CHAPTER 4

I arrived to a clearing in the trees and I immediately knew where I was. It was my heaven, my sanctuary.

It was my meadow.

I walked passed the last of the trees into the clearing as beautiful as I could remember. 68 years never seemed so long in my life.
I fell to my knees and let out a tearless sob, I looked all around me and I realized I wasn't alone.

In the middle of the meadow sat a youthful girl with long brown hair, her knees were pulled up to her chest and she was touching her fingertips to the skin of a boy. He was lying beside her in the grass, with his shirt unbuttoned. His eyes were closed and he looked peaceful, happy. A smile formed on his lips as the girl ran her fingertips along the veins in his arm. He sparkled in the sunlight.

and so the lion fell in love with the lamb I heard the boy say, it sounded like a whisper in the wind.

And then the wind blew and everything changed. The boy and girl were gone. I was alone again. But just then the girl was standing at the edge of the meadow. She fell to the grass and started crying. She was sobbing hysterically and seemed to be in much pain. Then a figure appeared from the opposite edge of the meadow, a male vampire with red eyes.

Oh no! But she was human! I tried to warn the girl not to go near him and to run, but she couldn't hear me. I just sat there watching. I watched them as they talked but I couldn't understand what they were saying. Four large werewolves appeared from the forest and chased the vampire away. The human ran as fast as she could out of the meadow.

Another gust of wind and everything changed again.
The same angelic boy and the human girl were lying in the grass holding hands. He was whispering in her ear and she was blushing a scarlet red.

It's a good thing your bullet proof I heard her say, another whisper in the wind.
And I watched closely as the boy reached into his pocket and pulled out the ring, and placed it on her finger, where it would stay inconceivably for the rest of eternity.

And then everything went silent.
And I just lied there watching an angel walk towards me and lay down beside me.We didn't talk for a while, until he broke the silence.

"You were human, and I loved you. You were everything I believed in and everything I needed to continue living eternity. I realized I had left you before, and I always told myself I couldn't do it again. I realized you would hate me and that I would hate myself, but I had to save you from me Bella. You were an angel, and I was going to kill an angel. I was already a monster, but what would happen if I killed an angel Bella? And then I thought of everything you could have had, that I couldn't give you. I always loved you Bella, and I will never stop." He still didn't look at me, for he was gazing at the stars. He was so beautiful, and I had been waiting 68 years to hear those words…but now it was too late.

"You once told me you were a good liar…" I whispered, my voice almost barley audible.

I stood up and dusted off my jeans, feeling his gaze on my back…

"You'll invite me to the wedding wont you Edward?" I asked turning around to look at him for the first time. His eyes were clearly pained but his facial expression was unreadable. He only nodded.

I turned around to walk away, out of the meadow. As I got to the edge of the opening I was interrupted by his musical voice.
" Why did you change your name Bella?" he asked me. Out of all the things he could have asked me, he was determined to know the answer to one question I knew far too well.
"Because when you left, you took Bella with you." I said not daring to turn around. And I left him lying there in total awe as I left the meadow and Edward behind.

"Come on Bella! Hurry up!" Alice called from outside my bedroom door.

I was sitting by the windows of my new bedroom in the Cullen mansion. Dylan, Shane and Mitchell had decided to move just weeks after we had arrived here, so I decided to live with the Cullen's. My bedroom was a new addition to the beautiful Victorian house, and just like most of the mansion, one of my walls were covered in windows.

" Hold on Alice, I'll be out in a minute" I replied gazing out the window to the beautiful yard. It was setup with chairs and canopies, with flower petals covering everything. Today was the day, and as much as it hurts to make me believe this was happening I had to attend. I was wearing a gorgeous light peachy pink dress that came down to my knees. It was simple yet elegant. I put my hair up into a messy ponytail with pearl earrings, and a matching pearl necklace. I turned back to the mirror to look at my reflection one last time before I left the room. Breathe… I had to remind myself, I sighed and left my bedroom.

People were gathering and taking their seats outside in the Cullen's yard where the ceremony was being held. The white chairs were in lined and facing a white arch way with the minister underneath. The sun was just setting and the sky was a beautiful twilight. There were enough clouds to not have to worry about blinding the audience. Flower petals were spread everywhere. I watched from the last row of chairs as Edward walked up to stand beside the minister underneath the arch way.

My breath caught in my throat when I saw him, he was so beautiful. He was wearing a black tux which complemented his pale skin. His hair was still in an angelic disarray of bronze perfection and his topaz eyes were scanning the crowd until they looked upon-me?

I stared at him in amazement for a moment and he stared back, it was like we were having a conversation just by looking at each other because the way he looked at me I knew what he wanted to say.

Thank you.

I smiled back at him genuinely and shrugged my shoulder, I saw him shake with a little laughter and he replied by giving me his dazzling crooked smile.
At that very moment a million emotions flickered throughout my body, as well as a million memories. I saw more snap shots of Edward and I in the meadow, then Edward and I driving in the Volvo, and then us at school, and then us in his room.

The power of these memories seemed to drain me of my energy, and I suddenly got dizzy. The ceremony wouldn't start for another 20 minutes so I decided to walk to the front of the house and sit on the porch steps.

The driveway was completely deserted, and I could hear the noise of some guests from inside the house. I looked down at my hands and realized they were shaking. What was wrong with me? Edwards happy now, he has found someone he wants to be with why am I not happy for him!? I looked up from my hands and saw a large man standing in the driveway. It had been 68 years but I could still remember him. "Jacob?"

He was standing in front of me several feet away, I wanted to go and give him a hug but his scent wasn't too appealing, and then I remember that we were sworn enemies. He hadn't changed much; he was still enormously tall and muscular. His long black hair was tied at his neck in a ponytail, and there was a smile playing on his lips. He cautiously started walking over towards me, and sat down beside me on the step.

"Hello Bella" he replied.

'Oh my god! Jake I missed you so much!" I said smiling brightly. He started to laugh at my enthusiasm. "How have you been!? Why are you here?!" I asked, questions just flowing out my lips.

"Shhh! Calm down Bella!" he laughed. "I'm fine, and I just came here to give you something." He said reaching in his pocket. I looked at him curiously "what is it?" I asked. He pulled out a brown piece of cloth from his pocket and handed it to me.

"Go on." He encouraged "open it!"

I felt the softness of the fabric between my icy fingers. I lift one corner of the cloth and it reviled a chained bracelet.

So you'll always remember me.

it had 2 charms on it, one was a beautiful wolf carved out of wood and the other was a diamond heart.

my heart is just as silent and it too is yours.

"Jake where did you find this!?" I gasped. I was twirling the beautiful piece of jewellery around my fingers.

" I found it in the woods one day, 68 years ago." I was in utter shock, with tears in my eyes that would never fall.

"Oh thank you so much Jacob!" I said throwing my arms around his huge shoulders. He patted the top of my head but I could tell that my smell disgusted him. I quickly let him go. "I'm sorry Bells." He laughed, and I laughed to. "Well I better go" he said standing up walking off the porch.

" but wont you stay Jacob?" I asked curiously. He turned back towards me and ran a hand through his tied up hair.

"Sorry Bells, But I have to go home and feed the kids. Good luck Bella." He said winking at me before turning away and disappearing into the forests that surrounded the house.

I sat there on the porch with the bracelet in my hand. So Jacob and Edward had both moved on. Jacob is happy with a family, and I am happy for him. I stood up off the porch and returned to the back of the house where people where sitting in there seats.

There were absolutely no more empty seats left so I decided to stand behind all the chairs and lean against a small tree there.

Edward then returned to where the minister was standing, with Emmett and Jasper standing off to the side in tuxes, as the best man. I watched as Edward steadied himself and looked towards the doors where the bride would be exiting. Edward quickly glanced in my direction and I could see that his face was pained again. And then music started playing…

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