Note: Heyya peoples. Okay I'm doing a bit of a time skip here. See I was originally going to do the whole moving thing and all that but I found that it was a too boring thing to do. I mean all I have to do is pretty much say they were moving. Boxes. Silence. And Otani was half expecting it right??
Chapter 12: I love you.
For the first time in Otani Atsushi's life, he felt like he had sunk so low, that he didn't care if he was to die and rot in his own house. Over a course of a week, everything had been spiraling out of control. He had arrived almost a day after she found out, dreading with every fiber in his body to see her. However he was greeted with a gloomy Nakao to deliver the news. Risa had decided to leave.
To leave. Just like that. She decided to take her children and their belongings and ran out of his life. Although he cannot blame her for it, he still felt somewhat angered. He did expect it, and yet he found it hard to believe. He still couldn't grasp the fact that she left. She was out of his life. His children were gone. No contact except for the updates he gets from Nakao. They weren't exactly detailed. It was a mere, "Risa and the kids are fine."
Fuck it. He might was well say that they were dead. He could be lying for all he knew. And everyday he woke up, he had to experience the grief all over again. He had to figure out that the children weren't there to play their games. Risa wasn't there to knock on his door and ask if he wanted tea. Shit nothing was there. Most of their belongings were gone. Everything was gone...
What hurt the most however was the ring he found on his bed. It was like it was thrown there and just forgotten. It as the ring that she always wore. She would never let go of it. Till now that is.
He let out a sigh. For the past week all he did was take a shower, eat, and sleep. For fun he stared at the wall and wonder why he was an idiot. Why he did it. He completely ignored Haruhi's pleas to call her. He had ran out when she made the proposition. He was scared of that. He took his clothes and fled. After he arrived in a bar, where he spent most of his time drunk.
Then he was here. Alone. Trash around him. Watching cheesy romance movies and screaming for the girl to leave the man. He was a stinky, devious liar like he was. He certainly didn't deserve the girl. Oh the irony of it all.
He growled when the phone suddenly rang.It rang for days nowand it was always Haruhi and there were times where she was crazy enough to come to the house. He ignored every attempt she made to come in of course. However this time it was not Haruhi. It was Nakao. The moment his voice was heard from voice mail, he dashed from his position to answer the phone.
He didn't give a damn if he spilled his soda or that he stepped on glass. His priority was getting that phone call. He tripped on his way over which made him drag himself and grabbed the phone. "Nakao!" he yelled.
He heard Nakao sigh on the other line, "Otani, were you waiting for me to call?" Otani couldn't help but answer with silence. Well yes. He's been waiting all day for the call. He just wanted to know if his family was alright. Despite the fact that they were to be separated he still considered them his family. And he was worried. It was a natural feeling.
"Idiot," he heard his best friend shout, "keep yourself together! Just because you loose something so special, that doesn't mean you can kill yourself!" Otani bit his lip. He wanted so much to yell back. But so far, he was lucky that Nakao even talks to him. The others seem to have been distant. While they check up on him, Nakao was the only one who has the spine to yell at his face.
"I know," He whimpered slightly. Nakao sighed through the phone. Otani was his best friend. He trusted him enough. Perhaps less than before but perhaps it was safe enough for him to say this. "Otani. Do you really want to know where Risa and the kids are?"
It seemed everything stopped for him. Nakao was giving him a chance? He was getting a chance? "I-Yes!" he piped up. Otani could tell Nakao was hesitating but he continued none the less, "Okay. I know where she is obviously. If...if you get yourself together. I'll take you there. I'll check up on you, in three days. If you're still pathetic looking like you are now, no deal."
Oh good god. Nakao was giving him a chance. He was giving him a chance at this. No matter how undeserving he thought he was, he would jump at the chance to do this. To talk to her. Perhaps get her back. To gain back her trust. To get her back in his arms. Even if it was a moment.
And his children...just to talk to them. To get a chance to explain. For one more chance to do the right thing and start behaving as the father. Though he still had a chance to do as what was right, he doubt that he would ever get them back. In the back of his mind, he knew it was almost impossible. But...it was worth a shot right??
Now before he could even begin to think about that...he needed to clean this up soon. Oh shit, now he regretted firing the maids.
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Risa placed a tender kiss on Tenshi's forehead. This week has been madness for all of them. Moving out of their home to a strange new place, getting a new room, a new neighborhood, a new chance. She sighed. They didn't question it. They just moved along with it. Sometimes she felt like she was pushing this on them too much, but...every time she would stop it was like they were urging her to go on. Especially Kazuki. But...she had to admit. She was thankful that they accepted and went with her decisions. They truly love and trust their mommy. She was so lucky to have them.
"Risa?" she heard Kohori near the door. She turned giving him a small smile. "Are you guys comfortable?" he's been asking that all week. Since he was single, he only owned a bachelor pad, with a guest room. So she slept with the boy too. They shared a bed but sometimes one crawls over to her bed.
"You know we are," she answered dimming the lights. Kohori let out a grin. He's being a bit annoying isn't he? She followed him to the kitchen where he handed her hot chocolate. "Haruka said it always calms you."
Risa let out a small giggle. "Good ol' Haruka knows my secret then." After about an hour Kohori excused himself to get to sleep. He had a job to do early tomorrow. "Night!" she called after him. Soon after she heard Kohori shut his door and she let out a sigh.
Kohori was trying hard to please her. She knew and she was grateful for it. But...she wasn't exactly happy. I mean she could smile but...not really smile. It still hurt once she thought about it. Yes she still got swallowed by denial but...she was slowly getting out of it. Well she hoped. Either that or she'll sink deeper to depression.
However she couldn't let go of herself now. She's been strong and hasn't cried just yet. She has to be. She's well aware that it hurt but it was for her children. She heard Tenshi cry two days ago. It was in the playground. He burst out crying but was quickly comforted by Kaori and Kazuki. Well he couldn't exactly help it. It all hurts. Kazuki cried as well but he was asleep. She knew he was trying to be strong.
Somehow, she could see that Kazuki considered himself to be the man of the family right now. While Kohori was there, he still considered himself the man because there was no papa right now. So he couldn't let himself be weak. She smiled to herself. Kazuki was growing up. Far too fast but...right now...everyone has to grow up just a bit. To move on too.
She's been considering filing for divorce soon. However she didn't like the word 'divorce.' It was like the most evil little thing she heard. Just one word...it could break you heart. Well sort of like the word 'cheating' too. Just add in the words 'with a hoe.' She could feel the tears threatening to push out.
She breathed in deeply. She told herself that she cried all of her tears, so she will not cry any longer. She will be strong. She will get through this. And this time, she won't have Otani on her side. And...that's just fine...
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"Shit!" Otani cried looking around the damn cleaning closet. So far he didn't know what the hell each fucking spray does. Does this work on wood or glass?! What the fuck does this rag do? Why is it even in there!? Fed up he went straight up to the phone. He certainly can't clean for his life but he can straighten up other things. Like his car, which has scratches and bumps for driving recklessly. Like the bills, which he hasn't paid yet. Like this work, which he gone to at all. Oh yes he can straighten some things out.
But first get maids to clean this place up. Second get Haruhi too stay more than ten miles away from him. Third get his car fixed. Fourth, get bills paid and out of the way. Fifth, move his position in his job to another department. He made a mental note to have a male secretary this time. One that is married, engaged, or has a girlfriend. One that is not gay. But god forbid he'll be going after men now.
He let out a small smile. All of this for them. And hopefully, he can get this straightened out. To get him to trust him again. To get a chance. He can change and he knew it. He can get things done after all. And this time for the better. And he can do it fast, he only has a week to meet a deadline.
He licked his lips. It was like work. He's facing opposition and he's got to knock it down to get his prize. Like work he's got a deadline to meet. This time it was in a week. His judge was Nakao and probably Nobu. A week. It was a challenge. And like always he'll run head first to complete it.
He wasn't backing down on this either. It was a chance. It was a gift. A time to change everything.
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Note: Heyy you guys. Yeah it was like a filler chapter for you. Ahaha. Turns out this will be...about 3 more chapters up. Lol. Well sorry for the errors and all that but I am in a rush. Cuz I have to submit all this chapter to the story and get it finished. And then after this fic is done, i'll be focusing on my long since forgotten Naruto fic that i was suppose to finish last year. Uhm...yea. I stopped because of this so I have to go back on it.
But after that. I'll be finishing all the stories I started and then...I'll finally be able to submit a story. I promise one will be a lovely complex story.
Anyway, thank you the reviews. And the support I got. Well tune in for the ending! Lol.