Ok this is a short chapter but an event filled one. I almost cried when I wrote it! I've been meaning to update for ages and I'm so sorry I left it so long but this one is always so deep I have to be in a particular mind set to do anything I write for it justice. The last time I attempted to write when I wasn't prepared for this the chapter wasn't anywhere near as good as it should have been so I learnt my lesson.
I hope you think what I did at the end of this chapter was right…and I'm sure it will satisfy a lot of you. Let me know what you think. Now its up up and up…on to the happiness and the Huddy. Few bumps to iron out but we are on the final stretch heading towards my happy ending lol!!
Huggles
Scarlett xx
Reviewers:-
HouseAddiction: lol don't run into the wall….you never know what you might knock out of your mind!! But thank you so much…lots of praise. I'm afraid there might be a few tears in this one too. But happiness is too come I promise.
Shikabane-Mai: It was sad wasn't it. I feel so cruel writing all this heart ache for cuddy but it will get better!! He was a bastard and a twisted one at that! I always find that…you wanna know what happens in something but have to order yourself to slow down otherwise you miss so many details. Thank you bubs. That was a lovely review…I hope your as happy to see this update lol!!
starstacey: Thank you! It was very hard to write because keeping the suspense is hard when you know what's going to happen…you have to go over it with the readers mind set. It was sad…but don't worry happiness will come!!
Inuvit: The person is twisted, and there are some seriously fucked up people out there. It just happened he was one of em. Don't you worry house gave the guy a lot more than concussion. Yep baby has gone :( have one with house you say…hmmm…you never know what's gonna happen. And yeah lots of emotional turmoil…but it gets better!! Happy happy! Thanks!!
…oooo you reviewed twice wow the ultimate compliment. The story hit me one random night…the whole thing. And I just scribbled it down. And here you have it. I new the basics and have just bulked it out! I'm so pleased you think its well thought out…I'm very flatter because I try so hard with my stories!! Thank you so much!!
J Lesley: don't you worry the bastard gets what's coming to him. Sorry about me making you sad :( writing it makes me sad too, I'm holding out for the happy ending as well lol…I'll get there in the end!!
Metaphoric.Love: Sorry :(…dunno if this chapter will make your day any better, the ending is good…of sorts.
tricks-meuler: sometimes that happens, people who don't deserve it get hurt! I'm pleased it was great it was such a challenge. But don't you worry the happy ending is getting close now :).
A Heiden: Happier times are on their way :) thanks!!
Sinister Scribe: Cow?? Gasp…I'm offended…that of all the insults you could come up with that was the best one lol! Hehehe in the library –giggles- opps. Poor sinnie. Don't you worry bubs you'll get your justice!!
Gabiroba: Nope no confusin the readers I'm afraid. She lost it yes. But don't you worry happiness is coming very soon!!
gidget89: sorry about the errors I read it through but things evade me….-Shakes fist at world- thank you for the compliment on the plot line…I've worked really hard on it!!
prinnie: angry sad face?? You'll have to show me what that looks like over web cam lol I love your expressions!! Nope baby not making it :( had to get house save her didn't I and get a few smacks in for good measure. Lil miss tease…hehehe…why thank you :P
Huggles!!
The First Noelle: lol sorry it took so long to update, this fic takes it out of me its so emotional to write I always need to recover after each chapter!! Woohoo for keeping them in character its one of my main aims, and to get house in character in an emotional fic has always been a challenge. Lol just saying what you think of my fic is helpful :) its nice to know when your doing things right so thank you!!
Taboo622: don't you worry I will finish this fic I've put too much into it to abandon it. Blood sweat and tears lol!
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Death do us Part
Emptiness, it seemed to emanate through her, curling into the centre of her soul. Eyes staring and dead to the world, hands on her tummy straining to feel the heart beat she knew wasn't there.
She'd lost it, the baby. She'd known the moment she'd opened her eyes, her whole body aching muscles screaming as she shifted to look into his eyes, House's. He'd been hovering by her, unable to meet her gaze, no sign of relief flickering across his face when she opened her eyes. He probably felt it would have been kinder if she'd never woken up, never had to hear the news that she'd lost the one thing she'd hoped for; the only thing that had filled her with happiness after the horrors that had happened to her.
She hadn't cried, choosing to stare into space, numb, feeling as though every emotion had died when those words had left his lips.
'I'm sorry.'
Her heart had stopped pumping, at least that's how it had felt, nothing within it apart from its basic instinct, forcing blood into her veins tying her to this nightmare, one she desperately wanted to leave, follow in the footsteps of the little life she'd lost.
That had been taken from her, his fist shattering her life apart one more, tearing into her, unwilling to let her wounds heal, unsatisfied with the way in which he'd wrecked her life, he had to murder the one he'd helped create.
She tried to well up some sense of feeling inside her, anything, but nothing came, only a flicker of curiosity. Unknowing what had happened to him, needing to see it for her own eyes. Stare upon the face of her tormentor the one who'd made it his sole aim to destroy her for doing her job.
House had left long ago, unable to draw anything from her, an invisible wall between them; one he was unable to penetrate no matter how hard he tried, whatever means he used. Misery, understanding, anger, he couldn't well anything up from within her, everything having been buried down deep inside, covered in a cloud, bleeding showers over her heart.
She pivoted, sitting up, gritting her teeth against the pain that shot through her, eyes squeezing shut has she held back any noise leaking from her lips. She buckled over, grasping for the pole, dragging her self up right, using it to balance herself.
She had a mission, needing to see the man of her nightmares once more; the figure that had haunted her mind for many months now lying in one of her wards; her nurses helping to keep him alive when his aim had been to steal her life, but he'd taken one that mattered more to her instead.
'Cuddy what are you doing?'
House's voice rang out, her head snapping up, gasping for breath, the little bit of effort already exhausting her.
'You shouldn't be out of bed.'
'Where is he?' Her voice was weak, not having been used for some time, squeaking past the pain that threatened to leak out.
He frowned, blue eyes darkening at her request 'Who?'
'House you're not stupid don't start acting it now.' Her tongue was vicious, uncaring about anything anymore.
'Cuddy I don't…' he was using his understanding voice, he'd only used it once before and she hated it, not needing to hear it now.
'House where is he? Tell me or god helped me I'll do something drastic.' She had a mission, wanting to see the damage House had inflicted, gaining some satisfaction seeing him in pain, physical, his wounds never burning as deep as the ones he'd inflicted but it was something, she'd rip his morphine drip out, gaining some satisfaction, watching him writhe, suffering, calling out for help as knives of pain twisted into his body. It was sick, but he'd driven her beyond her point of control and she had to cling to this last element of emotion, her main focus the one thing keeping her going.
He remained silent staring at her, lips narrow refusing to let anything slip.
'Fine I'll find out for myself.'
She went to walk past him, frame moving slowing wincing with every step. Suddenly his hand snapped out, grabbing hold of her arm tightly. 'I'll take you too him, anything to stop you doing anything stupid, you wouldn't last in prison, woman would be all over that ass.' It was crass, but she needed it right now, some sense of normality. He'd stopped tiptoeing around her; it was what she wanted, needed, for once his rudeness didn't break her but kept helped her keep her control.
'Thank you.'
He slipped her arm into his, avoiding her eyes as he guided her forward, each one supporting the other, neither able to stand on their own.
She kept having to rest, unable to make it more than a short distance at a time, determinedly making her way to face the one man she hoped never to see again, but knowing she had to, needing to heal and knowing this was the only way to begin. House remained silent the whole way, obviously not trusting his tongue knowing whatever left it wouldn't be helpful. He couldn't change the way he was, the words that always left his lips so he said nothing.
Suddenly they stopped, House's eyes finally falling on her, before gazing beyond. She turned, tearing her arm away from him, having to do this alone. She walked up the glass, dragging her feet the final few steps. Her eyes fell upon him, the monitors, unable to believe he had a heart, but in her mind it was just a muscle beating within, unable to feel. The shell of a human, a reflection of what he'd caused her to become.
He had bandages wrapped around his head, evidence of surgery; the strength of House's hit having caused deep damage, cracking the man's skull causing bleeding within, something the surgeons had clearly tried to repair.
This was the man who'd torn her life apart, invaded her body, ripped into her soul and stabbed a knife into a little life, tearing her only chance of happiness from her fingertips.
And yet she felt nothing.
No anger, just emptiness, everything seeping from her once more as she watch this mutant human lie lifeless only a few meters away. She couldn't feel, so numb, nothing, a hole of darkness shooting straight through her, one single void in which nothing could exist.
She hadn't expected him to seem so normal, he'd always seemed so different in her head, something that stood out, made it clear he was evil on the inside, but to her, looking at him now, he was no different to any other man she passed on the street.
She tried, attempted to drag some emotion up, begging to feel, anything. Needing to know there was something left, but he'd stolen it all. Her eyes shut, thinking back, searching for any remnant of sense, anything other than the shadow that seemed to plague her.
Suddenly a noise rang out, her head snapping up, eyes boring into the room before her, people rushing round in slow motion, everything suspended in time as her eyes fell upon his life line, solid and straight, no beat, no life. Nurses huddled around him, paddles falling on his chest, his body jerking as every bolt hammered through him, trying to inject life back into his heart.
She felt something wrench inside her, as she watched shock after shock unable to tear her eyes away.
And suddenly it stopped, everyone pulling back, every ones energy dying down, lips moving to form words she couldn't hear. The only thing she could see was the flat line, still streaking across the screen, spelling out his death.
She crumbled, her legs giving way as the dam burst, everything hitting her all at once, emotion colliding crashing, slamming into the walls of her heart. Suddenly arms were around her, strong and solid, holding her upright, drawing her in as she gasped for breath.
Baby blue eyes bore into her, her own blinded as her anguish broke free, fists curling into his shirt as she buried her face into his chest, finding comfort in the one man she trusted.
And finally she cried; sadness, joy and relief flooding in with the release of every tear.
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I hope what happened to him was satisfactory to everyone!! I couldn't have it any other way!!! the chapters will get happier from here on out. Let me know what you thought of this one though…now on to the huddyness :D!!!! woooooo huggles xxx