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Couldn't Get Worse

BPOV

I woke up to the sounds of the beeping monitor next to me, like it had so many times before. I didn't have to think twice about where I was. Honestly, I get more shocked waking up in my own bed then at Saint Mary's hospital, where I am now. This was expected, I didn't get a chance to eat breakfast because I forgot to go to the market yesterday, so that makes me weaker than I was to begin with. Ugh! Why am I so stupid? Now Charlie's going to be freaked out for about a week now before he let's this go, great! Oh… Charlie…Where is he? He's usually here by the time I wake up from my little spells. And Alice… Where are they? Then as if reading my questioning mind they walk in, with blotchy faces and tear-stained cheeks? Huh? Why? This has happened a few times before, nothing to go all teary-eyed for.

"Bella the doctor will be in, in a minute, he has something to tell you." Nurse Anne stated, interrupting my thoughts, as she walked in to take off my blood pressure cuff.

Well this should be interesting…

A.N. well I hope you enjoyed this little snippet of a chapter I… haha, kidding its not over.. =p… but that would suck if it was!

APOV

I gasped as I saw Bella tumble to the floor. It's been almost a month since she last fainted, almost a record for her. I freaked out for a second as I began to call Charlie.

2 rings and then…

"Forks local police station {a.n. I didn't know what else to call it = p sorry!} , Sally speaking, how may I be of service to you?" a bored sounding lady ,"Sally" apparently, asked.

"I need to speak to Chief Swan immediately" I replied urgently.

"Hold, please"

A brief minute of silence occurred, it felt like a decade, I thought she had hung up on me, but then I heard,

"Chief Swan here"

"Oh thank goodness! Charlie its Alice, and uhm, Bella fainted." I stated.

Charlie responded with a grumble then said, "I'll meet you at the hospital."

We arrived at the hospital a few minutes before Charlie. Bella was already situated in her room with a nurse checking her vital signs when he entered.

"I can't believe this is happening again she was doing so well."

Before I could respond to him with words of sympathy Bella's doctor appeared before us from her room and asked to speak with Charlie. I demanded to go too, then he gave me the "Are you family?" line and I had to reply with a defeated sigh of "No."

I waited in Bella's room watching the style network for 15 minutes before a very sad and depressed looking Charlie came into the room. Immediately I demanded answers from him.

"Chief? Charlie what's wrong? What did the doctor say?" I shot at him anxiously.

"Uhmm, let's talk out in a family room" he stated

So we walked out and Charlie told me everything the doctor had, and suddenly I began to understand the reason behind his forlorn expression and suppressed sniffles. I wasn't that strong, I began bawling. I couldn't control my sobs, and that happened to push Charlie over the edge. We were both shaking with tears. I just couldn't believe the news. I didn't see this coming. I didn't want to see this coming. And I'm hoping it won't end like it's supposed to.

A.N. not over yet! Almost though ; ]

BPOV

Saying I was bewildered would be an understatement, I was confused beyond measure.

Doctor Moore came in and sat down on his rolling chair, rolled it to the side of my bed and said,

"I have some good news and some bad news."

"Well that's never good." I answered

"Well to every good there is an evil. So which would you like first?"

"Basically your asking me would I like a smidge of hope then disappointment, or disappointment then a smidge of hope?" I retorted back. I hated not getting to the point just tell me what you have to say for goodness sakes!

He chuckled a minute then replied with a "Well yes, so what'll it be?"

"Ugh, enough with this! Can you just tell me everything in anyway you want to! I don't care good bad, bad good, whatever! Surprise me!"

"Well Isabella…"

Oh goodness he used the full name, that was never a good sign, never! That meant disaster! I know from experience. 'Isabella' was used as a warning when I was pushing it or gone over the edge, 'Isabella' was used in serious matters where jokers would be prosecuted. Never once has my mom been like, "Isabella look! I made cookies!" always "Isabella…" with that dot dot dot, you might as well say dun dun dun after Isabella comes out of someone I knows mouth. It meant hell for me.

"Make-A-Wish foundation is willing to grant you a wish!"

Oh, well that wasn't so bad, not bad at all. That must be the good news! Well that's actually really good news isn't it? Then I started thinking, and then I realize he gave me both my good news and bad news at the same time. I did my research on all things dealing with cancer, because I wanted to know what I had gotten into, so I knew about Make-A-Wish, and I knew exactly what he was telling me. I guess it is true. All good comes with a bad. They come hand in hand, and I hate that! Good just needs to lose bad, its cramping his style. And it seems that bad, is always far worse than the good is ever great, if that makes sense. I know it applies to my predicament. I get a wish granted, but then… I couldn't even think about it. I didn't want to. It's what I've been avoiding. And now it's caught up to me. I couldn't believe it! The doctor is even crueler being secretive like that. He didn't continue on because I know my face showed the realization I had. But I had to ask anyway. I needed it to be said out loud or I would never deal with it and I had to deal with it!

"Why?"

"Why? Well they want to grant you a wish, isn't there something you've always wanted to do. Something special, visit somewhere instead of the hospital every week?"

"Why?"

"Bella, they're only trying to make a dream for you come true, give you a little happiness in your life."

"My life? You mean the one that's being threatened by what ever is inside me! By this medication! By myself! This disease! By everything!! Just say it!!!

And before he could answer with his "I'm afraid so," tears were already streaming down my face, along with Charlie's, and Alice's.

Yup, the bad was far worse then the good, good.

A.N. Okayy so NOW the chapter is done! I hoped you liked it! I know it's not that long but it covers what I needed it to cover! We're going to start to get more into the story now! Yay! I hope you're as excited as I am! And you know… reviews are welcome and appreciated ; ] Thankss! (the last part has been slightly redone, hopefully its better)