A/N: GOD! WHENEVER I COME TO TYPE THIS CHAPTER ALL MY IDEAS FALL OUT OF MY HEAD! FINE! I AM DESPERATE SO I AM ADDING THE LYRICS TO MUSIC TO THIS JUST TO MAKE IT LONGER!
Disclaimer: I own nothing... T.T Not even the clothes on my back. T.T My mom bought that. T.T Well my ipod I own! I bought that! And now I am making no sense... Apple owns the ipod creation... T.T I feel so small! T.T
Chapter 8
Bella's POV
When I got home I felt lonely. Nick went…. Somewhere... Wasn't really paying attention. I was thinking of other things once he said, 'I can't come home with you today.' Everything he said after that sounded like, 'I'm betraying you.'
I went to see Dawn. You'd think she'd be happy to see me… how wrong I was. I talked to her and she lectured about friendship and apologizing. Not paying attention to that either. And she came so close to hitting me when she figured out my dazed look.
Why do I always bring out the evil side in people?
So now it is around 3:00 AM and I can't fall asleep. Right when I went to sleep the pain of being alone made me want to cry. I woke up at around 1:00 AM with tears flowing down my face.
I'm getting restless. If I stay in this bed any longer I will explode! I got out of bed and put on climbing shoes.
I went to my window and opened it. The smell of salt water filled the air. The Chicago River is not far from where I live.
I decided to do something I haven't done since I was 12. I climbed to the roof of my house. I stopped climbing when I was 12 because it was then that I broke my arm, and it was the first time I noticed my balance disability.
But since the fight with Cathy I have noticed that I have become almost graceful.
I started to use the ledges to gain balance then pushed off toward the tree that I had one foot on already. I climbed the tree until I reached my roof.
I sat down and looked up at the stars. There was no moon tonight and very few stars. Even without stars I felt refreshed.
The stars will cry
the blackest tears tonight
and this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
When I looked over the world I felt like screaming. I held it in but I kept whimpering. It doesn't feel right. I have no one to talk to tonight. Nick is well… Nick. And Dawn is pissed at me, and I'm pissed at Cathy, and I think my mom is pissed at me for some reason….
Up here, after I actually looked at Chicago I saw that it is huge. I never thought of it as huge but it is. It made me feel small and unimportant. It made me think that not every one cares what I do and is watching me so closely, like Principal Welding. I liked the feeling.
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need
The city lights where twinkling and making me want to explore the world. Leave it right now. It looked like on one building that the lights were beckoning me. Telling me to come to them. That the world is huge and wants me to be in some other place.
But then the face on the building changed. Into something that looked dangerous. That dangerous people lurk around. Making me have to stay huddled in my home with nowhere to go.
From up here the city lights burn
like a thousand miles of fire
and I'm here to sing this anthem
of our dying day
I wanted the river to all of a sudden flood and kill all those people. Make them scream and feel the suffering I feel for having to be afraid of everything they do.
For a second I wish the tide
would swallow every inch of this city
as you gasp for air tonight
I wish Cathy were here. I wish she could see how everything is out to get me. (-presses pause button- Kay now I'm getting confused. What am I doing?! I feel like this is getting too dramatic and not making sense. Well just bear with me, okay?) Even the buildings!
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before
Then there was a black figure coming across the colors of the lights. It looked a thousand miles away. But then it stopped. What looked right in front of my house, but farther away.
From up here the city lights burn
like a thousand miles of fire
and I'm here to sing this anthem
of our dying day
All of a sudden it was on my sidewalk, dangerously close. They I felt like I was being lifted. I looked down and saw that the roof was two feet under me. I was floating in mid air!
I looked back at the figure and saw that its arm was raised toward me. It smiled. I knew it smiled because its teeth were blindingly white in the dark of the night. It moved its arm back toward its body in a way it looked like it was moving its hand over its heart.
I floated toward it.
Of our dying day
of our dying day
of our dying!!!
My throat felt like it was being strangled all of a sudden. I couldn't breath! I started coughing. I looked back at the water; I saw another black figure there.
For a second I wish the tide
would swallow every inch of this city
and you gasp for air tonight!!
My eyes started to see colors.
From up here the city lights burn
like a thousand miles of fire
and I'm here to sing this anthem
of our dying day
All of a sudden I started to see my life flash before my eyes. (-Looks down ashamed-)
From up here the city lights burn
like a thousand miles of fire
and I'm here to sing this anthem
of our dying day
I realized I had a boring life. Well up until I met Cathy. And now that I don't have her with me I felt completely boring, ordinary.
From up here the city lights burn
like a thousand miles of fire
and I'm here to sing this anthem
of our dying day
I opened my eyes and looked back at the smiling figure. I was only three or four feet away from it now.
My eyes went back to where the water was. The figure wasn't there any more. I panicked. I didn't want two things feeding on me.
Two feet.
My air was now completely cut off.
One foot.
Our dying day
of our dying!!!
I then saw the black figure stop. I was right in front of it and I still couldn't see its face. It looked around and sniffed the air.
Its stance looked panicked.
All of a sudden I was dropped to the ground. The last thing I saw was another black figure on top of my predator.
A/N: Okay so I guess you want to know the name of the song right? Well the song's name is... wait... I don't know... let me go get my ipod... -runs to get ipod- -comes back limping- Did I mention chairs hate me? The name of the song is Anthem of our dying day... well I think you could have guessed that by the lyrics... Ah! But could you have guessed the artist? I think not! -is all smug for awhile- -relizes something- I didn't give you the name of the band did I? -shakes head- That's so common of me to do a thing like that... Well the band is Story of a year.