A/N: Since everyone wanted me to update this, I guess I will. I never this story would be so popular, so I want to thank everyone who reads and/or reviews it. Thank you! I have 77 reviews! I love it.
Story: Fix Me
Chapter: 6-Sugar, We're Going Down
Rating: M
Genre: Romance/Angst
Warnings: Same as before. Slash and Angst ahead. Mentions of cutting and abuse in this chapter. Um... I think that's it for this chapter...
Disclaimer: Wait, let me check my records... looks in records Nope. Still not mine. Damn.
A/N2: This chapter goes forward in time a bit. Can't remember how much exactly. This chapter will probably be my favorite yet. And this chapter is dedicated to my new Fall Out Boy cd, From Under the Cork Tree. It rocks. Sugar, We're Goin' Down is a song on it. (I'm listening to it now!) Thank you. Don't forget to review!
"We're going down, down in an earlier round
And sugar we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
a loaded god complex
cock it and pull it."
Chapter 6- Sugar, We're Going Down
...Three Months Later...
Draco's POV
It's been three months since me and Harry got together. Three months since I asked that question.
Three months since Harry told me everything about his home life. If you want to call that a home, that is.
I can still remember the way Harry looked after he told me.
I don't think I'll ever forget.
The way he was curled up on me and crying into my shoulder. The way he told me more than he'd ever told anyone before.
He told me once a while after he told me that he didn't know how he would've survived without me.
He couldn't have gone on much longer keeping that awful secret.
Flashback (Normal POV)
"What? Why do you want to know?" Harry asked, moving away from Draco.
Draco sighed and pulled him back, one arm resting around his shoulders, his hand rubbing his back.
"Because... I love you, and I want to know."
"You-I... you love me?" Harry asked, eyes wide.
"I'm almost 100 sure of it. And I want to know everything about you, Harry. I know we haven't been together long, but it feels like forever. It feels more right than anything in my life ever has before, and I'm not letting it go, Harry. Please, Harry, please open up to me. Let me into your life. Don't close me out. I want to know. I want to help you. Please?"
Harry looked into Draco's eyes and saw nothing but sincerity in them.
But...
He had never told anyone before. He didn't want to open up. He didn't want to be vulnerable.
He had done that once before, and look where it got him...
Friendless and miserable, hooking up with the bane of his existence. Or the once bane of his existence.
But Draco looked so sincere. Like he truly wanted to help.
He had to decide.
After a minute he leaned into Draco.
"Okay," he said softly.
Draco's other arm came around him and loosely hugged him while he talked.
He told Draco about how when he was little he had to live in the cupboard under the stairs, how he never had any friends. How lonely he was...
He told him how he always had to do all the work in that house. How he had watch while Dudley got everything he ever wanted while he got nothing.
He told him about how when he came to Hogwarts, he finally had friends. How he had wanted to do whatever he could to make them happy, so they would like him and keep being his friends.
And then, how the summer after fifth year, right after he had thought his godfather had died, after Moody and the others had threatened his uncle, Vernon started drinking more and became violent.
And he, Harry, had been his favorite punching bag.
How things had gotten better when they had found a way to bring Sirius, his godfather, back...
But then his 'friends' had ditched him.
Dumped him like month old sushi.
How he had been crushed.
But then he had found Draco.
And as Harry finished the story of his life, he became aware that he had somehow ended up in Draco's lap and that his boyfriend was hugging him so tight that it almost hurt. And as he heard Draco whispering in his ear that everything would alright and he would never let anything hurt him again, he decided that Draco was right.
Nothing had ever felt so right.
End Flashback (Draco's POV)
Harry's come along way since then.
He opens up to me a lot more.
He even told me about how, when things had gotten really bad and he couldn't take it anymore, he would cut his arms.
He had explained to me that when he would cause himself pain like that, he could momentarily forget what was happening and the pain he felt inside. It all disappeared, for a short time at least.
Laying in bed with Harry on top of me, I can see his arms a little.
He even stopped wearing the glamour charms around me.
I can see all the little white scars that line his arms, souvenirs of the pain in his life.
My heart breaks for him every time I see those scars. Breaks for the fact that he's had it so bad.
I love him. I know that for sure now. 100, beyond a shadow of a doubt, I am head over heels for the boy who's laying on top of me.
Who would have thought, that Draco Malfoy would have fallen so hard for Harry Potter?
And, as I have said before, nothing has ever felt so right.
...Later That Day (LUNCH)...
Normal POV
Draco smiled as he watched Harry laughing at some joke, probably dirty, that Blaise had told.
Pansy noticed the look on his face and waved her hand in front of his face. "Earth to lover boy! You might want to come back down there bucko." she told him.
Draco just mock glared at her and went back to his favorite hobby, watching his boyfriend.
"Hey Draco! Pansy! Blaise! And Harry!" yelled a new voice.
"Hey Gin! Park it." Harry told her, gesturing to the seat next to him. She raised an eyebrow and, upon looking at said seat, Harry saw the problem.
He pushed Blaise off the seat and again gestured to the now empty seat, ignoring Blaise's shout of "HEY!" Ginny came over and sat next to him and gave him a hug, which he returned.
"What's up Gin?" he asked her, using his nickname for her, which he constantly made fun of her for, referring her to the alcoholic beverage.
She rolled her eyes at him and turned to talk to Pansy. The two had become fast friends.
Harry crossed his arms and pretended to pout. "Fine, don't pay attention to me." He stuck his tongue out at her.
Draco watched him, astounded at the change from three months ago. Before he would have been hurt when someone brushed him off, and he wouldn't have been joking around like he was. He smiled to himself and wrapped his arms around Harry.
"I'll pay attention to you," he said in his ear.
"Uhmmm," Harry moaned softly as Draco licked his ear. "Sounds nice." He turned around in his seat and began to kiss his boyfriend.
They continued like that for several minutes until Ginny cleared her throat next to Harry. "Sorry to burst you guys' little bubble, but Harry has to come with me. We have Quidditch practice."
That was another that Harry had done in the last three months. He had re-joined the Gryffindor Quidditch team.
Harry and Draco broke apart reluctantly. "I'll go too," Draco said, and stood up with Harry, their fingers entwined. Harry kissed his cheek. "Thanks," he whispered. Draco knew Harry didn't like going to practice alone, even with Ginny, because Ron Weasley was still on the team and Hermione Granger often came to watch him.
They started off to the pitch, Harry leaning on Draco, with Draco's other arm around his waist. Ginny was walking next to them, talking to Harry quietly about Quidditch strategy.
"Here come the fags!" A voice yelled as they walked onto the pitch. Harry just rolled his eyes and gave Draco another kiss on the cheek, and then a quick one on his lips, before going to get his broom.
Draco watched Harry fly, glad that his boyfriend was back on the team. He knew how much Harry loved flying. It was a release for him, a much better one than cutting up his own arms.
Draco smiled and continued to watch Harry, a small smile on his face, quite aware of the bushy haired girl watching him sadly a few feet away.
Later That Evening
Seven o'clock found Harry and Draco curled up together outside by the lake. It was April so while it was warm in the day, it got kind of chilly at night. They had Draco's blanket around them, and were quite content sitting with each other.
"Hey love birds!" came Pansy's voice and then they saw her sit down next to them. Draco rolled his eyes and pulled Harry tighter to him. "Awww!" cooed Pansy. " How sweet!" Harry just laughed and turned his head to give Draco a kiss.
Blaise and Ginny came over then, holding hands. Harry raised an eyebrow at her and she blushed, but didn't let go of Blaise's hand.
"Going for the younger women now, eh Blaise?" teased Draco with a smirk on his face.
"Hey, I can't help it. The younger ones are just so pretty." Ginny blushed even harder and Blaise leaned over and gave her a kiss.
"Ugh," said Draco, wrinkling his nose. "Heterosexuals. Gross."
Blaise reached over and smacked him while everyone else laughed.
"So," said Harry when he stopped laughing. "How long has this been going on?"
"Since yesterday," answered Ginny.
Harry nodded and then started to get up. "Well, I'm really tired so-" He never finished because Blaise reached over and pushed him into the lake, then jumping in himself yelling, "CANNONBALL!"
Draco jumped up and ran over to the water when Harry came up sputtering. "Can't-cough-swim," he managed. "Harry!" yelled Draco, holding his hand to Harry.
Harry grabbed it and then stopped splashing, instead grinning evilly. "What-no you don't-" Draco then got pulled into the lake as well. He came up next to Harry, who was laughing. Draco went over and pushed him under. Harry came back up actually sputtering and grabbed onto Draco.
"I really c-can't swim," he panted. "Oh, sorry," Draco told him, grabbing him. Just then, a most hated voice was heard.
"Well, well, well. What do we have here?" said Ronald Weasley, Granger standing behind him.
"Get the fuck away Weasley," said Harry, surprising Draco.
"Oh. Someone has quite a mouth," Weasley sneered.
Draco let go of Harry momentarily and swam over to the edge. "Weasley, if you don't shut your fucking mouth-" he was cut off by a jet of light shooting out of Weasley's wand, followed by a shout of "Harry!"
He whipped around just in time to see Harry going under the water. "Fuck!" he cursed and he and Blaise both dived under the water.
Harry's POV
I can't see a fucking thing and I can't fucking breath. This is marvelous.
Why is my body so heavy? What the hell was that curse that Ron used? Why would he do that?
Is he trying to kill me?
I'm really scared. My chest is burning and I don't want to die.
God I don't want to die.
My lungs feels like they're about to explode. I try to swim, but I can't move my arms.
WHY ME!
I don't want to die. I don't want to die. I don't want to die. I don't want to die.
I don't want to...
Everything's getting fuzzy.
I can't think straight.
I want Draco.
Where are you Draco?
I NEED YOU!
It's all going black...
Wait, is that a person...
DRACO!
Draco's POV
My god I'll kill him. I'll fucking kill Weasley.
Where is Harry?
WHERE IS HE?
It's getting hard to breath. Why don't I have my wand?
Where is he? I HAVE to find him.
He can't die...
I LOVE YOU HARRY! WHERE ARE YOU?
If I wasn't surrounded by water, I assure you I'd be crying.
I'm scared. Where is he? What if I'm too late?
I see Blaise a few feet away, looking for Harry as well.
God, I need to find him.
HARRY! I NEED YOU!
This is a nightmare. I need to find him before the both of us run out of air.
Wait...
THERE! A PERSON!
HARRY! I FOUND HIM!
I swim to him as fast as I can.
I grab him as I see his eyes drift close.
Don't die on me, Harry. I love you. Don't die. You can't, is all I can think as I swim toward the surface. I can see Blaise swimming in front of me and he grabs me and pulls me up toward the surface. We break the surface and I swim to the edge, getting out and pulling Harry out.
Oh god.
He's so pale...
And, oh dear god, he's not breathing.
I think back to the classes on first aid my mother made me take when I was younger and start to perform CPR on him.
After what seems like hours, he takes a gasping breath. I grab my blanket and wrap it around him and then run to the hospital wing, everyone else running behind me.
Normal POV
It was 11:00 pm and Harry was sleeping peacefully in the hospital wing. Madame Pomfrey had fixed him up right away and said he just needed a lot of sleep. Draco had haltingly told the Headmaster what had happened, unable to contain his tears at the thought of losing Harry.
Now he sat next to Harry, holding Harry's limp hand in his own. Every once in awhile he'd start crying again, but if it was from fear or relief he didn't know. He'd been so scared, especially when Harry didn't wake up after Pomfrey made him better.
She had told him it was natural for Harry to be tired, but still...
He'd been so pale, he still was.
Draco just wanted to see his eyes again, hear him talk and know he was alive. Even now he kept two fingers on Harry's wrist so he could feel his pulse and now that his heart was still beating. If Harry's stopped, so would his.
His heart beat only for Harry.
Suddenly he felt Harry's hand squeeze his.
He looked and saw that Harry's eyes were open and tears were streaming down his face.
"Thank god," breathed Draco. He got up into the bed and hugged Harry to him while Harry cried.
"I was so scared, Draco" he whispered. "I thought I was gonna die."
"Shhh.." Draco said, rubbing his back and crying himself. "You're fine now, you're fine. Thank god you're okay. I love you, Harry. God, I love you so much." he held Harry close and kept whispering things like that in Harry's ear until he fell back asleep.
As he lay there in the hospital wing with Harry, alive and well, asleep in his arms, he couldn't help but think about what he'd do if he ever lost his raven-haired angel.
He ran his fingers through said hair and prayed to any god who would listen that he and Harry were always together and that he never lost his love.
It would break him.
"I love you Harry," he whispered to Harry. "I love you so much it hurts. I love you, I love you, I love you." he smiled faintly and put his nose in Harry's hair, breathing in the scent of his boyfriend.
"Never forget that Harry. I love you."
Wow, that... evolved. That was way different from what I had planned. Different, but good, I think. This is a long one. YEAH! Please remember to review. It makes me happy. :) Pwease? By the way, only about two chapters left. Their will be a sequel though. I have it all planned out. :P See you next chapter:O