Prologue
It wasn't until fairly recently that I found out I was not the only person in the world who was living a complete total lie of a life. Unwillingly hiding my real self, going on as if nothing was wrong…I suppose it was just because I didn't want people to worry for me.
You see like I stated before I am a 15 year old girl, or at least that is how old I am from since I was 'born.' In all truth I feel like I have been wronged and brought into the wrong world, the everyday life here just did meet my standards, by Kami nowhere close. It was too boring, too predictable, and too normal, there was very little difference in people and as nice as technology is, it only seems to be making my life fairly more boring. And things the 'adults' put upon us kids in my opinion is to simply get us out of the way. Seriously! I know that there is no damn reason we should be in school for like 20 years of our life!
Any who back to me, basically if you ask anyone who thinks they know me they believe I am a happy-go-lucky, laid-back, intelligent, random, spontaneous girl who loves to meet people. Of course this is to some extent true, but if you ask any of them it is like there is no other way to explain me. I am never mad –though annoyed at times- nor sad. It just doesn't suit me, or at least how they know me. I won't lie some of my 'closer' friends will tell you that I seem to hide or cover up that side of me along with me truly angered side. And I won't lie, I do hide all that. For the main reason, that even though I am happy and a fun person to be around I am always distant. Constantly asking what or huh. –Which some people may tell you- And it is not because I am blond mentally. It is simply because I live in my own world, which I keep separate from the real world with no if, ands, or buts about it.
I had been like this all my life, or at least for as long as I can remember. Maybe at once I was like most people just enjoying the life they had. But after sometime –mainly in 6th grade the beginning of my Junior High Year- all the things I had come to 'love' or 'enjoy' were simply too easy for me. The big one was sports, I was a very athletic girl a big tom boy, but after my elementary year of that, I sought more I needed more adventure more action. And sports were not cutting it for me, I wanted to wake up every day not knowing what I would encounter, what challenges that were heading my way, not knowing if I would die that day. And things were not meeting up to my standards, so I quit.
My grades dropped, I became lazy not wanting to continue in things I had beaten more than three times (in some cases won more than ten) I needed something more, and school was obviously not giving it to me, hell they were not challenging me mentally enough so I stopped caring. I stopped wanting to live, I just wanted to die. Every day was like any other, it was the same thing over and over. And things stayed like that, I was in constant trouble (detention for months on end), people found me unattractive (for I didn't care about looks like most girls,) I was un-lady but not a tomboy at the same time. It wasn't until I was in 7th grade when I really got into manga/Anime and games. I met a group that I somewhat hang with still, who helped me a little…but hurt me a lot. After a year of not caring I couldn't just not care around them, they worried and it f---ing annoyed me! So I put on a façade, of course I had to work with it a little before I became who I am now.
And to all you I know who made me like this. F--- You too. Any who I liked many manga but I could never put myself in the story and actually be happy…to some point yes, but not completely. Whether it was because it was too predictable, the guys in there didn't meet my high standards, it was too f---ing random, or you get the point. It stayed like that until I accidently came into the Naruto series, it had action, it was spontaneous, had adventure, you could choose your life, weren't in 'school' for too long, and you were basically free. Instantly it was love and I knew it –though having never been in love myself XD) And from then on (9th grade mainly) I lived in my own world, bended life to where it made sense Naruto style (you know school/math/science and all that) and I became more 'spacey' not that I mind. I am still the idiot people know and Love… And now I was happy, so it all worked out. Or at least for the time period, now I wish I could just disappear from this life and live the life I should be in, the life I need. But hell until then I am with all you guys who are in my position. ^_^ So until we get the life we want we can open others books (click fanfics) and find out how much we have in common and what we differ in, hell we may even be able to talk sometime and go cosplaying.
Then start a manga/anime ourselves. (With the author's permission of course –naruto-) Until then we got the internet and all this nonsense technology. I shall not hold you any longer…
Until later.
Adios
KonaKona