Chyler was having a very good lunch with Leland Duane Lee and Maria. As it turned out leland wasn't the devil in a bullet proof vest coming to taunt and tease her into cheating as she had previously thought as a result of last night she had no desire to cheat.

"You have a nice night Chy?" Duane lee asked.

"I did… you and Maria have fun?' She inquired.

"How did you…" she cut Maria off

"I have eyes and ears everywhere my child." she said smirking

."Is that so well it seems that Adam is scarred for life considering what her heard last night."

"Shouldn't have left his balcony doors open."

Leland nearly spit out his water.

"You really are a firecracker."

"So I've been told I'm just wondering though…. You wanna light my fuse Chapman?" he blushed.

"That was not nice Chyler you can't screw with him the way you do John!" Maria said

"But its so much fun I can't shock John anymore and Leland turned such a nice shade of pink!" she laughed and it had the same affects on Leland's as before.

She was a tad mismatched today but still cute in a lavender motorcycle jacket, true religion jeans, a brown and pink Elvis Presley concert tee shirt, a black and white flowered fedora with pink and brown converse sneakers and what he thought to be Chanel sunglasses perched on her nose.

They finished eating and Chyler got John's order and they decided to go for a walk on the beach Leland put his hand on her lower back.

"So when do you head back?"

"Sunday we are in Arlington Virginia Monday. Don't worry I'll stay in touch and I'm sure I'll be back with Ria to see Duane Lee they are moving a little fast but Ria needs someone stable and your brother seems rock solid."

out of the blue Leland kissed her solidly on the mouth she kissed him back out of sheer reflex and was lost for a moment. She pushed him away and glanced down at the claddagh ring john had given her for Christmas the year she turned sixteen.

It was a ring with two hands holding a heart the heart topped with a crown. She wore on her right hand facing inward meaning she wasn't married but belong to someone.

"I cannot do this I am not one of those women… I have loved John my whole adult life and then some."

"Your young it's natural to wonder about other men."

"I haven't ever until now." her phone rang singing out Riana's umbrella and she silently blessed her assistant Becca for interrupting a very tense moment.

"What's up becks?

"Listen Vince sicked his paparazzi piranhas on you guys they just ambushed John at gold's gym and they caught wind of you and Leland and the lunch date so haul ass!"

"Damn! Wait you knew?"

"I am all knowing get of over it and move already!"

"Okay thanks bye!"

"Maria the paps are on our asses!"

"Shit!" they ran toward their car but it was surrounded and Duane lee offered to drive them to their hotel.

"Okay yeah fine!" Eventually they were caught up with and they got shots of her with Leland! Putting it all over it was unavoidable by Monday morning.

In their dressing room

"Have you slept with him?" was the first thing John said since the whole thing began.

"No. He's a friend."

"Then why did you lie about lunch?"

"Because you wouldn't have understood."

"Has anything else happened?"

"He kissed me…"

"And you kissed him back didn't you?"

"I didn't mean to. It meant nothing!"

"Damn it." he punched the wall scaring her

"Johnny!" she squeaked

"Don't call me that! Don't even speak to me!" he yelled angrily

"Why?" his voiced cracked breaking her heart

."It was a mistake honest. I don't know why it just happened I didn't stop analyze it you were my first thought after."

"Oh really how'd I stack up against bounty boy!" tears were falling freely down her cheeks.

"I love you there was no comparison no else makes the world go still but you!"

"That line won't work on me not this time. You wanna know how you compare to Maria Pretty Baby?" she slapped him hard. They never talked about his hook up with her now best friend since it was before they got together

. She went to slap him again he caught her wrists and pushed her against the wall.

"You're hurting me john! Let go!"

"Shut up!" he kissed her roughly his touch bruising her were ever it journeyed

"Mine. Your mine!" he whispered harshly

"I'm going to make you forget he exists!"He pulled her shirt roughly over her head and ripped the bra away from her body. He pinched her nipples hardly biting her breast fiercely.

"John!" he ignored her frighten Squeal and pulled her pants down and off harshly he ripped her brief underwear off. As scared as she was she was also completely turned on and it kind of scared her. He freed himself and entered her hard causing her to grunt with its force. For the first time since he began this he looked at her face and saw her mascara and tear stained face and immediately felt like he was lower than dirt.

"Pretty baby I am so sorry." he was crying now.

"No I'm sorry I shouldn't have slapped you or kissed him!"

"But you didn't deserve that?"

"No… but if you stop now I'll kill you!" she kissed his tears away it scared her when he cried it didn't happen often. He kissed all the places he had bruised and stroked into her gently. She wrapped her legs around him trying to take all of him in. Each of his strokes driving her higher against the wall. Eyes open the watched each other. She was breathing heavy. Her eyes starting to cloud over with the power of her orgasm.

"Uh uh stay with me pretty baby, come with me." he kissed her swallowing her moans. She whimpered his name. "Johnny… don't stop." she bit his shoulder.

"Careful we go on in thirty." they came in perfect unison and it was completely blissful despite its rocky start.

"Baby what's happening to us?" She asked.

"I feel like everything I used to be has been torn into tiny pieces and all that's left is confetti."

"I'm sorry!"

"Its not you john it just this life we live is hard you are never really mine."

"My heart my soul is yours!" his voice clogged with emotion " But maybe a break would be good for us… we are far from over Chyler Ashton Grey… but a break might save us instead of break us.

She was crying steadily and surely breaking his heart

"I'm always gonna love ya you're my pretty baby that ain't ever gonna change." with that he kissed her forehead let her down dressed and left

.Moving her things out of his room the next day nearly killed her Maria had called Trish Stratus retired diva and ex women champ the pretty blonde was like mother bear to all younger divas so when she got the call from Maria about John and Chyler she came running

. She and Maria found her curled in the middle of the bed sobbing. One lay on each side of her Maria in the front Trish behind her they let her cry Trish kissed her cheek "

"Its going to be okay Chyler I promise!"

"Trishy can you kick his ass for me I'm to miserable to do it myself." Trish laughed

"Our girl is still in there Ria."

Chyler's phone rang displaying Leland's name she let voice mail get it she'd deal with that can of worms another day!

AN: please review tell me if you like it!