AN. I do not own harry potter, just the plot of this story and me my own cailen.
PLEASE R&R I would really like some constructive criticism, thnx again for the review!

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Secrets to share

"So this is the common room we'll have to share?" I asked the blonde, who already made himself comfortable on one of the couches. "Yeah" he responded "it's quite alright, you're bedroom is on the right, mine on the left. The bathroom is at the end of the room at the right, we have to share it and the kitchen is on the left of the bathroom" he said pointing his hands in all the different directions. He was acting kind of decent know, thank god. I smiled at him and excused myself, as I decided to change, I was never the kind of person to wear a uniform, especially not a skirt. In my room I put on something more comfortably, some nice baggy jeans and a plain black spaghetti strap top with a plain grey vest over it. I just wanted to pull my hair together when I heard him yelling, telling me to hurry up, apparently there was a letter for us. When I entered the common room again, he was still sitting on the couch, but there was a fire roaring in the fire place ,making the temperature much more comfortable, and I saw to steamy mugs standing on the dresser, with what smelled like hot chocolate milk. He turned his head and smiled, "I hope you like hot chocolate milk" he said as he gestured to the seat next to him. "Thanks" I mumbled as I walked over and seated myself on the same couch but still with more than enough space between him and me. "What does it say?" I asked gesturing to the letter he was holding, he just finished reading it and sighed. "Well," he said, "apparently we have to organize four balls this year, all to improve house unity, we have to take a different partner from a different house each ball." He kept staring at the paper as I relaxed in the couch, "this sucks" he said, I looked at him questioningly and he just raised his shoulders. "why does it suck" I asked "I love balls, should be fun to organize them" a moved a little in my seat facing him now. "Well it's so much easier for you, you.. You haven't done things, people are either scared of me, or they hate me. What a nice date that'll make." I could just hear the pain and anger in his voice, I never would've seen that in him. He was looking at his hands now, probably embarrassed that he said that. "Well, I don't know you, and so for you have yet to make me hate or fear you." I felt myself blushing as I said that but I looked up at him and smiled. For some odd reason I felt the need to comfort him. "You will," he whispered "they'll tell you and you will hate me" he whispered still looking at his hands. "But," he said "I just told you something very private about me, it's only fair you tell me something about you" he had his usual smirk back on his face already, and I couldn't help but smile. "Nice to see you back to your normal self, for as far as I can tell off course" I said smiling at him, "so tell me something" he said looking at me quietly sipping his chocolate milk. This was quite uncomfortable, and I got so hot, there was enough to tell but to actually tell them to someone I just met, to a guy. I had never told anyone what had happened, at least not the complete story, I just couldn't. Only Nick knew. In the mean while, it got so hot, I wished he hadn't turned the fire on, I wished I wasn't holding a hot cup of chocolate milk. I put the mug down and took of my vest, when I turned around to put my vest on the arm of the chair next to the couch, I heard him gasp. I immediately knew I made a mistake. I hadn't done it intentionally but I guess.. I just told him something private. Before I could turn around I could feel his fingers.. touching the scars on my back. They were horrendous, I had tears in my eyes when I turned around to face him, and all I could see before I ran to my room, were the disgust and pity I saw in his eyes. I locked myself in my room for the rest of the evening and I decided that I would be keeping a diary, I always felt the best way to deal with your feelings, is to write them down, and so I did. I wrote everything, from how he made me feel on the train, how he had scared me, and how he embarrassed he had looked after that. How nice Ginny seemed though Draco didn't seem to like her, and how decent he was, making her hot chocolate, discussing the letter with her, and how fragile he looked in that moment he let his guards down. After what looked like hours I decided to go brush my teeth I had put my vest back on though and I walked to the bathroom. The bathroom wasn't locked so I just walked in, Draco was brushing his teeth and apparently didn't find it necessary to lock the door, oh well, I thought, so I walked to the sink next to his and started brushing my teeth as well. After he finished he waited for me to finish as well, looking at me like he had something to say. "I" he started as I was finished, I was just staring at the floor, not knowing what to say, "I won't tell, I promise, but I hope, that when you're ready to tell, you'll tell me everything." I looked up to see him looking at me with hope in his eyes and I smiled at him, "I promise I won't tell either, and I don't know if I'll ever be ready for that" and with that I left for my room, and for hopefully a goodnights sleep.

"Stay away from me!" I yelled as hard as I could "get your filthy hands of of me!" tears were running down my cheeks, how did he find me again, why did he always find me no matter where I went. I kicked him in the shin and I cut loose ,I was running from him now, I could tell I was at the Hogwarts grounds, I could see the great entrance doors, I just had to keep running. "You can't run from me Cailen!" I heard his voice, followed by maniacally laughter, "I will always find you, wherever you run to, YOU ARE MINE!" I had almost reached the doors, just a little bit further, when I felt the worst pain ever gush through my entire body and I fell to my knees. He did it again, he was laughing in that awful way again, "crucio!" he yelled as I was cringing on the ground, he enjoyed this so much. I kept hoping someone would come, someone would help me, why didn't anyone come! It wasn't over yet, he had stopped the curse but it wasn't over, he lifted me up and took me to the forbidden forest. I was scared but I couldn't do anything, I couldn't cry, I couldn't scream, I tried to put up a fight but I was exhausted. "I'll make you mine again Cailen," he put me down on the ground, just few steps into the forest, he had already put a blanked down, he knew this would happen! I swallowed back my tears and I tried to get myself out of his arms, I tried to hit him, I really did, I just didn't seem able to touch him, I was kicking all around but it's like my legs just wouldn't hit target. They were just feeble attempts. I felt him ripping of my pants, unbuttoning his own, his hands under my shirt. I couldn't take this again, not again. Tears were falling everywhere now, and I just kept kicking and hitting and screaming, I screamed so hard ,"not again, not again, not again, not again…"

I woke up panting heavily, my pillow was all wet, I couldn't get my heartbeat under control. It had felt so real, the pain, tears started rolling again but I wiped them away and I got up. I decided that maybe it was better to drink a nice cup of hot chocolate and sit on the couch for a while, maybe that would calm me down. When I walked in the common room, I saw there was still a little fire left, and there was a blonde sitting on the couch. I sat with him. "Are you alright?" he looked kind of worried, "I'm alright, it was just a dream right," I whispered looking down at my hands . "What about you, can't sleep Draco?" he looked tired, and kind of scared actually "I'm fine" he responded "it's personal", his voice was cold and hard, apparently he didn't want to talk about it. "That's alright" I said "but if you ever want to talk, I'm a pretty good listener". After that I went back to my room again, to try and get some sleep, tomorrow was going to be a long day.

"CAILEN!" someone was screaming my name and knocking on my door "CAILEN! GET UP OR YOU'LL MISS BREAKFAST!" Draco was yelling my name and, oh my god, I overslept! "I'm coming!" I yelled back as loud as my dry mouth allowed me, I jumped up grabbed my uniform and dressed as fast as I could, still putting my shoes on I stumbled out of my room, almost bumping into Draco who was holding a cup of coffee out for me. Then I saw a pretty angry looking redhead standing next to him, and he had a smirk on his face like you wouldn't believe. "see Weaslette, I told you I didn't do anything to her to make her late." His smirk grew even bigger if it could and Ginny just huffed, "breakfast is almost over" she said smiling at me "yeah, okay" I responded "sorry I overslept, I just didn't sleep very well last night" I blushed as I said that and looked at Draco who showed just a little smile and nodded. "That's alright Cailen, let's go so we can still eat something" Ginny already walked to the door, as I took a big sip of the coffee Draco made me I gave him the cup back and thanked him for the coffee.

"Did he do anything to you?" Ginny asked as soon as we closed the portrait hole behind us, walking to the great hall fast, I raised an eyebrow and smiled "why would you think that Ginny" I asked her curious to know her answer, "he's not exactly a nice guy you know" she looked quite serious and continued "you said you didn't sleep well, did he have anything to do with that?" I was surprised she thought that, she really thought bad of him, was he right about everyone hating or fearing him? "No Ginny, he had nothing to do with it, I actually had a nice talk with him last night." We finally made it to the great hall and started eating breakfast, it felt like everyone was looking at me and it was really awkward. "So tell me Ginny. Why doesn't anyone like him?" Her head shot up and looked at me like I was an alien or something, "oh yeah, off course you wouldn't know," she sighed took a sip of her pumpkin juice and looked at me, "he's an arrogant prat who thinks himself better, worthier, greater than everyone else, especially over those who aren't pureblooded, he's a bully and he's evil". I didn't know what to say, the only response I could apparently make was "oh". So now I knew why they hated him, but I hadn't seen him like that at all, it was so hard to believe he'd be like that. This definitely gave me something to think about.

My first class that day was with the slytherins, Potions, a double hour. The teacher, professor Slughorn, had seated me next to Draco, when I went to sit next to him he didn't even look at me. I decided to just ignore it for now, he'd warm up during class, or so I thought. We were assigned to make a very difficult potion together, we got all the ingredients together and I started chopping them up as he kept reading the instructions. "so, thanks for this morning," he just huffed and didn't say anything "I talked to Ginny this morning," I stubbornly continued, he sighed and stopped reading, looking at me the first time this class, "so you know why she hates me, now just stop talking and make this potion." I looked at him in shock, maybe Ginny was right after all, but I wasn't going to give up on him so easy. The rest of the class we worked in silence, I didn't say anything I didn't look at him, no contact at all, I can be cold to if that's what he's playing at. If he was going to keep this up the entire day, it would certainly be, a long day. I'd show him how cold, cold can really get.