Note: Hey guys. I'm sorry for the delay. I'm not in my best condition right now so I put it off for a while. I'll tell you later about it. I need a vent anyway. But on the plus side I found a new anime I found that i recommend! It's called High School Debut. Not really new but...well you know i lyk it. I've been following it but right now I'm been so annoyed by that girl!! The mother effin girl who's straight up and manipulative. But she likes him...blah. Ugh. I hate her way more than I hate Haruhi right about now. Well continue on with the story.
Chapter: Chance.
There comes a time in any man's life when he looks back and regrets his actions. For Nakao Heikichi this would be the moment. Right now he regretted his actions. Why did he have to be such a good friend? Why did he have to be a stupid good friend? For once can't he be a smart good friend?!
Apparently not. And why? Soon he'll be the reason for causing pain to be inflicted upon an already vulnerable Risa. He may add Otani in as well. God forbid it would happen. He didn't know what he was thinking really? I mean, why would he give Otani a chance? Why? Why would he allow Otani to break Risa's heart again?!
Oh that's right. He had to be a good friend, which now will make him a bad friend. Why did he offer Otani that deal? Well yes Otani was his best friend and yes he wanted him to get himself together but he cheated! He cheated on his wife with a whore, and lied to his children. Why would he give him this chance?
He was such an idiot. Oh and he knows he's an idiot. He winced when he remembered Nobu's reaction. "Darling! Why did you do something that dumb!? You are such an idiot!" Oh Nobu was scary. Good thing Chiharu was there to comfort her. She would have chopped his head clear off. Well he had to admit though. She was way worst when she had her mood swings. Now that was scary.
And now here he was. Driving to Otani's house with Suzuki. He had forced him to come. And why? Because he was chicken. I mean there was a lot to face?! Will they find a disgusting house with their best friend rotting away in misery inside? Or will it be the same house they were accustomed to, with a normal Otani greeting them? Oh god, the suspense was killing them.
Before he knew it they were in front of Otani's house. Looking up at the mansion seemed like a movie to them. A seemingly normal house on the outside but on the inside pure madness was encased. Oh god. Why did he have to be so stupid!?
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Little did they know that they're nervousness couldn't compare to what Otani was feeling. He was panicking. Right now he had a bundle of flowers in his hand, which he nervously tried to put in some vase he found around the house. It would make the house more presentable right?
But...how is he suppose to arrange this!? Should he put a daisy in first? Or this rose? Or this white flower that's name escapes him. He let out a frustrated groan. Oh this was a woman's job! Well a woman florist's job! He thought for a minute. Wait...men can be florists too...
Oh forget this shit! He shoved them in there and stared distastefully at his work. They weren't mixed. I mean there were daisies on this side. Roses on one side. It didn't look good. He sighed and tried poking them in random spots. Yes...move the rose there. Then the other one there. He nodded. Yes...yes...it actually looks decent!
He looked around. Not one piece of trash in sight. He nodded satisfied with himself. He had taken care of everything. Down to every little detail. He fixed his car, his bills, his job. He smirked to himself remembering how Haruhi was down to her knees begging not to fire her. He ignored her and shoved her out of the office before she could utter one more word. Oh and he found the perfect secretary too.
And who might that be? His mother. Oh yes, it was his own beloved mother. She gave him the biggest talk in the world when he came by to visit. Not that he had a choice. He needed a place to stay since they were cleaning up the mansion. Besides, he hasn't seen his parents in two years.
She had cried when she saw him, then a hard punch in the arm followed. Ah yes, definitely his mother. He certainly missed her calling him, "At-chan" and "my little man." He knew his mother certainly wouldn't let him make the same mistakes so of course she was the best choice. His father was glad to see him too. It started with a "Good to see you again son." Then it ended with a, "We need to talk." It was like a the lecture he got from his mom but mixed with colorful words and whacks on the head for being such an idiot. But he had to admit, he was rather happy he had that talk with each of them. It was like he was their young son who made stupid mistakes. Of course the only difference was that he was now their grown up son who made stupid mistakes.
While reminiscing about his week, he failed to notice the sound of knocking till he heard Nakao calling his name. Shoot! He ran to the door as quickly as possible. There stood his judges. Nakao and Suzuki, well what a surprise! He let out a nervous smile, "Come in! Come in!" He breathed in deeply and let out a soft sigh. And so, it begins.
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Risa sighed. It was boring in the house. She had finished coordinating the clothes the models were going to wear, she talked to her boss, and now she was just bored. However she was use to this by now. Since the kids were at school they certainly couldn't entertain her and Kohori was at work. Before she could talk a bit to the maids but...now it was so quiet in the house. Here comes that lonesome feeling once again.
But...well it was only for awhile. She stared down at her hands. Its been two weeks now. Two weeks ago she was with her husband, regardless the fact that she never saw him. But now two weeks later she was out of the house and filing for divorce. How time flies.
She let out a weak smile. She was actually moving on... She was acting without thinking of Otani at all. Well sometimes. She let out a sigh. She certainly never imagined something like this to ever happen to her life. But...I guess...it happens.
She was knocked out of her senses when she heard a sharp knock on the door. She stared at it carefully. Should she open it? It may be mail. Kohori did say he gets tons of packages from people. She should. I mean as a small thank you and she'll cook dinner as a thank you too. Yes, small things like that can be a thank you, plus maybe she'll do something special too.
"Hel-" she stopped almost choking on her own saliva. She expected the mail man...but...certainly not...him. It was really him. It was Otani. But...why is he here? Why was he...
She could feel it again. She could feel the unbearable pain once again. The Sadness. It slowly sunk in and it hurt so much. She bit her lip. She had just forgotten about this pain. She was starting to feel better. So...so..why was he here!? She wasn't suppose to see him! Why did he have to be here?!
He studied her before taking a small step forward and whispering her name. "Risa." She winced. His voice... The voice she loved so much. The voice that she missed terribly. OH god. She was remembering once again. Right after she had managed to pull herself up. He always managed to pull her back down...
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As fast as she could, she tried slamming the door shut. He anticipated as much and stuck his foot inside. The impact hurt but not as much what he's been feeling for the past couple of days. He pushed his way inside, slightly glad that at least he was stronger than her this time.
"Risa," he said once more. He watched as stepped away from him, like he was some infectious disease. Her actions hurt but...he had to press on forward. He took a step forward...and she took a step back. He sighed. She wasn't getting near him.
"Risa," he began again looking straight at her face. She was avoiding his gaze. She stared pointedly at the ground and whispered, "Why are you here?" Her voice was cold and it scared him. He hoped to go that she didn't hate him. But she most probably did. The thought was killing him.
"Risa, hear me out..." he started. Truth be told he had no idea what to say. He knew he would have to apologize but it couldn't be formed into words in his head.
"There's nothing to hear," Risa whispered back. He stared at her. She still wasn't looking at him. And it was making him crazy. Why couldn't she look at him!? He shook his head. Of course, he was the one that betrayed her. He didn't even deserve being looked at. And yet it hurt so much. He wanted her to look at him. He wanted her to notice him. To smile, like she use to. But he was hoping for too much.
"There is, Risa," he said stepping closer. She backed up but jumped slightly once she realized she had backed herself to a wall. And he had her surrounded. Once a good five feet away she barked, "Stay away from me!"
He stopped. She wasn't intent on getting close to him yet. He bit his lip. The pain he felt kept on increasing. It was like a grip was tightening in his chest. He chose to ignore it as he continued, "Risa...forgive me."
He watched as she shook her head, "Leave Otani," He had to let his anger flare a bit. She couldn't see how unbelievably hard it was right now? Can't she see that she was trying her best!?
He clenched and unclenched his fists, "Risa please forgive me...I'm sorry...I-I didnt-"
"Didn't I tell you to leave!" She shouted cutting his words. It made him flinch. She was looking at him now. No she was glaring. Her glare made his heart clench. It looked like she truly hated him.
However he was standing his ground. He wasn't running away again and he certainly won't any time soon. "No," he answered back, "Risa we have to talk about this."
"There's nothing to talk about!" she repeated clenching her won fists, "Now leave!" He narrowed his eyes. She wasn't taking any of his words at all. Fine.
With swift movement he pushed her against the wall and used his arms to barricade her. "That's bullshit Risa. You know we have to talk." He watched her glare hard at him. She was taller this is true, but right now she seemed rather small and weak to him. She was loosing her confidence.
"No we don't! Let go of me!" She shouted trying to push him back. He was standing his ground and he wasn't letting go. It made her fume even more.
"Risa you've been avoiding me," he said.
"I have a good reason to," she spat back.
"Regardless of that we still need to talk!"
"No we don't!"
"Yes we do! You can't just avoid this Risa! You can't just suddenly act like that! Think about the boys!"
Risa stopped struggling and glared directing at him. He knew he said something wrong. She growled, "You think I haven't been thinking of them! You son of a bitch! Everything was about them! Don't you even begin to start this shit at me! You never cared about them! Why should you suddenly start caring!?"
He had to stop. She though he never cared? She thought that he was that cold-hearted? His anger was escalating, "I cared! I've always cared!"
"Don't lie to me!" She shouted trying to push him away again, "If you actually cared then you wouldn't have run off to play with your little bitch! Now get away from me! This is over!"
That statement made him stop from shouting back. She was right. If he cared he wouldn't have done it. He couldn't take it back either. But...he cared. He still cared. He always cared. He gulped. He still had to apologize. To set terms. To get on the good side. Even if it meant all of this thrown at his face. All the while she was struggling, hitting his forcefully on the chest.
"Risa I'm sorry,' he began again. Before she could open her mouth he continued, "I really am sorry! Please Risa...just...just please forgive me..."
Risa stared at him and stopped her struggling. She looked at the ground and muttered, "Why did you even do it?"
He looked down at the ground as well. He still couldn't answer that. But he knew he had to. He was on the verge of loosing everything, if he hadn't already. The situation was critical. "I-I don't know. I..I just saw her and...I barely saw you and...she was-"
"You fell in love with her." Her statement caught him with surprise. Did he fall in love with Haruhi? He had always thought of her as a sexy doll. A toy. His toy. That...that wasn't love. He knew what love was. He felt it with Risa.
"I..no," he answered, "I don't love her! She was nothing!" It was true. While she may have made him experience pleasure, she was merely just a distraction. Risa's reaction was completely unexpected. She burst into tears. He watched as each tear rolled down her delicate cheeks. It made him feel like dying. Each tear made him want to scream and beg. "Otani...please leave..."
"No!" Risa please, please forgive me...I was an idiot! I know. But please..please...I..I wont bother you any longer. Just...just please forgive me. I'll-"
"Otani leave!" He could sense the urgency of her voice. She wanted him to just leave and never come back. To disappear. He wasn't going to listen to that and urged on, "Forgive me...please Risa...I don't want to hurt you! I wont...Once you forgive me...I promise I won't! I never meant too..."
She let out a small gasp as she continued to sob. So he continued, "I won't hurt you like before. I'll support you! I'll protect you! Please Risa! Forgive me!"
"Don't..." she sobbed, "Don't say something like that..just..just leave me alone Otani."
"Please Risa! Please! Why can't you forgive me!?" he screamed out. He said sorry! He begged. He pleaded. He was ready to get on his knees but feared she would escape. Why!?
"I-I don't want to be hurt again." It was like a stab in the gut. A stab he deserved. It rapidly dawned to him how arrogant he was to expect her to forgive him. But...he couldn't take that as the answer. He couldn't just leave it alone like this.
"I told you I wouldn't hurt you anymore..."
"And how could I trust you!?" she shot back, "You lied and manipulated me! How can I even begin to trust you!"
"I-you.." He couldn't stop that. It was all true. "You've...you've never mean so much to me Risa. I don't want to hurt you again. I promise it!" The situation was critical. He was loosing his grip on her. And it slowly dawned to him that he could loose her forever. And he didn't want that.
He knew she was fighting herself. He knew she was having a battle with herself. And he had to aid that side that made her want him to stay. "I know that I've been an ass Risa. Please. Forgive me? Please. You know that you want to."
Apparently he said something wrong once mroe because she snapped at him in anger. "What do you know about what I want!? You haven't paid a speck of attention to me at all! Not even now! I want you to LEAVE!!"
"No! I've run away from this Risa! I'm not about to leave and I'm not letting you run away from me!"
"I'm not running away from this! I'm telling you to leave!! So go!!"
He sighed. He didn't want to resort to this but she left him no choice. "Then tell me you don't love me." In all honesty he didn't want to know. But maybe she could change her mind or perhaps make it easier for him to forget her because of her lack of love. He certainly hoped it was the first though.
She stood back and gaped at him. "Wha?" she mumbled. Her mood changed quickly once again. Soon she was on the verge of tears. And she was begging to leave once more. In her smallest voice she said, "Otani...please leave. Please."
"Then tell me you don't love me."
"It..doesn't matter."
"It does-"
"No it doesn't!" she shouted, "Love is nothing without trust Otani! I can't trust you any longer!" The tears came falling down again. And he found himself wanting to wipe each one away. To hold her. To kiss her sorrows away. To let her relax against him and feel the yearning he felt for her.
"What if I told you I was in love with you?" He whispered.
"Liar."
"It's not a lie!"
"Stop! Enough!" she took the advantage of his weakness and pushed him of the door. "Enough! I don't want to hear it anymore! Just leave! Don't come back!! Let me spend one day in life without thinking of you!!" With that he slammed the door at his face before he could utter one more word.
He got up and banged his fist against the door. He had to tell her. "Risa! Risa! I love you!"
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Note: Uhm...did I satisfy the whole drama thing and all? Uhm sorry if I didn't. Sorry. You may have noticed I haven't gone in depth as I usually do about what they felt. Did i have to though? The words are enough. Plus I'm in a bad mood. Apparently some dick copied what happened to Rogue Amazon Boo and did it to me.
I have some things to say. The world is full of fuckers. As much as I completely love constructive criticism. That was not at all constructive criticism! I'm sorry you don't think that the story is real and it's all fantasy but you have no right to say any of the words you said. You know nothing about me except for the information I said about myself! You know nothing of my family! And you certainly have no right to barge in and control my life so it would be less immature! That is all.
I'm sorry guys but I needed a vent. Plus It was not just one message. It continued in a course of a week. Not only did they say shit about this story but every story I have written. Even in my old account. And I was about to quit on the story itself. But its the ending and I made a vow to finish all my stories. I'm not about to quit because of that fucker. And thank you once again for the support. Thank you. Sorry for the mistakes. I'm not in the mood to edit at all.