Disclaimer: I do not own FMA or BBI. I really wish I did.
A/N: Although most of the italic speakings (as if "blahblahblah") words are not of mine, I did change BBI a little here and there.
While reading this, see if you can point out all the suggested fan-pairings XD. I know there's Edvy, EdXRoy, and Elricest. It's just so funny how it's all fan-pairing-e
Thanks To: Anyone who reviewed! I LOVE YOU! XD
Evanescence for their song 'Lacrymosa', which enspired me to write this chapter.
w w w . f r e e w e b s . c o m / b l u e b i r d s - i l l u s i o n / p r i d e e d e n d i n g. h t m (without the spaces. If it doesn't work, PM me) This is the site where I got most of the info and translation from. You can look at the pretty pictures!! XD Edo is adorible in BBI (And Envy looks like a cat...Though, so far, I'm the only one who thinks that T.T)
My Immortal
Chapter Two: Remembering The Death Of A Hero
"Now that you're gone,
I feel like myself again:
grieving the things I can't repair and willing...
(Lacrymosa)
To let you blame it on me,
(Dies illa)
and set your guilt free...
(Lacrymosa)
I don't want to hold you back now love!
I can't change who I am...
Not this time, I won't lie to keep you near me;
And in this short life,
there's no time to waste on giving up...
My love wasn't enough!"
Violet eyes stared blankly at the tombstone before him. 'Today's the day..' Envy thought dully, as he reread the perfectly carved stone for the thousandth time, it seemed. In neatly, italicized print, it read:
Edward Elric
A Loving Brother And A Hero To All
From the Gate and Beyond to Eternity
Never To Be Forgotten
1899 - 1916
Envy didn't even flinch as a raindrop hit his head, followed by another. The sky began to pour rain, yet the sin still stood there. 'It was my fault...' he thought, lowering his head as the rain continued. 'My fault he died...' He remembered the events that led to Edward's death so clearly, it felt like it was only yesterday...
Following Father's orders, Envy captured Edward. Now, Envy stood behind the alchemist as he withered in pain.
"I will not... I will definitely not... do it..," the golden boy mumbled, attempting to get up. The eldest sin had told him their plans: to make him create more philosopher stones for them. However, Edward had his usual stubbornness, and wasn't going to give into their wants so easily.
With a scrowl, Envy kicked Edward again. He watched Edward attempt to rise again, holding his stomach where the sin had kicked him. "Compared with your left leg, I wonder what which more..."
"..." Once again, the boy was kicked by Envy.
"Hurts, does it? Are your ribs broken yet?"
Edward let out a growl of anger. "Bastard...How can you do such a thing?! Don't you have a conscience...?"
The green haired sin let out a laugh, finding his words amazing. "Conscience? What's that? That's just an excuse that you weak humans use! Let me tell you, the homunculi are much closer to the truth than you humans will ever be...'conscience' has nothing to do with us."
Sitting on his knees, Edward turned around to face Envy. "If you say conscience has nothing to do with you, then you're not even human...you're just...monsters without any parents!"
Envy face held a look of shock, but anger quickly took over, and he kicked the Elric once again. "You...!!"
The kick hit Edward under his chin, flipping him onto his back with a painful 'Uggh..' Despite the fact that there was a chance that Ed wouldn't hear him, Envy continued to talk, anger filling his every word like venom. "Who do you think you are...who do you think you are... to say that... you are ...you... you and that tin can brother of yours...both of you are..." With every pause, Envy delivered a kick to the human's stomach, rage built up so much he couldn't think straight.
Suddenly, King Bradley stepped out of the shadows. "Enough, Envy!" He warned, knowing that the sin would most likely kill Edward if no one stopped him.
"Go away, you halfling!" Envy growled, glaring at the aging homunculus.
"If you keep hitting him, he won't be able to work."
Envy let out a 'tsk'. For someone who gave the kid orders, the Fuhrer didn't know how stubborn the boy could be. "Work? You should know that if he knows what we're planning, he'll never agree to co-operate with us..."
"He has a reason to co-operate..."
"What are you talking about?!"
The man Envy knew as Pride smirked, "You will know soon..."
/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/Break/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/
Edward had been under the homunculi's custody for a few days now, and it was Envy's turn to check up on him. Outside, the sun was a weird color. Red, - as Envy remembered now. - and it turned everything a bloody color. "'O-Chibi-san...I've brought your lun-" The tray he was holding didn't even hit the floor by the time Envy reached Edward. With blind anger, -and hints of worry- the sin held the sinner by his neck as he pushed Ed against the wall.
"You bastard! What do you think you're doing?! STOP THAT!!" Envy yelled, and looked down at Edward's hand. He had arrived just as Edward started to cut himself with his automail, transmuting the broken metal arm into it's popular blade. Scrowling, he lifted up Edward's human arm for better inspection. Cuts were scattered up and down the alchemist's arm, both deep and some thin.
"It's already...no way to...," Edward mumbled, and looked away.
Angry with the teen's response, he glared and yelled, "Do you know what you're doing?! You really don't want to live?!" Edward remained silent, closing his eyes. With a growl, Envy continued his fit: "YOU!!" He yelled, and punched Edward in the stomach. "Do you have any idea how long we've waited for this?! You...You...!"
Edward didn't even flinch as Envy hit him once more. In fact, one would say he wanted the sin to beat him silly. 'You don't know, Envy,' he thought numbly, avoiding his capture's cat-like eyes. 'You don't know how much it's killing me...to be so close to you...Yet not being able to do anything, to tell you how I...feel.' Needless to say, he felt disappointed and angry when a man walked up behind them.
"Stop, Envy..."
"But Father, he..."
The man dubbed 'Father' kept the same emotionless face. "Even if you kill him now, you can't get anything..."
"..." Envy reluctantly let go of the Elric and backed away.
Father walked up to Edward and stared him down. "Edward, do you know what your actions just now implies?"
Said teen didn't bother looking up. He hated this man, for he shared the same face as his bastard of a 'father'. "Im...implies...it implies that what you've done for these hundred years has been a waste..," he mumbled.
The immortal man raised an eyebrow, finding his words intriguing. "You really think it's great loss to us? You should know we are immortal...a hundred years to us is nothing."
"Is that so..."
Feeling like he's said enough, Father turned and leave, giving Envy instructions to finish the Elric off along with the younger one, as well. Envy hesitated, but mumbled, "...I understand, Father..."
Not long after that, Colonel Mustang and Alphonse showed up, looking for the eldest Elric. After breaking into a brawl with Roy, Envy had the pleasure to tell Alphonse what was happening to his body. As usual, the two humans didn't believe the homunculus. However, Al's body had perfect timing.
Alphonse Elric was fading away.
His body was only a temporary shell, helped put together by Father. Envy explained to them that they did not kidnap Edward; Edward had sought them out for this very reason. Sadly, Lust interrupted their conversation, telling the green-haired sin that their Father was calling for him.
/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/Why are there so many of these.../-/-/-/-/-/-/
Envy was left alone with the Fullmetal Alchemist, not that he didn't mind. Since his days of captivity, he had gained a new obsession over the small teen. He was left alone with the boy in a big spaced room. Alone, except for Edward and his own thoughts. Quietly, he began to speak to the broken teen.
"Your hair is blond, like that person's...
"Can't you move? Aren't supposed to be great?
Do you know those two idiots came to see you!
"What's that expression?
You haven't had enough yet?
"Oh, right...
I'm here to send you to your death...
When I kicked that boy
I could really feel his ribs had cracked...
"Was it done a long time ago?
I don't even recall it was my own doing...
"Ha ha, what am I saying? Of course it's my doing!
Wasn't I happy at that time?
"Pulling that boy's hair
Blond hair stiff from being drenched in blood doesn't feel too good...
Can't you look at least a little afraid?
Do you really not fear death? Bastard...
When I pulled his ear...
Why did I feel so uncomfortable?
"Alright, let me tell you
That old man doesn't need you anymore!
Right, those two idiots are even more useless...
Of course we should eliminate them all!
You won't be lonely...
Damnit! What's that expression? You want to go against me?
I don't understand...why...
I don't care! Bastard...who is it?
Oh? The person you want to see has arrived...
Then, start praying..." (1)
/-/-/-/-/-/-/Lacrymosa...I wonder what that means../-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/
It had seemed that Lust was defeated, for Roy and Alphonse managed to make their way to where Envy, Bradley, and Edward was. Envy managed to find them before Al tried to sneak away with his brother. Just as he was going to tell them how great it would be if they died together, Mustang managed to limp into view.
"STOP IT!!" the Colonel yelled.
"Pft!" Envy muttered, and glanced over at Bradley, "How did you manage to let those mice in?"
"You shouldn't underestimate humans who care nothing about life or death, Envy," the Fuhrer said calmly.
And that is when it hit him. The worst disition he had ever made: to kill the two people Edward cared most about. With a 'hmph', Envy smirked. "Then let us settle this once and for all, O-Chibi-san! Not letting you see your own beloved brother and guardian die in front of you, that's the most merciful thing!" He let out a howl of a laugh, and charged at Fullmetal. "They'll be following you, so you won't be lonely!"
"STOP IT!" Roy cried out, once more.
"BROTHER!" Al yelled, quickly pushing his brother to the ground. Too late to stop, Envy's fist drove right through the younger Elric's stomach right before Edward's eyes.
Terrified, Ed was left speechless.
When he did speak up, his voice was barely above a whisper. "...Al...?!" Al remained unresponsive.
With a frown, Envy pulled his hand back. It fell to his side and he stared down at the Elric boy. "What? You wanted to die so much?" He asked, though he knew he wouldn't get a response.
"Alphonse!!" Roy cried, and raced over.
King Bradley remained quiet, watching over the scene in front of him calmly. He didn't care about any of the humans that were getting killed. He did find it highly amusing, though.
Edward was on the verge of crying by now. Tears stung his eyes as he shook his brother lightly, trying to get him to stay with them. "...Al! AL! Hang on there! You'll be okay! AL!!"
Violet eyes narrowed at the site, disappointed at how Edward was reacting. "Hmph! So fragile!" He mumbled, turning up his nose.
Finally, Pride spoke. "Envy, end it all quickly."
Roy, seeing what was going to happen, quickly ran over to the brothers. "FULLMETAL! WATCH OUT!" He cried out, and ran in front of him. He could just barely make out Ed mumble Al name once more before being stabbed in the stomach himself by Envy.
/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/Blah.../-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/
Envy blinked back into reality when a bouquet of daisies was placed on the grave in front of him. He also suddenly became aware that the rain was no longer pounding on him. Looking next to him, he noticed that Pride was now next to him, smiling sadly at the grave as he geld an umbrella over both of their heads.
"This is him...isn't it?" Pride asked quietly, looking over at Envy. He received a small nod, and turned his attention back to the grave. "Hello...Edward...My name...is Pride," He paused, and Envy could have sworn that his eyes flashed; that they looked like Edward's, - fierce, strong, brave - but it disappeared just as quick as it had came.
Envy continued to frown. He found no point in talking to a grave; it wasn't like Edward would magically answer him. He rolled his eyes as the golden sin continued to babble on about pointless things. Tuning the boy out, he remembered they day that Pride was born. It was just after the incident.
/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/ROARRR BREAK/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/
Shortly after the death of Colonel Roy Mustang and Alphonse Elric, Edward had lost it. Losing control of his alchemic powers, and along with the Philosopher's Stone, everything around him started to crumble.
Following his orders, Envy appeared. Without hesitation, he picked up the broken alchemist and rushed to where his father was. However, as he ran, he glanced down at the human in his arms. "Pride? That's really stupid..," He mumbled, and let out a small sigh. "That kid...He wouldn't want to become like that..." He paused in his running, the Elric boy asleep in his arms. With a frown, he continued on. "After this...It's going to be a long time..."
The green-haired sin wasn't surprised to see that array that was needed already set up, and Father waiting on the other side of it. "Place him in the middle, Envy," the immortal man mumbled, waving a hand where the middle of the circle was located.
A frown still on his lips, Envy walked over slowly - hesitantly? - and placed the boy down as he was told to do. He left the circle quickly, and stood beside Father. He watched as the middle-aged looking man bent down and began the process of turning a human into an immortal.
Red electrical sparks flew up here and there, narrowly missing the two inhumans, but neither seemed scared. With regret filled eyes, Envy watched on as odd tattoos started appearing along the boy's body, as well as an outfit quiet similar to his own, and their birthmark - the oruoboros.
Envy knew Edward didn't want this. Knew that the Elric boy would hate him even in death for this, but Envy had no control over the matter. What Father said, Envy obeyed without question, and very little hesitation.
'Love or hate..,' the envious sin though sadly. 'There needs to be something to do during this long life...'
/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/BREAK/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/
Almost immediate after that day, the military sent out a search party to look through the building's rubble for the three missing people. From afar, Envy watched with mild interests. He found it amusing how they thought that they were going to find the Elric brothers, along with the Colonel and the Fuhrer.
With a smirk, he remarked, "These stupid humans...they want to dig them out?" He glanced to the left at his new brother. "Hey! Aren't they being stupid?!"
"..."
Envy's smirk faded, remembering how the homunculus acted. "Don't be so cold..," he cooed quietly. "Don't you have any feelings?"
Dull golden eyes watched the scene below them from the hill they stood on. Riza and Havoc were talking about where the three people had disappeared to; neither having the slightest clue. "With us...," he finally spoke. His voice was monotone, as well as quiet. "What...is their relationship with us?"
Annoyed, Envy growled lightly. He didn't like repeating himself. "...I said...," he paused, the frown returning. "Have you really lost all your memories? 'O-chibi-san?"
"Fullmetal? Who...who is that..."
Envy let out a 'tisk'ing noise, placing his hands on his hips and he walked in front of the sin. "...How uninteresting...Weren't you always sensitive to the word 'little'?" He asked, but received only a confused, dazed look. "...Never mind. It doesn't matter either way."
"..."
"...How ironic," the elder sin mumbled, raising an eyebrow. "Is it that you're not willing to remember...?"
"Then...what should we do?" the other asked, emotionless as usual.
"...You already want to go?" Envy asked, a tiny bit surprised. "That's right, there's nothing left here for us...Let's go."
"..."
"...Hm? Pride? What is it?"
"...It really is...time...to leave..," with that, Pride turned around and began his walk back to Father's layer.
"..." Envy stared after the boy, wondering if what Father did was right. Secretly, he deeply hated the sin. It wasn't just because Father favored the new Pride more than him, but because it wasn't as fun having Pride around as he imagined. Without emotions, or Edward's old way of ranting about his height, Pride was nothing more than a moving doll - ready to be given orders or played with.
/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/Break/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/
It had been two long years since the death of Edward Elric, yet the envious sin didn't feel any change in his feelings towards the boy. As much as he denied it, he had fallen in love with the Alchemist.
Sin in love with the Sinner; Monster and Human; Immortal and Mortal; Banished and Favored.
"Oh, the irony..," he mumbled as he felt saw Pride stand up out of the corner of his left eye.
"It's...Time to leave..," the golden sin mumbled, and began to walk away, leaving Envy in the rain.
Frowning, Envy stood up and followed his beloved Pride. Not much to his surprise, he found himself also falling for the smaller sin. It was most likely for the fact that the two looked so much alike, and his weak, immortal heart still couldn't get over the loss of Edward.
'Father said there was a chance that Pride would get his memories back.' He thought as he followed Pride 'home'. 'Though, I don't know if I want him to. Edward might hate me for turning into this...I don't know if I could live with that.'
In front of him, Pride came to an abrupt stop, making the elder sin almost crash into him. "...Envy..?" the short sin asked quietly. Envy could barely hear him over the pouring rain hitting the umbrella. "...I don't blame you...I never will..."
The elder sin raised a thin eyebrow in confusion, and opened his mouth to say something. However, by that time, Pride was gone; most likely using his godly speed to get away. Envy stood there, becoming more drenched in the rain, for a few minutes before following at a slower pace.
(1) Envy's little monologue thing in BBI. It hints Edvy XD