A/N- Chapter 3 here. The song is I Miss You by Blink182. Thanks top all the reviewers that have read this story and Not Boring Boarding Schools. Thanks to TheLionFellInLoveWithTheLamb, deepcutfighter, EdwardsOtherWoman, bloody-hurt, rmanley237, PearlAngel16, and Edward-is-sexier-than-Mike.
Chapter 3:
"Bella. Bella. Wake up Bella.", I heard somewhere in the cornors of my mind. Something was shakeing me. Then I opened my eyes to see my mom with a worried expression. I was vaugely aware that my lungs hurt. I must have been screaming. I had the dream again. Why was I suprised? I had it every night. "Bella are you okay honey? You were screaming." ,She said. "I'm fine, Mom. Really I'm fine I just had a bad dream. That's all." ,I tried to reasure her. She wasn't reasured from her expression. "Do you want to talk about it, sweety? It might make you feel better.", she asked. I atomatically put my arms around myself to keep from falling apart. I squezzed my eyes shut. My mom saw my discomfort and went on. "Bella, you don't have to talk about what happened before just tell me what happened in the dream.",she said. I looked up at her expression, she wasn't going to let it go. I let out a deep breath. "I was running in the woods.", I said hopeing she wouldn't press for more. She did of course. "Why were you running in the woods?", she asked. "I was following him." I said this low and almost at a whisper. "Charlie told you what happened right?" ,I said. She nodded but still looked like she wanted to know more. I wasn't able to say more though so I told her I was just going to take a shower and get ready for school. I had woken up two hours earlier but that was okay. I knew I wouldn't go back to sleep anyway. THe two hours extra I tried to watch t.v but it seemed impossible with nothing remotely interesting on. I decided to walk along the beach instead. The beach was litterally almost in the backyard of the house. I only had to walk a few feet to get there. I looked up and down the beach. No one was around. This must not be a popular spot for beach goers, she thought. She sat down on the sand and looked out at the ocean. She could see a pier jutting out over the wave about a mile down. She looked over the wave of the ocean and remembered the last time she had been at the beach. She had been with Jacob and she had found out that...She stopped the memory abruptly and pushed the memory back into the very back of her mind. I can't think about it, can't remember. I just wish I could here his voice again in my head. Why had she heard him? Was she really crazy? It's possible. Was it because she was in danger and she remembered somewhere in the back of her memory that it was always with who saved her. She shook her head of all thoughts. One broke through though. "Edward.", she whispered as she clutched at the acheing whole in her chest. Tears fell down her face, and she rolled up into a ball. After she was sure she wouldn't breaksdown again she walked back to the house. She passed a mirror and saw how blotched and tear streacked her face was. She ran water over her face and when she was sure no one would notice she layed down on the couch. Just as soon as she sat down though the door bell rang. Her mom down the hall in her room called,"Bella, can you get that?" "Yeah.",I called back. I opened up the door to see Sean standing there. Oh, it must be time for school.
Sean Pov:
I showed up at Bella's door at the time we agreed to yesterday. I was suprised to find that she was Renee's daughter. My mother was friends with her, apparently they had yoga class togather. Renee came over sometimes and I always remembered her saying she had a daughter that didn't live with her. She had said once that she was my age. I never once imagined her daughter could be anyone like Bella. Renee had said how mature she was and how togather she always was. I wish I knew what had happened. Bella said she was dumped. I didn't remember Renee ever telling my mother about that. Suddenly I was pulled away from my thoughts by the sound of the door opening. I looked up to see Bella opening the door. She looked the same as she had yesterday with the distant look in her eyes. I also noticed that she looked tired. "Hi.",I said. "Hi.", she replied. She opened the door wider and invited me in. I walked in and saw Renee walking down the hall. "Oh, Sean.",she said looking suprised. I smiled. "Hello, Mrs. Dywer.",I said. "How many times do I have to tell you? You can call me Renee. So, Sean did your mom send you to tell me that yoga is canceled. They said it might be this week." ,she went on. "Actually, I'm here to walk with Bella to the bus stop." Renee looked takein back, then she smiled. "Oh, you two have met. That's wonderful.", she said and Bella rolled her eyes. The Renee looked at her daughter. "Bella, why didn't you tell me? And why are you covered in sand?" I looked at Bella and noticed in fact she was. "I went for a walk on the beach earlier.", Bella explained. "Well, maybe you should change before you go." Bella nodded and left Renee and I standing by the kitchen. We walked to the living room and sat down. Suddenly I knew I wanted to ask Renee something. "Um, Mrs. D, I mean Renee?" She looked at me curious. "Yes.",she asked. I shifted uncomfortably. "What- What happened to Bella?" ,I now felt stupid asking but I wanted to know. I felt maybe I should explain better. "I mean she seems kind of uh, distant. Did something happen..." Renee cut me off. "I know what your talking about Sean." She sighed. "She's been like this for about five months now." But what happened?, everything inside me screamed. "Bella, had never liked anyone before. She never even showed interest. Then when she went and moved in with her father, I told you I was divorced, she started going out with someone there. I didn't even find out until about a few weeks after they started dateing when I was called by someone saying that Bella was in the hospital in Phionix." I scrunched up my face in confusion. I thought her ex-husband lived in Washington. She went on. "She had left Forks and flew to Washington because they had a misunderstanding or so she said. He went after her to Phionix with his father and one of his sisters. Who had been like her best friend or so Charlie said. I turned out Bella went to see him in Phionix in there hotel room. She had fallen down a flight of stairs and out a window." Wow! "I met him in the hospital. He didn't leave her side once. Then about five months ago..." ,she trailed off. I turned around to see Bella standing on the other side of the room. Her arms were wrapped around herself. "He left, along with his family.", she whispered. Renee put her arms around her daughter. A few tears fell. "I'm sorry, baby." ,Renee said. "It's fine mom.",she said. "Let's go, okay?" ,she said to me. We left after that her tears stopped. Though she kept her arms around herself. We walked in silence to the bus stop. "Are you okay?" ,I asked her as soon as we were at the bus stop. She smiled though it was strained. "I'm fine. It just hurts to remember.",she whispered to herself the last part though it was loud enough for me to hear. I shivered."
Bella Pov:
This morning was difficult, but I guess Sean should know why I act the way I do. Class went by slowly and it was actually pretty nice. Lunch was better than yesterday yet with Veronica there I wouldn't go as far as saying it was enjoyable. Then we had music class. All day I had been dreading this class. Today we were supposed to go over 'love songs'. I wasn't to sure about it yet, but it was next class. I had been planing on skipping it. Unfortunatly Veronica had decided she was going to walk with me to music. So, that ment I was going. I sat down in my seat in the back of the room. If this wasn't the day for 'love songs' this would probably have been my favorite class of the day. The teacher was an easygoing kind of guy who wasn't dull and was pretty funny, actually. The day before we had listened to classical music and without the lyrics it was quite peaceful. Today was different though. I knew what was comeing I knew what it would do to me. I tried to make myself as small as I could in the seat. Sean sat next to me and Veronica on the other side, that figures. She was going on about something unimportant and kept glanceing over at Sean to see if he was really paying attention. Like me he was not. "Hey. Hey, Sean. Are you even listening to a word I am saying?" ,Veronica said annoyence dripping from her tone. Sean looked up startled from his thoughts. "Oh, sorry Veronica I was just thinking about something." Sean looked over at me with a quizical look on his face than back to Veronica with an apoligetical one. Then the teachers musical toned voice called out to everyone to quiet down. The he started. "All right everyone. As you should already know today we will be listening to love songs. Weather they be sad, happy, or tragic.", a few groans could be heard from the people who wanted to sing today. "Be happy, people. You get a whole class to do nothing but listen to music. Of course you don't get to choose it, but still." ,the music teacher slipped in the first cd. Music filled the room and for now I couldn't hear the lyrics. Then they came but I blocked them out. I tried to think about anything else that would distract me. I thought about my room in Renee's house and how I could get a new desk possibly. I imagined the right desk. I realized that three songs had already gone by. Unfortunatly I started to listen to the first lyrics of the next song.
Hello there angel from my nightmare.
The lyrics brought the song to my full attention no matter how much I wanted to drown it out. Angel of my nightmare. That sounds familiar.
The shadow in the backround of the moor, the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the vally. We can live like Jack and Sally if you want. Were you can always find me. We'll have Halloween on Christmas and in the night we'll wish this never ends. We'll wish this never ends.
I miss you.
I miss you.
I miss you.
I miss you.
I tried to with hold my tears. My arms wrapped around my waist. To anyone else it would probably look like I was sleeping. Sean knew different though. "Are you okay?",he asked wrapping an arm around me. The lyrics pushed through my mind once again.
Where are you? And I'm so sorry. I can not sleep. I cannot dream tonight. I need somebody and always, this sick strange darkness comes creeping along. So haunting everytime.
So choked cry came from me. Veronica's voice was heard from beside me. "Is she crying?" ,she asked. I got up from my seat and left the room. Unfortunatly the lyrics followed my down the hall.
Don't waste you time on me. Your already the voice inside my head. Don't waste your time on me your already the voice inside my head.
I miss you.
I miss you.
I miss you, I thought. I was running down the hall. The song had not been totally destroyed on me though, it made me think. The line that said, your already the voice inside my head reminded me and made me think. Maybe I can hear his voice again.
I ran straight to Renee's house. No one was home. Renee was at school with her kindergardeners no doubt. I stayed in the house and just tried to keep togather. After a few hours I started to cook something, when the doorbell rang. I looked through the peep hole and saw Sean standing there. I opened the door. He looked uneasy. "Are you okay?" ,he asked. I nodded. "That's good.", he replied. "Hey, I just wanted to ask if you want to come. Uh, some of my friend from school are going down to the peir. We might even go swimming. Want to come?" I thought about it and nodded. "Okay", he said. "I'll wait hurry up and get your bathing suit on. You should wear clothes over top though. It's supriseingly chilly today. I nodded and motioned for him to sit in the living room while I changed. I ended up wearing a light blue one peice swimsuit with holes on the sides. Then I put on a pair of jeans and a huge, baggy dark green jacket Renee said I could have. I slid into tennis shoes and went to get Sean from the living room. Maybe swimming can get my mind off of things.
to be continued...