Chapter 17
"Have you seen the baby?" I heard Fubuki's voice say softly. "He's beautiful… he has her smile."
I didn't answer. Fubuki placed a hand on my shoulder. "Edo… let her go. She's gone."
"How can you say that?" I shouted, turning sharply to Fubuki. "She's your sister!"
"I'm sorry… but, I know this wouldn't have been what she wanted… seeing you like this. You haven't even gone to see David-"
"-the hell with David!" I exclaimed, tears filling my eyes. "I don't want to see him! I hate him! He killed her, Fubuki! He killed the love of my life!How could you possibly love someone who killed your true love?" I stopped, recalling the same words I had said long ago, but at that time referring to my father towards his feelings for me. Me. The baby who took his true love away.
I fell silent.
"Edo. He's your son. And you'll love him. I just know you will. One look at that kid would do the trick."
"No," I said, my tears falling, "I won't love him. It's impossible. I'm not like my father, Fubuki. I'm not some kind of saint who would love a killer!"
"David is not a killer," Fubuki pushed, "He's innocent and you know it."
I didn't answer him.
"You know what I think?" he asked, "I think you're scared. You're scared to see him, because you feel so alone and helpless, and you need Asuka to raise the baby with you. But you know what? David needs you. He needs you more than you need Asuka. So get the hell out of your self-pity and go see my nephew!"
"I… can't." I said. "I don't want to."
"Nonsense." Fubuki said, grabbing me by the arm and dragging me to the nursery.
Fubuki and I saw the millions of cribs full of babies. A nurse accompanied us, leading us to David. As we walked past some cribs, I couldn't help but notice one of the babies having a club foot. My eyes widened as I remembered the many times that Asuka and I cried for David's possible cruel fate. And there I was, staring on what could've been.
"He's over there on the blue crib, right by the pink one." The nurse pointed. My eyes looked to where the nurse was pointing at. I saw the blue crib she was talking about.
"I can't do this," I whispered.
"Now you're just being ridiculous." Fubuki said.
The nurse waited for me to walk over there. "Come with me, please." I pleaded to Fubuki.
"Sorry bro, I won't." He told me. "I think this is something you should do on your own." He gave me a smile. "This was something Asuka would've wanted."
I turned to the crib's direction, realizing he was right.