me to hold his hand tighter.

"Please continue Miley."

"Anyways, my best friend, Leslie, set us up, so it was a blind date, for me anyway; Todd had seen my picture ahead of time. But, our first date was at a mall and it was really casual and didn't feel like a date at all, but I think we both knew that there was something that was different."

"May I interrupt Miles?" Todd said, I just nodded and he continued, "Ok, I liked her just from her picture but in person, it was so much different, I don't know how to explain it. Well, just so you know Nicole, Miley was actually my first girlfriend."

"Oh really, that's very interesting. How about you Miley?"

"He was my second."

"Very nice. So, Todd, what did you guys do for your second date?"

"I actually asked Miley on a second date, the day of our first date, but plans changed because I had forgotten about my homecoming dance that Friday, so I invited her to that instead."

"That's sweet. Miley, what do you remember about that night?"

"That I'll never forget it." I said, glancing up at Todd.

"There's got to be a million reasons why that's true." Todd added.

"What was the most important thing, you'd say, that happened that night? First Miley, then Todd."

"The best thing about that night was us sitting outside on the bench, when he asked me to be his girlfriend."

"Todd?"

"The kiss, my first, our first. It sounds so cheesy and I've told Miles this many times, but I knew I was going to marry her that night."

"How many days had you known each other?"

"6." Todd stated.

"And Miley, when did you know that you were going to marry Todd?"

"Umm… it was after we had our first fight and then made up. Todd twirled me in the air and gave me this smile, a smile I will never forget. A smile that let me know he would never let me fall, would never let me get hurt and in his arms I felt the safest I had ever felt and that was the feeling I wanted to feel the rest of my life."

"Ok, I think that's all I need about your relationship for now. But if something comes up, I'll definitely ask. Now for the wedding, where would you like the wedding to be held?"

"Outside." Todd answered.

"Outside?"

"Isn't that what you said Miles?"

"I changed my mind."

"Ok then, we would like the wedding inside."

"Inside, nice choice." Nicole responded. "Miley, is there any specific color you would like?"

"I was thinking, classic, like white and black. I think it would be calming but still a really unique choice."

"I think that would be a good idea. Todd, do you agree?"

"I'm here to agree, as long as it's not pink."

"I'd never do that to you babe." I smiled up at him

"Oh now I need to ask about number. How many guests, bridesmaids, groomsmen, flower girls, ring bearers, etc?"

"We haven't thought about that." I said, looking at Todd.

"Ok, I counted 75 on my side and you have about 120, right?" Todd asked, me nodding. "We'll say 250 to be safe."

"Todd, what about bridesmaids and groomsmen?"

"How many girls do you want?"

"Les is maid of honor, and then I think just my 3 cousins, you have anyone else?"

"Umm…Les's brother Taylor is my best man, Michael, I can ask some of the guys from high school."

"Ok, so Nicole we're saying, 250 guests, 4 bridesmaids and groomsmen, 1 flower girl and 1 ring bearer."

"Very good." she said, writing everything down on her notepad.

"Now, before we go look at places for the wedding, Miley do you have a wedding dress?"

"I have that covered." Todd said, raising his hand, causing both Nicole and I to snap our heads towards him. "Miles, I didn't tell you yet? Well, I found a dress for you; I think you'll like it."

"Todd…"

"Do you not like the idea? I can return it."

"No, I think it's sweet. How about I try it on when we get home?"

"Sounds perfect." he said, kissing my cheek.

"So then are we ready to look at possible wedding locations?"

"Yes, I believe we are." I said, beginning to stand.

"One more thing before we leave, when would you like the wedding?"

"We were thinking, end of August."

"I'm booked that entire month. Does July work?"

"I guess it could." I sighed.

"I actually have an opening two weeks from now, the first weekend of July which is the 6th, 7th, and 8th."

"How about that Friday and Saturday Miles?"

"That could work. July 7th then, the 6th for rehersal. Is that ok Nicole?"

"Ok, let me put that in. We'll have to take that into account when we look at places." she said, beginning to walk out the door and to her car.

"Todd…" I said, pulling on his shirt.

"What babe?"

"We're getting married July 7th."

"I'm counting the days Miles."

"When are we going to send out invitations and get a chef and everything?"

"Miley, I don't want you to stress." he began, before stopping to get into the car. As we pulled away for our first stop, he continued. "This is our wedding and I don't want you to worry. I'll do as much as I can, because you already have so much on your plate. Don't stress."

"I'll try not to Todd."

"You know I love you babe?"

"Yes, Todd, I do. I love you too." I said, Todd lifting up my hand and giving it a light kiss.

Ten minutes later, we pulled up at a gorgeous church and hopped out to look inside. The moment I stepped inside, I fell in love with it: marble, from floor to ceiling, windows down the sides leading to the altar, at least 20 rows of mahogany pews, my breath was taken away.

"You ok Miles?"

"Yeah…why?" I said, barely able to say it.

"You're cutting the circulation off to my hand."

"Oh sorry." I said, quickly letting go.

"So, this is the…" Nicole began.

"I LOVE IT!" I interrupted.

"Todd?" she asked.

"Whatever Miley would like, we aren't here to fight, we're here to plan our wedding."

"But Todd, do you really like it?" I asked, concerned.

"To tell you the truth, it's the most beautiful church I've ever seen."

"Ok, I'm glad you like it. Nicole, is it open for the 7th?"

"Let me go ask, I'll be right back."

As soon as she left I began talking, "Todd, this is absolutely amazing like I never thought we would find a place like this. We have to get it."

"It's available. Would you like to book it?" Nicole asked, coming back from the office.

"Yes! How much is it?" I quickly asked.

"Ten thousand."

"Dollars!" I exclaimed.

"Miles, that's the currency we use here in America."

"Shut up, I know that. Can we afford that?"

"Babe, don't worry about it. Do they want the payment now?"

"If possible, that'd be great."

"Todd…"

"Miley, you're worrying again." he said, pulling out his checkbook and writing the check. "Is that all we have to do today Nicole?" he asked, handing the check to her.

"I believe that is. I'll start arranging the caterer with the food you asked for and we'll meet at the same time next week. Does that sound good?"

"Yes it does Nicole." he said, shaking her hand. "We'll see you next week.

We then walked out to Todd's car, me utterly confused.

Before we pulled out, I had to ask him, "When did we tell her what food to get?"

"I told her."

"When?"

"A few days ago."

"You didn't tell me?"

"I didn't want you to worry about it."

"What did you get?"

"You're favorites: A light salad for an appetizer, chicken parmigiana for the meal and a chocolate mousse for dessert."

"Why am I not mad at you right now?"

"Because I'm so darn cute."

"Well, that's obvious, but how did you know what I wanted?"

"Miles, I just did, does it matter?"

"Todd…how did you know?"

He started choking up before he even started, "Here, let me see your hand. See this hand, this is the hand of my future wife." he then lifted up my pointer finger, "See this finger, this is the most I wanted you to lift for the wedding. I didn't want you to get stressed. I know that girls love planning their weddings so I just did some of the stuff. Miley, you're the love of my life and I just did anything I could to make you as happy as possible. I'm getting married, I'm 19, but I'm getting married to the most wonderful woman in the world." he stopped, tears starting to fall down his face. "Miley, I can't say the words; you leave me speechless every time I try to speak. I never would have thought that you would have fallen in love with a guy like me. I was never seen as the 'hot' one, or the one any girl wanted to be with, but you did and that's why I fell in love with you the night of my homecoming, because you were the first girl that wanted to be with me, you were the first girl that said my name and my heart skipped a beat, you were the first girl that held my hand and I felt pulses race to my heart and finally, you were the first girl that looked at me in the eyes and caused me to catch a glimpse of heaven. I couldn't let that girl worry about this. It's one day and I didn't want you to worry after everything you've been through."

"Todd, you didn't have to do it though." I said, wiping tears from my eyes as well.

"Miles, I wanted to."

"It was very sweet that you cared so much and it's ok. Stop crying babe, let's go home."

Todd then pulled out of the parking lot and drove us home. We got out of the car and then walked inside our house.

"So, Todd, where is this dress?"

"Oh, I forgot. You have to try it on."

"You aren't supposed to see the bride in her dress before the wedding."

"Dress Schmess, you're trying it on." he said, running upstairs, me following.

"If you jinx the wedding, it wasn't my idea."

"Just go to the bathroom and try it on." he said, lightly tossing it at me.

I stepped into my restroom and unzipped the black hanging bag the dress was in. The dress was absolutely stunning, a strapless white silk gown with beads at the top around the neck line and a light train. I tried it on, it fitting perfectly. I then walked out to show Todd.

"Miles!" he said, looking shocked.

"Do you like it?"

"And I never thought you could get more beautiful." he said, coming over and kissing me.

"I'm guessing that's a 'yes'."

"It most certainly is and I'd like to correct myself. You are always this beautiful; the dress just highlights your beauty. I see this beauty everyday, every time I look at you."

"Why every time I look at you?"

"Miles, that's when I see you, your happiness, pain, love, hate, your everything.

"You see all of that?"

"Yep, I see all of that. I see the woman I love and everything I love about her, when you look me in the eyes."