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Isabella Black Chapter 11

Bella's POV

I don't know how long I was asleep, but when I woke up there was bright sunlight shining through the curtains. Wait, I've seen those curtains before, I've been in this room before. I tried to move, but someone was holding my hand. Oh, no Edward. Wait, this hand was warm. I slowly turned my head aware of the pain in my temples and neck.

My breath caught in my throat at the sight of my hand in Jacob's massive paw and his head laid on the bed. I could hear his snoring now, and I tried to sit up so that I could get a better view of him. I didn't know how I made it out of the cabin, but I was sure it had something to do with vampires and werewolves getting along. I smiled at the thought.

Pain shot through my stomach as I was trying to sit up and I winced and made a groaning sound deep in my chest. Jacob's head shot up and he looked at me with love and worry in his eyes. He smiled, "Bella! Your up, sweetie oh, please don't move you still have some healing to do. Just lie back and it won't hurt."

I did as he said and then I smiled up at him laying my palm against his cheek. "Thank you." I whispered the words but I knew he heard me anyways. His brows drew together in confusion.

"For what?" He asked.

"For saving me." I sighed relaxing into the pillows and felt his grip tighten on me. I turned my head to look over into his eyes and saw all the pain that was there.

"How can you thank me Bella? I didn't come to check on you. I could've stopped you and protected you." Tears were streaming down his cheeks and I reached up to brush one away. He looked away from me at a wall somewhere in the room.

"Jake?" He didn't look at me. "Jake…look at me!" He turned to stare me in the face shocked that I had just yelled at him. "You couldn't have stopped me. I don't even know why I went to the meadow, but I had to have some time by myself to think about everything that was going on. The Cullen's are back and I can't just ignore that no matter how much pain it had caused me for them to leave I still love them."

"You still love Edward don't you…that's why you went to "your meadow"." He noticed the shocked expression on my face and continued, "Yeah, Edward told me. He didn't go into any detail, but he said that it was where you two had gone together."

There was so much sadness in voice and eyes. I felt bad for hurting him, but I had to talk to Edward. There were things that I had to clear up. I cleared my throat and looked up at him hopeful that he would understand.

"Jake? You know I love you right?" I saw him nod sadly and continued, "I umm do you think you could send Edward in, I need to talk to him privately for a second."

Jacob flinched at the mention of Edwards name, "Bella please…"

"No Jake, this has to be done. Everything will work out fine I promise."

"I just don't want to lose you. Bella I can't lose y-"

"Jake, this has to be done, I can't put it off," I said interrupting him. He gave me a sad little smile and nodded. Kissing me on the forehead he turned to walk out the door. At the last minute he turned back and whispered, "I love you Isabella Marie Swan."

I was about say it back, but the way he said it his words stopped me. It was almost as if he didn't think he would see me again. Then he was gone.

Edward's POV

I was sitting downstairs with the family while Jacob was upstairs next to Bella. I wanted the situation to be reversed so bad. I had made a decision though, whoever she decided to be with I would not leave her no matter what Jacob's view was.

I wasn't going to pressure Bella to make a decision. I couldn't come right out and tell her to pick one of us because I had to let her do it in her own time. I also knew that she would do it soon, because she knew it wasn't fair to lead us both on.

I wanted to talk to her so bad, but Jacob was up there. It was so hard not to start listening in to their conversation or peek into Jacob's head. I was not doing so as a courtesy to Bella the moment she woke up I stopped listening. I had also informed the rest of my family not to eaves drop either.

I had been so relieved when I had heard her voice after she had woken up. I knew she had been in a lot of pain and was still going to be sore, but I was just glad she had survived. I didn't think Jacob could've taken it if the only way to save her had been to bite her and make her one of us. I didn't want her to have to go through that anyways. I didn't want her to be a monster like me.

I turned suddenly to look at the stairs seeing Jacob step off the bottom stair and hover just outside the living area like he was afraid to come in. "Ah, Jacob. Won't you come and sit?" He came into the room, but I noticed he wasn't sitting. He was hesitating though, almost stalling.

I could tell he had been crying, and I could also tell that he was trying so hard to fight back more tears that were threatening to fall. I knew that if I could cry I would've have cried for Bella too. He looked at me and started to speak, but then stopped.

"What is it Jacob?" I was starting to get a little impatient that he was stalling.

"B-Bella wants to see you." I saw the pain in his eyes as he had trouble saying the sentence. He looked almost hurt that she wanted to see me, but I couldn't fight the swell of happiness that flowed to my no longer beating heart as I got up to go up the stairs.

Pausing and looking at Jacob I said, "Why don't you go in the kitchen with Esme, she will make you something to eat."

"I'm fine." He said looking at the floor.

"Jacob, she will not bite I promise, nor will she poison you." I chuckled at that thought. "You haven't eaten anything in over forty eight hours, and I can hear your stomach grumbling. Plus Esme is am amazing cook." I said the last bit flashing my mother a bright smile and got a loving one in return.

He hesitated again and then sighed in defeat as he voiced his acceptance. "Something to eat would be nice." He smiled over at Esme and she motioned for him to follow her. I watched as they disappeared into the kitchen before heading upstairs to a waiting Bella.

When I got to my room I knocked gently on the door and heard her whisper for me to come in. Opening the door I walked in and my breath caught in my throat. She was still so beautiful. It hurt me so much that I wasn't going to be able to spend eternity with her. I already knew her heart belonged to Jacob.

I just had to make her see that I was still here for her and would always be her friend no matter what. She spoke and her voice flowed all around me like pure honey, "Hi there." She smiled and I felt like my cold iced heart was melting. I had to do this for her, especially because I still loved her.

"Take a seat," She pointed to the chair but I surprised her by sitting on the edge of the bed next to her and taking both of her hands in mine. "Ed-" I cut her off putting two fingers to her lips and had to jerk my hand back at the feelings that shot through my arm and continued to my whole body.

"Bella, let me speak please. I need to tell you this and get it off my chest. You know I love you Bella. I have loved you since the first day I laid eyes on you. Then I screwed up. I told you the worst lie I have ever told anyone. I told you I didn't love you, and I watched you crumble and then walked away. For that I will forever be sorry. I never wanted to hurt you, I only wanted to protect you. From me, and from everything else, but all I ended up doing was making it worse for both of us. I practically drove you into the arms of another man, but I am forever indebted to Jacob Black for taking care of you when I failed you."

She went to say something, but I couldn't let her say it yet. Yes, I wanted to get all of this out, but I was kind of stalling at the same time. I knew as soon as she spoke the words it was over for us, and even though I pretty much already knew what she was going to say I felt like I wanted to take some of the burden off of her so I held my hand up stopping her from speaking and continued.

"I want you to know that I will always love you no matter what, and I know that you still love me. I can see it in the way you look at me. Although you may still have feelings for me I know that your feelings for Jacob are probably stronger. He pulled you through the roughest time of your life, when I abandoned you. I can accept that you want to be with Jacob, as long as you understand that I'm not going anywhere again. I will always be here for you if you ever need anything, and I will be the best friend I can be."

She had tears streaming down her face now and I wanted nothing more than to kiss them away. I knew that wasn't acceptable anymore and it hurt so bad that I was losing the love of my life. I also knew that he could give her everything I couldn't. He could give her a family, kids, a normal human life.

She wiped her face and tried to compose herself before she spoke. "Edward- I- I do love you, and I always will, but your right. A piece of my heart still belongs to you, but the rest belongs to Jake now. If only you had never left…but I understand now why you did it. I have forgiven you and I would like for you to be my friend. I still love you and the rest of your family dearly, but I belong with Jake now. He's asked me to marry him and I've said yes. I just hope friends can be enough for you."

A few more tears had escaped and she had laid her hand over mine. I smiled reassuringly at her, but my heart was breaking. I know I hurt her, but apart of me was hoping she would tell me I'm wrong and want me back. I knew that was only wishful thinking. I had to get out of there, I felt like I couldn't breathe and being a vampire I didn't even need to breathe.

"It's going to take some time to get use to it, but if friends is all we can be, then I'll take it any day over nothing. I'm going to send Jacob up now, I'm guessing from his concerned and scatter thoughts he doesn't know that he's the one you want to be with. You need to talk to him." I leaned down and kissed her on the cheek and walked to the door.

"Edward?" I stopped at the door and turned around. "Th-thank you."

I raised an eyebrow and asked, "For what?"

"Saving my life." I saw a blush creep up on her cheeks.

Smiling I said, "Any time." Then I walked out the door and closed it behind me.

I went down the stairs and into the kitchen to see Jacob finishing devouring a plate of spaghetti that Esme had fixed him. He looked up at me, I had been thinking about my conversation with Bella and was smiling when I walked in. This made him frown a little before he took the last bite of his food.

After he swallowed it he looked up at me warily. I could tell by his thoughts that he was thoroughly confused and worried. He finally spoke up, "You were right Edward, Esme is a wonderful cook especially for being a v- I mean for not being able to eat real food."

"I'm glad you liked it," Esme said from standing beside the sink. I smiled over at my mother and she gave me a loving smile. Jacob got up grabbing his plate, fork, and cup and walked to the sink and started to wash them but Esme took it from him and shooed him out of the kitchen.

"So how is she?" He turned to me and all of the sudden his jumbled worried thoughts were all over the place.

"Whoa, can you calm yourself," When he looked at me with a confused expression I tapped my index finger to my temple indicating I can hear what he's thinking. I looked at him thoughtfully as his thoughts calmed and only one rang out.

I just want to know if she's leaving me?

Finally I spoke up, "Why don't you go up and talk to her now, she asked for you to come back up there."

Jacob nodded at me and then turned to walk up the stairs, but he hesitated and turned back around to face me. "Just so you know, I don't have a problem with you or your family anymore especially with what you guys did for Bella. I- I just want you to know that no matter what happens I'll always be in Bella's life even if it's just friends." I saw a slight blush come to his cheeks and gave him a little smirk.

I was so glad he couldn't read my thoughts. "I wouldn't have it any other way Jacob, and I hope you would expect the same from me." He nodded and with that he turned and walked nervously up the stairs.

Jacob's POV

I headed back up the stairs to see my precious Bella. I was so nervous, a part of me just knew I was going to lose her yet again. I couldn't compete with Edward. Even though I was taller than him by a few inches I still felt small next to him and his glorious vampire beauty and wealth. Oh, and there was the fact that she was probably still hopelessly in love with Edward. Even with the way he hurt her before.

I got to Edward's bedroom and put my hand on the doorknob, but I was so afraid to go in. Ugh. This was stupid, I had to get this over with. I took a deep breath letting it out slowly to try to clear my head and then I twisted the door and walked in shutting it behind me.

As soon as I stepped inside I saw Bella with her head turned away from me looking out the window. Then she whipped her head around in my direction and stared intensely in my eyes, her face lighting up with a bright smile. She was truly happy to see me.

There were traces of dried tears on her beautiful face, and my heart tightened in my chest and I physically hurt at the thought of Bella, my beautiful angel, shedding tears over anything besides happiness. I walked to the bed and went to sit down on the edge, but Bella freaked out.

"NO! Don't sit down yet. I- I mean I need you to do me a favor." She looked down and then peeked up at me. I shot her a confused look and stood back up. A rosy blush crept across her beautiful pale cheeks and she spoke again. "C- can you hand me my bag from over in the corner?"

I walked over to the far corner of the room and grabbed her back pack and brought it to the bed setting it down. She grabbed it up quickly and started rummaging through her stuff. "Bella? Bella what's wrong? What are you looking for?"

She looked up at me shooting me a magnificent smile and then continued to rummage in her bag. She finally found what she was looking for and a bright smile flashed across her face. I was pacing the space where I was standing trying to figure out how to start this conversation. The conversation that would determine the rest of my life. The rest of our lives.

I stopped pacing when I saw the little black velvet box in her hand. My throat went dry, and my heart started to thud erratically. I had forgotten all about the fact that she had brought the engagement ring with her to the meadow. I was even more shocked when she opened it and slid the ring on appropriate finger. Her hand went up in the air and she wiggled her fingers watching the diamond sparkle in the light.

She turned to look at me and giggled when she saw my shocked expression and my jaw was practically on the floor. Then she gave me a sly smile and said, "Don't you think this just looks perfect right here?"

I ran over to the bed and grabbed Bella's ringed hand in my hand and looked her dead in the eyes. "Does this mean what I think it does?" I was trying so hard not to smile.

She put her palm against my warm cheek and smiled at me. That beautiful smile. Her chocolate brown eyes stared intensely into mine. I laid my hand on top of her and we stayed like that for a few minutes before she spoke.

Bella's POV

I took a deep breath and looking into his gorgeous loving eyes I said, "Jacob, I'm not going to lie to you. Yes, I still have feelings for Edward and I still love him." His eyes turned dark and sad. I put pressure with my hand against his cheek making him look at me again. "Although, I still have these feelings, I know I love you a whole lot more. Jake, you were my personal sun when I was engulfed in complete darkness. You pulled me out and into the light. You brightened my world and I fell head over heels in love with you."

I saw a few tears slide down his cheeks and wiped them away with my thumb. "This ring will forever stay on my finger. I want to be your wife, and start a family with you. I want you. I mean, that is if you steal want me." I narrowed my eyes playfully.

He gently sat down on the bed beside me as tears of joy started to slide down my cheeks. I knew his answer, I could see it in the depth of his eyes. He leaned down and gently kissed them away one by one. "Bella." It came out as a hoarse whisper and he had to clear his throat. "Isabella Marie Swan. I will always want you, no matter what." Then his lips crushed mine in a searing passionate kiss and I could feel just how much he loved me.

When we finally pulled away from each other we were both panting heavily. Jacob leaned his forehead against mine and his sweet breath washed over me. "Bella, I love you so much. I can't begin to describe just how much I love you."

"I love you too Jake." I leaned in and kissed him again.

He laid me back on the bed to rest and curled me gently to his warm body. We stayed there a long while like that in silence with me running my fingertips gently up and down his arm. I felt him shudder and smiled. Then a thought came to me.

"Oh, God! Charlie!"

"Relax Bella I called him. I told him we found you, that you had gone hiking in the woods and gotten attacked by a wild animal so we took you to Carlisle's so that he could take care of you. I told him you were fine now and that I would bring you home tomorrow."

I relaxed and then smiled to myself again.

"Now all we have to do is tell him and Billy about the engagement." I chuckled to myself as I felt Jacob tense beside me.

Author's Note: I'm so sorry this chapter took so long to get out. My computer crashed and I lost all of my story stuff that was saved to my hard drive.

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