Rin: I'm taking ages to update aren't I?
I'm sorry, I seem to get easily distracted but now I've got a new character I'm writing a lot more. I haven't put any of these messages on before because I haven't really had the time.

Rin: raises eyebrows

Me: ok so I've been playing minesweeper and forget to leave a message for people.

Rin: may I add, you still haven't won a game.

Me: So anyway thanks for the two reviews. They're very much appreciated. I'm glad someone enjoys my writing. Hope you carry on enjoying it, here's the next chapter.

So he'd wanted her to find this, he knew that she would get it. Why did he have to write this though? Why not tell her? Absentmindedly she turned the pages on the book. On each page was a list of names. Names of all different languages. All of them were criminals, the lowest scum of the Earth, next to Kira. Rin knew that they were but she didn't believe that anyone should destroy their own soul to rid the world of these people who made the other people in the world what they are.

She sighed as she turned the last page of names. What was going on? This was all too farfetched; Shinigami and Deathnotes. Her attention was drawn back to the note as she noticed a folded piece of paper loose in the book . it lay on the page she'd opened it to. She tentatively opened it up and found Soren's writing scrawled on the page again. He'd written that days date and his own name; Soren Tashiro.

Rin couldn't help but stare wide eyed at the name. No, she was jumping to conclusions, he wouldn't do this. She compared the paper to that of the deathnote to find it matched. Rin remembered back to the rules; once a name is written it can not be undone. Rin ran her hands through her hair wondering why Soren would do this. He couldn't have done it on purpose but how could someone write their own name by accident? He would of had to be oblivious to the power of the deathnote then. She turned to the front of the book to find that a page had been ripped out of the front of the book. It had been the first thing he'd written. He'd gotten the date wrong, he often mucked up with numbers for some reason. A tear slid down her cheek as she listened to the silence of the room next door.

She sat there for what seemed like hours before she realised she'd been tracing over her brother's name, she turned to look at the glowing numbers of the clock by her bed. It took a moment for the blurred numbers to register in her mind. It was half past twelve, half an hour since Soren had put the book in her room.

Unable to sleep, she went into her brothers room, hovering in the doorway before she built up the courage to go in. She knelt by his bed. Tears were sliding down her face faster now. She leant over and pushed her hand through his hair. She kissed his cheek. It was still warm.

"I love you" She heard her cracked voice barely able to whisper the words. She sank back to the floor and grasped his hand. She didn't want to stay here having to face the image of her brother but she found herself unable to move away. She simply couldn't leave him.

Once a name is written it cannot be undone.



The rule echoed around her head. She couldn't do anything.

She awoke, still next to her brother bed. Her neck ached and her face was still wet with tears, now even her hair was damp and clung to her cheek. She got up unable to look at her brother. She went back to her own room and put her school things in her bag. She showered, ate breakfast and was out of the house before her mum had even woken up as was usual on a school day.

She went the long way to school, through the park. She was quite all morning but no one seemed to notice, she normally kept herself to herself anyway. It wasn't until her second lesson that she noticed she'd packed the deathnote in her bag. She pulled it out and set it on the desk. She sighed and stared at the book. She had to know it was real. The only way to do that was to use it herself. She took a pen from her pencil case and put it to the paper ready to write. She looked around the classroom for someone she could write down. The teacher? There were rumours going round that he had a criminal record. The stories ranged from theft to rape but you couldn't believe those sorts of stories. He was a terrible teacher though; he dealt out detentions whenever possible, he never taught anything to the class then punished them for their low grades. That wasn't enough to kill him. The argument went back and forth in Rin's mind. Eventually she put the book back in her bag still blank.

You could only decide whether a person should live or die when you know every detail of their life, how their mind works, what they were, what they could be. You could never decide who should live and die and be right.

She endured two more lessons of boredom and lunchtime in between; her friend, Makoto, was on holiday and wouldn't be back until next week so she was alone for most of the day. In the last lesson she sat next to Shigeru. They were good friends but never really talked outside of lessons. He had his own friends and Rin had Makoto.

"Hey Rin! Seems like ages since I've talked to you." Shigeru had a skip in his step as he landed his back on the desk and sat down on the chair next to Rin.

"It has been a week now, what with those two days off last week" Rin replied with a big grin on her face. Something about Shigeru always made her smile. They chatted about the usual stuff for the first half of the lesson before the teacher came round and told them to get on with their work.

"Damn, I never get this stuff." Shigeru whispered.

"Pay attention then, the teacher explained it."

"Well I was talking to you. I'm blaming you if I fail Biology. Look you have all the answers and you never pay attention. I never even saw you writing that down."

"Girls can multitask"

"Exactly you have an advantage." He nicked her workbook and started looking at the answers. He copied the first couple of answers before handing it back. "That ought to even it out." Rin didn't bother arguing. Shigeru was too strong and would just hold it out of her each. Instead she sighed and shook her head.

"I'm not going to bother lecturing you. It's just a waste of breath isn't it"



"Ah, so you've finally realised. I'll miss your rants though."

Rin went to write in her book again and realised she'd took the Deathnote out again. What was with that thing? She picked it up and went to put it in her bag but was interrupted by Shigeru grabbing it.

"What's this then?"

"Nothing really, Just a notebook." Rin reached over to try and grab the book back but he held it out of reach.

"Why's the front cover in English. Damn it you know I'm terrible at English. Tell me what it says."

"No, Shigeru, give it back"

"If it's so unimportant, why are you so desperate to get it back? Oh, is it a diary? Tell me what it says. Tell me! If you tell me I'll give it you back."

"No, you won't give it back so no, I won't tell you what it means and no, it's not a diary, I don't even own one." Rin was trying to be serious but the smile Shigeru always seemed to give her was not going away.

"You know me well Rin. You should also know that I won't give up."

"I also know you well enough to know that you're too lazy to look it up so if I don't tell you, you won't find out."

Shigeru considered this and realise she was right. He grabbed a pen and copied the legend onto his hand. "Now I can get someone to tell me what it means." He returned to looking through the deathnote and opened it to a random page. "What's with the names? Whoa, there's tons of them." He carried on looking through the book. "Hey, isn't that that guy on the news. He was killed by Kira. Mass murderer though so it was coming to him really, not that I agree with Kira." Enlightenment crossed Shigeru's face, a rare occurrence. He traced his finger down the lists stopping at some of the names he recognised.

Rin was quick to realise what his conclusion would be.

"This is a list of criminals, all killed by Kira. You… Rin?"

"No Shigeru, I wouldn't!"

"You're Kira"

"No, Please Shigeru, this is my brother's book"

"Your brother's Kira"

"No, sort of. Just let me explain"

"But he killed people!"

"I know, I know, please just listen to me!"

"Who killed people?"



"Rin's a murderer?"

The whole class was staring at the pair of them. Rin took the opportunity to snatch the book from Shigeru's hands. She ripped a page from her biology book and scrawled a note on it. She shoved her things in her bag and slammed the note on Shigeru's desk as she left. The bell rang just as she went out of the door.

Shigeru picked up the note and read it. He shook his head and packed his own things away ignoring the persistent questions from the rest of the class.