Same song second verse. I hope you like Suki's inner salior.
Now take those thoughts, and that nice little mental picture you have and imagine waking up with the queen of demons staring down at you with wickedly yellow eyes. Conniving bitch. I didn't learn until much later that all of the attacks and beatings, even those bu the Harem came under the order of High Bitch Azula. She wanted my ass broken, when she got to me. She wanted me torn to pieces and on the verge of sanity. The cunt wanted me to talk. To spill all the secrets that I knew about the avatar. Hand him over for my freedom. Stupid little princess. Didn't she know that I was on the highest priority list to be saved? Did she not realize that the love of my life was probably two steps behind her an don his way to free me?
She knew well enough. Knowing that Sokka meant so much to me she used that little bit of information against me. She twisted every question to mean that if I told her she would take me to him and drop me off. Lying witch. You can always tell someone is lying when they are on the other side and thinking that you should trust them. Why the fuck would I trust anyone? I had just survived the most excruciating experience of my life and here this little fucker was with an outstretched hand and a dagger behind her back.
Fat chance. But perhaps it wasn't the smartest move I had ever made in calling her all the names I could think of. My fucking luck that I hadn't gained enough sense back to realize that I was bolted to a chair. To my horror the anger didn't rise in the princess like I would have hoped. Instead that little smile covered her face as she looked down at my feet. A damned tub of water sat at the base of the chair, my feet securely tied inside of it. Fear washed over me in mad torrents as the lightening began to crackle around her hand. I was nor have I ever claimed to be a genius, but I knew just form living on the ocean, what would happen in that lightening was to come in contact with that water surrounding my feet. The cowardice in me screamed for me to tell her what she wanted t know. To beg and cry for her to stop and plead for forgiveness. No. I would not. But that first show sent the tickling stinging sensations over my body as the blood inside of me dance. After the initial shock, the pain set in. The burning of nerves and the violent scarring of my organs as they danced to the current flowing through my body. Tears had streamed down my face as the blood broke from my nose. My toes had curled beyond the point of pain and my fingernails had started to dig deep into my palms.
"Shockingly persuasive, don't you think?" Call me callous and bitter if you would like, but the fact that she lost her mind and is effectively wasting away at the hands of Mhij brings more comfort than it should. It serves her right. All the heinous acts that she committed in cold blood with a smile on her face, I would have preferred to see her drawn and quartered by the fastest fire rhinos they could find. Dark? Yes. Cruel? Yes. Do I give a fuck? No. I have grown callous and I have grown bitter. Inside I am boiling with hate, though I may not chose to show it outwardly. Personally my taste for revenge hasn't been satisfied. I would like to see all those who hurt me killed or tortured in the most painful and slowest manner possible.
I am not a bad person. I am a tortured soul who was rescued a little too late. Those frightening jolts still cause tremors in my arms from time to time. But that wasn't even the worst part of her 'persuasion'. Several tiny sharp bars were pushed just under my skin. Two holes, one going in the other going out. She had shoved them into my arms and watched as the blood trickled down my arm.
It hurt like fuck but that wasn't the worst part yet. She once again lit up the tub of water, but this time as the burning sensations shot through me, the metal scalded the skin around them.
I'm so sick of having those memories. Azula's stupid laughing ringing over me as she persisted in asking me questions. I wasn't going to tell her. I was not going to hand over ot only solution to the problem. Fuck Her. She could do her worst and believe me she did. But I wasn't not going to be the reason the world fell tot he fire nation.