TITLE: Love Hurts

FANDOM: She's the Man

RATING: T may change to M later

PAIRING: Olivia/Viola

SUMMARY: Olivia breaks down after the revelations.

Disclaimer: I own nothing, but I'm pretty sure this story is coming out of my head. Can anything really be yours after it's out of your head?

I hated that I loved her.

I honestly didn't think I was bleeding that much till Viola started freaking out. But when I looked down I saw that my shirt and the floor were pretty covered in blood. How much blood can you lose? I can't remember. I went to stand up, intending to wash and dress my only wound that was easily fixable, but I collapsed again before I even made it halfway up. I guess that somewhere between the crying, throwing up, and bleeding I pretty much lost any strength I had. Because the last thing I remember before blacking out, was unlocking the door.

"… and the doctor was like 'the only prescription is more cowbell!'"

"Sebastian shut up! I think she's waking up."

Oh God… she's still here, with Sebastian? Why is he here? I really didn't want to open my eyes. But there were people with me, and one of them was holding my hand. Sigh… they already know I'm awake, I may as well get this over with. Bracing myself for the worst, I opened my eyes.

Viola was sitting on the right side of the bed holding my hand where am I? This isn't the nurse's office. And her brother, the Sebastian that I kissed without him having a clue what was going on, was standing behind her. Maria was by the foot of the bed, her face was bright red and I think she was trying not to laugh about the story Sebastian had been telling.

"Where are we?" I whispered. Wow, my voice is even worse now. How bad did Viola's little ruse mess me up?

"They had to bring you to the hospital, you lost a lot of blood. Why did you run from me?"

Not good! Not good at all… you will not cry, no tears. Damn it Olivia you will not break down in front of her!!

There were tears… and there was crying. And a very uncomfortable looking Sebastian ducking out of the room. But I finally didn't break down. Sure there was crying, but I think I was already so broken at this point, that I didn't have any more broken to get.

"I'm going to let you two talk, I'll be outside if you need me." No… Maria you can't leave me in here alone with her!! Please don't leave

But she did leave, and I was alone with Viola, she was holding my hand. Her skin felt the same way it did when I first met him. I so clearly remember bumping into him leaving Principle Gold's office… (What a creep) I hated that he was on the right track with my thoughts. It was those eyes… and then he complimented my shoes. It's amazing how dumb I can be. But Mr. Gold was right, granted the abstinence speech was a little pointless, but my mind was already rounding second base with Sebastian within the first 30 seconds of meeting him. Which is really weird, normally those thoughts don't come till after the first kiss.

"Olivia?"

"Please… I don't…" smooth girl, I think some remedial debutante conversation classes are in order

"Don't what? Olivia, Maria says you haven't spoken to anyone in days!"

She didn't really yell at me, but her voice was apparently raised just enough to set off whatever internal bomb I had been building for the past 4 days.

"Well whose fault do you think that is?! Did you ever think that maybe I didn't want to talk about the fact that the guy fell in love with wasn't a guy at all!? How on earth can you live with yourself playing with people's feeling like that? It's not just me, what about poor Duke? Every single thing you know about him, you learned under false pretences. And then you tell him you love him at the game?! What on earth is wrong with you!? Why couldn't you have just been quiet and kept to yourself, you didn't need to make friends to play soccer, you certainly didn't need to talk to me ever! AND THEN you have the nerve to let me tell you that I was falling in love with you, in the bathroom and you said NOTHING!! You never even tried to fix things. What would you have done if I had found you instead of your brother?! What would have happened if I kissed you? Because you certainly didn't say anything to try to prevent it!! Is that what you wanted? Then you could have a big laugh 'eww its livy the lezy'! but the worst part is that you didn't even see it as wrong, all you cared about was yourself and you stupid soccer game! YOU let me find out when you flashed a thousand people… why would you even do that? Don't you have any modesty at all!?"

I've yelled before, but this time I felt my face go all pins and needles, which is really the only reason I stopped. I glanced at Viola intending to at least scowl at her, if not launch another tirade. I think I broke her… she was just sitting there, those huge eyes wide, still holding my hand.

A tear fell. This time it wasn't mine.

Then another, and then she just cracked...

"Oh my God, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I didn't think... Oh my God I'm sorry…" the apologies kept pouring out of her, she just pushed her face into the bed beside me, and I couldn't even make out the words, but the shaking had grown very familiar the last few days. She wasn't just crying she was sobbing, in that shaky hard to breathe painful way. Maybe she really didn't mean to hurt me.

Apparently having a major screaming fit in a hospital isn't the best plan I've ever had, especially after having self inflicted damage. Because a nurse came in almost as soon as the screaming stopped

"I'm sorry Miss Lennox but I'm going to have to give you a sedative, your supposed to be resting right now. Your friends can come back tomorrow."

She stuck the needle into my new IV line, right before I fell asleep I heard Viola whispering

"I do care about you Olivia."

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