Oh wow, I'm so so sorry. Since Halloween is just around the corner I've been busy preparing. Halloween is like the biggest holiday at my house, it's out favorite.

Thanks for all the reviews!! I was so happy to log on to find so many o.O;; I really appreciate it.

I got a couple questions I thought I'd answer.

Chainedheart999-

did Syaoran know that it was his 'Sakura'? He must be kind of surprised because he heard Sakura said about her 'baby'...No, he did not know it was his Sakura, but he heard the name and reacted. Right now he is thinking "That can't be her right?"

Did Syaoran become the head of Li Corp. at 16 anyway?

Yes, and no. Well, he became co-head until he was 18. Than became head, taking over his mom's position. I plan on explaining it a bit more as the story progresses.

And the reason why he resigned from the corporation... Does it relate with Sakura?

Yes, It was to find her.. Since after she found out she was pregnant she ran away, leaving little traces of herself making it almost impossible to contact her.

And, no.. he does not know of the child.

If you wondering, Mai can either be pronounced May or My depending on how you want it to be.

Hope that answered your questions. Sorry I didn't update earlier. I should have. I've been writing bits and pieces of this chapter all month long to get ideas abut how I'm going to write it.

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This chilly air crawled up Sakura legs, today she was doing the Fall fashion line. Usually she would be doing the shoot indoors but it was the photographers idea. She didn't like the idea, but Tomoyo begged her to do it.

Sakura was wearing actual casual type clothes for once. Almost always Tomoyo would give her ridiculous outfits, so she was happy when it wasn't that much. Sakura was wearing a white dress shirt, a grey vest like sweater which hung there, no buttons buttoned and such. Her lower half consisted of a pair of cargo khaki Capri and a pair of flats. It was extremely comfy which concerned her a bit, she never did this unless there was a reason.

The sound of the shutter could be heard all around while Mai did her job. It wasn't as easy as it was in the beginning, because she had always been the model for Tomoyo when she was younger, but now the photographers expect more out of her since she is so popular and great as some say.

She didn't have as much self confidence as you would think, but she does enjoy it. She got to do so many wonderful things, like trips and meeting celebrities. Sakura used to be flustered beyond belief when she first joined Tomoyo's company, but it seemed to lose meaning after time went by.

As soon as her shoot was over, she sighed and went to look for Tomoyo. She wanted to tell her about plans she made today and had yet to tell her. She walked through all the crazy, the rush of the make-up artists, and the wardrobe assistances that rushed from place to place giving the models their clothes looking for a specific raven haired friend which she hadn't met with all day.

"Mai, your needed over here!" One of the assistances yelled her way. Sakura sighed again and followed her. This was common, always needed when one of the other models didn't meet the expectations. It was strange though, she was leading her the opposite direct of the shoot.

Although she was afraid to ask, the assistant caught this, "Tomoyo asked for you, I bet you figured you had to go for another shot eh?" The woman laughed.

Sakura felt awkward but decided to laugh accordingly. "Yes, I was afraid I'd have to change into something ridiculous again."

"Oh, no no, don't worry. She said there was someone here for you."

"Oh really?" She felt her stomach flip and had a feeling of dread.

"Yeah, what a handsome young man at that, you sure are some lucky girl, meeting all the good men…." The woman began to blab on and on, Sakura tuned her out. It seemed rude yes, but she was tired and had her thoughts to where she was going today. She set up and appointment with her friend Kiri to have her hair cut. It had been a good 6 months and she was getting split ends. Kiri was the only one she has cut her hair, everyone else doesn't do it quite like her, her hands are like magic.

"Well here we are Miss Ling, She is right through those doors."

"Thank you miss….?"

"Yanagisawa." She corrected. Sakura had heard this name before, it rang a bell for some strange reason.

"Wait, you couldn't possibly be Naoki Yanagisawa?" Sakura questioned. The woman looked young, probably not that young but you get the idea.

"Oh no, but that is my nieces name, do you know her?"

"y-yes, she was a good friend of mine in grade school, I lost contact with her though." Sakura's eyes shifted from the woman to the floor.

"oh-- I'm sorry I have to leave, but if I ever see you again I'll tell you her contact information!"

"Thank you so much!" She beamed as the woman left, slowly her face turned to hurt. It's strange how little daily encounters can change you're emotions so quickly. Little reminders that will surely remove the shell she's kept for years. Sakura has tried so hard to be the way she was, but she hungrily wants to go back, fix all her mistakes and so much more she's missed out on. Xi-Xi she told herself was not a mistake, but she sure did change her life, not knowing if it was for better or for worse.

She began to wonder, who on earth was she going to meet today, then it hit her. Reality struck. Her heart began to beat wildly, and she began to hyperventilate. It was uncontrollable, it was almost enough to break her shell, which she thought was so strong. That she could handle anything. She was wrong , this would be difficult.

It was Toya Kinomoto, her brother. The harsh, cruel and demeaning. Not really, but he was the overprotective brother that was always against everything she did no matter how much she wanted it. When she was small he would chase away all her friends, that were guys at least. HE was the only one who didn't run away, he faced him. That's one of the reasons he loved him, he had courage, something she didn't have.

She took deep breaths, It all came down to this moment. She needed to face her fears, open up to him. He was her brother after all, he should understand. Or at least understand why she would do this. It wasn't her character, to do something that would tear her up, but she did. She ran from her fears, which only hurt her more.

Sakura knew there was no room for hope. Hope that he and her father would forgive her. Her actions led her to believe she was terrible person.

Someone not worth of their love.

She removed the mask known as Mai, it was at this moment she had to face it as Sakura Daidouji. She could no longer be the weak and spineless Sakura that Toya once knew. She was different now. Although she may not think so.

She had to be strong.

She shut her eyes briefly and took a deep breath, grabbing the door knob. Slowly turning it.

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(Author's note: I wanted to put suspense in it, but fail miserably DDDDDDDDDD:)

Sakura opened the door and began to walk in. She could hear two voices coming from the room she was heading towards. The hallway seemed to get smaller and smaller. Waves a fears hit her, as if she was swimming in the sea.

"'Moyo you asked for me?" I whispered, you could just hear the stutter in her voice.

"Ah, Sakura, you're here!" She said while jumping up, the figure next to her also stood up. He practically towered over her.

"Daidouji-Chan can you leave us alone for a few moments…" Toya murmured.

"y-yes… " She said heading in Sakura's direction. "Sakura, I'm sorry!" Her eyes pleaded for forgiveness.

It was Tomoyo who set this up, she tried before, but failed.

Sakura preceded to walk toward Toya. It was a strange atmosphere as you could probably already guess. It was heavy and silent.

"Toya- I'm sorry."

"Sorry? Your sorry!" He yelled, "Do you even know what me and dad went through!"

"…."

"Why did you run away! What in your right mind, made you think that running away was a smart choice? You lucky you had Tomoyo to run to!"

"…."

" We figured you'd come back! We waited 6 years, 6 long years! Why Sakura! Why?!"

"…."

"Sakura say something!" He grabbed her shoulder. Her eyes shone emotionless, She could not cry. She wasted 6 years crying.

"I'm sorry, sorry-sorry. I had no choice."

"What do you mean no choice, you always have a choice."

"Yeah I really had a choice! You think I did! You have no idea what I went through!"

"If I don't know why don't you inform me. Tell me, What emotions did you go through? You got dumped. Nothing more. It happens in life Sakura you have to face the facts."

"I didn't get dumped."

"Oh, really? I think you did."

"I DIDN"T GET DUMPED!"

"Yes you did."

"I GOT PREGNANT!" She screamed, before she realized what she said, she covered her mouth. It felt wrong, wrong to say that. It was true, so why did it sound so wrong.

"pr-pregnant? You got pregnant?" He said stuttering. " Ha-ha pregnant, wow…. Just wow."

An awkward silence filled the room, Sakura covered her mouth blushing mad. Toya was scratching his head with the dumbest look of surprise on his face. It was a weird sight.

"So, you had a child?"

"Yes."

"With that brat?"

"It's his child, but I did not have it with him. He doesn't know about her."

"It's a her? Wow, this was a lot more than I expected." He admitted.

"Way more than I expect actually."

"Why did you hide from us, we are family."

"Because of you……." Her eyes welled with tears, well maybe she did have some left. It seemed like they were finally over and done with. She felt weak.

"Me…" He asked.

"Yes you! You were against every little thing I did! If I would have randomly shown up pregnant you would have killed him."

"Does he really not know?"

"n-no. I don't want him to go out of his way for me"

"Sakura, I don't know if he still does but Syaoran really loved you. That was what ticked me off most because I knew he'd take you away from me."

"Toya….."

Syaoran….

Syaoran Li….

His name was Syaoran Li.

The Man I love is named Syaoran Li.

Time seemed to stop, Sakura's legs buckled underneath her. Her vision began to blur.

How could I forget someone so important.

The father of my child, the love of my life.

The only one I ever truly loved no matter what.

I must be a terrible person.

Toya caught her before she hit the ground. He wrapped his arms around her. Her tears were free flowing now. No longer did she care if she was weak. She knew she had always been weak. To go to this degree, maybe she was a little pathetic.

She had forgotten him. To her it was unacceptable. She always referred to him, and Tomoyo never spoke his name. Yet she forgot it.

She heard muffled voices, screaming, and yelling.

What's happening to me…………….

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I'm cruel and heartless. I know. But at least I wrote a chapter. And it's almost 5 pages! that's good right?

But, Sakura actually had amnesia. When Xi-Xi was first born, like most mothers she went through a phase of horrid depression. When women realize how big the baby is going to change their lives. It happens a lot with 1st born children. During that time she had a huge breakdown, Cried for days straight. Then she slept, for days. When she woke she didn't realize it but she had lost all the memories of Syaoran. Like he disappeared. That's why every time she saw Xi-Xi's eyes it hurt, because her mind was trying to rid itself of the pain she forgot.

SO when she remembered him she sort of had a panic attack and she began to black out.

Ha-ha, I have no idea how to write the next chapter. I should update much much sooner next time though. I started writing this chapter a week ago.

Review?

Oh yeah, and HAPPY HALLOWEEN.