Note: Heeeeyyyy you guys...graduation and examination this week! Woot! Ugh i have to walk with a guy partner. Damn it. I don't even fucking know him!! Aurgh!! Well before I rant about it I'll get to the points. Thank you for reviewing and sorry for the wait! On with da storie!!

Chapter 6: I don't know.

"Oh no," Nobu sighed as Chiharu and her watched the sight. You could almost see the cloud of pain and tension surround them. Even the children stopped playing in the pool to watch.

Kazuki, who was the oldest, immediately got out of the pool and proceeded to go to his mother. Nobu quickly snapped him back and was given an almost stern face, "Auntie Nobu, why is mama shaking?"

Nobu gave him a weak smile, "Nothing sweety. It's cold is all." Kazuki gave her a skeptical look. First of all it's pretty hot. Second, if he came out of the pool he would feel colder. However, he felt fine. So that was a lame excuse. Nonetheless he took it, and nodded. Chiharu had gathered the others and ushered them inside the house.

Nobu gave another reassuring smile, "It's okay Kazu-kun. Go in with the others. Kaori is waiting for you," she added after a few seconds. Kazuki glanced back to see that Kaori was standing just outside the door, waiting for him patiently.

"Go on," Nobu urged giving a smile. Kazuki gave one more glance before turning around and running to the girl that waited for him. Kaori gave a joyful smile as she cling tight on his arm. Normally he would push her away, but this time he let her cling on. All he could do was watch his mother stand there, in front of his father, who was muttering something under his breath.

He let Kaori pull him towards the door and out of sight. The moment they were inside, Tenshi inquired, "What's wrong with mama?" Kazuki could only shrug and answer honeslty, "I don't know."

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"Risa," he whispered trying to get closer to her, "please. Don't cry. I-I..I can explain! I swear I didn't mean this." Risa just bit her lip. She didn't know anymore. She didn't know what to do. She didn't know how to react. She fucking doesn't know how to deal with all this shit!

She only answered with whatever had popped up in her mind, "How...how could you?" How could he do this to her? Didn't she love him enough? What did she do wrong? Wasn't she playing the obedient and loving wife that he had wanted? Why would he do this? It hurt. It really hurt. To think you did the best you could...and yet, you're just not good enough. She wasn't a good enough lover. She wasn't a good enough companion. She just wasn't good enough. So...he found someone who was good enough. It hurt.

Otani could only sigh, trying vainly to remove the tears that continued to fall. She tried to decipher any emotion he showed in the moment. He seemed panicked, confused, and...regretful. Yet...his expression didn't make her feel any better.

"I...I don't know," he answered so softly she barely heard it. Her sorrow slowly left her, and rage filled in her mind. She boomed out, "You don't know!? Everything is you don't know with you now! Why Otani!? Why?? Wasn't I good enough!? Didn't I do everything for you!? Didn't I love you enough?! Why!!" Why would you this to us? To your family? To me?

Otani bit his lip. The tears, each one that fell down her face made his heart stop. Just little by little. Why? Why had he done this? Why did he do this? He didn't know. He honestly didn't. He answered truthfully. He really didn't know. But that's not the answer she desired. She wanted to know a good answer. But he had none.

"Answer me!" she shouted. He bowed his head. He couldn't. She brought her hand up to her mouth, trying to stifle her sobs. She was heartbroken. Her chest hurts. Her vision was blurry. She couldn't think. She couldn't move. She wanted to die. Right then and there. She wanted to die. Just to stop the pain. Just to stop this madness. Die and everything bad will just go way...

She crumpled into the ground in fallen heap. She felt weak. She couldn't hold herself up anymore. She could barely talk. She didn't realize that Nobu and Chiharu were pulling her up. Nobu whispering comforting words in her ear, Chiharu patting her back, as they whisked her away. She just let them lead her. She didn't care anymore. Everything was so screwed up.

Otani watched her go. His chest was burning. It felt painful. Like it was being stabbed and cut in pieces. But he deserved it. He knew he did. "Otani," Nakao began. He jumped slightly. He didn't realize they were still there. His jaw hardened. He couldn't face them. Not now. Not ever.

So he ran. He ignored the calls of his name. He just ran. Jumping into his car, and whisking away with out a word. He hated himself. He wanted himself dead. But he didn't want to die. No...he couldn't die. He wouldn't leave this world without apologizing to Risa. To his children. And yet he was running away from them. How ironic it turned out.

He found himself out here. In the house where his sin lives. He found himself running to the door and knocking hard. Trying to get her to open it quickly. She should be home. He knew she didn't work if he wasn't there. And indeed she opened it.

"Otani?" she said. "Haruhi." He had pushed himself in, and pounced on her. Pushing his lips on hers, and closing the door with a kick of his feet. He wanted something to toy around with at the moment. Something that he could release all his feeling out. She was his toy right now. She was also his sin.

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Note:

Okay I friggin hate myself for writing this right now. I won't go in lemon...cuz...well I hate the fucking woman!! Augh!! I feel depressed too. Well I'll get over it. I'm sorry for the wait. But I have to admit. I stalled because I really didn't want to write this chapter. Well the ending of the chapter. You have to understand me on this. I'm sorry Risa..I made him do it!! sob

Yes Otani is a bastard isn't he?? Lol. Please don't up hating me. Or him. I'm sorri it's short!!