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He looked down at Deke, only instead of seeing himself from three years ago, he now held a white haired boy of fifteen.

"Lavi . . ." Allen choked out again, before his arm thudded to the floor and his eyes slowly shut.

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Lavi shrank back, horrified as he realised what he'd done. He stared down at his shaking hands.

He had tried to kill Allen.

He let out a cry that chilled those in earshot to the bone and tore out of the library, ignoring Lenalee's protests as she tried to revive Allen.

As he skidded around the corner into the hallway, he heard her shrieking at him to come back but he ignored her, dashing down the stairs two at a time.

Shit, shit, shit, shit. Lavi cursed at himself over and over, tearing through corridors, past confused finders and dodging concerned exorcists as he tried to organise his swirling thoughts.

Suddenly, a hand caught the back of his shirt and he was pulled off balance, crashing to the floor. He looked groggily up at his assailant and tried to focus on the hazy figure above.

Kanda glared down at him.

"Baka usagi. What the hell are you doing making so much noise in the hallway?"

"Y-Yuu . . ." Lavi said, still recovering from his fall. Kanda gritted his teeth and clenched his fists.

"I said not to call me by my first name!" he snapped. "Che, you're more irritating than baka moyashi."

Lavi's reaction was instant. He lurched to his feet, staggering slightly as he lost his balance. Concerned (although he would never admit it), Kanda stepped forward, reaching out a hand to touch his back lightly in case he fell again.

"NO!" Lavi threw himself away from the black haired man. "Don't touch me." He wheezed, leaning on the wall for support.

"Lavi, what the hell is going on?" Kanda said, more than a bit weirded out by the recent turn of events. Usually, he couldn't get the stupid moron off him, something was wrong.

"Just get the HELL away from me!" Lavi bolted away in the opposite direction, feet thudding across the cobblestone floors as Kanda stared, dumbfounded, at his receding figure.

"Lavi. . ." the light was fading fast, blackness creeping in at the edges of his vision as he ran out of air. The look on his friends face was terrible, filled with pure hatred and loathing. The last look he wanted to see on his friend's face, especially when it was directed at him.

"Lavi!" he heard Lenalee's screech but it sounded distant, barely audible above the beating of his own heart. Lavi looked around at Lenalee, not lessening the pressure on his neck. When he looked back, his face was filled with surprise.

"Lavi . . ." Allen choked out, before he was pitched into darkness.

Allen woke to soft sheet and a throbbing pain in his head and neck. He saw Lenalee's back and tried to call out, only to discover that it hurt to talk.

How did he get here? Lavi had attacked him. Why? Where was he? Was he alright?

Questions and stray thoughts alike raced through his mind, transforming into a menacing swirling mass that intensified the pain in his head, making him groan out loud.

Lenalee realised he was awake and spun around, revealing Kanda and Johnny behind her.

"Allen! You're awake!" she smiled brightly at him, Johnny joined her and Kanda huffed a congratulations. Allen could see they were trying, but their guise was a thin one.

"Where's Lavi?" he rasped, getting straight to the point.

Lenalee grimaced and glanced at her companions who shook their heads. Sighing, she turned back to Allen.

"Everyone's been looking for him, but there's been no trace of him yet." She smiled encouragingly. "We'll find him though, don't worry."

Allen tried to sit up, only to have a sharp pain rip through his neck, making him gasp in pain.

"Stop wriggling moyashi." Kanda scolded him, hands on his hips as he surveyed the boy critically.

Allen glared through the pain that was clouding his vision.

"It's Allen, bakanda!" He snapped, before trying again to pull himself from the bed.

"Allen stop!" Lenalee tried to pry his hand from the railing, but he held fast, ignoring her. "What are you doing?!"

"I have to go and find him." Allen muttered. "Find out what's wrong with him."

"What?! No! He might attack you again!" She pushed him back onto the pillows and held him there as he squirmed.

"But I-"

"Allen, please." The boy stopped when he heard her voice. It had changed, no longer commanding and confident, but sad, almost begging.

"Lenalee?" He asked, concerned.

"Please Allen, I-I don't ever want to see you like that again." She sniffed back her tears and released one of his arms to wipe her eyes on her sleeve. "Y-you weren't. . . you weren't breathing and I though- I-I thought you wouldn't wake up. . ." She looked up again, swallowing her remaining tears.

"Never do that again." She said, almost a whisper.

Allen nodded hesitantly and relaxed against the pillows.

"I'm sorry Lenalee."

"It's fine, just stay here."

Allen nodded meekly and she smiled.

"But only on one condition." Kanda rolled his eyes and Lenalee looked curious.

"What is it?" she asked.

He grinned. "Find Lavi and bring him back safely."

Lenalee blinked, she hadn't been expecting that, but she nodded anyway.

"Of course."

Lavi sat, slumped against a tree, trying to ignore the two pairs of legs hanging beside him on the tree branch and the conversation they were having.

"Deke did a pretty good job back there huh?"

"You think? Personally, I think it's irresponsible; he shouldn't go provoking Lavi when it could endanger our position. We're very lucky to have such close contact with people that have this big an effect on history."

The other boy pouted.

"Aww, you're no fun Joel."

"I don't have to be fun, my job is to be a bookman and record history, not goof off like you always seem to do Niall."

His companion smirked.

"See? That's the reason your log failed. You have to be more open and inviting otherwise you won't be able to get close enough to learn anything. Lavi could teach you a thing or two, he's got it down to an art."

The teen in question didn't move but rather turned his head a little farther from the pair. Joel raised an eyebrow in his direction as Niall slipped from his perch and thudded to the packed earth beside his older counterpart. The boy kneeled beside Lavi, peering up into his downcast eyes.

"Aww cheer up Lavs, it's not like those exorcists matter or anything." The boy smiled, ignoring Lavi's cringe. "They're just data remember?"

"Go away Niall." His voice was flat and emotionless as he got to his feet and turned away, trying to ignore the pestering 9 year old.

"Let him be Niall, he's just moaning over what he did to his friend." Lavi groaned and looked up into the soaring tree branches where Deke was hanging upside down, his legs hooked over the branch as he sneered down at them.

"Or could it be that he's more than a friend now?" The cool words froze Lavi's heart and he stopped dead.

"Hm? What's with that reaction? Could it be that I'm right? That you've become attached to the subject?" his grin widened, spreading to cover his whole face in half. "Ooh, bad Lavi, we can't have romance now can we?"

Lavi spun around, a scathing retort on his lips, but he was faced with an empty meadow, once again alone. Thinking about deke's words, Lavi bit his lip and ran from the clearing.

I am so sorry you guys.

I meant to post this chapter much earlier then this i swear, but the sydney anime festival is in 2 days and i had to finish my allen walker costume. The next chapter will probably not be done until monday either because I'm out for the entire weekend. I'm so sorry!

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thank you and sorry again!

-Tiny