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Chapter 5:
Sean Pov:
It had been a few days since the peir incident. Veronica hadn't spoken to Bella since, though her and her friends told everyone at school about it. People would come up to her sometimes and ask her about it, and she would just say that it was a good thing Rob and I saved her. Then that was that, I became a hero and she became the school's crazy daredevil. Today was now Saturday and I was going to see Bella later and we were going to go with Rob, Drake, and Derek to the mall to see a movie. Now though I had to go to the grocery store for my mom to get chips and salsa. Her and Renee were going to a party tonight, and Renee didn't want Bella to have to stay home alone. Even if Bella had no problem with it.
I made my way down the street until I reached the grocery store. I had gotten the food and was walking out down the street when a couple caught my eye. They were talking to each other in hushed voices. They seemed to be argueing actually. The male who seemed to be as old as I was pinched the bridge of his nose in annoyance. The girl who looked only a few years older than him put her hand on his shoulder. I realized they were both extreamly beautiful. She was thin and graceful looking with dark hair cropped short and spiked. She was almost as beautiful as Bella, I thought. Suddenly the guy looked up, his gaze was intensely on me and his eyes seemed questioning. I looked away, but from the cornor of my eye I saw him make his way toward me swiftly.
"Excuse me." ,a lilth voice called. I turned around to see the guy from across the street. He stopped as I did and then the girl was standing next to him looking at me curiously. "Can I help you?", I asked. His face was serious but he looked almost hopeful.
"Yes, I'm looking for someone. I was wondering if you might know where she is. She is, I believe staying with her mother somewhere around here.
Isabella Swan or you might know her as Bella. Do you know her?" I stared at him for a moment. How did he know Bella? And why was he looking for her? For some reason I didn't like this guy. I didn't want him near Bella. He raised his eyebrow and suddenly looked alittle angery yet he seemed understanding. I was confused, so I lied.
"Sorry, I don't know this Isabella.", I said. "Who are you anyway?" He looked at me thoughtful again, before he stuck out his hand for me to shake. "Edward Cullen.", she said. I nodded. "Sean Turner.", I said. Then I walked away. Maybe I'll ask Bella if she knows him later.
Bella Pov:
I waited by the door for Sean. He was suposed to be here ten minutes ago. What was taking him so long. I was annoyed with myself for some reason I felt uneasy. I couldn't even sit still for a few seconds. A few days ago I figured out that if I did something dangerous I could here his voice I couldn't stop thinking about it. I felt strangely anxious to do something.
I paced the kitchen over and over. Mom had left an hour ago for the party. I had been like this since. Suddenly the door bell rang and I opened the door, Sean. He was standing there waiting for me. I walked outside with him to the car. "So are we going to pick up Rob, Drake, and Derek now?", I asked. He looked uneasy. "Actually.", he said as he reached up to the back of his neck looking embarassed.
"They just called. Rob has to go to his brothers house warming party and Derek and Drake got grounded for sneaking out the other night." Sean smiled. "I guess it's just you and me then, huh." ,he said. I wasn't happy about this, but I didn't say anything. I needed to get out of the house. I got in the car. He didn't turn on the radio because he knew that bothered me, unfortunatly that ment akward silence instead. "So what movie do you want to see?", he asked. Anything but a romantic one, I thought. "I don't know.", I said. He looked at me for a moment. "Would you rather just walk around the mall instead?" ,he asked. I nodded. We got to the mall quickly. I got out of the car.
"So.", he asked happily. "What store do you want to go in first?" I looked around. There was a bookstore. "Can we go into that bookstore." I pointed toward it. Maybe I can find a book that isn't a romance that I like. "Sure." Sean led me over toward the bookstore. Inside we split, searching for something interesting. There were only five other people in the bookstore, it was pretty small. The clerk, a couple, an old man, and a mother with her todler in the children's section. I want over to the mystery section. There were a hord of who-done-it books and I looked through them thinking that they would be my safest options. I read a few summery discriptions. Who would have known so many detective books involved twisted romance plots. I looked around for Sean.
He was in a differnt section, I wasn't sure which one though. "Hey, Sean what are you reading?", I asked. He looked up from the book he was looking at. He smiled. "I was reading a book on vampires. Cool, huh?" My stomach lurched and I looked at the name of the book section. Supernatural. "Cool.", I mumbled looking away. Sean didn't sense my discomfort, he went on. "Hey do you believe in vampires?", he asked. "Yeah.", I said. He looked skeptical. "That's weird I never thought you would be on to believe in supernatural." He smiled. I shrugged, hopeing he would get off the subject. He was about to say something, but I cut him off.
"Hey how about we go get something to eat. I'm kind of hungery." ,I said. He smiled wide. "I know just the place to eat. It's awesome." Sean grabbed my hand and led me out of the book store. We walked in the direction of the supposed resterant. Sean still held my hand, I didn't like it. "Uh, Sean." ,I said. He looked over at me. "Yeah, Bella?" ,he asked. I looked down at his hnd around mine and realized. He let it drop. I sighed. "I'm sorry, Sean. I just-" ,he cut me off. "It's okay Bella." ,he smiled. I fooled him down to the end of the mall. There was a resterant, though it looked more like a family orriented sports bar. The waitress sat us and took our drink orders.
"Oh no." Sean suddenly said. I looked up at him alarmed. "What is it Sean?" He looked guilty. "I'm sorry ,Bella I didn't remember that tonight was kareoke night here. I looked around the resturant and sure enough I saw the small stage with the kareoke machine. "It's okay, Sean. I'll just tune out the music. They probably won't play the music to loud." Sean didn't look comforted by my words, if anything he looked even guiltier. "Bella, it's not that. This resturants dirfferent. They make everyone sing." I looked at him confused. "They choose people from random even if you don't want to do it, and if you refuse to sing they make a big deal out of it."
I looked at him alittle annoyed. "I can't sing.", I said. He shook his head. "Well I hope they don't pick you to sing then.
Of course they did pick me to sing then. The whole time I had shrunk down in my seat praying each time that I wouldn't get picked. I did. They gave me a book to choose a song from and I took it to the table to look it over with Sean. "I'm so glad we choose to eat here." ,I grumbled in a sarcastic tone. Sean looked guilty and I instantly felt bad for saying anything. "What should I sing?", I asked him. "Do you think I can get away with Happy Birthday?" He laughed. I looked over the songs one more time. I didn;t know the word to alot of the songs and most that I knew were love songs that I didn't want to hear must less sing. Then I found the perfect song. It seemed good for me, like it described what I felt sort of these days. I didn't show Sean which song I picked I just told our waitress and walked over to the stage. I was nervous but it wasn't so bad as it would have been if this were a year ago. I felt like embarassment didn't really matter though anymore. Though I really didn't want to get booed off the stage. The music started to play and the resturant seemed to quiet down and stare at me. I looked at the ground as I sang the first lyrics.
Sean Pov:
Bella got up onto the stage she didn't tell me what song she was going to sing. She looked nervous standing up there on stage, but I couldn't stop thinking how pretty she looked. She looked even more paler under the light they had for the stage and with her eyes blank stare she seemed eithereal almost. The music started and she looked down at the floor as she started to sing.
All day stareing at the ceiling, makeing friends with shadows on my walls.
All night hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep, because
tommorrow might be good for somthing.
Hold on.
Feeling like I'm headed for a...
Breakdown.
And I don't know why.
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell. I know, right now you can't tell.
But, stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired. I know right now you don't care.
But soon enough your gonna think of me and how I used to be...
Me. Talking to myself in public, dodgeing glances on the train.
And I know, I know they've all been talking 'bout me.
I can hear em whisper and it makes me think there must be something wrong,
with me. Out of all the hours thinking somehow I've lost my mind.
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell. I know, right now you can't tell.
But, stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me.
I'm not crazy, I'm just alittle impaired. I know right now you don't care.
But soon enough your gonna think of me and how I used to be...
I've been talking in my sleep. Pretty soon they'll come to get me.
Yeah, they're taking me away.
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell. I know, right now you can't tell.
But, stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me.
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired. I know right now you don't care.
But soon enough your gonna think of me and how I used to be...
Hey how I used to be, yeah.
How I used to be, yeah.
Yeah, I'm just alittle unwell.
How I used to be.
How I used to be.
I'm just alittle unwell...
She stopped singing, in the midst of her song she had looked up at the audience. Her voice was hypnotic and everyone was cheering and a few were even yelling for another song. Her voice was beautiful, I wondered why she said she couldn't sing. Then there was her song, the words they had meaning. Like she ment everyone she sang. Which only made the song that much more beautiful. She walked back to our table and sat down. I just stared at her. "Was it really that bad?", she asked. I had had to double take on her question. Did she not hear the applause? "Bad? Bella, that was the most beautiful thing I've ever heard. Everyone was cheering. I though you said you couldn't sing." ,I said. She looked down. "I can't. I was worried I would be booed off the stage.", she said. I looked at her incredulous. "Can we just go?", she asked. We had already eaten and I paid when she was about to go on stage. "Sure." With that we left the resturant and started to walk toward the car. "Hey Bella, Can I ask you something?", I asked as we walked through the parking lot to the car, she looked up. "Sure.", she said. "What is it?" We were at the car now and we got in. I thought of how to ask her about the person I saw earlier, then decided to just come right out and say it. "Well, I was just wondering if you knew anyone named Edward Cullen?" What I did not expect was her response.
She gasped and pulled her arms around herself. Holding so tight it looked as if she were holding herself togather. Tears came to her eyes ans quietly fell out. She gasped a few choked sobs. Once she even repeated the name. "Edward.", she whispered. I put my hand on her shoulder. "Bella, Bella I'm sorry. Please don't cry. What's wrong Bella?", I pleaded with her but she did not tell me. Instead she went on and I was helpless to help her. If I touched her it only seemed to make it worse. So we sat in the parking lot for what seemed like hours before she quieted down. "Are you okay?", I whispered softly not wanting her to start crying again. Her now bloodshot eyes looked at me and I could see the trails of tears down her face. She nodded but suddenly her eyes looked desperate. "Sean? Sean? Please, tell me where you heard that name. You have to tell me, Sean." ,she said. I was weary about telling Bella about the stranger I met earlier today.
She obviously noticed my weariness and pressed more. "Please Sean you must tell me. I promise that I will not cry again. You just have to tell me. It's very important." ,she pleaded. "Well, I was comeing home from the grocery store today and I noticed a strange couple walking on the other side of the street. Suddenly the guy looked up at me and walked over to me. He told me he was looking for you. I didn't want to them him were you were incase you didn't want to see him. I didn't get a good feeling about him too. I think I might have been right about not telling him were you were if you were going to react like this.", I finished. Bella was looking at me with wide eyes. Suddenly she looked forward and seemed to muble to herself. "Edward was looking for me.", she mumbled. It was werid how now as she said his name she was fine. Suddenly she looked back at me. "He was with someone?", she asked frantic. "What did she look like?", Bella pressed with wide eyes. I was odd she looked excited. "Well, uh, the girl had dark hair it was cut short. She was really skinny too.", I said. Bella's eyes lit up like I've never seen before, and the biggest smile lit her face. A tear came out though I thought it might be from happiness. "Alice.", she said. "He was with Alice. Oh, I've missed her." Suddenly her happiness faded though and she held herself again. "Calm down, Bella. They probably only want to make sure you didn't kill yourself or something. Then they'll leave. He doesn't love you anyway, not anymore." She was talking to herself though I could hear perefectly. What she said was bothered me though.
"Bella, who is ..." I didn't want to say more incase she went off again. She understood. Her tone was silent. "He was my boyfriend. The one who left. Alice is his sister and for awhile she was like my sister, like my best friend." She looked out the window. The silence took over.
to be continued...