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I sat in the branches of an old evergreen tree. I was trying to become just another part of the forest; which is usually the best strategy when you didn't feel like expending all that much energy hunting. The goal was to let the prey come to you.
I wasn't doing such a hot job. I could smell a small herd of caribou alittle ways off, and they should have made their way down to this area by now, but they were staying well away from the unnatural stillness that I was apparently creating in this stretch of woods.
After Bella had gone inside the school this morning, I had all but collapsed on top of alice under the weight of shame. She had had to half carry me back to Esme at our house and by then I was just a gibbering wreck. What the hell had I almost just done? Killed the love of my existence, that's what! Broken her neck and ripped out her throat and enjoyed every second of it…
My thoughts all sorta just went downhill afterthat. It wasn't until Rosalie got irritated that I broke out of my funk.
"if you don't stop moping around this house like a puppy who's just been punished for peeing on the carpet, I will gladly cut you up and burn the pieces, as im so sure you would love for me to do!" I came out of my daze long enough to be a little annoyed. I was guilty, sure, but I wasn't suicidal…right?
Rosalie leaned in closer, so that she was just inches away from my face.
"I can see ive gotten through that thick skull of yours. Seriously, just take a hunting trip or something. The blood-bag you call your lady love will still be here and as besotted with you as ever when you get back." She patted my face and walked away, amidst stifled laughter from Emmet and Jasper. I decided to leave before i could come close to killing another loved one.
And so I ended up here. Sitting in a tree in the middle of the Yukon, unsuccessfully hunting caribou. When put that way, it sounded so much worse than I thought it was. Coward, weak… they weren't strong enough words to describe me right now.
My humiliation finally spurred me to go and catch m meal the normal way. A few short seconds and I had a nice fat buck on its back in the snow. I broke its neck and proceeded to feed.
As I gorged myself I thought about what to do from here. I would have to go back soon; Bella couldn't still be bleeding could she? She must have cut herself shaving or something and forgotten to tell me. If that was the case then I should go back to her. She must be worried sick over where I was. I couldn't see into her mind, but that confused look in her eye this morning told me that she didn't understand why id run away with my tail between my legs.
I finished feeding and stood up. I was going to go back. Now. I would not let myself be separated from bella because of my weakness.
I started running.
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I sat in Alice's room listening to her reiterate our master plan. She flitted around the room pointing out various parts of the plan.
"Okay so phase 1: Cuddle with him as much as possible. Attach yourself to his side. Knowing Edward, he'll be too much of a gentleman to push you away, that's good, because we want him slightly conditioned as time goes on. But remember, no kissing yet!"
"The kissing should be saved for Phase 2: Tempt him with more than just your blood. Sex fuels the bloodlust, so you should be extra careful, but im gonna go ahead and tell you to do it anyway. Sit on his lap when youre watching TV, roll over on top of him "in your sleep", take a simple kiss way too far… youll drive him insane!"
The sound of her maniacal giggles filled the room.
"and then, when he least expects it, the scent will mysteriously vanish, but he'll be exaughsted! He wont be able to deny you anything. He may bite you before you even finish speaking" she collapsed on the couch in a fit of laughter, and I along with her. It was so deviously brilliant!
When Alice saw that Edward would be back the next day, she formed her entire plan around his guilt trip. I was just planning to stay upwind of him for the duration, but Alice… Alice was on a whole 'nother level. She fit the role of the annoying little sister to the hilt. Her delight in tormenting Edward was uncomparable to anything else. I loved it!
I sat up, wiping tears from my eyes. I could already taste the sweet victory. According to Alice, there were only a few hours before Edward returned. By then he would expect me to be sleeping, and would come to my room to watch over me like he usually does. She warned me not to ppush it too far tonight because he would undoubtedly be shocked to still be able to smell blood on me, so I would just go to bed at my normal time and let whatever would happen, happen.
I left the Cullen's house with Alice promising to have something for me tomorrow that would knock Edward off his feet. When I got home I took a human minute to bruch myteeth and take a shower. I debated for a minute whether or not to wear my plain old boring flannel PJ's, or something a little…less.
In the end I decided not to. This was, afterall, a slow breakdown of Edwards defenses. Besides, I probably wouldn't wake up if he came in in the middle of the night. Better to leave the teasing for tomorrow.
I stretched out on my bed with my battered copy of wuthering heights. A little reading would put me right to sleep. I wanted to be in good condition to put the plan into motion tomorrow…