Click.
"I didn't know Yamada knew that song," Hagu whispered to Takemoto as she glanced at the title on the monitor,
"Yeah, man we're supposed to be having fun today! Now we're all gonna feel so melancholic…" Takemoto replied,
"You know, this is perfect for the three of them. If they can't express their thoughts directly to each other, then I think it's better if they let it out with a song," Morita suddenly said, wearing a really serious face, which, for the first time surprised Hagu and Takemoto who've never seen him like that before, except for Yamada whenever she turns to him when she had some problems.
"Sssh! She's gonna start!" Hagu squeaked,
"Hey Mayama," Morita called,
"Hmm?" he said, still tattering on his phone,
"I think you should listen to her now,"
"Oh… Yeah… Sure," Mayama replied,
The song was somewhat similar with what Nomiya sang earlier, it began with a piano, and a somewhat bittersweet tune.
"Here it goes..." Yamada thought to herself,
Here I am
Talking to myself again
Trying to figure out
What I've been doing wrong
The sky was gloomy, as if it was going to rain soon. Why couldn't he understand? He stood up and threw away his can as he walked away from her, his phone was ringing again, still that familiar tune, why did it sound different when she tried calling him using her own phone? Oh yeah, of course, he had a special tone for her, if she'd call, then he'd recognize it's her.
"You idiot… Mayama, you idiot!" Yamada said as her tears came running from her deep blue eyes,
"Let me know if you anything else okay?" Mayama said to the lady whom he just escorted to a taxi,
She just nodded, and ordered the driver to go.
The rain came pouring down, awfully hard, but he didn't run. He just stayed and stared at the ground. Yamada decided to go in as she felt the chill run down her spine, and decided to just pour out all her anger and sorrow into molding jars of clay.
"I never told him, but he already knew how I felt about him… Maybe if she can't also answer, while already knowing his feelings, his love may not come true as well… And my tears just won't stop flowing when I think about it…"
Let me know
Where all of my love should go
Why all the hurt and the pain and the tears
I can't show
"Mayama…I… I… I love you!"
"Mmm…"
"I love you…"
"Mmm…"
"I love you… I really do…"
"Mmm… I know… Thanks…"
Trying so hard to walk away
But baby this I have to say
"Drive carefully!"
"Please take care of the rest too,"
"Yeah,"
"Well then, see ya,"
"Yeah..."
After the sound of his motor engine faded slowly, she took a step forward and raised her head.
Looking at the starless sky, she began to wonder to herself,
"I wonder how you're supposed to give up... Do I just decide to give up and act accordingly? And move further and further away from what my heart really wants? Then, will I forget everything someday? The scent of his brown hair, his cold ear, the warmth of his back... Everything, including this pain in my heart? Everything? Without a trace, as if nothing was there to begin with..."
Just like before, she couldn't stop those things in her eyes from falling, just like how she couldn't stop loving him...
Hear my heart
Crying in silence
It hurts so much
Trying to run from your smile, your touch
Waiting, pretending this game's a waste
Knowing you just can't be mine
Let me know
Where all of my love should go
Why all the hurt and the pain and the tears
I can't show
"You were expecting him to stop you right?" Nomiya asked,
"Yes... That idiot Mayama! Why was he just looking and not doing anything?" Yamada said to herself and cried, as she covered her eyes,
"Oh Yamada... Why fall in love with a guy whom you know who can never learn to love you back?" Nomiya said in his thoughts, as he looked at the girl beside him, who's heart has been broken badly.
Trying so hard to walk away
But baby this I have to say
From his seat, Mayama could already tell that Yamada was trying her best to hold her tears.
"Yamada... You still haven't given up... I always wondered why you had to fall in love with me... Man, this is so uncool..." Mayama thought to himself,
If you could only look my way
If you could only listen to what I have to say
Hear my heart
Crying in silence
It hurts so much
Trying to run from your smile, your touch
Waiting, pretending this game's a waste
Knowing you just can't be mine
"It hurts so much Mayama... But what can I do, if you feel the same way with her..."
Praying someday you'd be mine
"It hurts so much Mayama... I know you can never fall in love with me, but, there's still that hope lingering inside my heart... And it hurts so much..."
As the song's tune slowly faded away, silence once again dominated inside the room. Unknown to everyone, Nomiya, who left earlier, came back, but he didn't go in, instead, he just leaned on the wall beside the door and was able to listen to Yamada, because there was a small crack on the door, which Morita left on purpose, because he knew Nomiya would be tempted to come back.
Yamada went back to her seat and just froze there. She was too shy, way too shy to say a single word, but she knew what she sang was just right, but thinking about it again, no matter how many times she'd say it to him, even straight in the face, nothing would change.
"Yay Yamada! You never ever told us that you were good at singing!" Hagu exclaimed as she clapped really hard,
"It was nothing... Just practiced a bit in the shower, that's all," Yamada replied as she let out a little giggle and reached for her coke,
"Okay Hagu! It's finally our turn to sing now!" Takemoto suddenly said,
"Okay then! Here's the remote and song book!" Hagu said as she handed him the two 'powerful' instruments.
Takemoto quickly chose a song. Like Morita, he chose a really stupid and funny song, he did it because he wanted to shove away the melancholy that was again entering the room, which made him upset, so he chose a kind of novelty song to lighten up everyone's mood. The group ended up laughing because for an hour, Takemoto, Hagu, and Morita dominated the remote and song book, to everyone's relief, both boys got really drunk and just sank back in their seats, by then, only Yamada, Mayama, and Hagu were the ones left still on 'human' control. They got silent for ten minutes until Mayama rose from his seat, Yamada got up too, she thought he was gonna leave, but he went near the table and got the remote and song book.
"My turn," Mayama suddenly said, surprising everyone big time, because he never, not ever, sang before.
So what do you think? Took me days to finish this one, got really busy with school and stuff, I hope you again enjoyed reading! And please R&R! :) Oh btw, the song I used in this chapter is "Hear My Heart" by Nikki Gil. And oh, I'm having trouble right now choosing what song I'll be using for Mayama's turn, if you have any suggestions, please include it in your review, then I'll think about it!
