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He stood on the sandy beaches barefoot in a white button down long-sleeved shirt that was rolled to his elbows and had white pants. His idea of what Heaven is. He was an Angel now, and as painful as it was to say goodbye to Logan, he knew he could still see her whenever he wanted. He was her angel now. God had assigned him to her and their unborn child. He knew what the sex of their baby was, but he didn't tell her because he doesn't want to ruin the surprise. She loves surprises, he knew that. He also knew what names she would pick.

Speedle watched her as she waited in the waiting room, staring at the children, mothers, babies, and mothers to be. He smiled as she was called back and nervously bit her nails. He knew when she was nervous she bit her nails, and sighed a lot. He also knew that when she bit her lip she was annoyed with something. He didn't know what she was annoyed at. Was it him? Was she mad that he wasn't there, or was she mad at what his mother had said to her? He knew he was. She had no right to tell her that she was just another one of his flings, because she wasn't. He was in love with her when he left, and she was in love with him. They had been dating for about a year and that wasn't a fling.

"You are indeed pregnant, Ms. Caine." Dr. Shellback said to Logan as she wiped her clean of the ultrasound gel. "I'm sure Speed will be excited." Dr. Shellback knew that the two were dating because she loved the idea of getting to know her patients. She was even sometimes invited to parties, and invited some to her Christmas party. Logan was no exception and often brought Speed to the parties.

"Sandy…" Logan said.

"What's wrong, Logan?" The OBGYN asked her close friend.

"Timmy passed away three days ago." She said.

"Oh sweetie, why haven't you called me?"

Logan let a shrug come to her shoulders before standing up, to put her clothes back on. "I'm just now getting it to sink in my head." She sat back down, too overwhelmed with the fact that he was gone. "We went into a jewelry store to interrogate a suspect and… there was a shoot out."

"Logan, sweetheart, I'm so sorry." Sandy Shellback said, hugging Logan, who now was wiping away her tears. "But you know, that he gave you the best gift he could before he left? He gave you a baby. The most memorable piece of him. When you look at this baby, everyday you'll think of him. You will never forget him."

"That's what I'm afraid of." She said. "That I'm never going to forget him. And that this is just going to get harder. Especially when this baby comes."

Shellback watched as Logan left the practice with a distant look on her face. She was dead inside, and her face showed it. There was no point in hiding the fact that she would be scarred for life with the fact that she watched the man she had fallen in love with die. He died in her arms and she didn't think she would be the same, or could be the same.

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"Speedle!" Logan screamed. She had her towel clenched tightly to her chest and she was hiding behind the wall that divided shower from locker room.

"Sorry." He replied, stepping into the other shower stall. "Its okay you can come out and change I can't see." His face was bright red and he was nervous of what rumors might spread from this accidental encounter.

She quickly hurried across the room to her locker and slid her bra and panties on. Then she hurriedly threw on a pair of jeans that she found. She rummaged through her clothes but couldn't find a shirt. "Almost done Speedle. I'm just looking for a t-shirt."

"There's a few in my locker if you need one." He yelled across the room. "You can take the Gators one or my CSI one."

"Thanks" she yelled back, reaching into his locker, which was already opened. She reached in and pulled out an orange shirt that had "Gators" unscripted in blue, and the University's mascot on it. She took the hair scrunch from her wrist and tied the shirt to make it fit a little better. "Okay it's safe now." She assured him.

He let out a sigh of relief and then walked back towards his locker. He took in the sight of Logan Cane in his shirt, and once again his face was flushed.

"Any word on your case?" She asked him, trying to make conversation.

"Well she was pregnant." Speedle sighed, clipping his gun back onto his hip. "She had an abortion, and that could be good motive for the father to kill her. Whoever the father is."

"That's horrible." She said, shaking her hair dry, as Speedle let out a chuckle. "What's so funny?"

"Why do women do that? Shake their hair. It doesn't help." He replied.

"Why do guys grab their balls in public?" She asked, causing Speed to turn red once more. "I mean you criticize me, would you like it if I criticize the way you think?"

"I was just wondering because we scratch our balls 'cause it itches. There's a reason behind it. You just shake your hair and it doesn't make it dryer." He replied.

"To get the knots out." She answered for him. "And towel drying does help. It dampens it. So its not drenched. And the answer to the next question is no you can't have your shirt back when I'm done with it." She smiled, whipping him with the towel. He lifted his leg in defense and smiled as he caught the towel. "Damn it." She laughed.

"You wanna talk about the other night?" He asked her, setting his hand against the locker.

"No. No. No, no, no, no!" She sighed, and plopped herself on the bench. "See, this is why." She said. "This is why the other night nothing happened! Because of this talk. We…. We can't just have sex and then forget about it. Because that's not what you want. You want to have sex and not forget and be a couple. That's why I stopped your kiss. I am not a commitment woman. I am one nighter kind of girl okay? So if you ever need me for a night, call me up. But I can't sit here and lie to you and say yeah let's do it! And then you get emotions and then everything isn't good! And then we're sneaking around and everything" She continued her rambling until he kissed her.

"I think you are the one with the emotions." He said, holding her face.

"No." She said. "But Horatio and Calleigh and Ryan!" She started.

"Calleigh and Ryan will get over the fact we aren't interested in them. And we don't have to tell H anything you don't want to, okay? Let's just see where this goes."

She nodded her head before saying, "I think its about to go right here."

He smiled and kissed her, rougher this time, and biting her bottom lip. She managed to get her hand under his un-tucked shirt and was slowly working her way to his front. He lifted his shirt above her head and tossed it while she unbuttoned his quickly. He stared at her for a few seconds, taking in how beautiful she was before she continued to rip his clothes off and visa versa.

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Her thoughts drifted to the first time her and Speedle had sex as she walked back into the crime lab. She headed for the locker-room, ignoring the fact that Ryan had tried to acknowledge her. She walked to the spot that her and Speedle had first gotten together a year ago and sat in the same spot he had kissed her. She closed her eyes and played the nights before they declared that they liked each other.

"Wanna grab some dinner? You deserve it." He sat down on the bench and watched as she pulled her shirt off revealing a peach colored tank top. She threw a Buccaneers t-shirt over it and then turned to look at him.

"Dinner?" She laughed and slammed her locker shut. "Dinner sounds like a date Timothy Speedle." She turned and pointed her finger in his face and he swatted it away.

"No, just dinner." Speed said, and listened as both their stomachs let out a load rumbling sound. "Promise."

"Sure, but it's gotta be at a sports bar. The Bucks are playin' tonight." She laughed, sitting down and tying her sneakers tight. She stopped suddenly when she realized she was too close to him. She looked up to say something but he had already grabbed her and was kissing her. She fell into the kiss, and let him get the best of her before she had finally realized what was happening. She pushed him away and then wiped her mouth. "I don't think we should be doing this, Speed." She started.

"Why not?" He asked her, standing up.

"Because." She said hurrying off.

The truth is it was the best kiss of her life. She had never been so caught off guard in her life, and loved how spontaneous Speedle could be. It was something she loved about him.

Speed had never thought that the kiss had made such an impact on her. He always thought she had been upset he had pushed her into something she didn't think she was ready for. But as he now watched her, he realized that she didn't think that at all. It put a smile on his face even though she couldn't see it. He ever knew how much she really did love him, and he realized that her loved her if not as much, more than she loved him.

"Hey" A voice came from behind her. She figured it was Ryan or Horatio. She didn't know which because she had been to busy wrapped into her thoughts to listen to the distinction of the voice. Whoever it was, he sat next to her, and she turned to see Eric Delko sitting next to her. "What did the doc say?"

"I'm pregnant." She sighed, "I don' know if I should be happy or sad or confused or what…"

"Be happy that you have Speed's baby, but be said Speed is gone. You're allowed to have more than one emotion at a time."

"Everything reminds me of him as it is. This bench, Eric your shirt reminds me of his eyes. And this baby is just going to give me more to remind him by. It's hard enough as it is. And what do I tell this baby when it starts to ask about Daddy?"

"You tell him or her that his daddy was a hero, and that he died fighting for you and for your baby." He said.

"Thanks." She said. "I feel like he's watching us." She said.

"He probably is." Eric smiled. "He probably got in tight with God and they probably made him a high powered Angel, or something like that. Who knows maybe he's got a cool title like the Angel of Death does…. Like maybe he's the Angel of… smart-ass comments."

Logan smiled and hugged her colleague. "Thanks for the laugh." She said.

"So what are you going to do now?" He asked. "H said you were moving to New York."

"Well…" She sighed. "Maybe. Right now I just want to have this baby, and if it gets to where I can't live here anymore maybe I'll move. But tonight I'm going to go to Tim's house and clean it out. You and Ryan and anyone else are welcomed to help."

"I'll tell them." Eric nodded.

"Thanks." She said. "I'm going to see if H needs my help."

"Bye Logan. Good luck." He said as she left the locker-room.

She walked into trace and saw Natalia Boa Vista recording something on a sheet of paper. Horatio sat next to her. "Logan…" He said, acknowledging her.

"Yup." She said nodding her head. "But anyways tonight anyone is welcomed to help. I'm going to go to Tim's house and see if we can clean it up a bit. See if anyone wants anything."

"Yeah… I'll be there." Natalia smiled.

Logan nodded her head and then turned to leave the lab. She walked once again alone as she entered the Miami sun, setting her sunglasses on her face, hiding her pain and not allowing anyone to realize the sadness in her eyes. She wasn't very hungry but she decided to eat at a local diner alone.

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She never realized how much pictures of them he had until she had found an box under his bed filled with photos and other things they had gained together. The stuffed octopus that she won at the fair and made him keep, and the first love letter she ever wrote him. She decided she wanted to keep everything in the box and set it on the unmade bed. Speed was always a mess.

"Logan…Calleigh found something you might want to see." Alexx said, as she stood in the doorway of Tim's bedroom. Logan nodded and stood up to join everyone in awe in the living room.

"What's going on?" Logan asked, putting her hands in her back pockets.

"Low…" Calleigh said. Logan didn't say anything but she secretly hated when Calleigh called her "Low" "I found this in the kitchen. It was in the junk drawer. I think he was hiding it from you." She explained.

"Just tell me what it is, Call." Logan snapped, returning the unwanted nickname favor.

"It's a ring." Horatio helped out.

"Like… an engagement ring?" Logan asked. Calleigh nodded her head and turned to ask for help.

"He was planning on asking you to marry him." Alexx explained for the stunned Logan.

"Oh my God." She said before the tears started to fall and she took the box from Calleigh. She opened the box and found the most beautiful white gold ring ever. She took the silver necklace she was currently wearing and tool the circle off it, setting the ring through the loop and putting it back on her neck, so she'd be able to keep it. She said nothing as she went back into his room and grabbed the box to bring it to the living room and share the secrets they had been keeping for a year. Everyone laughed and smiled as she told them stories of their past. The past no one knew existed until three days ago.