A/N: This story takes place right after 'You've got Email' as I'm sure you figured out.

Disclaimer: They're not mine.

She makes her way back to her room before she breaks down in uncontrollable sobs again, burying her face into her pillow. She had heard the door close and as it did, she felt like a part of her had left with it. A part of her that would never be back. You don't deserve anyone, she thinks. If you can't even understand your own heart, you should be left in "no mans land". Her half-hearted attempt at humor only made her cry harder. Unaware, she finally drifts off.

Her alarm clock buzzes loudly in her ear the next morning. Lily groans as she slaps at it to silence it. She takes a few minutes then pries her eyes open. Oh why did her head hurt so badly? Her discussions with Travis and Ray come flooding into her memory and she feels even worse than she had when she first woke.

She slowly gets out of bed and begins to rummage through her closet. School would really suck today and she wouldn't let her mind go as far as to think of RFR. When she is finally showered and dressed for the day, she decides to bound quickly downstairs, past her parents. If they saw her swollen eyes, they would ask questions she couldn't answer without crying again, making her look even worse.

She arrives at school a little early and decides to find somewhere to hide. As she hurrys to the stairwell, she almost runs Travis over. " Sorry," she says quickly, cursing herself for going this way " I'm late, I need to get to...," she cuts off, remembering that she had been early.

Travis looks down, pausing for a moment before facing her again. " Don't do this Lily," he says quietly " I tried, I don't want to lose you but you're pushing me away. He reaches out and gently touches her arm " I couldn't sleep at all last night. I couldn't get you out of my mind. I couldn't get the softness of your lips and the way it made me feel out of my mind..."

She gazes back into his eyes, forgetting again that there was a world revolving around them. " I'm sorry," she says, her fingertips brushing against the hand that gently rested on her arm.

Feeling relieved, he says " I told you yesterday, there isn't anything to be sorry about." She blushes at the thought of their quick but overwhelming kiss. " I mean I'm sorry for the way I acted, for what I said. For pushing you away," she takes a step closer to him then she hears his voice and catches a glimpse of his dark hair. She pulls back from Travis's touch quickly, remembering her conversation with Ray.

" You have Bridget now," she says, using every fiber of her being to stay and sound strong. " I'm sorry for jeopardizing that. I'm sorry for jeopardizing our friendship. It won't happen again Travis."

" I've already written her," he says " I can't stay with her now. I can't nor will I let her believe in a lie." He feels the knife plunge into his heart once again as he pulls his hand back.

" I'm sorry for that too," she says as Ray approaches.

" What's with the long faces?" Ray says " You'd think somebody died." He thinks about what he just said " Umm...Nobody died did they?"

Lily rolls her eyes and laughs at him " No, Ray, not unless your brain counts." He puts on his fake smile along with Lily and Travis " Har, har. Lil, you are so funny." He hated this. He could have cut through the tension with a knife." You guys headed to first period?" he asks " I have to study for that test in bio or I'll never get out of that class. I could use some help."

" There is no help I can give you man," Travis grins " Maybe if you tried to study once in awhile."

Ray looks at Travis " Oh shut it. I wasn't born with the knowledge gene like you." He stops for a moment " You know what I mean."

Travis starts walking down the stairs and laughs " No Ray, I honestly don't."

Lily guides Ray up the stairs " Come on, I'll help," she says, wondering if anything would ever be the same again.

They sit on the couch in the hallway, both feeling the tension and horrible awkwardness. Ray taps his pen on his notebook as he pretends to study. She takes a moment to look at him. He was trying so hard but she knew that he was in pain. She knew that the question of "Will everything ever be the same again" had already been answered. She just wasn't ready to accept it yet.

" About yesterday," he says, his voice filled with uncertainty " I want you to know that I am okay." He scratches his head and steals a side glance at her. " Everything will go back to normal and we'll forget all of this craziness."

" Yesterday never happened," she answers " Well, most of it anyway." She lies back in her seat " I meant every word that I said to you but as for the rest, it is officially forgotten.

Now he turns to look at her " What has been forgotten?" She could be hard to figure out sometimes but he really had no clue as to what she was talking about, unless she meant how angry she had gotten during the broadcast.

" All of it," she says in a defiant voice " Just...Ray, just please forget the entire day. And while you're at it, forget the entire week." She closes her eyes as she rests her head against the back of the couch. " Sometimes life really sucks out loud...Sometimes I just want to go back to being six years old again and freeze time."

" It's forgotten," he says, wanting to make her happy again " I don't remember a thing." He nudges her " I can forget dropping my lunch tray in front of the entire school. Hey, this forgetting thing is working for me." He grins at her as she looks over at him "Freeze time? Jeez, you're starting to sound like Travis."

She hopes that he doesn't notice her eyes widen slightly at the sound of Travis' name and she really hopes that she can turn this into a normal conversation without her nervousness showing. " You dropped your lunch tray?" she laughs " I hate that I missed out on that one."

" Not much to see," he says, glad to hear the sound of hear laugh again " I was just watching Robbie talking to Kim and ran smack into River Pierce." He looks away for a minute, now thinking about Robbie and Kim. He had totally forgotten the situation after his mishap. " River wasn't too happy about wearing my mashed potatoes for the rest of the day, but I got out unscathed. My lunch didn't make it though." He chews on the end of his pen thoughtfully " What's up with Robbie talking to Kim so often these days? It's just weird if you ask me."

" They like to argue," she replies, not wanting to give Ray any ammo to bother Robbie with " You know how he feels about Cougar Radio and I think that every time he gets an opportunity, he likes to make Kim mad."

" I guess so," Ray shrugs, now looking back at his notebook " Help me out here would ya? I'm going to fail this test, unless you can put some of that voodoo on me that Ed and Ted put on you."

" It wasn't voodoo," she says, punching his arm " I just finally understood what they were trying to show me. You could do the same thing if you just put half the effort into studying as you do trying to find ways to get out of it."

" Voodoo," he proclaims, bracing his self for the next punch.